My Skill Is Phantom

I have been in this world for decades, experienced some ups and downs, and experienced countless sufferings in the world, but I always have a kind of indifference to this world. I have a kind of indifference to the memories of the past, even the short-term friends, or a kind of calmness. I know very well what is going on. I know clearly that I am castrated because of my emotions, but I don't know why it is like this, because I don't know why I am like this. Maybe it is the price that my powerful special abilities have made me pay. It's just that the time I spent here allowed me to get used to it and feel... Comfortable. It seems that this situation is actually good. Even if I continue to maintain the "surface attitude" that has belonged to me before, I don't feel bored. So isn't this a good thing? Although I don't know if it's because of this ability, I always need to find out what's going on. What's more, since you have traveled through time, why don't you try to fight for your future? After all, you have traveled through time once, why not a second time?