A Thousand Mountains in Wind and Snow

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The uke and seme have romances at different stages in their lives. They are not each other's first and only. One of the semes, Yan Yushan, was married before and has a son.

Reposted from an archived copy. Updates depend on circumstances.

Because of a deal, Xu Mingyi grew his hair long, dressed as a bride, and left Tianjin for Beiping to marry into the Zhang family as the eldest young master's wife.

But Zhang Jingyao loved someone else. He did not love Xu Mingyi.

The Zhang household was a suffocating prison. Xu Mingyi kept backing down and carefully currying favor, gradually twisted into someone he could no longer recognize.

It shouldn't have been this way.

Amid a relationship built on false affection, Xu Mingyi came to his senses, risked everything, and fled the Zhang family's glittering decay. He was not Xu Jiuniang. He was Xu Mingyi.

After that, with the sky above him and the land stretching wide, he struggled through a turbulent age. In his short life of just over twenty years, Xu Mingyi had been a wealthy young master like a weed growing in a corner, a rich family's young mistress, and even a bandit...

Life has many forks in the road. Keep walking, and eventually you'll find your way.

Uke: Xu Mingyi (intersex)

Seme: Zhang Jingyao (useless ex-husband), not a love interest

Wen Helai (former lover who squandered a good hand)

Qin He (current lover born in the wrong era)

Yan Yushan (older man, fifteen or sixteen years older, fatherly type)

Theme: Those who leave me behind are not worth keeping.