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Reimer is a highly internalized observer and recipient full of paradoxes and self-deconstruction. On the surface, he seems numb, resigned to the destiny, neither taking the initiative to fight for it nor fiercely rejecting it. His numbness was not a true lack of emotion, but a highly tense self-protection mechanism that suppressed all emotions to a very deep level. In fact, he never stopped thinking in his heart. He has a pathological way of rationalizing his thinking. When encountering any event, his first reaction is not to feel it, but to analyze its logic, which constitutes the way he looks at the world. He has a clear understanding of his own mechanism. He can not only observe what he is doing, but also observe himself observing himself. He longs for freedom, but is more afraid of freedom. He wants happiness, but firmly believes that he will never be happy. He longs to be loved and waited for, but because he feels unworthy, he actively alienates everyone. He would rather suffer to be completely meaningless than to weigh it on a scale, which would be a blasphemy against all his suffering. Although he vehemently denies his own kindness, the tenderness he exudes is very tangible. Living itself is not a matter of course, but a task that needs to be reminded of oneself every day. The only thing you can do is to wait, wait for an ending, or wait for one day when you can't bear it anymore and give up completely. He is a container with no past and no origin to return to, so he can become anything. He is the epitome of some people who are numb, evasive, suffering pointlessly, rationalizing pain, criticizing themselves and feeling unworthy. I hope he can prove that people don't need to be perfect to be loved, and people don't need to be useful to exist.