The Beginning of Qingshi City: the Word "Violent" Is on the Left and the Word "Ren" Is on the Right

My name is Su You, nicknamed Su Abacus. The thing I regret most in my life is that when I was squatting at the gate of Qingshi City waiting to die, I moved half a step to the left. After moving half a step, I met a lunatic with a grass stalk in his mouth. His name is Chen Li. He gave me a healing pill, and I wrote it down in my account: I owe you a life. Later, I helped him identify a fire-patterned grass and sold a few more spiritual stones to offset half of his debt. I think this is a good deal. Later we joined a gang together. I settle accounts, he kills people. People in the old town started calling us Su Abacus and Crazy Chen. I thought that as long as I remembered my accounts clearly enough, I would be able to live a clear life. Later I understood. Some accounts cannot be settled from the beginning. For example, that healing pill, or that afternoon when he squatted in the rain and waited for me to move even half a step. The word benevolence is on the left and the word ruthlessness is on the right. Two casual cultivators whose lives are at stake, and a city that eats people without spitting out their bones. How to calculate this account?