Forever Missed

Mother, why are you like this, why do you want to take such a dead end, and leave so miserably, not when you are young and alone, when it is the most difficult time, but when your children have grown up, and you should spend your old age in peace and enjoy the happiness of your family. There were no warning signs before this incident. Perhaps there were too many signs, which made us paralyzed and careless. You always keep saying that you have caused us harm and blame yourself. And this so-called burden is just because you, the old man, can no longer care for us as you did before. Especially in the days before the accident, you were even more worried and often sighed: "There is nothing we can do, we are going to get into trouble!" It seems like the end of the world is coming. Looking at your panic-stricken eyes, I feel deeply helpless and ashamed that I am unable to help you. I don't understand why you are so demanding on yourself, regardless of your old age, frailty and illness? Because when it comes to burdens, we are the burdens, burdens and burdens that have dragged you down for most of your life. You are only 36 years old. Your father passed away due to illness, leaving us five brothers and sisters. Among them, the eldest sister has just graduated from junior high school, and the youngest one is only 3 years old. You worked hard to bring us up one by one, with only a meager monthly salary of 36 yuan, and with your mother's love and sense of responsibility. When we grew up, you still thought of us and worked wholeheartedly for your children. And once you feel unwell, you will feel guilty and feel that you have caused us harm. Now that this so-called burden has finally been eliminated, I feel empty inside.