Please Let Me Meet You

[Told in the first person and adapted from real experiences. The plot takes a major turn due to real-life circumstances; thank you for understanding.] (The “Longing for You” arc: romance, mutual healing, secret love, angst) (The “Yearning for Him” arc: man pursues woman, older woman/younger man, wealthy families, open love, sweet romance) Cong Xican has had three relationships. At different ages, she fell for three different men, yet never once got to wear a wedding dress in this lifetime. Once, they all imagined her dressed in a wedding gown. But in the end, even she never got to see herself wearing one. She began to dread hearing people say they loved her. It made her think of You Miao, Jiang Yanran, and Qu Sizhuo, whom she had hurt. Maybe she was simply never meant to be loved. None of those who loved her ever got the happy ending they wished for. But she could not die yet. Her life had been given to her by others, once by You Miao and once by Jiang Yanran. “Canchan, my beloved, a man named You Miao only hopes you’ll be happy forever, no matter who you’re with or where you are.” “I’m sorry. I’ve always thought you deserved to be a little happier. That happiness doesn’t have to come from me. I clung to you for nine years, but in this last year, I won’t ask for anything more.” “Cong Xican, if there’s a next life, I hope even your tears will be tears of happiness.” He spent ten years teaching me how to love myself; he watched nine years’ worth of first snowfalls with me; he used the four years he had with me to make sure I would never believe in love again. In the end, I wish the leading men who appeared in my life long lives, one-of-a-kind happiness, bright futures, and everything they could ever wish for...