Celebrating More Than One Year

This book is many years old. Unlike back then when the comment section was filled with applause, now there seems to be a lot more controversy. Let me tell you briefly. The early stage of this book is a relatively standard novel. The protagonist is in Danzhou, Kyoto, going to the Northern Qi Dynasty, and going to the south of the Yangtze River... Except for the strong literary youth flavor in the writing, it is nothing special compared to the male-video novels more than ten years ago. It seems that Tu Yile is okay, but it is somewhat out of touch with the current tastes of bookworms. But what makes this book transcend the limitations of the times is that from the middle to late period, starting from the "Dadongshan Incident", the story began to rush all the way towards the climax. Since then, almost all of them have become classics, and each chapter has famous quotes. The reason is also very simple. Readers' taste of story elements will change with the times, but the fast-paced plot development in the novel that rises to the height of philosophy and ethics has been everlasting since "The Count of Monte Cristo". Some people often criticize that there is a partial disconnect between the later thoughts of this book and the actions of the protagonist. But considering the commercial nature of this book, it is completely understandable. Because if he really wanted to write a "Les Misérables", Mao Ni would starve to death before the book was completed because he had no money to eat. Mao Ni himself also knows that it is difficult to strike a balance between commercialization and artistry, so he borrowed the words of the protagonist and wrote very straightforwardly, "This is not a truth debate, it is just to settle personal grudges." But starting from this seemingly flimsy announcement, the discussion about power in the book becomes more and more intense, the description of human nature becomes more and more penetrating, and the description of various contradictions becomes more and more explicit. At this time, Mao Ni almost gave up on any general writing style of YY novels, and regarded himself as an artistic creator. While enjoying the process of writing a book, he told readers, "You read slowly, and I will write slowly." Towards the end, the protagonist group sets foot on the snow mountain temple. At this time, there is no fighting, no martial arts secrets, and magic weapons and props. There is only a trip to the museum, an AI that thinks of itself as a god, two mortals who have smashed their faith into rubble, a humanoid robot, and a lonely soul who has traveled through time. Here, when readers see Thirteenth Wang smashing his master's ashes against the temple gate, and then seeing him sitting in front of the temple gathering the ashes into a handful again, their understanding of this person immediately reaches a new level. There are many similar descriptions in the later part of the book, and a few strokes can lift a character's soul to a new height. What's more, this book also has Chen Pingping. I won't go into details about how important and brilliant this role is. Let me talk about the Control Yuan here. The so-called Supervisory Yuan that "supervises all officials and the emperor" has long turned into a secret service agency that worships Chen Pingping. Except for the fact that the title of emperor was changed to supervisory council, there is nothing advanced in terms of the times. The book describes this irony straightforwardly. Mao Niang also coldly placed this scene after Chen Pingping said "Supervise hundreds of officials and supervise the emperor", truly showing the weight of the wheel of history before the readers' eyes. If you want to solve a problem, you must first know how difficult it is. Nowadays, many works claim to describe advanced education and the liberation of the mind, but they are written in a light and airy way, as if the liberation of the mind only requires wearing a high-class suit, sitting in a conference room for a meeting, standing on the podium to give a speech, and printing a few newspapers to distribute. As a result, the minds of the audience were liberated - whether they were literate or not, whether they had a critically ill mother at home, whether their parents had debts, whether they would have enough to eat tomorrow, or whether they would freeze to death and be eaten by wild dogs on the street the day after tomorrow. In the end, the work was reduced to a joke about why I don't eat minced meat, but I also complained that the readers' experience was too poor. In contrast, Chen Pingping faced the backward thinking and backward productivity of the entire feudal era. Although she had already faced the imperial power, she could not single-handedly lead the Supervisory Council and make them independent-minded people, so the dragon slayer eventually became an evil dragon. How sad, but also thought-provoking. Online novels written more than ten years ago can be written to this extent. It's really not easy.

In the end, I still couldn't understand the emotional motivation behind Fan Xian's break with Emperor Qing. He actually didn't hate Emperor Qing at all, but everyone forced him to kill him, so he went. He accepted Chen Pingping's kindness to him, and Fan Jian's kindness to him, but he refused to accept Emperor Qing's kindness. There were always a lot of excuses, saying that Emperor Qing could not accept this or believe it. He could understand that Chen Pingping wanted to kill Emperor Qing, but Emperor Qing wanted to kill Chen Pingping just like I didn't care and I didn't listen. Emperor Qing always gave in and tolerated Fan Xian, and Fan Xian always relied on this to kill him. All the people in the book who showed kindness to Fan Xian were rewarded by Fan Xian, except Emperor Qing. Someone who understands it can help me explain it. Fan Xian's reaction to Emperor Qing in the book is very distorted and inconsistent, so that it made me very painful to read it at the end of the book. All the sacrifices of life and death are a bit hollow. The most contradictory thing is Fan Xian's own mentality when he made the final assassination. It was obviously an uncertain attempt, and it would be okay even if he lost, but he also showed a desperate attitude regardless of life or death. If it's all-or-nothing, you shouldn't have a trying mentality. If you're trying, don't force yourself to move forward. It's this ubiquitous feeling of contradiction between standing and standing that makes me very uncomfortable 😭

I really can't stand it anymore, one thing! God TM Yi Chun, the word "Chun" in ancient times refers to Chun wood or parents! I really admire this author who wants to show off his cleverness

I only read the novel after watching the TV series. The novel is really not good. The TV series was adapted very successfully. I still like the humorous Wang Qinian and Fan Xian. I can't appreciate this novel. Don't talk too much about the beautiful and clean faces. They all know it.

Personal interpretation, please understand. I read this book when I was in high school. I had no income at that time. I went to a street stall and bought several second-hand books after being recommended by a senior in the club. It has been seven or eight years now, and I have forgotten almost all of the plot. Uncle Wu Zhu and Chen Pingping have deep memories. This time the version of the drama came out, I reviewed it again and came up with a lot of ideas. The following is a drama review. It is my personal opinion. The original work still has some missing plots due to memory. There may be discrepancies. Please forgive me. Time 2020-01-08 To be honest, I have been really busy recently, but I still want to write a review of the Qing Yu Nian drama. In fact, this drama was well shot. People who read the original work are quite satisfied with it, but there are still some things I want to talk about. The first point is about the protagonist Fan Xian. Personally, the Fan Xian in the drama version and the Fan Xian in the novel can actually be said to be two different people. Fan Xian in the original work is more like an ordinary person. He is more selfish and indifferent. He does not have a great dream like Ye Qingmei. He only thinks about his own happy life. He is more indifferent and alienated towards irrelevant people, while he either favors or protects important people. Even, he has some bad qualities, such as being disconnected from several women, Wan'er is the white moonlight at the heart, the maid is the small heater, Haitang is the confidante, Si Lili and Zhan Doudou are in love, and even his sister Ruoruo has some unique possessiveness ... Therefore, in Mao Da novels, I think at least female readers definitely don't like Fan Xian very much. This is a romantic young man who is extremely well reincarnated and has precocious wisdom. He naturally has a kind heart and tenacity, but he is just an ordinary person. Mao Da sometimes likes to create the kind of "ordinary" protagonists who use their wisdom to seize all luck and live a carefree and carefree life. Their philosophy is usually "What does a flood have to do with me after I die?" In fact, this kind of talent is the most common ordinary person, but the story portrays an extreme. Fan Xian is like this, Ning Que is like this, Xu Le and Changsheng are warmer. But no matter which way, there is nothing wrong with such a person's way of life. After all, ordinary people have no obligation to be a saint who worries about everything. Mao Da said that he likes Fan Xian very much, because he is us, everyone, and an ordinary person. Fan Xian is indeed like this, so real, so cute and hateful at the same time. However, in Wang Juanda's drama, Fan Xian is warmer. He cares about Teng Zijing's life and death, and cares about equality. When he saw Ye Qingmei's stone tablet, he didn't feel that this thought was noble and ethereal, but felt that it was valuable and warm. These two thoughts are completely different. The former is more realistic. In fact, we all know that Ye Qingmei's thoughts belong to the Utopia, while Fan Xian in the original work is more considerate of reality. Fan Xian in the drama is standing on the street, and for a moment he feels that the world is extremely beautiful. He says that he just wants to live an ordinary life, but he also yearns for the world described by Ye Qingmei. In the play, Fan Xian interacts more with Lin Wan'er, but still maintains a certain distance from the other female characters. In the play, Fan Xian cares about his promise with Si Lili, and can be moved by Sean's last tenderness. He is a truly good person. Therefore, the drama version of Fan Xian is more likable. In addition, the role of the eldest princess and the plot of her meeting Wan'er before she was demoted is also very good. We finally saw a mother who did the same thing as Chen Pingping, stripping away the relationship for protection and avoiding involvement. In the play, Wan'er asked her, since you love me, why can't you not do those things for me? If Fan Xian asked Chen Pingping this question, it would be whether he could protect him without avenging Ye Qingmei? In fact, the answers to both are similar. Personally, I have always felt that parents have the happiness of their parents, and children have the happiness of their children. For the eldest princess, she loves her daughter in her heart, but she also has her own pursuits, and it is impossible to say that she should give up her pursuits and way of life for her daughter. The same goes for Chen Pingping. Of course he loves Fan Xian, and it can be said that he loves Fan Xian no less than Fan Jian and Fei Jie. But he also wants to repay Ye Qingmei's kindness and seek an explanation for the person he cares about most. This is what he has been doing for the rest of his life after Ye Qingmei's death. It is his way of survival. If he gives up, then he may feel that life is meaningless. In the previous topic, many people discussed who among Fan Xian's fathers was the best to Fan Xian. In fact, except Emperor Qing, Chen Pingping, Fan Jian, and Fei Jie were all very good to Fan Xian. It is true that Fan Jian and Chen Pingping are attracted by Ye Qingmei, but in fact Fan Xian himself also likes them. In the play, the only disagreement is probably Fan Xian's attitude towards Chen Pingping. At least in the first season, what I saw was suspicion and suspicion. In the original Mao Da, Fan Xian felt close and trustworthy as soon as he met Chen Pingping, and there was trust from the beginning. Some people may find it unreasonable, but the first thing Fan Xian saw when he opened his eyes was this man and Wu Zhu. After that, Fei Jie taught him various things about the Inspection Institute. Who sent Fei Jie? It's Chen Pingping! Later Wu Zhu told him that the people who cared most about Ye Qingmei's death were Chen Pingping and Fan Jian. They were Ye Qingmei's old comrades-in-arms. If they were all involved in this situation, how could Fan Xian still doubt Chen Pingping? Definitely not! And later on, Chen Pingping pampered him and broke off the relationship with him, but she still left the slightest trace to let Fan Xian know: Don't worry Zaizai, daddy will always love you! So in the end, when Chen Pingping died, Fan Xian felt pain to his bones, because he always knew that this old man loved him, loved him very much, and loved him with his life. This kind of Chen Pingping did not live like "Snape" because Fan Xian had always understood him, understood him, respected and loved him. They are not Potter and Snape, they are Fan Xian and Chen Pingping. But in the play, when Fan Xian met Chen Pingping for the first time, he was distrustful and guessing. Later, when he went to Northern Qi as an envoy, after Sean's instigation, Fan Xian's identity was adapted here. It felt like Chen Pingping and Sean were playing a game, but the chess piece was Fan Xian. Thinking of this, Fan Xian became more suspicious of Chen Pingping's intentions. In the original work, Fan Xian himself wanted to know the secret of the temple. In the play, it seems that the emperor and Chen Pingping used Fan Xian to obtain this secret. After thinking carefully, Fan Xian will definitely doubt Chen Pingping. The knot will be difficult to untie later. After all, in order to separate the relationship, Chen Pingping had to "kill" Fan Xian several times. I don't know what Wang Juanda wrote next... But for me personally, it's really hard to settle down here. Because, I think anyone can suspect and misunderstand Chen Pingping, but I don't think that person is Fan Xian... In the novel, Pingping was free and happy when he died. He did what he wanted to do, and he was ruthless. Emperor Qing felt a stab in his heart. He felt that he could meet Xiao Zizi openly. Fan Xian, his favorite child, also understood and respected him. He was raised to have the ability to live a carefree life, so he died without regrets. But in the play, I don't know the step-by-step foreshadowing. Even if Fan Xian finally understands why Chen Pingping did what he did, how long can he stay with Chen Pingping, or will he not know until his death how much this person endures humiliation, just like Professor Snape? In that case, Pingping will really be lonely for a long time...

There are a thousand Hamlets in the eyes of a thousand people. What I am commenting on is Chen Pingping in my own heart. The interpretation is limited by the original work in memory and personal life experience, so please do not delve into it further. Following: In fact, many non-Mao Da original fans or drama fans may fall in love with Pingping because of teacher Wu Gang's interpretation. They have not finished reading the original work or even read the explanation about Chen Pingping in the final epilogue of Mao Da. So I wrote this personal interpretation. Discussions are welcome, but negative fans and quarrels are rejected. 1. Regarding Sean, some people think that he is taking advantage of Fan Xian. Pingping withdrew the black cavalry to deceive Emperor Qing. He thought Fan Xian had brought the gun and thought Wu Zhu was with Fan Xian. In short, he thought Fan Xian would not be in too much danger and was not using Fan Xian at all. In addition, deceiving Sean that Fan Xian is his son is a plot adapted by the screenwriter. There is no plot in the original work. In the original work, Fan Xian himself also wanted to know the secret of the temple. Why did Chen Pingping need to use him? Without the adaptation, Fan Xian would never have suspected that much... 2. When Chen Pingping died, many people said that he forced Fan Xian to break with Emperor Qing, and that he kidnapped Fan Xian's life. First of all, Chen Pingping valued love and justice, Ye Qingmei was his confidant, and Emperor Qing was his master. He spared Emperor Qing's life with one pair of legs to fulfill the kindness of his master and servant. Then he spent all the rest of his life and his own life to repay Ye Qingmei's kindness. Yes, he loves Fan Xian. Is it because he loves Fan Xian that he has to give up what he pursues in his life? Are you going to give up on seeking justice for your confidant? He didn't force Fan Xian to kill his father, but he couldn't live with peace of mind. He just wanted to ask Emperor Qing, can your conscience be at peace? Why did he have to live in a corner for Fan Xian, unable to seek justice for his close friend and watch Emperor Qing enjoy his old age? Emperor Xu Qing was so unkind that he was not allowed to question his conscience? What is moral kidnapping? He paved the way for Fan Xian to gain both fame and fortune, gave Fan Xian the real power of the Procuratorate, and pretended to break up so that Fan Xian could be trusted by Emperor Qing. With so much protection and training, Fan Xian had already had the ability to protect himself, and he didn't have to settle accounts with Emperor Qing. Isn't this enough? Moreover, even if Fan Xian goes to settle accounts with Emperor Qing, Fan Xian is still able to protect himself. The remaining possibility of life-threatening danger is his fate that Chen Pingping cannot decide. On the other hand, if you think about it, even if he doesn't ask Emperor Qing to retire obediently, will everyone say that no one will avenge Ye Qingmei's revenge? There are not many people who would praise Chen Pingping as Fan Xian for holding back what he has been pursuing for the rest of his life. Is it true that parents are only required to pay for their children, and parents are not allowed to pursue their own freedom of belief? It's really ridiculous and sad... In this drama, Lin Waner asked her mother, why can't you not do those things you did for me. We have to say that the eldest princess did not give Lin Waner much care, but she also stayed away from her for her safety. Has Lin Waner done much for her mother? No, but the eldest princess didn't say that I didn't want you to live well after I gave birth. This is moral kidnapping. She wants the eldest princess to give up her career, the man she loves, and her life path for her. Why? I really feel that it is moral kidnapping to ask a person who loves to give up everything for the one he loves, even his ideals and beliefs in life. I offer this sentence: It is a blessing to choose one path in life, never give in, never change, and go all the way to the end. I feel that all free souls do not have to give up their pursuit of life for anyone and bravely insist on following their own path.

I came here to watch the TV series, and I think the TV series is better. I don't like multiple female protagonists, so I was very disappointed with the novel!

Is the novel better than the TV series?

It's really beautiful and I can't stop watching it.

Let's start with an overall evaluation, which is anticlimactic. There is a place that feels like the tip of the head, which really makes people feel. It can be said that you can touch a corner of the Red Building. But the backend is still a bit disappointing. First of all, let's not talk about time travel, the force system, crackling. Time travel is actually nothing. Isn't Dream of Red Mansions a time travel story? Are there any key points in the full text of the force system? The protagonist suddenly reaches the ninth level? These are all things that actually don't matter. Like tasteless. I think the really good part of this work is the section from Fan Xian's fight with the eldest princess to the death of the eldest princess. This is the most cutting-edge part of the work. There are plots, conspiracies, and general trends. Although there are some things that don't make sense, it still does not prevent it from being a top-notch place. Why, because there is a shadow of the Dream of Red Mansions here, a kind of sadness of a feudal big shot. The eldest princess's, the prince's, the second prince's, Fan Xian's, etc. Sometimes when I read it, I really feel a strange feeling, sadness mixed with anger but unable to do anything. The Emperor's family is ruthless, but it also has flesh-and-blood parts and happiness mixed in it (it's also very fun to read pornographic novels, as evidenced by Dream of Red Mansions). It can be said that the first half of the book is full of red buildings. I think the author really read this part and wrote it very well. The later part about going to the prairie is strange and short. According to me, it doesn't matter if I cut it off. Going back to Dongyi City, it's not the best, but it's okay. I feel like the author wants to talk about something. It seems like it might be related to Dao. It's okay. Anyway, it means that Fan Xian shouldn't be a great master. The great masters are all lazy people who have abandoned their emotions. Fan Xian has a gun and five bamboos. As the protagonist, he should be a flesh-and-blood person. The writing about Chen Pingping is also very touching, but it is just touching. When it comes to going to the temple and killing Emperor Qing, it falls behind, just like dozens of episodes after Dream of Red Mansions. I feel like it's not working, and I even want to skip watching it. In short, the work fell short, as I said, the ending of the book ended without thinking about it. In fact, the rest of the book was not easy to write, it was difficult to write. Even if I was asked to come up with a good and clichéd ending, I couldn't come up with it, but I knew the ending was not good. Alas, those who travel a hundred miles are half-ninety.

I have watched the TV series and it is the best among all the web adaptations. It is worth it.

Qing Yu Nian was too depressing for me to watch, but I really like this style of work, which is close to human beings but not like human beings, at least not infuriating. Strategies are all good, but the key lies in the details. In reality, it is impossible for us to get everything right and without missing any steps. But what I have learned is to think first before taking action, so that I can be more prudent. I should finish reading the trilogy, celebrate more than one year, stay away from each other, and look up to the sky. Personally, I feel that Fan Xian is a passionate person, passionate like ruthless, ruthless like sentient. If you live too tiredly and live in a dark place, people will also become dark. For Chen Pingping, she is also a very protective person. It is almost impossible to find such a person in reality. His composure is what I particularly admire about him. I just like the kind of situation where the overall control does not deviate from my own expectations. For Emperor Qing, as a villain, there must be something pitiful about a hateful person. He is too strong and too confident, and he cannot tolerate the Qing Kingdom or even the world not being under his control. So he is lonely, and he kills the people who can make him not lonely one by one, just to prove to his unknown self that the world belongs to him, and poor people must be hateful. His father has been the least likely to inherit the throne since he was a child. He originally had nothing. Until Ye Qingmei appeared, the entire Qing Kingdom belonged to him. So he is ruthless and selfish.

The TV series is wonderful. If you go back and read the book again, the book will be even more exciting!

Very good, the TV series is not as good as the original work

Hallucination, hallucination, the book that was written more than ten years ago is now popular, the old one has been forgotten, let's play with a new account, the TV series with the author participating in the adaptation is indeed funnier than the original work, the rhythm is reasonable, a rare good book, a good author, a good director, and a good actor!

It's so cleverly written. I regret not reading this novel earlier. I only found out about it once I saw my sister watching the TV series "Qing Yu Nian". It's a bit regretful.

After watching the TV series, I went back to read the book. It's rare these days that the book is good and the movie has a good adaptation😊

I watched the TV series. Please read it. I think the novel is more exciting than the TV series.

I haven't read the novel, but the TV series is surprisingly good. I can watch it. I was planning to continue watching Conan, but suddenly it popped up and I saw it was adapted from the novel, so I wasn't even ready to watch it. I also saw a few veteran drama stars, so I clicked on it and ended up watching 6 episodes. I'm ready to follow the series for the first time. I am following the drama adapted from the novel. When Nirvana in Fire was so popular and it still starred Hu Ge, I didn't pursue it because it was a subject I didn't like. I haven't read the novel to celebrate this year. I surprisingly thought it was good. I want to read the novel. You said it was in 2007, so forget it -_-|| Let's wait for the TV series

One of the best books I have read in the past three years. After reading the novel and watching the TV series, I came back and read the novel again.

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I came to read the novel after watching the TV series. The plot is really exciting and my imagination is really wide open👍

It's so well written, especially the ending, which is particularly exciting!

Dear book lovers, due to the popularity of the TV series, Qing Yu Nian's book review area has become lively again recently. Everyone's enthusiasm has once again made this old book, which was completed ten years ago, top the best-seller list again and again. Some of the comments are in favor of the book, and some prefer the TV series. Of course, most of them like both the book and the TV series. Everyone has their favorites, and this is normal, so everyone can express their opinions freely without attacking each other. ‌As the old cat said: "Adaptation is better than no modification, but if the modification is good, of course that is what we are pursuing." ‌Finally, I would like to say that the current Douban score of TV is 8.0. Book lovers are welcome to rate it more. After all, it is not easy for our online drama adaptation to get this score. We still hope that it will get better and better in the future.

When he was really bored, he would ask the nurse to hold up the hospital bed, and then just stare blankly at the busy people walking back and forth in front of him: doctors, nurses, family members... He just felt that he was so out of tune with them. It was like a grain of sand was thrown into the sea. The sea did not change much, but the sand clearly felt that it was so incompatible with everything around it, but it could not resist. I can only be carried away by the sea and go to unknown distances. But the world can only see the rise and fall of the tide, but cannot feel the sorrow of a grain of sand. Is this loneliness? He doesn't know. He only knows that the book talks about seven emotions, six desires and eight sufferings, but what is loneliness? Is it happiness, anger, sorrow, joy, love, hatred, desire, or parting from love, meeting resentment and hatred, not being able to ask for something, flaming five Yins, birth, old age, illness, and death? The more he looked at the busy people around him, the more he hated his own incompetence. Seeing their joy, anger and sorrow, I couldn't empathize or feel deeply. However, just watching them laugh and make trouble in silence, I also laughed, as if I was really happy and happy, not lonely at all. But why? Are you always smiling and laughing, but tears fall from the corners of your eyes? Fan Xian himself didn't know. Fan Xian just lay silently like this. The rain slowly stopped, and the snores of the patients also became weaker. On the contrary, the sound of the clock passing by was so clear in this chaotic darkness. He just listened silently to the sound of the ticking second hand crossing the surface. His mind was in chaos, and time was also in chaos. The past, present, and future are close to each other, intersect with each other, and are separated from each other. It begins with the Big Bang and ends with the end of the world. Fan Xian lay like this, always feeling that he was independent of the world and time. You don't know how long it has been, seconds, minutes, or hours? Perhaps, a short moment has passed, just a moment, or perhaps a long time has passed, and the vicissitudes of the world have passed, the years have become monuments, and eternity has turned into nothingness. He doesn't know, he only knows that everything is meaningless at this moment. "God, God, Buddha, or anything else, can you give me a chance to live again? I also want to stand firmly on the ground, I also want to be able to run and jump, and I also want... To see with my own eyes the scenery that was talked about in Haikou..." In the deepest midnight, Fan Xian finally collapsed. Tears rushed out uncontrollably, and then ran down his cheeks little by little, wetting the pillow into patches. At this moment, the heartstring that had been tight for more than ten years was finally broken, allowing him to cry freely, like a child. After crying bitterly, Fan Xian fell into a deep sleep, like a child. And what he doesn't know is that maybe God has mercy and when he wakes up the next day, he will really get a chance to live a new life, starting from a child. ...... Years have passed in a flash. It seems that in just a snap of a finger, Fan Xian has spent four years in this world, starting from a child. He can run again and jump again. When no one was around, no one knew how he would laugh, make noise, and then shed tears, as if he were crazy. Unknowingly, some things from the previous life have gradually become blurred, but there are always some things that cannot be forgotten, like a thin film between him and this life. He knew this was something that could never go away: the secret of his rebirth. Because of this, he could never open his heart to the world.

Just like Truman in The Truman Show. But unlike Truman, Truman can at least discover the falseness of the world he is in, and then resolutely take a boat ride, find the exit, and go to the real world. And he was really afraid if he opened his heart to others and told this secret. Then, the next second, the world will shatter with a "bang". It turns out that these are just a dream that is too real. It was so true that he didn't even want to wake up. He was still the patient suffering from myasthenia gravis and could only wait to die. "I could have endured the darkness if I had never seen the light." Fan Xian never wanted to go back, after he truly set foot on the land again. So, let's do this, keep this secret in my heart, and live again as a person in this world. If these are really just dreams, he is willing to sink into it and never wake up again. It was night, Fan Xian was lying on the bed alone, and the maids who served him had already fallen asleep. But he couldn't sleep anyway. Vaguely, he remembered that night in his previous life. That time he cried completely, and when he woke up, he had become a man in this world. At this moment, the current scene seems a little different from the previous life. There is no more sudden engine roar outside the window, no more frequent snores in the ward. On the contrary, there are more incense and more meditation, things that were not available in the previous life. But he also knows that there are still some things that remain unchanged. For example, the loneliness that is hidden deep in everyone's heart, usually invisible and imperceptible, the loneliness that Fan Xian thought did not exist, finally found him on this night of this month of this year. At this point, he can no longer pretend that it doesn't exist, can no longer pretend to be free of it. You can only feel it like a tarsal maggot, wrapping around you little by little, getting tighter and tighter, making you unable to struggle or breathe. That indescribable, chaotic loneliness. "After all, I didn't escape. I still overestimated myself." In the silent midnight, someone sighed. He originally thought that he could really live as Fan Xian in this life. Now it seems that he is just Fan Shen, the actor who plays Fan Xian, a lonely traveler who relies on Fan Xian's body to move around in this world, and he can never be Fan Xian himself. But this time, Fan Xian didn't cry. Because he had already cried bitterly last time. After all, he has known for a long time that in this world, he is just a lonely traveler. His life is just an irreversible journey of loneliness. Even if he can choose to see all the Chang'an flowers in one day, the loneliness will not dissipate. Instead, it will accumulate bit by bit, waiting for one day to completely destroy him. "Life is like a journey against the odds, and I am also a traveler." He should have understood this long ago. All that is needed to alleviate such loneliness is a sleepless night. The next day, the sun still rose as usual. With the help of the maid, Fan Xian tidied himself up, then opened the courtyard door and stepped out. The dazzling luminous sphere in the sky was spreading its brilliance wantonly towards the world. He cast his gaze towards the distant horizon. In the distance, the world stretched out, and the roads rushed towards him and converged at his feet. Fan Xian stepped forward, and in an instant, he felt that the world was vast and there was a lot to do. "Well, I wish you good morning, Fan Xian," he said to himself, "By the way, I also wish you good afternoon and good night." "I hope you have a good time in this lonely journey of life."

It has always been said that when people are bored, they will think about many strange things. Fan Xian refutes a rumor here: it is true. During the years when he was seriously ill and hospitalized, because of boredom, Fan Xian once thought about what it feels like to be alone, facing the sea and listening to the sound of the waves, which comes from eternity and goes to eternity; it is on the wasteland, watching the heavy snow all over the sky, snowflakes falling one after another; it is the black dust in the sky of sandstorms, ghostly flowing, and subtle penetration surrounding you. Still, holding on to an umbrella, he was walking alone in the rainy streets at midnight. No one was there. The dim street lights cast a yellowish halo in the misty rain, and the sound of falling raindrops could be clearly heard, "tick tick, tick tick, tick tick," and he could hear the splashing sound of his feet in the pond. What he thought was good, but unfortunately, he couldn't experience it. These are, after all, just his wishful thinking. The only time that was closest to the scene he tried his best to construct in his mind was probably late at night. At that time, everyone else was asleep, and the noisy hospital during the day had already curled up, but Fan Xian was lying silently on the bed alone. It was strange to say that he could hardly open his eyes, but he was still not sleepy at all. In this dead darkness, he doesn't know whether his eyes are open or closed, or whether he is asleep or awake. The hour hand is ticking minute by minute. There may be a car roaring past outside the window, but your breathing is clearly audible. It seems that you are the only one left in the world. At this time, it rained. It was drizzle, and the pattering raindrops hit the window, making a very pleasant sound. It echoes the snoring sounds of others in the ward. Don't know why, he wanted to cry. It's not because of the torture of illness, but the most primitive emotion that arises from the deepest part of my heart. On such a rainy night, I think it is allowed to indulge my weakness and cry wildly. But Fan Xian didn't cry after all. Instead, he just lay there, tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep. The brain is sometimes clear and sometimes chaotic. He seemed to be thinking a lot, but seemed not to be thinking about anything at all. From the little things in the past that he thought he had long forgotten, to the tortures of the day and even the future, it was like a too chaotic movie, passing frame by frame in front of his eyes, like clouds and smoke. Fan Xian felt that he might be sick. He remembered that during the day, he would bang his teeth and make jokes with the patients. Then he laughed loudly with them, but he didn't know why he was laughing, or he froze after laughing, and he didn't know whether to continue laughing or stop there. At this time, he always looked around blankly at the laughing people, not knowing what expression to put on. My heart was as blank as a piece of blank paper. Listening to their laughter, I just felt so empty, monotonous, and without any emotion, as if it was squeezed out of nowhere. Or, it's just an NPC repeating his job again and again. What's the point of such a life? He thought so. Day after day I could only lie in the hospital bed, from morning to night. The only entertainment was to watch some pirated DVDs and books, and then chat with fellow patients.

The Guo Baokun whom Teng Zijing met could decide his life or death with just one sentence. The Guo Baokun whom Fan Sizhe met could provoke him with words and take action in the street. The Guo Baokun whom Fan Xian met could only talk. Guo Baokun is still Guo Baokun, but the status of the three of them is different. The author writes about the complexity of human beings. People who seem to be heinous also have a soft side, and ordinary farm couples also have good and evil sides. In fact, everyone is like this, but the objects are standing at different heights and see things differently. If you become a Tisi, you will find that your subordinates are henpecked. If you follow Honglu Temple to make peace, you will find that the person in charge is also a funny guy. If he were the prime minister's son-in-law, it would be quite interesting to discover that he is the prince. If you are the beloved of the princess, you will find that the empresses in the palace also have their own characteristics. But if there is no identity, no matter how complex human nature is, we cannot detect it. After all, we cannot come into contact with it at all. In this way, good and evil are not important, and complexity is not important. When you reach a certain status, you will have the idea that "it turns out that everyone is human"

{"TopicId":"803665280248184832","TopicName":"Internet Writing Hole Filling Festival Wishing Season"} I hope to see Chen Pingping's extras

{"TopicId":"803665280248184832","TopicName":"Internet Writing Hole Filling Festival Wishing Season"} "Celebrating More Than Years" wants to see Ye Qingmei's extra story. I really want to know the life of this strange woman after she leaves this world, and her footprints in this world.