A Game of Intrigue

Although I am very reluctant to part with you, this time I really have to say goodbye to Xiao Tan and Xiao Ying! I sincerely thank the author and teacher for allowing me to appreciate the story of Tan Ying and the (not) male and female couple. Xiao Tan and Xiao Ying really love each other very much. The intensity of their emotions is particularly unforgettable🥺 The love, possessiveness and dependence of the two gravity systems on each other are so profound. Whether it is love, joy, pain or worry, it all arises because of the lover. This suffocating emotional intensity makes me want to cry🥹 Xiaoying is willing to admit their relationship in court, and instinctively makes the decision to take the bullet for Xiaotan faster than reason. Xiao Tan will rush into the fire scene desperately to find his lover, and try his best to plan and manage the life of his lover who is a patient. A person who uses his own life as a weight to tie his lover to the world, and a person who is willing to live for his lover and change his habits and concepts of more than 20 years for his lover, what a perfect match! There are also many "negative" calculations, conquests and coercions in Tan Ying's relationship, just like Xiao Ying calmly waiting for Xiao Tan to appear in the ancestral hall where the fire is spreading, and Xiao Tan puts on the necklace with a locator for Xiao Ying. Because of love, I am afraid of losing, trying to control, trying to conquer. But Tan Yingdu is deeply involved in this relationship, which fully explains that love means taking the blame for one's own consequences and being happy with it. Xiao Tan and Xiao Ying take the blame on themselves in the intimate relationship between the two parties and taste the bitterness and sorrow of the fruits of love. Love is the loss of control that deviates from reason, it is Xiao Tan's instinct to rush into the ancestral hall in the fire without hesitation; it is also the joy and heart palpitations of Xiao Ying on the grassland when he realizes that he is with Xiao Tan. Love is the willingness to surrender oneself into a trap, it is Xiaotan's peaceful fall after seeing the news of Xiaoying's "suspected engagement", knowing that it is a trap set by the other party, and walking into it; it is also the "yes" Xiaotan willingly said after looking at Xiaotan in the huge crowd of people in the court. Love means that no matter how much power and wealth people have, they will feel the surge of powerlessness and frustration in the relationship. It is the torment when Xiaotan discovers Xiaoying's auditory hallucinations on a stormy night and is also painful because of it. It is also the dull pain that she can't suppress when she thinks of her lover during the 23 days after losing her lover. It is Xiaoying who sees Xiaotan deliberately putting himself in danger of falling from the building. Because of his uncontrollable fear, he reveals his gloomy nature and shows a low profile that he has never had before. Such a strong and persistent emotion makes me want to sing a song from "Girl's Prayer" in response to Tan: "I pray that we can reach the future in the car with him, and we will not let go until the car is destroyed. No matter what kind of hurt I experience on the road, let me decide whether to love or not." My personal favorite plots before Xiaotan and Xiaoying got together include Xiaotan's car accident under Xiaoying's "design", the confrontation between the two when they returned to Xiaoying's residence after their "encounter" in the hospital, Xiaotan's discovery of the surveillance installed by Xiaoying in the director's house, and the two fighting each other after Xiaotan was kidnapped by Xiaoying. (Okay, actually before we got together, I felt that every scene with Tan Ying and Xiao Ying was very tense.) And after Xiao Tan and Xiao Ying got together, my favorite plot was besides the scene on the grassland where Xiao Ying realized she fell in love with Xiao Tan after seeing the photo, Xiao Ying declared that she was the winner of Tan Ying's relationship in the ancestral hall destroyed by fire, Xiao Ying willingly admitted the relationship between the two and her own defeat in court, Xiao Tan persisted in saving Xiao Ying's soul in the "dream", and there were many details that I liked. For example, after Xiaoying realized that she fell in love with Xiaotan, she described to Xiaotan the story of King Liuli and Oedipus being unable to change their fate. Xiao Ying clearly realizes that he is slipping into the abyss controlled by his destiny, and may end up being swallowed by the flood like King Liuli, but he is still deeply involved in the relationship between the two parties. Also, when Tan Ying first got together, Xiao Tan very seriously inquired about Xiao Ying's family history and mental condition, checked Xiao Ying's body and feelings very rigorously, and even searched and browsed books about mental illness for Xiao Ying. The subtleties revealed Xiao Tan's concern for Xiao Ying... In addition, in the conversation between Xiao Tan and Ying after Xiao Tan mistakenly thought Xiao Ying was "drowning in the bathtub" in Chapter 77, and the behavior of both parties after Xiao Tan heard hallucinations in Chapter 79, I personally feel that the difference in Tan Ying's love style is reflected. Xiaotan is willing to bring up the sad past of the death of his loved ones to persuade and induce his lover to change his attitude towards death, and actively cooperates with the doctor's advice to control Xiaoying's condition. Xiao Ying, on the other hand, savored the full extent of love that her lover said and did. Amidst the torture of auditory hallucinations, she became excited and happy because of Xiao Tan's love for herself. Xiao Tan is more willing to take the responsibility of giving, while Xiao Ying is more inclined to take. The final chapter of the main text also clearly shows this point. Xiaotan is sitting on the edge of the railing, forcing Xiaoying to feel that her heart is hanging on a thread and walking on thin ice due to worrying about him, forcing Xiaoying not to despise death anymore. So Xiao Ying took off his mask and admitted that he was extremely happy when he saw Xiao Tan suffering for him. Xiao Ying longs for all Xiao Tan's joys, sorrows and joys to be born of him, demands Xiao Tan's preference and indulgence to feel Xiao Tan's love for herself, and greedily absorbs all the emotions from her lover. Just like Prometheus knew he would suffer endless pain but still chose to steal fire, Xiaotan knew Xiaoying's morbid love, tolerated all the pain caused by Xiaoying's love, and only hoped that Xiaoying could truly value his own life. I really like the antagonist scene at the end of the main text. The person who is afraid of his lover and worries about gains and losses changes from Xiao Tan to Xiao Ying. The reversal of the situation causes all the dark sides of love to explode. In Xiao Ying's concept, love is eternal possession, entanglement and control, a love that is extremely neurotic and crazy to the point of being speechless... It is completely contrary to the love advocated in "1 Corinthians" for the world to "not be jealous, not boastful, not arrogant" and "not seeking its own interests", and is like an unknown shadow of the love praised by the world. Xiao Tan is Xiao Ying's favorite person in the world that he ignores, and the person who desires to be loved the most. Talking about this kind of love that is so hot that it can burn each other especially touches me🥺 There are two other details that particularly touched me. The first one was during the court questioning and after they parted ways, while chatting with family members, I remembered Xiao Ying's past story of watching "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest" many times. Unfortunately, it hurt to breathe, so after the loved one left, I couldn't help but think of all his past events, wonder what he was thinking at that time, and blame myself for not caring enough about him at that time. The second one is that after Xiao Ying jumped into the sea, Xiao Tan always couldn't help but think of bits and pieces of the past with Xiao Ying during work breaks. Xiao Tan felt pain because of this, but this pain made him feel the same as Xiao Ying at that time, so he was willing to feel the pain of his lover in order to get closer to experiencing his lover's original state of mind. Orpheus went to the underworld to save his lover, but he still turned back despite knowing that he would lose his lover if he turned back. Orpheus's looking back is like Xiao Tan's daily memories of himself and Xiao Ying. People will always think back over and over again about the time they spent with the lost person. Even if every time they remember it, they will experience the feeling of losing him, knowing that looking back, they will experience the pain of separation again, but people will look back over and over again. Xiaotan and Xiaoying have profoundly changed each other's lives. Xiaotan has changed Xiaotan's definition of a person's pursuit of goals in life. Xiaotan has changed the length and thickness of Xiaoying's life, allowing him to truly perceive thousands of real moments. It's really hard to imagine where their lives would have gone if Tan Ying hadn't met each other. Maybe the meeting between the two of you (although not very beautiful) was indeed blessed by God! ​It is really gratifying to see that Xiao Tan and Xiao Ying can achieve long-term and stable happiness after going through so many ups and downs🥺 Tan Ying will have countless such peaceful and happy nights together in his life. Xiaotan Xiaoying will always be happy🥰 Finally, let me borrow Borges's "Lovers". I think this poem is very relevant to Tan Ying's love (especially the last few lines). Meeting the other person is indeed a great blessing for Xiao Tan and Xiao Ying in life, and I personally think this poem is particularly suitable for his psychological monologue from Xiao Ying's perspective. Moon, ivory, musical instruments, roses, Lamps and Dürer's lines, Nine numbers and the ever-changing zero, I should pretend to believe that those things exist. I should pretend to believe that it once was Persepolis and Rome, The battlements destroyed by the Iron Age, A tiny speck of sand seals their fate. I should pretend to believe it epic weapons and bonfires, and eroding the backbone of the land Heavy ocean. I should believe there is something else. In fact, none of them are credible. Only you are real. You are my misfortune and my great fortune, Pure and infinite.

What kind of bamboo horse and bamboo horse chapter have you brought tonics like this? At least let me see the legal tutorials of these two Teenagers [crying] [crying]

This ending is really like a fairy tale! Just like countless nights in the past, Xiaotan and Xiaoying will cling to each other tonight and for the rest of their lives😼 No longer have to endure the pain of separation. Even if they encounter any setbacks, the two of them will hold each other's hands and face them together. Just like the gentle moonlight outside the window, Xiaotan and Xiaoying will live a stable and happy life together. 🥺

No one can see such a cute little couple still keeping their apples flat! ! 🥺🥺🥺😋😋😋It makes me faint with cuteness like this! ! 😋😋

Finished spreading flowers! Talking about Xiaoying will make you happy forever! So do we! I wish you all the best when we see you again! Goodbye!

Actually, I'm not that into love and death, but boss, what you wrote is so good. Xiao Tan and Xiao Ying are like this kind of intertwined and connected branches. No matter how normal one is, there is no such flavor, let alone the possibility of achieving success. They are truly a match made in heaven.

I always think of Xiaoying and Xiaotan🥺. Thinking that they are living happily now, I seem to have a little motivation.

I also want to ask the author a question: What was the reason why Xiaoying installed surveillance cameras everywhere in the house? Is it pathological factors that sometimes cause Xiaoying's brain fragments to fail to remember what he has done, so he has to review it through surveillance video, or are there other reasons🤔

The ending is full of flowers ~ This emotional drama is very cute ~ Looking forward to the next book [Milk Tea] Copywriting I have received a few books in advance and I seem to like them quite a lot

In addition, I have a very boring question that I would like to ask the author, teacher (.) In the main article, how tall are Xiaotan and Xiaoying, and what kind of hairstyle does Xiaotan have (I remember that Xiaoying has her back 😼)