Fake Eunuch: I Slept with Wu Zetian for Thirty Years

My name is Yang Yin, a young eunuch from the Ministry of Internal Affairs of the Tang Dynasty, and the most trusted person of Emperor Wu Zhou. But no one knows that I am a fake eunuch. No one knows that her relationship with me is more than that of a monarch and a minister. The first time she called me to stay with her was in the third year of Yonghui's reign. After that night, she had Li Hong. The last time she saw me was in the first year of Shenlong. Before that night, she hadn't let me touch her for thirty years. During those thirty years, she became the queen, and I became her most trusted supervisor. We are kings and ministers in the court, and in the middle of the night we are... I can't tell what. When she killed Li Hong, I knelt outside Hebi Palace. When she killed Li Xian, I received a letter. Before she died, she held my hand and said, "Yang Yin, I hate you." I was stunned. She said: "I hate you for making me unable to live without you, I hate you for making me kill my son, and I hate you for making me remember only you in the end." She closed her eyes and a tear slipped from the corner of her eye. I held her hand from late night to dawn. By daybreak she was already cold.