Half a Lifetime of Thorns, Using Pen as Salary to Survive the Cold Years

"Half a lifetime of thorns, using pen as fuel to survive the cold years" is a long realistic and lyrical prose rooted in the hometown of northern Shaanxi and deeply exploring the suffering and spiritual perseverance of the grassroots. Based on the ups and downs of the author's forty years and a half, the work focuses on a low-level writer's pursuit of dreams that is not accepted by the world. With a melancholy and compassionate writing style, it truly cuts through the fierce collision between love and reality, ideals and utilitarianism, and describes the loneliness, poverty and difficulty of writing alone. The full text takes the thorny writing life as the main line, unfolding the physical and mental torture of long nights of loneliness, the coldness and alienation of worldly relationships, and the realistic dilemma of financial constraints. Based on the middle-aged state of mind, the author frankly faces the ridicule of "not doing a proper job", the contempt and alienation of relatives and friends, the embarrassment of daily necessities, and the hardship of chronic illness. He truly restores the unsympathetic spiritual internal friction and desperate struggle of contemporary low-level creators. Different from flashy and vain text creation, this article abandons deliberate sensationalism and romantic beautification, and uses realistic and thick writing to record various situations in the world. It not only writes about the vicissitudes of the Loess Plateau and the forbearing joys and sorrows of ordinary people, but also deeply expresses one's own regrets, guilt and stubbornness. The text combines the true texture of suffering narratives with the transparent power of self-reconciliation. Amidst the torrent of secular utility, the text adheres to the original intention of recording the world and redeeming oneself. This is not only a half-life monologue of a writer, but also a true epitome of countless people who stick to their love and go against the trend. The work uses suffering as salary and pen and ink as light, tempering the original intention in poverty and criticism, and resting the soul in the barren years. Every word is sincere, every sentence is full of vicissitudes, and the gentleness and stubbornness of ordinary people who persevere against the current are revealed.