Painter of Records

I am Xia Mang, I am a painter, I am a recorder, I am a wanderer, I am strong, I am weak, I am God, I am human, I am me, who am I? I was walking on a road to find someone, but on the way, I lost family ties, love? Friendship, in the end, I slowly and gradually forgot why... I was looking for someone No system, no rebirth, no CP, single female protagonist.