Psychiatrist's Notes: Archives of Urban Anomalies

A murderer who was sentenced to 6 years committed suicide in prison. Not dead. The detention center asked me to assess her mental state - I am psychiatrist Jiang Ting, and this is not the first time I have seen someone who "wanted to die but was afraid of pain." Lin Moumou attempted suicide and gave up because of fear of pain. When I went downstairs to buy wine, I met a 70-year-old man by chance. I kindly helped him go home, but he found the old man's house too messy and felt that he lived without dignity. So she took out the knife she carried with her and stabbed the old man six times. In court, she was unusually calm: "I am helping him get out of trouble. By the way, I ask the judge to sentence me to death." As a result, he was sentenced to 6 years in prison. She wanted to die, but the law let her live. She used the lives of others to "complete" death for herself, but in the end she only got a long imprisonment. My clinic began to be filled with more and more "logical and self-consistent" lunatics: Someone deliberately killed a homeless man in order to defraud his wife, calling it "optimal allocation of resources"; Someone hired a murderer to kill him, but because the killer's price was too high, the two of them teamed up to kill the evil boss; Someone posted on the dark web: "Please give me a painless death plan, or who can help me die?" There are no vicious gangsters, just ordinary people who have been cut by the blunt knife of life and pushed to the edge of the cliff. I want to die, but I'm afraid of pain; I want to live, but I feel unworthy. I took antidepressants every day and recorded these distorted medical records. Until one day, I saw a dazzling indicator on my physical examination report. At that moment, I picked up the pen, looked at the blank medical record, and suddenly understood what Lin said: "This world is a huge spirit