Like Horse Girls? I Am One Myself!

Only at the end did I realize that I still prefer dumplings to a tragic ending. I didn't want to see wandering souls lose their last refuge, nor did I want to see newly born, timid souls lose their support. They walked such a long road, overcoming so many difficulties, before finally understanding each other's feelings. Zhang Lian respected Yi Renlian's independence and understood her fears, yet he had to watch her force herself to accept the death she feared. What gave her the courage to face death was Zhang Lian's love for her. And Zhang Lian, since transmigrating, hadn't had a moment's rest. After so many hardships, just when they finally began to truly confront their feelings for each other... When Zhang Lian learned of this devastating news, he was about to lose Yi Renlian. This girl had once been so afraid of death, yet when Zhang Lian learned of her impending doom, she pretended to be nonchalant and tried to comfort him. How could Zhang Lian not be heartbroken? His motivation for understanding Yi Renlian's past fears and her current attempts to comfort him stemmed entirely from her love for him. Their love for each other was so profound. He had shouldered so many responsibilities, and now he was about to lose his true, only person who understood all his pain and struggle—his only support in this other world. Watching this made my heart ache and convulse. Alas, I came from another book about two souls in one body. Well, I only realized this book was already on my bookshelf and finished when someone recommended it. To be honest, compared to the book I read, the author's writing style is somewhat chaotic, making me feel like this book had been heavily revised when I started reading. However, the twisted emotions largely compensate for this chaos, and in some scenes, this chaos even better expresses the characters' turmoil caused by overwhelming emotions. But the person who recommended this book is also right; the author seems to have some malice towards their characters, saying the book has "artsy" elements, an open-ended tragic ending, and descriptions of severe depression and schizophrenia. I understand that this might be true. These settings are meant to facilitate the author's development and plot advancement, but I found them incredibly difficult to read. However, they don't quite fit the novel's flaws; they feel more like the feelings of a bystander who watched their struggles unfold only to have them end up tragically. I could only feel anger at the author's (fate's) cruelty towards them, yet also immense pity for them. Because I came for the "one soul, two bodies" concept, most of the content focused on Zhang Lian and Yi Renlian. Sigh, I'm truly heartbroken, yet I don't know what I'm trying to express. But I feel uncomfortable not writing it down, hence this long, incoherent passage. I hope future readers will be less critical of me. But in the end, I still want to say goodnight, Yirenlian, Zhang Lian, you are truly amazing!

The book that made my stomach hurt the most.