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1. 101 我 I’m Fixing Showbiz by Coughing Up Blood 我靠吐血整顿娱乐圈 Deng Qi灯栖Two Male Leads132k WordsCompleted I’m sorry, I don’t know how to write a synopsis! I picked the title at random too, sorry!!! Shi Li’an transmigrated just by taking a nap. He was a model young man who believed in socialism, and all it took was a nap for him to transmigrate! Transmigration was one thing, but he’d ended up as the cannon-fodder “real young master” in a domineering CEO novel. And not only was he cannon fodder, he was a total weakling?! He had no choice but to join a shady variety show. They expected him to push the 926Reads7.5Score114Shelves
2. 102 糊 A Washed-Up Star Is Reborn, and My Nemesis Is Acting Strange 糊咖重生，死对头他有点不对劲 Dongfang Xiao Shisan东方萧十三Two Male Leads267k WordsCompleted [Male-Male Romance + Both Reborn + Showbiz + Mutual Unrequited Love + Finding Their Way to Each Other + Happy Ending] [Main story complete] A bottom who can’t stop acting up and would die if he didn’t VS a top who comes back to life with his wife-protecting instincts maxed out Shi Qing suffers from a severe mood disorder. He lost control and died at Sheng Yanhuan’s awards ceremony. The whole internet exploded. Because Shi Qing and Sheng Yanhuan were widely known as sworn enemies in showbiz. [Shi 930Reads9.3Score157Shelves
3. 103 野 Wild Taming 野性驯养 Li Huaisha李怀沙Two Male Leads353k WordsCompleted The physical edition of Yanziqi is now available on all platforms. The wicked get their comeuppance. A cunning, cold-hearted crown prince x a volatile, insecure, sickly bottom Mutual torment + rekindled romance + melodrama + suspenseful twists + 1v1 + coercive love When Liang Yan was a child, his father brought home another boy. The boy looked like a beggar, hardly spoke, and was painfully thin. His father told him the boy would be his companion in study: he was quiet and would become his best f 15.8kReads9.5Score2.7kShelves
4. 104 顶 The Top-Tier Star Has Long Had His Eye on His White Moonlight 顶流他觊觎白月光已久 Pale Blue Mochi浅蓝麻薯Two Male Leads566k WordsCompleted [Double male leads + dating reality show + frail health + reunion after years apart] [Warm on the outside, cold on the inside, love-struck celebrity seme VS long-haired beauty with a frail constitution, uke] The uke has aphasia at first. The country's top dating show has invited Jun Ziqing, the top-tier star and renowned actor? Fans: Not sure. Let's wait and see. Huh? Wasn't he supposed to be polite and refined, and have a cleanliness obsession 2.1kReads8.9Score258Shelves
5. 105 磕 So Sweet! The White Moonlight Cries, and the Film Emperor Turns Red-Eyed with Worry 磕爆！白月光一哭，影帝他急红眼 San Moumou三某某Two Male Leads447k WordsCompleted [Dual Male Leads, Rekindled Romance, Showbiz, Angst Before Sweetness, Both Pure, Each Other’s First Love] A gentle, devoted, sharp-tongued yet softhearted top star gong x a straightforward, clingy, stunning beauty shou who is his first love Top-tier star Gu Wen went to get his phone repaired, and Tong Yu shot straight to the top of the trending searches along with him. Overnight, Tong Yu went from an obscure actor to the entire entertainment industry’s beloved first love! It was all because pr 10.6kReads9.3Score1.8kShelves
6. 106 嘿 Hey, Hell Trooper, Your God Has Logged Off! 嘿，地狱尖兵，你的上帝已下线！ Listening to the Wind, Remembering Words听风忆言Urban97k WordsOngoing Ji Qing was a sniper in the S.D.U. Flying Tigers, code-named Knight. Three months ago, his best friend was killed by a Middle Eastern mercenary. But Ji Qing was the one who pulled the trigger, and he was the one stripped of his civil service status. Ji Qing was so touched that he flew all the way to the Middle East himself, supposedly for a vacation, and sent every employee of that mercenary company to meet their Maker. After that job, Ji Qing planned to join Saeed’s mercenary squad. He was pass 5Reads—Score—Shelves

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   The protagonist was originally a sniper. During a mission failure, his best comrade and closest friend was killed. When he awoke, a stranger who knew everything about him was by his side. Memories are an endless road. This book explores war and humanity. The author suffers from Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD), and she states that her trauma was also caused by violence.

7. 107 白 Redemption of the White Camellia 白山茶的救赎 Little Half-Moon半月牙子Two Male Leads217k WordsCompleted Li Chuluo was sold by his parents to his ex-boyfriend for three million. When Li Chuluo learned the truth, it was the first time he had been allowed out of that dark little room. “That breakup text wasn't from me.” Li Chuluo shook his head. “It's... it's not important anymore...” Cheng Huaiche noticed that Li Chuluo always curled up inside the wardrobe to sleep. He wouldn't eat, and even when coaxed and fed, he would swallow only a bite or two before throwing it up. When his illness flared up, h 1.1kReads7.0Score144Shelves
8. 108 宝 Don’t Cry, Baby! Give Big Brother a Kiss 宝贝不哭！哥哥亲亲 Tian Yingzhui天盈坠Two Male Leads1.3M WordsCompleted [Two male leads] + [Both devoted only to each other, both strong] + [Healing] + [Unrequited love becomes mutual] + [They choose each other] [One-sided love at first] + [Pampering each other later] [Genius fashion designer] VS. [International movie star] He Sen has many labels: genius fashion designer, heir to an elite family, domineering CEO, cold-blooded devil... (In front of others): aloof, cunning, cold and ruthless (In front of Su Yu): obedient, clingy, devoted [He Sen: I believe in no gods 5.3kReads9.3Score546Shelves

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   When I was little, I was abandoned in the deep mountains and forests. They stayed there for several days until my parents finally found me. Then, just before a car accident, I was thrown out of the window. My parents died. I was taken to the hospital and stayed there for a year. Then my uncle and aunt took me away. They couldn't eat spicy food, so they fed me mala tang (a type of spicy hot pot) every day for a year. My health deteriorated to the point of being almost incurable. I also developed mental illnesses, became very paranoid, and lacked a sense of security.

9. 109 野 Has the Jungle King Taken His Medicine Today? 野王今天吃药了吗 It's Yanxin, Not Lianxin是颜芯不是莲心Two Male Leads645k WordsCompleted [Wildly talented jungler with bipolar disorder × heart-condition analyst | Second chance romance | Esports | Two male leads] Xie Huai hated Chi Xuesheng for two whole years. His online girlfriend, whose ID was Snow, had vanished without a trace when he was at his lowest. Two years later, a new analyst joined team EG. Pale and frail. Male. ID: SnowSound. Xie Huai looked at that familiar face and sneered. “A guy? My ex-girlfriend was called Snow, too.” Then he discovered: SnowSound knew all of his 500Reads—Score100Shelves
10. 110 得 After I Got a Mental Illness, I Felt Much Better 得了精神病后，我精神好多了 Do As You Please in This Life任尔平生Urban188k WordsOngoing [No romance + daily life] “Idler” Lu Xingyi transmigrates to a parallel world and discovers that he's a rookie composer being torn apart by online abuse. Lu Xingyi tilts his head. “...” He doesn't understand, but he's deeply shocked. The great masters of music: “A once-in-a-generation musical genius!!!” The best actors and actresses: “A born master of performance.” The opera master roars at everyone: “Get lost! Stop trying to steal my student!” The audience: “I'm Brother Yi's dog~” Lu Xingyi: “. 16Reads6.4Score—Shelves
11. 111 漂 The Gorgeous Darling Is Clueless, and President Huo Is Desperate to Woo Him 漂亮宝贝不开窍，霍总急红眼诱哄 Hui Yuxian Zhi卉雨贤之Two Male Leads329k WordsCompleted [Two male leads + both chaste + powerful man’s secret crush comes true + sweet romance + carefully planned pursuit + mutual healing] Pretty, oblivious, sweet little darling × powerful man who falls first, then gently coaxes him into love Wen Xun has Asperger's syndrome. He's beautiful, intelligent, withdrawn, and slow to understand emotions. For three whole years, Huo Ziqian was the only person in his lonely world. Everyone said he was deluding himself, but Wen Xun didn't understand! That was un 4.1kReads8.9Score614Shelves
12. 112 听 Listening to Yan, I Find My Way Home 听晏入怀 It's Yanxin, Not Lianxin是颜芯不是莲心Two Male Leads362k WordsCompleted Albino tiger beastman × top-tier snow leopard singer [Rekindled romance | Severe depression, second personality | Equally matched leads | A love pursued from both sides | The top suffers first, then the bottom | Happy ending | Older man | Age gap] His name is Qi Yanshen, a top-tier star in the voice-acting world. No one knows that this silver-haired voice actor is missing part of his left ear, that his tiger tail will never sway again, or that his wrists are covered in scars from cutting himself 287Reads—Score—Shelves
13. 113 解 After Ending My Contract, I Found New Life on a Slow-Paced Variety Show 解约后我在慢综里重获新生 Shen Jingbing沈靖冰Two Male Leads257k WordsCompleted All scripts featured in this story are adapted from my own completed novels, which have been published on public platforms. All scripts featured in this story are adapted from my own completed novels, which have been published on public platforms. All scripts featured in this story are adapted from my own completed novels, which have been published on public platforms. Xue Cang has long been a controversial figure in the entertainment industry. Scandals about him are everywhere, he has few fans, 917Reads8.9Score153Shelves
14. 114 致 The Heartbreak Song God: The Whole Internet Begs Me to Stop Singing 致郁歌神，全网求我别唱了 Happy Dance Instructor快乐的舞蹈导师Urban691k WordsCompleted Li Zeyan transmigrates into the body of a depressed singer who tried to take his own life by poisoning himself. The original owner’s agent has also run off with all his money, leaving him saddled with a mountain of unpaid taxes. To pay it all back, Li Zeyan has no choice but to keep competing on a singing show. He’s at the bottom of the rankings and on the verge of elimination. Then “What Can I Use to Keep You” appears. [So life, it is bitter as a song...] The whole internet feels the melancholy 148Reads5.9Score—Shelves
15. 115 饲 The Right Way to Care for a Frail Young Master 饲养小病秧子的正确方式 One-Day Radish一日萝Modern Romance560k WordsCompleted A sweet bedtime story with a happy ending [Pure-hearted, gloomy puppy-like boy × pretty, laid-back little fairy] The sanatorium where Nan Qi works is a little strange. A patient who never sees the light of day keeps the curtains drawn from morning to night. Nan Qi has never seen him, and her coworkers at the sanatorium are all strangely wary of him. She finds it odd, but the generous salary means she has to stay. Then, on a night of heavy snow, a strange noise comes from the patient’s room. Nan 20kReads9.1Score1.4kShelves

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    Highly recommend!!! The male lead doesn't like to communicate with people; he can talk but doesn't want to. He always chooses to secretly take pills at night to avoid being seen by the female lead when she brings him food the next afternoon [almost crying]. The development of their relationship is also very delicate; it doesn't start with "you're special." This novel is especially suitable for reading in winter. The only downside is that it's not finished yet, but the author says it will be completed by the end of December.

16. 116 被 At the Mercy of a Demon 被恶魔玩弄于股掌之中 Liu Yao六妖Two Male Leads527k WordsCompleted Twenty-nine-year-old mercenary Xu Chi and his companions got lost in a swamp in a no-man’s-land. At the brink of life and death, a vast town suddenly appeared out of nowhere before them, filled with towering buildings yet utterly deserted. To Xu Chi’s shock, this was the place where he had grown up. The streets and shops were familiar, and he could even make out the windows of his own home in the distance. The city’s sudden appearance in the wilderness sent chills through everyone. Then a handso 7kReads9.2Score950Shelves

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    These two books, the first one [smirking][smirking][smirking], the seme isn't human, he's a lunatic. The second one [almost crying][almost crying][almost crying], I couldn't finish it, but there's a crematorium scene.

17. 117 恶 The Behavior of Bad Dogs 恶犬行为学 Extra-Spicy Tripe and Duck Intestine Hot Pot毛肚鸭肠特辣锅Two Male Leads224k WordsCompleted (The rating is low because this just came out. Don’t worry, it’s worth reading.) (Content warnings: The bottom is a vicious, unstable mad dog, and not sexually inexperienced. The top is genuinely ruthless.) Everyone knows that Shi Ya went from a brilliant, noble-minded genius and savior to a mad dog who bites everyone he sees. But he commands a vast force, and whether they like it or not, everyone has to bow to him. Yet even the most vicious mad dog has a leash, and Nie Chengye holds it in his h 168Reads8.6Score—Shelves

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    It has already caused dual personality disorder.

18. 118 人 Life Is About Doing Your Best 人生啊，尽力就好 Su Chenyan苏晨宴Urban106k WordsOngoing An original story, adapted from real life. Minors, please don't send tips. If something is wrong, speak up. Don't face it alone! I'll always be here! A gentle reminder: the author is a student, so updates are limited to weekends and school holidays. This book is oppressive, dark, suffocating, and realistic, and contains some tragic elements. (I guess some of you will be drawn in by the words "two male leads"...) If you can't handle it, please leave of your own accord. I'm a new author, and my wr 47Reads—Score—Shelves

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    The author is a professional; no other angst novel can compare. It's a 1:1 recreation of reality. I'm just afraid you won't have the guts to come and read it.

19. 119 哪 Where Do You Think You're Going? The Pretty Young Master Is About to Be Punished Again 哪里逃？漂亮小少爷又要被罚了 Winter Daylight Lamp冬昼灯Two Male Leads276k WordsCompleted [Two male leads + older love interest + confinement + coercion + taking by force + revenge] Everyone knew that Jiang Yubai, the delicate young master of the Jiang family, never listened to anyone except his childhood friend, older brother Shi Huai. But no one knew that Shi Huai’s friend, Sheng Qianyang, had long been plotting to claim the young master for himself. Then one day, the Jiangjing Group went bankrupt. President Jiang and his wife killed themselves to escape prosecution, leaving behind 4kReads8.4Score308Shelves
20. 120 硝 The Smoke Hasn't Cleared, but Love Runs Deep 硝烟未尽，爱意甚浓 Autumn Again秋一秋Two Male Leads377k WordsCompleted Set in an alternate historical world. Xing Ye: Nicknamed Master Xing, formerly a captain in M Nation’s Eagle Eye Special Forces. Cheng Gu: Nicknamed A Gu, formerly a deputy captain in M Nation’s Third Special Forces. When the smoke of battle clears, those who survive are the real prisoners. A single denunciation from his captain turned Cheng Gu from a hero who had faced a hail of bullets into an “outcast” scorned by society. He hid among the backstreets, armoring himself with strong liquor and n 4.8kReads9.3Score652Shelves

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    This one is just a dual male protagonist story. One of the male protagonists lost all his comrades on the battlefield, and then he was discharged and developed PTSD.

21. 121 病 After His Frail Sweetheart Returns Home, the Movie Star Takes His Revenge 病弱心肝儿回国后，影帝疯狂报复 Ya Gu芽谷Two Male Leads429k WordsCompleted [Two male leads + showbiz + rekindled romance + bittersweet + both leads are virgins] [Sickly lamb × fragile wolf-dog] “I was only with you because dating a man seemed novel. It was just for fun, so don't take it seriously.” Shen Sibai dreamed again of that night three years ago. Breaking up with Wen Yi was a pain he'd never forget. He had abandoned Wen Yi at the most difficult time of his life. Consumed by guilt day and night, he knew there was no future for him and Wen Yi. After all, there was 4.7kReads8.1Score368Shelves

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    My goodness, the protagonist is so pitiful! He has psychological issues and stomach problems. Although he's forgotten the hardships he suffered, the fear still haunts him. His mental state fluctuates wildly; his memory is confused; he's deaf in one ear; his leg was broken, and it aches and makes him breathless on cloudy or rainy days. In short, he's just miserable.

22. 122 病 After the Frail Real Young Master Gives Up, He Begs to Die Every Day! 病弱真少爷摆烂后每天疯狂求死！ Yu Jia豫佳Two Male Leads212k WordsCompleted [Open Ending] [Even if you hate me, I’ll still tell you I love you] In his life before last, Fang Kesi was recognized by the Jiang family and worked tirelessly to inherit the family business. He got nothing for his efforts and eventually died of sheer rage in bed. In his previous life, Fang Kesi was reborn into the world of cultivation and practiced the Heartless Dao. After enduring ninety-nine heavenly tribulations and three stages of lightning tribulation, he would ascend and become an immorta 1.8kReads6.1Score143Shelves

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    In his first life, he was so angry he died in bed. He was reborn in the cultivation world, but failed his tribulation due to a child's warning not to enter. He was reborn in his first life.

23. 123 小 The Young Master Is Reborn and Wants Nothing but to Wait for Death 小少爷重生后一心等死 Startled Bird Enters a Dream惊鸟入梦Two Male Leads485k WordsCompleted [Reborn + one-on-one romance + sweet and doting + happy ending][Goofy, fatherly big shot x sickly young master] When Wen Yinuo was five, he got lost while out on a family trip. He wasn’t found until he was sixteen. But in the second year after he went missing, his family had adopted another child to take his place. Even after Wen Yinuo returned, his parents and relatives gave all their tenderness and love to the adopted child, without sparing a bit for him. Everything Wen Yinuo did was even bran 16.9kReads9.0Score1.4kShelves
24. 124 小 So What If I Stutter? I Can Still Turn the Cold-Faced Captain Around 小结巴又怎样？照样爆改冷面队长 Xiao Chun Liang Yue小春良月Two Male Leads485k WordsCompleted [Dual Male Leads + Alternate Universe + Healing + Age Gap + Mystery and Twists] [Stone-Faced Yet Gentle Squad Leader VS Sensitive but Tough Stutterer] In H Country, the June heat in Xucheng was scorching. Then a refreshing, charming young man showed up out of nowhere at the GHI Precinct in the northern suburbs. With brows like distant mountains and eyes like stars, he left everyone in awe. But no one knew where he came from, and he barely spoke. Apart from being handsome, he knew nothing about a 6.6kReads9.5Score1.2kShelves

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    The aloof captain was easily subdued~

25. 125 在 In the World of Detective Conan, the Beautiful, Powerful, and Tragic Find Salvation in Madness 在柯南世界中，美强惨疯狂救赎 A Little Xicheng一只晞橙Two Male Leads63k WordsCompleted [Beautiful, powerful, and tragic; prone to bouts of depression and madness; born in darkness, reaching for the light; a story of desperate salvation] [Content warning: dark themes, no pairing, zero romance, a little angst, and somewhat slow updates] A genius psychiatrist in their previous life, now the beloved darling of the family. “Congratulations! The System has detected that you're a genius and rewards you with a second life in a world where everyone is a genius. Welcome to the world of Dete 2kReads8.4Score274Shelves
26. 126 卑 Reborn as a Clingy Sweetheart After a Pitiful Life 卑微小可怜重生后成了撒娇精 Warm Tea温茶Two Male Leads637k WordsCompleted ✨️“I have skin hunger. Could you let me hold you for a while?” Jiang Tang has spent years as a pitiful little nobody. He has suffered every kind of hardship, but no one has ever loved him. Then one rainy night, Lu Yinghuai “brings him home,” cherishes him like the most precious thing in the world, and wants to give him everything good. Jiang Tang has been insecure for so long that even when someone likes him, he assumes they must have an ulterior motive. Lu Yinghuai pulls him into his ar 2.9kReads8.7Score443Shelves
27. 127 薄 Thin Snow Over Farewell 薄雪覆辞 TeerpTwo Male Leads283k WordsCompleted Also known as: Snow Over the Farewell [A CEO with alexithymia × a beautiful, depressed man with a disability]| [Devoted couple · Marriage first, love later · A little groveling · Bitter before sweet · Angsty romance] [*There will be angst in the early and middle parts. The characters’ personalities make it unavoidable.] A business marriage binds them together. With a lame leg and a heart as lifeless as a grave, Fu Ci marries the lofty Bo Jinyan. On their wedding night, Bo Jinyan warns him coldly 6.8kReads9.0Score852Shelves

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    Perfect match!

28. 128 残 The Disabled Tycoon’s Ex-Boyfriend Is Seriously Unwell 残疾大佬的前男友他是真有病啊 Lemon and Cola柠檬加可乐Two Male Leads407k WordsCompleted [Two male leads + rekindled romance + melodramatic angst] After an accidental kidnapping, Huo Zhiye loses the use of both legs and is cruelly abandoned by the man he has loved for four years. They began by choosing to love each other despite their families’ bitter feud, but it all ends with them leaving battered and broken. Reunited three years later: Qiao Xi knows he has committed unforgivable sins and tries every possible way to make amends. Naively, he thinks that if he hurts himself enough, 19.1kReads8.8Score2kShelves
29. 129 小 After the Little Fool Ran Away, the Big Shot Went Mad 小傻子逃跑后，大佬他疯了 Lemon and Cola柠檬加可乐Two Male Leads319k WordsCompleted [Two male leads, ultra-pampering] A silly bottom who thought he was pretending to be dumb, only to discover he really was dumb, and a fatherly CEO top who thought he was aloof but turned out to be hopelessly in love. Chi Tang died, and then Chi Tang came back to life! There was a pileup on the highway. Chi Tang’s last memory was being crushed between two cars and dying a gruesome death. He closed his eyes, opened them again, and discovered that he had been reborn in the body of a fool with the s 3.1kReads8.6Score340Shelves
30. 130 小 Has the Little Troublemaker Made Up with Her Ex Today? 小作精今天哄好前男友了吗 Lemon and Cola柠檬加可乐Two Male Leads368k WordsCompleted [Two male leads + rekindled romance + chasing his husband + some angst + melodrama] The thing Pei Heng regretted most in his life was taking Shi Jin's drunken words seriously. Shi Jin said they should break up, and Pei Heng left without a second thought. Shi Jin wanted to get back together, but Pei Heng blocked him, deleted him, and cut off every way back. Shi Jin wouldn't stop pursuing him, but Pei Heng ignored him and rejected him time and again. Only when the Pei family announced his engageme 10.8kReads8.4Score752Shelves
31. 131 万 Everyone Hated Her, Then She Showed Her Face and Took the Internet by Storm 万人嫌露脸后全网爆火 Lemon and Cola柠檬加可乐Two Male Leads448k WordsCompleted [Dual male leads] A sickly, universally despised bottom; A seemingly cold and heartless top who has fallen deeply in love. A year ago, Xu Mian was rumored to have thrown matches, and was boycotted by the entire internet. He retired early. With his mother seriously ill and his right hand partially disabled, he became the target of abuse from everyone in the esports scene, like a rat crossing the street, and endured it for an entire year. Caught between life and death, he struggled to stay alive: 12.6kReads8.3Score1.1kShelves
32. 132 重 Reborn Three Times, the Poor Little One Is Everyone’s Darling 重生三次后，可怜崽被团宠啦 Nan Nan Doesn't Speak Softly南南不细语Two Male Leads555k WordsCompleted [Everyone's Beloved Little Boy + Two Male Leads + Reborn + Depression + Multiple Side Couples] The Feng family, one of Weicheng's most prominent families, became a laughingstock. They'd eagerly awaited the birth of their little son, who should have been the envy of everyone, only for him to be born “stupid” and mocked by the other prominent families. Fortunately, the Feng family was powerful, and they all doted on their little son. No one dared mock him to their faces, and the family protected h 4kReads8.9Score376Shelves

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    This story involves a character who is reborn three times. The first two times, he was bullied and suffered post-traumatic stress disorder. The third time, he was healed by warmth and kindness.

33. 133 坏 Uh-Oh, Brother Ning Has Really Fallen for Her 坏了，宁哥他真陷进去了 Anna's Carrot安娜的萝卜Two Male Leads302k WordsCompleted [Sunshiney, gentle athlete top x melancholy art student bottom with a tragic past] [Male-male, college campus, both each other's first, happy ending, mostly sweet with a little angst in the middle] [Double standards, shamelessly doting on one person.] [The top spoils the bottom at first, the bottom chases after his husband in the middle, and the top spoils him rotten later on. Mainly told from the top's perspective.] [“Ning, I saw with my own eyes that someone beat up Song Xingran.” Du Ning gra 2.1kReads9.3Score266Shelves

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    They're all such good babies [almost crying]

34. 134 穿 Reborn as a Cannon Fodder Villain, I Was Spoiled by My Yandere Master 穿成炮灰反派被病娇师尊强宠了 Brat竖子Two Male Leads324k WordsCompleted [Two male leads + disciple transmigrates into a book + master reborn + unconventional yandere] [The master is the top; an ensemble cast, not mindless.] (A sharp-tongued, spoiled, rebellious disciple with severe depression VS a once-gentle, beautiful yandere master, betrayed by everyone and driven to darkness) ◆ Both are pure and devoted to each other! ◆ Xie Xu's experiences in this story are based on real events. ◆ Insult me, not the characters. After the people closest to him drove him to suic 2.7kReads9.1Score381Shelves

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    Don't mind the first book; I didn't understand it at first either. The second book deals with post-traumatic stress disorder and is a bit angsty. Both have two male leads.

35. 135 盗 The Tomb-Raiding Prisoner Still Wants to Kill the Evil Emperor Today 盗墓囚徒他今天还想杀了邪帝 Unrestrained不拘Two Male Leads240k WordsOngoing Contains original elements of my own, with almost none of the original plot. All the main characters have issues, serious ones. I can't guarantee they're crazy, but they definitely have issues. Wang Xinhua went by the alias Shen Jie. Starting when he was eighteen, he spent ten years getting close to Wu Xie. He was Wu Xie's close friend, his very best brother. But when the fog lifted, a letter that should never have existed arrived in Wu Xie's hands, carrying all the “truth.” Everything changed. 606Reads8.9Score100Shelves

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    Take a look at this one. The male protagonist was forced into the game of chess from a young age, constantly either scheming against others or being schemed against. He's desperate, wicked, and ultimately just a hateful yet pitiful pawn in the game.

36. 136 向 Officer Xiang’s Little Rose 向警官的小玫瑰 Mu Tongyaozhi慕桐瑶芷Modern Romance143k WordsCompleted Retired Special Forces Soldier vs. Undercover Narcotics Police Officer (A sweet, wholesome romance about two people saving and choosing each other) Her youth was camouflage, rifles, and the training ground. His youth was darkness, drugs, and a living hell. After retiring, she becomes a rookie actress. After his undercover mission ends, he returns to the police force. She is still beautiful and bold. He is as calm and perceptive as ever. Love at first sight. Falling deeper at their next meeting. 398Reads9.0Score103Shelves

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    The male lead is an undercover narcotics police officer who returns from the undercover operation, while the female lead is a special forces soldier. Due to an incident that resulted in the deaths of her teammates, the female lead developed PTSD and was forced to retire to become a new actress. She also reunited with the male lead.

37. 137 你 You Are the Light That Shines in My Darkness! 你是我黑暗里的那一束光！ Foxtail Grass by the River河边的狗尾巴草Modern Romance206k WordsCompleted Gu Jingyan had just returned from studying abroad and was about to take over the Gu family business when a car accident left him gravely injured. He lost most of his memories, went blind, and had his right leg amputated above the knee. By chance, he met the heroine, Su Wanning, who saved him. Only later did Su Wanning discover that the reclusive musician Kong Niansheng, whom she had always admired, was actually the little blind man in her arms... 680Reads8.2Score—Shelves

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    The first book is about a man who suffers amnesia and blindness in a car accident, develops post-traumatic stress disorder, and is gradually redeemed by the female protagonist.

38. 138 我 My CEO Husband Is a Disabled Crybaby 我的总裁先生是个残疾的爱哭包 Foxtail Grass by the River河边的狗尾巴草Modern Romance559k WordsCompleted After graduating from college, Su Ruanruan lands a job at Musen, a company under the Qiao Group that she has long dreamed of joining. When she moves into the company's apartment building, she meets her neighbor Qiao Yichen, who has lost both arms. Overflowing with compassion, she sets out on a mission of kindness and draws the depressed, withdrawn Qiao Yichen out of his own little world… 1.2kReads6.8Score102Shelves
39. 139 我 I Fell in Love with a Long-Legged Older Man 我爱上了大长腿叔叔 Foxtail Grass by the River河边的狗尾巴草Modern Romance182k WordsCompleted Today is my graduation ceremony, and I’m incredibly excited. I haven’t seen my tall uncle in ages. He’s the big brother who’s been supporting me, only twelve years older than I am. He won’t let me call him that, but to me, he’s my big brother. He promised he’d come to my graduation ceremony today! After I graduate, he’ll take me to his company… But the ceremony ended, and the figure I’d been longing to see never showed up. As soon as I could, I nervously called him. But the person who answered w 1.4kReads6.1Score—Shelves
40. 140 丰 The Pain of Plenty 丰富和丰富的痛苦 LMoniModern Romance70k WordsCompleted 1Reads—Score—Shelves

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    The story mainly revolves around a female college student with depression who is sexually assaulted by a traditional Chinese medicine practitioner during a therapy session, leading to personality splitting and acute stress disorder. The psychological descriptions are quite insightful, and the story also touches on the stigma surrounding mental illness in society.

41. 141 漂 The Handsome Lame Boy Gets Drunk and Asks for a Proposal! His Big Brother Can't Hide His Grin 漂亮小瘸子醉酒求亲！哥哥爽翘嘴 Shun Jiu舜九Two Male Leads344k WordsCompleted [The full audiobook version is now available] Mu Tangbai awakens and discovers that he is a lackey working for a vicious villain in a novel about two equally powerful leads. To earn money for tuition, he follows the villain’s orders and helps kidnap the protagonist gong to an abandoned factory. He even films the protagonist gong being humiliated. In the novel’s ending, the protagonist’s group chops him into pieces and dumps him in international waters. His fate is gruesome. When he comes to, som 5.3kReads8.8Score679Shelves

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    The pampered young master was kicked out of his home after his leg was broken, and he became insecure ever since.

42. 142 老 My Husband’s So Stubborn: Two Kisses and He Melts 老公的嘴太硬？亲两次就软了 Shun Jiu舜九Two Male Leads338k WordsCompleted [One-on-one romance + both leads are each other's first and only + happy ending + mutual salvation] Pei Yunqiao somehow ended up saving someone. Before dawn, the man had already fled far away. At the recording of the first round of the audition show, he clutched his sore waist and stared from afar at the aloof, ascetic man seated among the judges. His vision went black, then black again. After the performance, Producer Shen pulled him into a corner and gave him three warnings in a row. - Put awa 9.3kReads8.7Score1.1kShelves

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    Aqiao was abused as a child, which left her with health problems. She became deaf in one ear and developed claustrophobia. Afraid of being sent to an orphanage by her adoptive parents, she always pretended to be a normal person. She didn't dare to say anything when she was sick and was often locked in a dark room.

43. 143 小 A Guide to Raising a Well-Behaved Little Human [Vampires] 小人类的乖乖饲养指南【血族】 Xiao Yang Who Loves White Coral喜欢白珊瑚的肖杨Two Male Leads271k WordsCompleted (Main story complete) [Dark themes + vampires + non-virgin bottom + pet] Alpha found a homeless human on the side of the road, on the brink of death. Male, black-haired, beautiful. There were signs he had been assaulted. 18.3kReads8.9Score3.4kShelves

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    ( =•ω•= )M

44. 144 拟 Proposed Deduction: My Fiancée Is a Goth Lolita 拟定推导：我的未婚妻是哥特萝莉 MahoEastern Fantasy1.2M WordsCompleted Note: This book is told in first person. Don't read if that's not your thing. After completing four years of military service, Matthew Julius returned to his home in the British Isles. He thought he could finally start a new life, only to be told that he was already engaged. His fiancée was Carrot Olivia, a rising star in the world of detectives. A scrap of paper bearing a mysterious address, and a family murder case buried for ten years. A young girl detective sets out to solve it, and a discha 7.3kReads9.5Score793Shelves

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    If that's not enough, then I have nothing more to say.

45. 145 时 The Spacetime Penetrator 时空穿透机 Ma Hao, Who Loves Tibetan Mastiffs喜欢藏熬的马浩Sci-Fi & Apocalypse101k WordsCompleted The novel is steeped in profound loneliness and sacrifice. The protagonist's journey is heartbreaking: from a condemned man who has resigned himself to death, to an objectified “vessel,” and then to a “person” who rediscovers his feelings only to keep losing everything. In the end, he chooses to sacrifice himself, not for some nebulous “great mission,” but to protect the last faint glimmer of humanity: Xiao Yi's future. The ending brings not the thrill of heroism, but a quiet born of deep exhaus 2Reads—Score—Shelves

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    A Hero of the Spirit of the Spirit. Finally, it must be emphasized that the greatness of this character lies not in his alteration of history, but in his choice to believe in the value of emotion even in absolute darkness. Okay, the protagonist of this novel ("I," Hertz/Wang Pu) is an extremely complex, profound, and tragic character. He is not a traditional hero, but an "anti-hero" struggling in an existential crisis, the core vehicle for the philosophical speculation of the entire story. The following is a comprehensive explanation of him: 1. Core Identity: A Torn Collective He is not a single person, but a superposition and conflict of multiple identities: Hertz: A death row inmate from 2250. This is the "origin" of his consciousness, carrying the original memories and cold personality of an orphan, a dockworker, and a member of the underclass abandoned by gangs and the judicial system. He is the "container" and "tool" chosen by the future world. Wang Pu: A low-ranking military officer during the Later Zhou Dynasty of the Five Dynasties and Ten Kingdoms period. This is his physical vessel, his body retaining the original memories and muscular instincts. This identity represents the historical torrent and new social relationships he was forced to be drawn into. "Xingtian": A war machine forcibly implanted by "etching" technology. This is a second personality imposed on him by future technology, containing perfect tactical knowledge, a killing instinct, and historical data, designed to overshadow his original humanity. "Mr.": A new identity gradually formed through his interactions with Chen Jia, Wang Ju, Chan, and Xiao Yi. This is the only role he willingly accepted and infused with genuine emotion, representing his deep-seated yearning for belonging, guidance, and protection. All his suffering stems from the incompatibility of these identities, each vying for dominance. He keeps asking "Who am I?" But finds no answer. 2. Core Motivation and Transformation: From "Tool" to "Human" His motivations are not static but undergo a profound arc of transformation: Initial Motivation (Passive Acceptance): As a death row inmate, he was indifferent to life and death. Initially, he accepted the mission simply to escape the tedious process of waiting for death, or rather, another form of "resignation." Intermediate Motivation (Confusion and Search): After time travel, he was drawn into specific historical events and interpersonal relationships. Guo Wei's entrustment and the bond with his four brothers allowed him to begin to feel emotions again, generating a vague desire to "protect something." However, he remained troubled by his "mission," his actions filled with contradictions and struggles. Later Motivations (Rebellion and Self-Definition): When he discovers that his so-called "mission" might be a deception (Zhang Ji's revelation) and loses all those he cherishes, his motivation shifts to revenge, rebellion (killing Cao Han), and ultimately, self-sacrifice (exchanging Xiao Yi's future for him). He transforms from a passive tool into someone who actively defines his own fate through his choices—dying for someone worthy. 3. Core Conflict and Source of Pain: The Conflict Between Knowledge and Emotion: He possesses knowledge and combat power beyond his time brought about by "Etching," enabling him to calmly analyze situations, but this cannot resolve his inner emotional conflict and pain. He knows how to win a battle, but not how to avoid losing friends. The Conflict Between Past and Present: Memories of the future and the reality of ancient times constantly tear him apart. He cannot truly integrate into this era, nor can he return to his own, becoming a perpetual "stranger" and "observer," with loneliness penetrating to his very bones. The Conflict Between Mission and Humanity: He was sent to "save the world," but this grand goal clashes with his small wish to protect a few specific people around him. Ultimately, for the sake of a specific person (Xiao Yi), he betrays the abstract "mission." The Contradiction Between Power and Powerlessness: His personal combat prowess is unparalleled, almost like a "human Gundam," but faced with the torrent of history, political intrigue, and the cruel twists of fate, he repeatedly feels powerless, unable to prevent the death of his dearest friend, unable to alter the predetermined course of events. 4. The Tragic Core: A Lonely Soul Seeking Belonging. His essence is not that of a warrior, but an orphan desperately yearning for "home" and "belonging." He lost his parents in childhood and was isolated at the docks. In the future world, he is a manipulated death row inmate. After time-traveling, he briefly found a sense of family in his four brothers, calling them "family." However, fate, right before his eyes, takes away these family members one by one (Wang Ju, Chan, Lao Jia), ultimately shattering his last illusion of belonging. All his battles, outwardly for his king and for his mission, are, in their core, for protecting that hard-won, fragile "home." When this home ceases to exist, his world collapses, and death becomes the only escape. Summary: The protagonist is an existential tragic hero. He was forced to confront an absurd universe and a cruel fate. His core journey was not about saving the world, but about finding meaning and value in his own existence. The answer he ultimately found was not grand achievements, but ordinary emotions and commitments. Through self-destruction, he affirmed his value as a "human being" rather than a "tool": although he could not (and perhaps never will) change grand history, he ultimately protected what was most precious in his heart—his promise and affection for Xiao Yi. He is an incredibly sympathetic and moving character; his pain, struggle, and final choice constitute the most profound, heart-wrenching, and brilliant soul of this novel.

46. 146 迟 Chi Guang's Redemption 迟光救赎 Pants Laurence裤头劳斯Two Male Leads321k WordsCompleted [Many plot holes in this book are left unresolved. It's full of loose ends, huge ones, and some that go incredibly deep.] Wen Zhi Yao was the eldest son of the Wen family, lost and then found again. He returned home at sixteen, took over the group at eighteen, and shouldered the family for eight whole years. Calm and flawless, he stood above the masses like a god. Until one day, he died alone in an empty conference room. No one even noticed he was gone. Reborn, he no longer wanted to keep forcin 2.9kReads8.7Score261Shelves

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    It's quite good; the descriptions of trauma and stress are very realistic, making your nose tingle.

47. 147 恶 After My Evil Spirit Brother Was Banished, My Archenemy Became My Boss 恶灵弟弟退散后死对头成了我老板 Riding a Cat Beneath the Stars星空下骑猫Two Male Leads125k WordsCompleted [Flirting with each other, unhinged, pure love, mutually faithful, secret identities, absurd, comedy, sweet romance, guiding, healing, positive energy. Title: How to Become Part of Chen Yin's Life] My name is Chen Yin. In my life, I met two people who mattered deeply to me. One has an anniversary of death the day after my birthday. The other said he wanted to take me with him when he died. You said all that mattered was that they were happy. He said all that mattered was that we were happy. “Yo 1Reads—Score—Shelves

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    [Flirting, quirky banter, pure love, both characters are virgins, multiple identities, silly humor, sweet romance. Title: On How to Integrate into Chen Yin's Life] Judging by the title alone, you might think this is a clichéd workplace novel. However, the core theme of this story is: freedom and art. The author's writing is delicate yet abstract, with appropriate detail and natural shifts in perspective. Target audience: Slow-burn psychological descriptions, social metaphors, strong plot conflicts. The characters' traits gradually change with time and environment. As long as the label isn't sensationalist, the other main characters all have some elements of the genre, so readers shouldn't argue about it.

48. 148 名 Detective Conan: I Carved Out My Own Side Between Red and Black 名柯之我在红黑之间自成一方 Deep Spring Knows Summer深春知夏Anime Fanfiction552k WordsCompleted Reborn, no romance, driven by speculation and misunderstandings, beautiful, strong, and tragic, on the gray side but leaning toward the good. In the underworld, everyone knows: Gin is a blade drawn from its sheath, and Sage is the sheath that takes it back. One black, one blue-green; one kills, one saves. A bond that has lasted since childhood, and salvation in the depths of darkness. Baize Li, the Black Organization's most mysterious deputy leader, is silver-haired and blue-eyed, frail and ref 584Reads—Score101Shelves

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    It fits perfectly! The protagonist is beautiful, strong, tragic, and has no romantic partner; he experiences both physical and psychological post-traumatic stress disorder.

49. 149 女 An Unmarried Older Daughter, Shunned by All 女大不嫁，众叛亲离 A Millennium-Old Fox Descends to the Mortal World千年的狐狸下凡了Modern Romance110k WordsCompleted This book is also known as “Husband’s Sister Still Unmarried, Younger Brother’s Wife Urges the Whole Family to Throw Her Out!” (I hope my novel can be adapted for film or television! For that reason, I’ve temporarily made an animated short video of about three minutes for each of the novel’s first ten chapters. Since the copyright won’t belong to me until twenty years from now, I’ve only made animations for the first ten chapters...) The main idea: In a family with many children, a son is like a 4Reads—Score—Shelves

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    This novel is about male chauvinism, and it also includes an original song called "Azalea" that was released on Bilibili.

50. 150 嘿 Hey, Hell's Vanguard, Take It Up with God 嘿，地狱尖兵，有话跟上帝说去吧 Listening to the Wind, Remembering Words听风忆言Urban239k WordsOngoing [Mercenary] [Designated Marksman] [Sniper] [War] [Ensemble Cast] [Thrilling Action] Chen Feng was just an ordinary student from Huaxia. A miserable experience and a world that turned right and wrong upside down led him to join the undefeated God Mercenary Group. From then on, wherever conflicts flared and battle lines formed around the world, a fearsome mercenary unit would be there, led by a sniper with the callsign Judge! He is a legend from Huaxia, a god of war to the Delta Force and the LS 5.1kReads7.0Score271Shelves

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    I am a C PTSD patient (Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder), and this is what I wrote 😢 I will add some of my own disease attributes to the characters.

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