My Secret Collection of Tearjerkers, So Heartbreaking I Can't Bear to Read Them Twice 私藏虐文，虐到不敢看第二遍

1. 1 藏 Hidden in Midsummer 藏于盛夏 Autumn Chill秋日凉Modern Romance308k WordsCompleted A heads-up before you start ❗️: One of the side couples is a gay couple, so please skip this if that bothers you. [The print edition under the same title is now available] [Healing × Love that grows over time × Angsty school romance] Sweet, gentle, well-behaved student × rebellious, handsome bad boy That midsummer seemed hotter than any before. The girl in the graduation photo smiled sweetly, with a boy in a white shirt grinning boldly behind her. They met in midsummer, and parted in midsummer t 84.5kReads9.6Score14.8kShelves

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   Highly rated tragic ending novels, the first and fourth books are incredibly heart-wrenching.

2. 2 独 One-Man Show 独角戏 Sui Ying随楹Modern Romance12k WordsCompleted [Signed for simplified Chinese publication] I wish I were brave, but when it comes to loving you, I always feel so unworthy. 415Reads8.8Score109Shelves
3. 3 你 You Broke Your Promise 你失信了 Shi Qingyao十清杳Modern Romance138k WordsCompleted The acclaimed signature work You Broke Your Promise by popular author Shi Qingyao, now with 40,000 new words of never-before-published content! Sensitive girl Xiang Yu VS golden boy Song Huaishi. I had to play out the whole secret-crush story, so I loved him year after year. It was an ordinary day. Just as she closed her eyes, Xiang Yu suddenly thought of Song Huaishi: Song Huaishi, neat in his clothes and radiating warmth. Song Huaishi at seventeen. Still in his school uniform, he leaned lazily 70.1kReads9.5Score12.7kShelves
4. 4 最 The Last Diary Entry 最后一篇日记 Sui Ying随楹Modern Romance13k WordsCompleted [Simplified Chinese edition signed for publication] I only used looking at the flowers as an excuse. All I really wanted was to see you once. 27.1kReads9.1Score4.8kShelves
5. 5 蚀 Captive Love: Mr. Gu's Darling 蚀骨囚宠：顾总的掌中娇 Three Corners, Two Cents三角二分钱Modern Romance918k WordsCompleted He used their marriage as an excuse to keep her by his side, forceful and domineering. He told her that for the rest of her life, she would owe him two lives. During their five years of marriage, Gu Ye tormented Shi Zhizhi until she was barely recognizable. Staying alive became her only bottom line. When he ruthlessly destroyed that last boundary too, Shi Zhizhi laughed through her tears: “Gu Ye, if there’s another life, I’ll never love you again!” Shi Zhizhi died, and Gu Ye was the one who kill 97Reads8.2Score—Shelves

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   These are all my personal favorite angst-filled novels!!! They're so damn angsty.

6. 6 他 He Traded Heart for Heart 他以心换心 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀7k WordsCompleted He Repays Heart with Heart 715Reads—Score—Shelves

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   These tragic stories are just too heartbreaking.

7. 7 蜜 A Long-Planned Scheme: Mr. Mo’s Captive in the Palm of His Hand 蜜谋已久：墨先生的掌心囚 Jing Xu鲸栩Modern Romance701k WordsCompleted Situ Xi miscarried, and Mo Sihan was convinced that Qiao Yi had drugged the food Situ Xi ate. To punish Qiao Yi, Mo Sihan had people dig up the ashes of her recently buried father, Qiao Dongnan, then scattered them himself right in front of her. Before the divorce, Mo Sihan said, “Qiao Yi, what I hate most is that self-righteous, high-and-mighty look of yours, when you’re out there doing such filthy, despicable things!” After the divorce, Qiao Yi rose from the ashes. Mo Sihan knelt outside her d 108Reads6.8Score—Shelves
8. 8 靛 Indigo Butterfly Bones 靛青蝶骨 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀Marriage & Romance6k WordsCompleted Indigo Butterfly Bones 273Reads—Score—Shelves
9. 9 情 A Love That Cuts to the Bone 情深刺骨 The Spring Breeze Remains春风依旧Modern Romance591k WordsCompleted Three years ago, Xu Qingzhi got her wish and married him. From then on, the long years held no more smiles. Three years later, Xu Qingzhi finally gave up on him. From then on, she lost the one she loved, her heart turning to ashes. She loved him with all her heart, but he hated and despised her. Only later did she realize that she had never understood what was in his heart... 291Reads6.5Score—Shelves
10. 10 消 My Missing Mother, My Silent Grandfather, and the “Take Care of It” I Heard That Night 消失的母亲，沉默的爷爷，和那夜我听见的“处理” A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀9k WordsCompleted A mother who vanished, a grandfather who stayed silent, and the word “dispose of” that I heard that night 226Reads—Score—Shelves
11. 11 去 Seven Questions About Going to Cambodia??????? 去柬埔寨七大问？？？？？？？ A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀8k WordsCompleted Seven Big Questions About Going to Cambodia??????? 210Reads—Score—Shelves
12. 12 心 A Steadfast Heart, An Unfading Wind 心实，风不散 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀9k WordsCompleted A True Heart, an Unfading Wind 68Reads—Score—Shelves
13. 13 仙 The Immortal Realm Gossip Weekly 仙界八卦周刊 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀10k WordsCompleted The Immortal Realm Gossip Weekly 44Reads—Score—Shelves
14. 14 我 I’m His Third Substitute 我是他的第三个替身 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀9k WordsCompleted I’m His Third Replacement 112Reads—Score—Shelves
15. 15 师 Abbess, I’m Here! 师太，我来了！ A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀8k WordsCompleted Abbess, Here I Come! 513Reads—Score—Shelves
16. 16 刺 Bone-Chilling 刺骨 Yan Han堰晗Modern Romance909k WordsCompleted Han Zhen is a thorn in Nan Qiao’s throat: pull it out and she bleeds; swallow it and she dies. When they were young, he deceived her. She thought he simply didn’t know how to love. Only later did she understand that when he loved deeply, he was more devoted than anyone. He simply didn’t want to love her. Later, she was stripped to the bone, lost everything, and painfully came back reborn, becoming someone who no longer loved him. 4.1kReads8.2Score318Shelves

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    It's so heartbreaking, so painful that just thinking about it makes my heart ache. I don't dare watch it a second time.

17. 17 阿 Auntie, I Don't Want to Work Hard Anymore ¥¥¥ 阿姨，我不想努力了¥¥¥ A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀Marriage & Romance8k WordsCompleted Auntie, I Don't Want to Work Hard Anymore ¥¥¥ —Reads—Score—Shelves
18. 18 九 The Nine Bestowments 九锡 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀Historical11k WordsCompleted Nine Bestowments 148Reads—Score—Shelves
19. 19 师 The Master’s Wife’s Chaos Body and the String of Events It Set Off 师娘的混沌体，所引发的连串事情 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀8k WordsCompleted A series of events set off by the Shiniang's Chaotic Body —Reads—Score—Shelves
20. 20 这 In This Life, I Just Want to Treat You a Little Better! 这一世，我只想对你更好一些！ A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀8k WordsCompleted In this life, I just want to treat you even better! 735Reads—Score—Shelves
21. 21 运 The Man Who Hauled Provisions Was Made a Prince, While I Was Stripped of My Command 运粮草的被封王，我却被夺了兵权 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀8k WordsCompleted The Man Who Hauled Supplies Was Made a King, While I Was Stripped of My Command 744Reads—Score—Shelves
22. 22 最 The Ten Years I Loved You Most 最爱你的那十年 I'd Rather Die Than Be Without Etiquette无仪宁死Two Male Leads141k WordsCompleted To Jiang Wenxu, He Zhishu was as essential as air and water. He could take him for granted and squander what they had without a second thought, but when he finally lost him, it was too late for regrets. 319Reads9.3Score—Shelves

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    This is probably the most heart-wrenching collection of Tomato's novels, especially the second one, which is incredibly agonizing. Don't read it if you're not prepared; I really couldn't stand Li Jingsheng. Fortunately, Shen Zhichu didn't forgive him later. This should be considered one of the top angst novels. The first book is alright at the beginning, but it gets increasingly heart-wrenching as you read on. You can also check out Yoshimoto's later works; they're all really angsty.

23. 23 这 In This Life, Would You Still Want to Be with Me? 这一世，你还愿意和我在一起吗？ A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀11k WordsCompleted In This Life, Are You Still Willing to Be with Me? 217Reads—Score—Shelves
24. 24 团 The Whole Family’s Little Princess Is Four 团宠囡囡四岁啦 Xin Yiyi辛亿亿Modern Romance1.6M WordsCompleted A brilliant girl with countless secret identities is reborn in the body of a four-year-old toddler and adopted by Lincheng’s richest family. Now she has not only a gentle, smiling CEO for a daddy, but also a stunning, charismatic celebrity for a mommy, along with four brothers whom everyone finds unbearable. At first, her four brothers look at her with disdain. “What even is a little sister? She’ll definitely be ugly and cry all the time! Girls are such a hassle. No, no, we don’t want one. Hurry 907Reads8.6Score157Shelves

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    I don't need to say anything about the first one. Although it's only ten pages long, it's truly heart-wrenching. Some parts aren't even that heart-wrenching, that "group favorite"... He's not a group favorite at all, don't be fooled by the title!!! It's so agonizing 😭 As for "Spring Banquet," I felt there were too many misunderstandings between the male and female leads, which was really quite heartbreaking. Although the ending was quite sweet, the beginning was just too cruel!!!

25. 25 看 Invisible Tenderness! 看不见的温柔！ A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀9k WordsCompleted Invisible Tenderness! 677Reads—Score—Shelves
26. 26 春 Spring Banquet 春日宴 Egrets in Pairs白鹭成双Ancient Romance664k WordsCompleted She kept male favorites and toyed with powerful ministers! For eight years, the arrogant and tyrannical Princess Danyang, Li Huaiyu, wreaked havoc across the court and country. She died on the day the new emperor ascended the throne, bleeding from every orifice in a truly gruesome death. The officials celebrated and the people rejoiced: Evil gets what it deserves! Good riddance! Yet on the seventh day after her death, Princess Danyang returned to life in the body of the Bai family’s Fourth Mis 13.6kReads9.4Score2.3kShelves
27. 27 被 My Husband and Mother-in-Law Set Me Up, and I Snapped 被丈夫和婆婆算计，我怒了 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀9k WordsCompleted My Husband and Mother-in-Law Set Me Up, and I Snapped 207Reads—Score—Shelves
28. 28 墨 Mr. Mo, Your Wife Says You're Crazy 墨总，夫人说你是疯子 The Proud Cat傲娇的猫儿Modern Romance804k WordsCompleted After three years in prison, Lin Xiaohan finally sees daylight again. On her wedding night, she is humiliated in every way and vows to become the CEO's wife. Mo Zhan despises the Lin family, yet loves Lin Xiaohan desperately. “If loving you can't make you stay, then I'll make you hate me. Hate is better than leaving!” “You're insane!” “That's right. Loving you drove me completely mad.” They torment each other even as they fall in love, locked in a bitter romance for years. Will this ill-fated re 287Reads8.4Score—Shelves
29. 29 皇 The Empress Gets Her Revenge on the Spot 皇后有仇当场报 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀Ancient Romance11k WordsCompleted The Empress Gets Her Revenge on the Spot 216Reads—Score—Shelves
30. 30 缅 Reborn: Escaping a Telecom Scam Compound in Northern Myanmar 缅北电诈园重生逃亡记 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀10k WordsCompleted Reborn and Escaping a Telecom Fraud Compound in Northern Myanmar —Reads—Score—Shelves
31. 31 他 He Found My Suicide Note 他捡到了我的遗书 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀8k WordsCompleted He Found My Suicide Note 494Reads—Score—Shelves
32. 32 神 Divine-Grade 神品 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀Eastern Fantasy691k WordsCompleted Three Law Secret Realms have appeared in the underground city of the East Sea, sparking a fierce scramble among countless factions. The reason is that the protagonist possesses the divine ability to make his words come true! He can complete alchemy and artifact crafting with just a thought. And since he also has an immortal artifact, he joins the competition for the secret realms! 398Reads—Score—Shelves
33. 33 萌 The Adorable Baby Is Here: CEO Daddy, You’re Such a Handful 萌宝来袭：总裁爹地太难缠 Sheng Bus hi盛不世Modern Romance2.7M WordsCompleted “Woman, you spent five years in prison. Why are you still so ruthless?” Bo Ye grips her by the throat. “Why wouldn’t I be?” Tang Shi smiles, her eyes reddening. “If I weren’t ruthless, how would I have survived those five years in prison?” Only later does he realize that he owes her an apology. But she is already gone… 4Reads8.8Score114Shelves

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    That should be all.

34. 34 亲 Darling, Victoria Harbour 亲爱的，维多利亚港 Zhou Xian周弦Modern Romance18k WordsCompleted (Print edition signed) “It feels as though we've weathered storm after storm over the years. In this little boat, you and I have drifted for half our lives. I wish every time, the rain would fall on our boat as it carries us home. I love you, so I let you go.” 11.5kReads8.5Score1.7kShelves

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    It's so heartbreaking, I can't bear to watch it a second time. [Crying]

35. 35 以 I Offer My Devotion to the Passing Years 以我深情祭岁月 Er Qiao二乔Modern Romance324k WordsCompleted [The physical book with the same title is now available] “I hesitated once. I turned back to face the slightest glimmer of hope, yet no one cared.” “Later, a thick fog rolled in. You said you loved me so much, but why was your love thinner than the fog, so faint I could barely see it?” Shen Nian 75.3kReads9.4Score6.7kShelves

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    I highly recommend these books, they're so good they made me cry! Every single one of them made me cry! [Crying][crying]

36. 36 最 Nothing Hurts More Than Loving You 最痛不过我爱你 Begonias Before the Rain海棠未雨Modern Romance59k WordsCompleted Zhou Ansheng killed himself, just as she wished. He gave Mrs. Xiao's place to the woman he cherished most. She loved him for so many years, and lost everything: her self-respect and pride, her closest family, her family business, and even the child she had yet to carry to term... Blood from her wrists stained the flowers along the road to the underworld, and every blossom knew how deeply she had loved him! She said, “I hope there is no next life. I hope we never meet again. The most painful thin 25Reads5.4Score199Shelves

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    The second book, in particular, was really heartbreaking.

37. 37 我 I Only Took a Peek at Him 我只偷看他一眼 Zhi Jiu枝玖Anime Fanfiction188k WordsCompleted During the speech by the freshman class representative, Chen Nan fell for Lu Xu at first sight, and for the rest of her life. The pink sunset beyond the window filled the entire sky, like a beautiful landscape painting. The clouds looked drunk, their cheeks flushed with color. Chen Nan held her breath and stole a sidelong glance at Lu Xu. His profile was youthful and striking, and he held his book with perfect posture. A ray of light fell on the yellowed pages, and touched him as well. The dayli 16.8kReads9.6Score3.8kShelves
38. 38 再 No More Years to Look Back On 再无岁月可回首 Zou Mengmeng邹萌萌Modern Romance1.2M WordsCompleted To save him, Sheng Qiao had nearly drained every last drop of blood from her body. But in the end, for the sake of another woman, he wanted to drain her blood, take her kidney, and torture her until she was covered in wounds. “Sheng Qiao, you’re so vicious that even touching you disgusts me,” Li Chenlan said. Three years ago, Li Chenlan pinned the cold-faced young woman against the wall. “Qiaoqiao, can I sleep in our bed tonight instead of on the washboard?” Three years ago, he treated her like 599Reads6.6Score102Shelves
39. 39 入 Entering the Imperial Court 入皇庭 Little Fruit Pear小果梨Ancient Romance686k WordsCompleted [Forced Marriage and Possession, Obsessive Pursuit, Compulsive Love] [The Scheming, Stunning Farm Girl Is Forced into Marriage by the Crown Prince and Made Empress] In her previous life, Lu Xiaotao was an orphan who couldn't read, couldn't tell right from wrong, and spent her days groveling and throwing her weight around. After seducing one of the Crown Prince's subordinates and being abandoned, she became the Crown Prince's woman by a twist of fate. From then on, she served as his consort, reli 10kReads6.9Score791Shelves

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    The heartbreaking aspect of this story lies in the misaligned love between the male and female leads. The male lead, a high-ranking future crown prince, is someone I can understand looking down on the female lead, a shallow orphan girl with only beauty. However, in the early stages, he only treats her as a tool to satisfy his desires, spending his days longing for the most beautiful woman in the capital, his "white moonlight." This disconnect instills fear and anxiety in the female lead. Already lowly and pitiful, she faces numerous assassins outside the Eastern Palace. To survive, she has no choice but to rely on the crown prince. The male lead's aloof attitude slowly drives her to despair, until finally, she commits suicide, leaving behind the male lead who has already realized his feelings. Later, the male lead becomes utterly insane, imprisoning his father, seizing the throne, and sacrificing his heart's blood, all just to see the female lead in his dreams.

40. 40 潇 The Late Sound of Drizzling Rain 潇潇雨声迟 Meng Zhiwan孟栀晚Modern Romance120k WordsCompleted Years after graduation, a gossip post begins circulating on the message board for City Experimental School. The school's 2011 beauty, Ye Xiao, and its most handsome boy from the same year, Ruan Yusheng, are a couple. Their classmates, who know them well, rush over to set the record straight: it's pure rumor. There was never any spark between the two of them. Ye Xiao's profile even says, “Person I hate most: Ruan Yusheng.” People in the know go so far as to say, “Ye Xiao feels nothing but hatred 81.1kReads9.7Score14.1kShelves
41. 41 W WYLM Miao Aoo苗嗷嗷Two Male Leads505k WordsCompleted Boy Band / Everyday Life / ABO / AA Romance / Idols / Friendship / Healing / Gender Swap / Happy Ending Synopsis: If love can't keep me alive, then hate can. But later, there was love, too. “Linlin, your big brother loves you.” “Jinglin, Tongtong will protect you.” “Cheng Jinglin! Look at me! Only look at me!” “Linlin is so pretty. I like you so much~” Ten years of protection, a warm embrace, a blazing fire, and a gentle deception. Do they love Cheng Jinglin, or just this beautiful body? On the 397Reads—Score—Shelves

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42. 42 过 The Art of Deception 过分伪装 Young Master Nanchuan南川少爷Modern Romance128k WordsCompleted [Short tragic romance + fast-paced + bad ending] On a night of torrential rain, Huo Chenyiao pinched her chin and sneered. “For six years, every single day I've thought about how to destroy you.” - He forced her to sign a mistress contract and took what he wanted from her night after night. When he discovered she was pregnant, he personally sent her to the operating table. He didn't know that the strange woman he'd spent the night with at the bar was her. Even less did he know that the ink on he 4.3kReads8.5Score287Shelves
43. 43 沉 Consumed to the Bone 沉溺入骨 Here Comes a Big White One一只大白来了Modern Romance359k WordsCompleted They agreed it would be a “business arrangement”: he would help her pay off fifty million in debt, and she would play along with his act. But Bo Nian couldn’t resist his good looks. She became addicted to him, only to discover that he was hiding a girl and protecting her fiercely. He even went so far as to take her bone marrow for that girl. Only then did Bo Nian face reality: she would never be able to warm his heart. He said, “I can’t be responsible for what happens to other people. Life and 693Reads8.2Score103Shelves
44. 44 终 At Last, I Admit Defeat 终于愿赌服输 Spring Thunder Cannon春雷炮Modern Romance50k WordsCompleted “Why couldn't you be the one who got sick?” “Why couldn't you be the one who died?” With drunken eyes, the man bends down and whispers the most heartless words in the gentlest voice. But he doesn't know that she really is going to die. 13.8kReads8.2Score901Shelves
45. 45 这 He’s Clearly Powerful, Yet He Insists on Messing with His Loli Master 这个人明明很强却偏要坑萝莉师傅 A Salty Fish c一条咸鱼cEastern Fantasy1.3M WordsCompleted Archmage Lin En transmigrated to another world. To keep the gods from treating him like a crop to be harvested, he disguised himself as a mage apprentice in Winter Spring Valley and decided to stay under the radar until he reached max level. But who could have guessed that his loli master could hear his thoughts? “Disciple, what do you think of this forbidden spell of mine?” [Kindergarten-level stuff. I don't even know if one splash of water could hurt anyone.] “Disciple, with five hundred more 30.9kReads9.6Score3.4kShelves

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    Look at the first one first, then the second one.

46. 46 异EN Another World: My Life Has Cheat Codes! 异世界：我的人生开了挂！ A Salty Fish c一条咸鱼cEastern Fantasy5.9M WordsCompleted [Vampires, werewolves, technology, potions, ghosts, biohumans, divination, puppets, and every terrifying element you can imagine: this world has them all.] Lin En transmigrated into such a bizarre otherworld and became an apprentice at a potion shop. "Something is wrong with that man! He never uses anesthetic when performing surgery!" "That shop is a scam! The moment you go in, they find a pile of illnesses even if you are perfectly healthy!" "But wait, isn't that shop supposed to be the bes 138.4kReads9.6Score16.9kShelves
47. 47 黑 Hei Ye's Gorgeous, Strong, Tragic Beauty Can No Longer Hide His Secret Identity! 黑爷家的美强惨马甲不保啦！ Heated Lemon Water加热柠檬水Two Male Leads341k WordsCompleted [Secret identities + universally adored + shipping your own CP] Many years ago, Jiang Xu transmigrated into the body of Hei Xiazi’s younger brother. In the end, however, Hei Xiazi killed him amid the curses of everyone around him. After the System brought him back to life, Jiang Xu geared up from head to toe, donned a secret identity, and joined the main storyline so he could destroy the Wang family’s computational system. He’d planned to push Wu Xie to grow while posing as a stranger, and sneak 19.8kReads9.5Score3.2kShelves
48. 48 请 My Lord, Grant Me a Lovesick Gu 请君赐我相思蛊 Gu Shisan顾十三Ancient Romance56k WordsCompleted When they were young, Jun Wuye and Yun Ji both believed in love. She once vowed to live and die with him, but love could never overcome schemes and deceit. One misunderstanding, and they were parted for life. Her family was destroyed, her brother was brutally killed, her child miscarried, and both her legs were crippled. “Jun Wuye, did you ever love me at all?” On the city wall, dressed in a wedding gown red as blood, she spoke in a voice full of grief. He slashed her wedding gown with his sword 87Reads6.2Score—Shelves

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    My goodness, I can only fit eight books. I can fill her up with eighty!

49. 49 鲸 Whale Fall into the Abyss 鲸落深渊 The Evil Dragon Blows Bubbles恶龙吹泡泡Two Male Leads39k WordsCompleted Little fish, little fish, may you swim out of the abyss soon. His younger brother, whom he had raised by hand despite no blood relation, sent him to a detention center for two years to “set him straight” and told him to come out once he was normal. Those two years were a nightmare that devoured him, one he could never wake from. His body and mind were tormented, his feelings worn away, and he was trained into numb, hopeless submission. “Knowing you raised me makes me sick. Why don’t you just die 23.4kReads8.1Score4kShelves

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    This is absolutely unbelievable; he was personally sent to a rehabilitation center...

50. 50 痴 After the Foolish Emperor Turned Evil, the Prince Was Forced into Love 痴傻皇帝黑化后，王爷被强制爱了 Su Mu Yijin苏木一槿Two Male Leads391k WordsOngoing [Two male leads # equally matched powerhouses # physical and emotional angst # love and hate # imprisonment # groveling redemption # mutually unhinged] A gloomy, unhinged emperor top × a cunning, patient prince bottom He was once a regent who held power over the entire court, feared and respected for his iron fist. Later, he became the new emperor’s hidden captive, kept on his bed and out of sight. His legs were broken and he was shackled. The regent who once looked down upon the world became 5.2kReads8.7Score395Shelves

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