Looking for Gut-Wrenching Angst, the More Heartbreaking the Better 求虐文，要多虐有多虐，哭到泪崩那种

1. 1 藏 Hidden in Midsummer 藏于盛夏 Autumn Chill秋日凉Modern Romance308k WordsCompleted A heads-up before you start ❗️: One of the side couples is a gay couple, so please skip this if that bothers you. [The print edition under the same title is now available] [Healing × Love that grows over time × Angsty school romance] Sweet, gentle, well-behaved student × rebellious, handsome bad boy That midsummer seemed hotter than any before. The girl in the graduation photo smiled sweetly, with a boy in a white shirt grinning boldly behind her. They met in midsummer, and parted in midsummer t 84.2kReads9.6Score14.8kShelves

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   All are angst-filled, and all are virgins (both characters are clean-lived). They all have tragic endings (BE). The first and third books are quite sweet in the beginning, the fourth is particularly depressing, and I've forgotten the second one from a while ago, but it's also very good; you can't get over it after finishing it.

2. 2 你 You Broke Your Promise 你失信了 Shi Qingyao十清杳Modern Romance138k WordsCompleted The acclaimed signature work You Broke Your Promise by popular author Shi Qingyao, now with 40,000 new words of never-before-published content! Sensitive girl Xiang Yu VS golden boy Song Huaishi. I had to play out the whole secret-crush story, so I loved him year after year. It was an ordinary day. Just as she closed her eyes, Xiang Yu suddenly thought of Song Huaishi: Song Huaishi, neat in his clothes and radiating warmth. Song Huaishi at seventeen. Still in his school uniform, he leaned lazily 68.9kReads9.5Score12.5kShelves
3. 3 他 He's a Master at Acting Obedient 他惯会装乖 Autumn Chill秋日凉Modern Romance310k WordsCompleted [Print edition now available] [Healing × Love That Grows Over Time × Tragic Romance × Mutual Devotion] Cool, gentle heroine × Aloof, unapproachable top student They overcame the distance and endured the years. But her boy was forever left behind in that snowy winter, forever twenty-two, in the prime of his life, forever on the day they were supposed to register their marriage. [“This time, don't break your promise again, you little liar.” “Why did you break your promise again? You little liar.”] 968Reads9.3Score188Shelves
4. 4 以 I Offer My Devotion to the Passing Years 以我深情祭岁月 Er Qiao二乔Modern Romance324k WordsCompleted [The physical book with the same title is now available] “I hesitated once. I turned back to face the slightest glimmer of hope, yet no one cared.” “Later, a thick fog rolled in. You said you loved me so much, but why was your love thinner than the fog, so faint I could barely see it?” Shen Nian 74.8kReads9.4Score6.8kShelves
5. 5 堕 Fallen 堕 Sister Corpse尸姐Modern Romance59k WordsCompleted That year, I was twenty-nine, and Mo Huai was thirteen. When I, someone who no longer wanted to live, met him, someone else who no longer wanted to live, we somehow found the strength to keep going, at least for a little while. So we decided to rely on each other and make it through together. 45.5kReads9.6Score5.3kShelves

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   The name Yin Wangshu is my light, my future. I hope to meet her again in the next life.

6. 6 王 The Prince's Cold and Stern Little Shadow Guard 王爷的冷冽小暗卫 Zhuo Ling濯泠Two Male Leads266k WordsCompleted [Secret Love Turns to True Love, Happy Ending] [Warning: Extremely frequent physical abuse. If that's not your thing, do not read!] Shen Xi'an fell in love with his master many, many years ago, starting with a single unforgettable glimpse. But when they met again, their statuses were worlds apart, and there was no longer the slightest chance for them to be together. Before coming to Huo Ran's side, Shen Xi'an had already given up on his life, even on living itself. Huo Ran gave him a reason to l 3.4kReads9.0Score339Shelves

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   Two male leads, extremely angsty, parts 1 and 4 have milder angst, all are completed and have happy endings. Although they go through hardships, they all have good endings. I've read all of these on my own bookshelf, so feel free to read them! Don't be fooled by the low ratings of parts 2 and 4; they are truly unforgettable after reading them.

7. 7 掏 I Gave You My Heart, and You Left Me with Empty Joy 掏心于你，赠我一场空欢喜 Nan Jin南靳Two Male Leads49k WordsCompleted When Shi Yi was by his side, Huo Zhanting spent every day wondering when that wicked man would die. Later, Shi Yi really did die, and Qiao Ran returned to his side. Yet Huo Zhanting spent every day wondering when Shi Yi would come back. 84Reads6.2Score—Shelves
8. 8 戒 Diary from a Conversion Therapy Center 戒同所日记 Youthful Years, Thinking of the Brocade Zither华年思锦瑟Two Male Leads29k WordsCompleted A diary recording the final two months of my life... Maybe I'm just not meant to be loved. Otherwise, why would everyone who loved me leave? 12.6kReads8.2Score2.4kShelves
9. 9 凤 The Phoenix God Tomb 凤凰神墓 The Babbling Stream溪水潺潺Two Male Leads202k WordsCompleted [Devoted affection + obsessive + yandere + love-triangle drama + utterly cruel] [Naive + obedient + stunningly beautiful + deeply devoted + unwavering to the death] On Qin Yu’s birthday, two wishes were made. The first was for him to be supremely noble and untouched by the world. The second was for her to stay by his side for a long, long time. He also promised that she would be happy all her life, never knowing sorrow. But later, that blessing became a curse she could never escape. And the rest 139Reads9.2Score—Shelves
10. 10 任 The Mission Starts Over a Hundred Times 任务重来一百次 milieModern Romance20k WordsCompleted “You came to save me, so why can’t you look only at me? Why do you have to give your attention to those one, two, three insignificant people?” “You seem so shy. You never take my hand first. Even just now, you only did it because of someone else.” “Now that you have me, you don’t treat me as well as you used to. There wasn’t any strawberry milk today either, was there?” 5.8kReads8.6Score1.2kShelves

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    It's all about being short and angsty. The first book is incredibly short and full of twists and turns. The second book goes without saying, you should definitely check them out!

11. 11 潇 The Late Sound of Drizzling Rain 潇潇雨声迟 Meng Zhiwan孟栀晚Modern Romance120k WordsCompleted Years after graduation, a gossip post begins circulating on the message board for City Experimental School. The school's 2011 beauty, Ye Xiao, and its most handsome boy from the same year, Ruan Yusheng, are a couple. Their classmates, who know them well, rush over to set the record straight: it's pure rumor. There was never any spark between the two of them. Ye Xiao's profile even says, “Person I hate most: Ruan Yusheng.” People in the know go so far as to say, “Ye Xiao feels nothing but hatred 81.1kReads9.7Score14.1kShelves
12. 12 快 Quick Transmigration: The Yandere Male Lead Has Turned Dark Again 快穿之病娇男主又黑化了 Peach Blossom Soup桃花羹Two Male Leads1.0M WordsCompleted [Two male leads + crematorium chase + happy ending] “Make him fall in love with you, then abandon him without mercy. Get your corruption points, then make him regret everything.” The System issued the mission in a flat, emotionless voice. Luo Shi'an: “???” First world. The male lead gradually broke Luo Shi'an's pride, trampling all over his self-respect. Yet after Luo Shi'an died, the man went mad clutching his corpse, repeating over and over that he loved him and wanted to marry him. Second wor 2.9kReads9.4Score318Shelves

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    Highly rated quick transmigration story, two male leads, incredibly angsty, trust me, you won't regret it ₍˄·͈༝·͈˄*₎◞ ̑̑

13. 13 快 Quick Transmigration: After Torturing the Big Shot to Tears, I Faked My Death and Escaped 快穿：把大佬虐哭后我死遁了 Seagull Swimming沙鸥游泳Two Male Leads1.0M WordsCompleted [Two male leads, scum gong regrets his actions, chases his wife to the crematorium, sickly, coughing blood, forced love, shou fakes his death and escapes, BE in the small worlds, HE in the end] [System: Reminder, Host Yun Chen, this is an S-rank conquest world. The principal gods of every plane are extremely powerful!] [Yun Chen: Oh.] - The domineering CEO, wealthy enough to rival a nation: You’re nothing but a substitute picked out of the mud. My one true love is the chosen one! Yun Chen fell i 21.2kReads9.5Score1.9kShelves
14. 14 无 No One Came to Save Her from the Deep 无人救她于深海 Liang Shiqi梁拾柒Modern Romance135k WordsCompleted [Signed for publication] [Youthful unrequited love + prodigal son turns over a new leaf + bittersweet romance + plenty of unresolved heartbreak + tragic ending (The male lead is hard to like at first. It's not exactly a tearjerker, but sensitive readers should proceed with caution.)] Youth is a foolish thing: foolishly falling for someone. At the beginning of the story, Xu Nuo falls in love with Zhou Yiming at first sight, as if sinking into the deep sea. At the end, Xu Nuo holds the box contai 19.2kReads8.9Score3.8kShelves

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    Every book is so moving.

15. 15 小 The Little Troublemaker Doesn't Have Long to Live 小坏蛋他命不久矣 Lemon and Cola柠檬加可乐Two Male Leads273k WordsCompleted [Two male leads + rekindled love + the pursuit of a former lover + happy ending] School bully, sickly bottom Academic superstar, top On Xiao Yu's birthday, his father locked him up in a conversion camp. From that day on, he lost Fu Zechen, the person who loved him most. By the time he escaped that living hell, battered and bruised, Fu Zechen had discarded him without a moment's hesitation. When they met again, his eyes held no trace of affection, only indifference and estrangement. “You're not w 15.9kReads9.2Score1.2kShelves

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    ① The protagonist (shou) is sent to a rehabilitation center by his father on his birthday. After struggling to escape that hellish place, he is cruelly abandoned by the other protagonist (gong). This sets off a series of heart-wrenching events. It's really good. I cried until my eyes were swollen in the middle of the night. ② It's a story of reconciliation after a broken relationship, and it's also set in the entertainment industry. It's just as heart-wrenching. I won't reveal the plot, go read it yourself. ③ The protagonist has depression, and the other protagonist has emotional disorders. They met through a sugar daddy/sugar baby game. Go read it yourself if you want, it's really good. It's also very tear-jerking. ④ This is an e-sports novel. It's also a story of everyone going through a tragic end. The protagonist is diagnosed with a terminal illness and abandons the other protagonist. Then the other protagonist harbors resentment towards him. Later, he learns the whole truth. It's really tear-jerking! Especially heart-wrenching. (By the way, all four books are written by the same author, and they are all very heart-wrenching. Each of these four books made my heart ache and my eyes swell from crying. The writing is also exceptionally good.)

16. 16 爆 An Upset Victory: A Top-Tier Star Gets Swept Away by a Nobody 爆冷：顶流被小糊咖拐跑了 Lemon and Cola柠檬加可乐Two Male Leads369k WordsCompleted [Two male leads + rekindled love + showbiz + happy ending] A doting, top-tier-star seme, A little-known, sickly uke. Lu Qing lost Gu Zhiyan, the person who loved him most, so he nearly gave his life for another chance to meet him. But the Gu Zhiyan he meets again is no longer the poor kid he was a year ago. He has transformed into a top-tier star with tens of millions of fans and the sole heir to the Gu family, the foremost clan in Beijing’s elite circles. Gu Zhiyan shuts Lu Qing out completely. 8.9kReads9.3Score745Shelves
17. 17 小 That Little Trouble-Maker Is Absolutely Unhinged 小作精他超疯的 Lemon and Cola柠檬加可乐Two Male Leads249k WordsCompleted [Male-male romance + rekindled love + entertainment industry + happy ending] A volatile, depressed, troublesome, sickly bottom in public and in private, A top who is emotionally impaired but an outstanding actor. Jiang Li is a madman. During a sugar-baby arrangement, he was the first to fall in love and become obsessed. He knew Yi Zhen didn't love him, yet he kept clinging to him, his body covered in wounds. He said, “I supported you for two years. Now it's your turn to support me for two years! 10.9kReads9.3Score847Shelves
18. 18 万 The Most Hated Guy Is Seriously Fierce 万人嫌他超凶的 Lemon and Cola柠檬加可乐Two Male Leads379k WordsCompleted [Two male leads + rekindled romance + everyone faces their comeuppance + happy ending] A sickly, universally disliked bottom, a top who’s an esports superstar. After receiving a diagnosis, Shen Ning cruelly abandoned Qin Jiu, the only person he had to rely on. Two years later, they met again. The penniless boy from back then had become a rising esports superstar. Shen Ning tried to explain, but a single stab ended all hope. Dragging his battered body along, he watched his beloved take the stage 7.9kReads9.2Score647Shelves
19. 19 蚀 A Love That Cuts to the Bone 蚀骨危情 Qi Lao You淇老游Modern Romance753k WordsCompleted Xia Weiming died, and Shen Xiujin personally sent Jian Tong to a women’s prison. During her three years behind bars, Shen Xiujin’s order to “take good care of her” changed Jian Tong beyond recognition. She was even “persuaded to donate a kidney” while in prison. Before she went in, Jian Tong said, “I didn’t kill her.” Shen Xiujin remained unmoved. After her release, Jian Tong said, “I killed Xia Weiming. I’m guilty.” Shen Xiujin’s face turned livid. “Shut up! Don’t let me hear you say that again 68.3kReads9.2Score5.1kShelves

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    They're all pretty heart-wrenching.

20. 20 向 Born to Follow the Sun 向阳而生 Li Xiangxiang李想想Urban1.0M WordsCompleted [A new book from a veteran author] [Daily life] [Romance] [A little heartbreak, then overwhelmingly sweet] He Zhicheng gave his son He Shu a perfect demonstration of what a scumbag looked like, leaving He Shu terrified of marriage before he was even an adult. The little tree, withered before it had even grown, was chased by another stubborn little sprout who kept urging him to stand tall. Well, maybe it takes going through all that pain to appreciate the happiness of an ordinary life. Life comes 127.6kReads9.6Score14.3kShelves
21. 21 再 I'll Never Love You Again 再也不要爱你 Hard to Kill难杀Modern Romance132k WordsCompleted A short, heart-wrenching story. Extremely heartbreaking! So much melodrama and angst! Read with caution! Please ignore the extra chapter. The author wrote it while losing their mind, and sincerely apologizes! Jian Meng is dying, and Ji Jing’an doesn’t know. He’s busy worrying about his wedding to someone else, indifferent to the poor woman at home. He has always believed Jian Meng would wait for him forever, just as she has for the past ten years. It was the last winter, and Jian Meng’s last bir 17.2kReads8.2Score974Shelves

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    ✨These 5 books are heart-wrenching from beginning to end. The second one is quite long, and the rest are short, angsty stories 😭.

22. 22 他 He Is in the South of the Clouds 他在云之南 Jing Xing景行Modern Romance209k WordsCompleted When they first met, he was shrouded in shadow, reeking of blood and violence. He asked her, “Who are you? Where are you from? What are you doing here?” It was a long time before she thought of the true answer: “I'm Shen Xun. I came from the far north to the south of the clouds, to meet the love of my life.” He was her Morpheus, giving her a poppy-like dream of love, bewitching and intoxicating. He captured her soul, clouded her mind, and made her addicted. Like a pawn crossing a river, she went 25.2kReads9.7Score4.8kShelves
23. 23 临 Before He Dies, He Wants to Give Up His Allergen 临死前，他要戒掉过敏源 Crimson Jiangnan江南绯色Two Male Leads429k WordsCompleted [Male-male romance + angst + late-blooming devotion + the hero’s long road to winning him back] Shen Pei’an was ill. On his birthday, the doctor told him he didn’t have much longer to live. He hadn’t planned to hide it. He meant to wait until Ren Xu had celebrated his birthday with him, then tell him the truth. But the big star Ren Xu never came. All Shen Pei’an got was a birthday cake that would trigger his allergies. He was twenty-eight. It was his ninth year in love with Ren Xu. There would 1.1kReads6.6Score101Shelves

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    1: Dual Male Leads; 2-4: Youth Literature + Sweet Romance; 5: Wealthy CEO (the most angsty). These are the angst-filled novels I found; they're very heart-wrenching, so feel free to read them.

24. 24 死 After I Died, He Began to Love Me 死后，他开始爱我 Mu Shuilin木水林Modern Romance334k WordsCompleted Sang Yuan never expected that, after an accident, her husband Gu Yuhui would have his memories sent back to when he was eighteen, a time when he loved someone else. Every night, Gu Yuhui would regain a month’s worth of memories. In those dreams, he fell in love with his unrequited love all over again. He was convinced there was no love in his marriage to Sang Yuan. Then Sang Yuan died, and his memories returned to the moment they first met. She had been a ray of light that illuminated his world 6kReads9.1Score407Shelves

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    I'm so sad, waaaaaah!

25. 25 最 The Last Diary Entry 最后一篇日记 Sui Ying随楹Modern Romance13k WordsCompleted [Simplified Chinese edition signed for publication] I only used looking at the flowers as an excuse. All I really wanted was to see you once. 27.1kReads9.1Score4.8kShelves

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    I suggest you take a look at these books.

26. 26 向 Always Coldhearted, How Could I Ever Speak of Deep Love? 向来凉薄，何言情深 A Little Nutty神经西西Modern Romance39k WordsCompleted The day Lu Yanqian jumped to her death, Huo Jincheng was lost in a world of wine and lights. She loved him, giving everything she had without hesitation. He hated her, destroying everything without hesitation. Later, in a life without her, he grew used to being alone. Through the long years, he had no one but himself to walk beside him. I once thought loving you was only an act, but it turned out I was already incurably ill, loving you to the bone. Lu Yanqian, I regret it. 2.7kReads8.2Score114Shelves
27. 27 想 After I Wanted to Die, Everyone Started Loving Me 想死后，所有人都开始爱我 Not a Common Name非俗名Two Male Leads1.1M WordsCompleted [Yandere + regret and redemption] Shi Chuyi is an orphan. He dreams of having a family more than anything. In his previous life, after going through hell to return home, he found a fake young master already living there. The fake young master was gentle and refined, perfect in every way, and everyone loved him. But it was all an act. He showed his vicious true colors only to Shi Chuyi, framing and slandering him at every turn and turning everyone around him against him. His four biological broth 3.4kReads8.6Score229Shelves

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    Don't forgive anyone on the first day of junior high school.

28. 28 一 One, Two, Three 一贰叁 Books Without Pages, Moonlight and Breeze书本无卷明月清风Sci-Fi & Apocalypse198k WordsOngoing Fate never seems to go the way we want, yet there are those who struggle to change it. On the road to fighting fate, even rewriting the story of a mayfly can set it on a different course... A new work is here! Your support and feedback are welcome! (~￣▽￣)~ —Reads—Score—Shelves

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    After watching Jiang Ruan's episode (TェT)

29. 29 暗 The Sad Little Thing Called Unrequited Love 暗恋这件难过的小事 Meng Zhiwan孟栀晚Modern Romance122k WordsCompleted Lin Xu has a crush on the popular boy Ye Feng, and she remembers countless little details about him. Every day, Lin Xu times her departure down to the second, getting dressed and putting on her shoes in a hurry, all for the chance to catch a fleeting glimpse of his back. The music playing during the long break outside her classroom is Xu Song’s “Moon over Luzhou.” Lin Xu knows it’s the favorite song of Ye Feng, the school radio station’s announcer. Lin Xu has even stayed up all night organizing 77.1kReads9.7Score13.5kShelves

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    These two books are truly my biggest regrets. They're connected in some ways, and reading them together is even more heart-wrenching, making me cry until my eyes hurt in the middle of the night.

30. 30 良 A Worthy Minister Is Hard to Find 良臣难为 Drunk on Gold纸醉金靡Ancient Romance41k WordsCompleted [Historical Romance + Ensemble Cast + Tragic Love + Fateful Misunderstandings + Imperial Court and Nobility + Love of Country and Family + Tearjerker + Bad Ending] I am the empress of a nation. Everyone who sees me bows respectfully and greets me with, “May the Empress be well.” Because my surname is Shen. My father, Shen Nian, died on the battlefield, his body never found. My mother died by suicide after him. My eldest brother held Yumen Pass for forty-five days against a hundredfold enemy forc 385Reads9.4Score100Shelves

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    It wasn't actually that angsty, but I just couldn't stop crying 😢😢😢

31. 31 1 15 Hell-Level Bad Endings: You Stop at Flirting, While I’m In Too Deep 15个地狱级be：你点到为止，我泥足深陷 Drunk on Gold纸醉金靡Modern Romance159k WordsCompleted [Modern romance + domineering CEO + substitute + marriage + tragic love] Giving your whole heart in love will only leave you in pieces. Why do you think I’ll still be here just because you turn around? That if you crook your finger, I’ll make the same mistake all over again? I’m not the kind of person who forgets the pain once the wound heals. In love, the one who holds the power is never the one being loved. It’s the one brave enough to confess their feelings and brave enough to let go. I loved 895Reads8.2Score—Shelves
32. 32 暗 This Grand, Silent Drama of Unrequited Love 暗恋这场声势浩大的哑剧 Meng Zhiwan孟栀晚Modern Romance126k WordsCompleted A bittersweet youthful school romance about unrequited love from popular author Meng Zhiwan, and a companion novel to The Sad Little Thing Called a Secret Crush and The Late Sound of Drizzling Rain. This one-sided love story is a silent play with just one actor: me. Also known as The Moment I Speak, My Voice Disappears. Lonely girl Chen Ji VS sunny boy Lin Jingye. I carefully cherished you, and you became the only spring I ever had in my life. “Chen Ji, may you always be safe and well, overcome 20.9kReads9.6Score4.2kShelves

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    Seriously, who can believe it?! These books may have fewer words, but the content is still incredibly moving, each one filled with regret! Who said there aren't any truly heart-wrenching tearjerker novels on Tomato?! These next few will make you feel like you've lost 5 pounds in a month from all the heartbreak!

33. 33 听 Listen to the South 听南 Parting Words诀别词Modern Romance196k WordsCompleted Ten years ago, Xia Tingnan was in her third year of middle school, while her next-door neighbor Xu Bingran was a sophomore in high school. Both the Xia and Xu parents were busy, so Xia Tingnan, who loved sleeping in, was put in Xu Bingran's care. Xu Bingran was disciplined, sensible, a good student with dreams, and known as “Xu Bingran of No. 1 High School.” Xia Tingnan was lazy, scatterbrained, a happy slacker with decent grades, and everyone's beloved “cutie.” And so began a four-year routine: 29.2kReads9.6Score4.3kShelves
34. 34 我 I Only Sneaked a Glance at Him 我只偷看他一眼 Zhi Jiu枝玖Anime Fanfiction188k WordsCompleted During the speech by the freshman class representative, Chen Nan fell for Lu Xu at first sight, and for the rest of her life. The pink sunset beyond the window filled the entire sky, like a beautiful landscape painting. The clouds looked drunk, their cheeks flushed with color. Chen Nan held her breath and stole a sidelong glance at Lu Xu. His profile was youthful and striking, and he held his book with perfect posture. A ray of light fell on the yellowed pages, and touched him as well. The dayli 16.8kReads9.6Score3.8kShelves
35. 35 清 Qingqing: The Aesthetics of Unrequited Love Tragedies, Part 3 清清（暗恋BE美学三部曲03） Meng Zhiwan孟栀晚Urban125k WordsCompleted Back in middle school, Xie Zeyang met Shen Bingqing. Their names were almost the opposite of their natures: he was as cold as ice, while she burned bright as the sun. He could still vaguely recall every time they parted when they were young. At thirteen, beneath the lights at the entrance to an alley. She waved with a radiant smile and said to him, “See you tomorrow, class monitor!” At seventeen, on the beach on a midsummer night. She poked her head out of the tent, eyes crinkling as she called 23.3kReads9.6Score5.8kShelves
36. 36 欲EN Boundless Utterance 欲言难止 What About the McChicken麦香鸡呢Two Male Leads363k WordsCompleted Just as life was starting to get better, Xu Ze and Lu Heyang faced a new challenge. After graduating, Xu Ze became a doctor who saved lives, while Lu Heyang became a well-known figure in the Interstellar Federation. But misfortune struck Lu Heyang, and he lost his memory. During a crucial period in his treatment, circumstances forced the two apart, and Lu Heyang completely forgot Xu Ze and the friendship they had shared. Their friendship faced an enormous test. When fate brought them together ag 71.3kReads9.7Score16.1kShelves
37. 37 穿 I Transmigrated into a Eunuch and Met a Prince in the Cold Palace 穿成真太监后遇到一个冷宫皇子 Qian Zhizi千栀子Two Male Leads359k WordsCompleted [Two Male Leads, No Female Lead!!! CP: Eunuch and Cold Palace Prince] Who would have thought my girlfriend's curse would actually come true? What do you do when you transmigrate into the body of a real eunuch? I feel like crying three times a day. But then I ran into a lame prince confined to the cold palace, and happened to witness this seemingly innocent but secretly ruthless kid in the middle of killing someone. Without even realizing it, I somehow flirted with him and got him acting strange. 14.2kReads9.5Score2.3kShelves

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    If you don't believe me, read this!! I've read novels for so many years without ever crying, but this book brought me to tears several times. The aftereffects are incredible; even days after finishing it, just thinking about it makes my chest feel tight. There were also parts so heart-wrenching that I had to stop reading to recover before daring to continue. I've read most of the books recommended in this post, and they didn't really resonate with me.

38. 38 暗 The Echo of a Secret Crush, and Then It Ends Badly 暗恋回声又be Chirp Chirp Doesn't Know g吱吱不知gModern Romance138k WordsCompleted [A reckless, carefree young man vs. a sensitive, insecure girl] (Bad ending) One woman remains unmarried, trapped in the past. The other has a happy marriage and shines brightly. Zhao Huaili is a notorious playboy in Beicheng. He has an impossibly upright-looking face, yet lives a wild life. He may not be the darling of heaven, but he is surrounded by admirers. Lu Zhinan is the Lu family’s shameful illegitimate daughter. Bright-eyed and kind, she always gives people the impression of a girl with 684Reads8.7Score129Shelves

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    I won't go into too much detail about "East Palace" (东宫), as many of its tragic endings (BE) have physical books available.

39. 39 女 Life with the Goddess: I Feel Like I've Seen You Somewhere Before 女神同居往事，我好像在哪见过你 Reclining in the North高卧北Urban126k WordsCompleted Li Huangxuan was a recent college graduate, stuck in a miserable nine-to-five job and always broke. Like every young person just starting out, he felt lost and uncertain about the future. He longed for a love that would leave a lasting mark. He had a crush on his coworker, Xu Wanqing, but was too timid to approach her. Then one day, his roommate moved out, and a goddess named Lin Ximeng moved in next door, turning his life upside down. A month of living together gradually drew the two of them cl 43.2kReads9.7Score4.6kShelves

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    The entire story is sweet and angsty, with no angst.

40. 40 还 I Have Three Months Left to Live, So Let Me Die in Peace 还剩三个月命，请让我从容赴死 Reclining in the North高卧北Urban169k WordsCompleted From childhood onward, Zhuang Zi'ang was the kind of kid everyone called “the child other parents wish they had”: a model student every year and always first in his class. But after his parents divorced and his father started a new family, he became a child neither parent loved. At just eighteen, Zhuang Zi'ang is diagnosed with a terminal illness and given only three months to live. With his final three months, he decides to let out his rebellious, wild side and be truly himself for once. While 166.5kReads9.8Score19.1kShelves
41. 41 我 My 26-Year-Old Female Tenant 我的26岁女房客 Super Big Tank Kobe超级大坦克科比Urban2.1M WordsCompleted After a wild night at a bar, a beautiful woman pinned him with a paternity claim, and the down-and-out young man suddenly became a father. As if things weren't bad enough, the owner of his rented home changed, and he was about to be kicked out. But his new landlady was beautiful! Should he ask to share the place? She coolly gave him a single word: “Get out!” A romantic entanglement sparked by a housing problem. 120kReads9.7Score13.9kShelves
42. 42 温 I Completely Succumbed to the Gentle CEO's Advances 温柔女总裁攻势下，我彻底沦陷 Reclining in the North高卧北Urban172k WordsCompleted Lin Mushi is a wealthy heiress, the very picture of beauty and privilege. Unfortunately, she is still single at twenty-five and dreams of finding a romantic love of her own. While moving, she finds a notebook and meets Zhaosheng, a kind and upright firefighter. While preparing an animated film, she also meets Yu Chenghua, a handsome, aloof artist. The two men have completely different personalities and give her two entirely different experiences. The thrill of dating them both is beyond most peo 14.4kReads9.4Score1.6kShelves

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    The order is 312, and each book is a great read. I especially recommend the third one.

43. 43 虐 Short Stories of Men Getting Their Hearts Broken 虐男短篇合集 Gugu, What Are You Writing?鼓鼓写啥Ancient Romance220k WordsCompleted [Strong female lead + short stories + men get put through the wringer + wildly satisfying] Male-lead fans, proceed with caution. - [Story One] The male lead's perspective: Cui Ying: She doesn't blame me for spending years in the palace without bearing a child. She understands that I'm in poor health. She's so good to me. I love her so much. Cui Sixian: ...Your little softie husband is terrifying. The female lead's perspective: After fifteen years of plotting, the empress finally eradicates the s 1.5kReads8.9Score127Shelves

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    🔥🔥🔥A satisfying collection of scenes that torture men.

44. 44 他 He Kept Summer Hidden 他藏了夏天 Shi Qingyao十清杳Modern Romance210k WordsCompleted That night, the young man slowly bent down, bracing his hands on his thighs so he could look her in the eye. It was as if he were declaring that they stood as equals in matters of the heart. Keeping his voice low, he asked, “Senior, I like you. Do you like me?” Ji An raised her hand to stroke Xu Linxi’s cheek and softly ordered him, “Close your eyes.” Xu Linxi trembled, then obediently lowered his lashes. Ji An’s lips curved into a smile. She placed both hands on either side of his face, rose on 8.7kReads9.1Score2.1kShelves

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    These are really good! I absolutely love "The Sound of Rain" and "Unrequited Love: A Sad Little Thing"—they made me cry so much! The writing is also excellent, and they're all completed novels! 😢😢

45. 45 这 This Is a Very Realistic Unrequited Love Story 这是一篇很真实的暗恋文 One-Character Poem一字诗Modern Romance10k WordsCompleted A Very Realistic Story About a Secret Crush 98Reads—Score—Shelves
46. 46 暗 The Secret Crush No One Knows About 暗恋这件不为人知的秘密 Muzi Banli木子半李Modern Romance319k WordsCompleted In her third year of middle school, Yu Wan fell in love with someone. He had pale eyes that always seemed to hold laughter, yet somehow left people feeling inexplicably sad. Yu Wan liked him year after year, until the boy fell for a girl. Beneath a sky full of fireworks, she saw him smiling dazzlingly at the person beside him. “From the moment we met, you became the star that never sets, day or night.” But that star had never belonged to her. Yu Wan never imagined that one drunken night would br 660Reads8.7Score117Shelves
47. 47 暗 Echoes of a Secret Crush! 暗恋回声！ Su Xikun苏曦坤Modern Romance264k WordsCompleted [Secret campus crush | mutual devotion | healing | everyday life | both virgins, happy ending] Su Ranran fell in love with a boy during an intensive art training program. After a brief parting, they reunited as classmates at university. - Her secret crush, unknown to everyone, came to an end on New Year’s Eve. Beneath a sky twinkling with evening stars, a tipsy Su Ranran summoned the greatest courage of her life and confessed: “Afei, the moon is beautiful tonight.” Xiao Fei didn’t understand wha 23Reads6.5Score—Shelves
48. 48 暗 Echoes of a Secret Crush 暗恋回音 Song Zhu Zhi宋竹栀Modern Romance134k WordsCompleted [Secret Crush Comes True + Sweet Romance + Mutual First Love + Playboy Turns Over a New Leaf + Chasing His Wife] [Fake Playboy, True Romantic × Gentle, Sweet Girl] The boldest thing Wen Zhi ever did was secretly love Jin Huaisi for four years without telling anyone. / In high school, she secretly liked Jin Huaisi, day after day. His name filled her rough-work notebooks, and she watched him through the gaps between the library shelves. Her feelings for him were like a flood. On the day she learne 2.4kReads8.2Score286Shelves
49. 49 梧 Wutong Lane 梧桐巷 Song Che Doesn't Eat Fish宋澈不吃鱼Modern Romance174k WordsCompleted [Bright and kind-hearted Ning Wan x gentle genius Song Qingyan] [Love at first sight + Secret love comes true + Youthful heartache + BE] When the innocent, sunny Ning Wan fell in love with Song Qingyan at first sight, he was the golden boy in everyone's eyes. She wrote her secret feelings in her diary, planning to keep them to herself. By a twist of fate, Song Qingyan became her temporary guardian. During the days when she was ostracized and bullied, he became the light in her life. She held on 27.6kReads9.6Score6.2kShelves
50. 50 夏 Summer Rain Comes Suddenly 夏雨忽至 Lang Nanhua浪南花Modern Romance135k WordsCompleted In Zhao Ni’s girlhood, there was a quiet, aloof boy named Yuan Jiaming. When they first met, the innocent Zhao Ni was drawn to his cool, handsome presence. She followed him around, wishing him good night with all her heart every evening. Yuan Jiaming, however, kept his distance. He refused Zhao Ni’s request for his autograph, met her with a cold face, and barely responded to her. Zhao Ni was fragile and sensitive, but she liked to make herself seem strong. She used her spoiled, overbearing manne 82Reads8.9Score—Shelves

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