At the start of the year, a change at work led Song Wan to temporarily lend her email account to a colleague. The next day, a gossip-filled private message popped up on WeChat:
Who is this? Are you still in touch? You two look so perfect together.
The photo showed the boy who had been part of her entire youth. So much time had passed that she had even forgotten when she saved it in her email.
Song Wan stared dazedly at the photo on her phone. Just before the screen went completely dark, she mechanically typed:
We haven't been in touch for ages. And nobody ever thought we were a good match.
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Song Wan didn't have many books to read as a child. She read the copy of The Little Mermaid she'd won as a prize over and over. Years later, when she picked it up again, only one page had a folded corner:
The little mermaid wore silk and gold ornaments, and held up the bride's veil. But her ears could not hear the merry music, her eyes could not see the sacred ceremony, and she thought of the morning when she would perish.
------------ The Little Mermaid
Bad ending | Serialized, not contracted
2024.11.19
Coming soon: He Just Likes Me
Fang Miao excels in school and has a good reputation. He Ji Zhou is notorious.
People say he just got out of juvenile detention, but Fang Miao doesn't believe it. She's known He Ji Zhou since they were children.
Two years after the great fire in Liuguan City, Fang Miao sees him at Fancheng No. 1 High School.
The sun is blazing that day, as if the sky itself is on fire.
In the alley behind the school, He Ji Zhou leans against a wall, shakes out the dusty uniform he's holding, and says impatiently, "Just because we had a bit of history doesn't mean you get to meddle in my business."
Fang Miao looks at the burn scars on his arm for a moment, then calls him out. "He Ji Zhou, you're such a poser."
Childhood sweethearts, happy ending | Straightforward ray of sunshine × brooding man who overthinks everything
2026.2.17
Theme: We will all grow up in the end
Maybe it was right that Song Wan and Qin Huaiyi were not together in that bad youth in their memory. As the most ordinary parent, Ms. Song and I have a deep empathy with Xiao Xiao in high school. It seems that no parent agrees with girls playing with boys, and it seems that it is wrong to say a word to them. But Qin Huaiyi is very dazzling, isn't he? Not everyone can meet a handsome, smart and rich boy like Qin Huaiyi in their youth. It just so happened that Song Wan met the dazzling Qin Huaiyi on the rainy night when he was secretly correcting his grades, and saw his high-scoring math paper. She felt inferior and envious. She didn't know when she started to like him. It seems that liking Qin Huaiyi is as normal as eating breakfast. Because Song Wan couldn't refuse Qin Huaiyi's approach. While she was in contact with Qin Huai, she was dealing with Ms. Song. The role of Ms. Song was difficult to define. Who knows who is bad or good? She mirrored many parents who built a cage with love and tried to bind their children with themselves as the center. However, she hoped that Song Wan would be outstanding, but she never considered whether Song Wan was happy or willing. For Ms. Wang, her definition is also very vague. She secretly changed Qin Huaiyi's high school entrance examination application and put Qin Huaiyi under her eyes, so Qin Huaiyi couldn't stand it, so he resisted his mother by not writing his name. He and Song Wan were similar but different. At least Qin Huaiyi had a father who loved him, but Song Wan did not. She only had a suffocating home. I don't know that I secretly cried several times in bed because of Song Wan and Ms. Song. I really feel for Song Wan. She is really strong. At least she has no thoughts of death. She is very brave. I really like her. The vanity of a seventeen-year-old girl was trampled under the feet of her own mother. A mother kneels down to her daughter. How ridiculous is this? Song Wan couldn't accept this. Ms. Song's desire for control was so great that she even removed the lock on Song Wan's door just because the words "Qin Huai Yi" were written on the draft paper. It's so suffocating. This kind of family is really suffocating. So after being spread rumors again, Song Wan was found to be ill. So, Ms. Song, is this the result you want to see? When you fall in love with someone at the age of seventeen, you are supposed to have wonderful memories, but instead of being like this, you are left speechless. Song Wan liked Qin Huaiyi, and Qin Huaiyi liked Song Wan. Unfortunately, no one thought they were a good match, because the mermaid couldn't speak when she came ashore, and Song Wan and Qin Huaiyi were also cowards. The two young men with the purest and most passionate feelings just missed each other. As soon as Qin Huai went abroad, Song Wan repeated his studies and continued studying. Unfortunately, Song Wan and Qin Huai still didn't see the same fireworks show. When she was a teenager, Song Wan told herself time and time again not to lie to Qin Huaiyi, but she lied to that boy again and again. I'm thinking, if they really get together in the future, Ms. Song will disagree, right? The rumored puppy love in high school was so serious, would Ms. Song not care? Qin Huaiyi was such an enthusiastic young man. Ever since his car accident, he went to the temple to offer incense every year and would always bring a lamp to that person. He prayed that Song Wan would be healthy and have a smooth life. Once a light is on, it is seven years. That light has been on for seven years. It seems that Qin Huaiyi can no longer like others. They were so sorry, so regretful that two people who clearly loved each other were not together. There was no misunderstanding, no death, no obstruction, but they still separated so naturally. I was so sorry that my heart ached, but I couldn't cry. No one can blame this. Why did Song Wan and Yang Yu get together? She felt that the boy really didn't like her anymore, but she was wrong. It was such a pity. After all, Yang Yu was also very good. He stayed with Song Wan for ten years. This was ten years, and he didn't miss it after all. Song Wan, I wish you happiness, a happy life, and a smooth life. Qin Huaiyi, what do I wish you? I wish you good health and no disasters. If you meet the right person later, let's be together. Don't miss it again. Song Wan and Qin Huaiyi, I think you were a perfect match when you were young. A Shu 2025.2.9
What a pity... Would it be nice for Song Wan to be with Qin Huaiyi in another world? Don't miss it
I really want to cry. Is there any extra story?
In fact, I still feel very confused. It's already November so soon. It's been ten months since I posted the story. I have been following this book from the serialization, and it seems that the "sudden turns" are revealed one by one at the end... I am very partial to the tree, and I also want to keep reading your story. There aren't many people serializing it, so every time I watch it I'm actually afraid that it won't be updated haha I got to know Shu around 24 years ago👐🏻It was about this time that I received the book when it was published in winter. There is no denying that Shubewen is really flavorful I received it today and looked at it again. It still hurts. (I always say that campus literature is like science fiction movies) But Shu's can't do it. The back view is so empathetic, and Wanwan is so heart-wrenching... Wanwan, you always think too much, because you cannot be understood, misunderstood and "kidnapped" because you speak out. When I saw qhy, I was really a little bit confused. I was afraid that he would be too good to others and that you would be sad... But you are also brave, and you should say something. No matter what, please always express what you want to say... The days seem to be getting better and better, you have made progress, and your relationship with qhy has become better... But Because of the photo, Wanwan, I know that it is really difficult for you to hold on. It seems that you can only feel the pain. People who are too sensitive have no way... Qhy went abroad and you repeated the grade. I feel sorry for you. My dear, why are you alone... The future will be better. You want to go to college and strive for an ending for your youth. In college, Yang Yu appeared... I didn't like him that much, but in the past few years, I believe he did a good job. Not necessarily to chase you, but also to make you happy, so you agreed. When you were 16, you liked Qin Huaiyi, but now you like Yang Yu. We can't judge, we just regret that we missed each other's love when we were young. They are all very good, so now that you are confident Wanwan, you have the answer. I know that the future will be happy. My dear, no matter who you are, be happy What three people like, two people will always get what they want. The time was right, the place was right, and there were misunderstandings, but we all knew each other, so I believe this book has no routine, just like a story, like life. What you like is the most important, your choice is equally important [sunglasses] 🥺
The moment after watching it, Song Wan's words "It's such a pity, I only remember his back" were like a thin needle gently piercing the softest part of my heart. Qin Huaiyi and Song Wan, written by Yu Yanshu, blend the sourness of two-way secret love and the regret of BE aesthetics into every fold of youth. Reading it makes people feel lost, but they can't help but think about it again and again. The tug-of-war between the favored man and the sensitive girl is the truest form of youth. Qin Huai broke into Song Wan's world of low self-esteem like a light, with the gentleness of playing the piano, the delicacy of delivering umbrellas, the romance of setting off fireworks... Every time he came close, he brought healing power, but when he turned around, he left a blurred back. Song Wan looked at him countless times on the corridor fence, and his back was carved into the depths of his memory - it was the cautiousness of a sensitive girl in love, the timidity of wanting to get close but not being disturbed, and the purest obsession in youth. There are no bloody misunderstandings in their interactions, only realistic helplessness and character shackles: Qin Huaiyi's status as "Heaven's Proud One" makes him have involuntary worries, and Song Wan's "sensitive and inferiority complex" makes her worry about gains and losses in her relationship. This kind of collision of characters makes the two-way secret love feel "so close and so far away". Every trial is like a layer of mist, with heartbeats visible but no ending. "Back" is the carrier of regret and the proof of deep affection. The most poignant thing in the book is the repeated description of the "back". Song Wan remembered every arc of Qin Huaiyi's turn and the frequency of his footsteps when he left. These details were her unstoppable obsession and her weapon against forgetfulness. And how much deep love is hidden in Qin Huaiyi's back? He might have looked back quietly when he turned around, or he might have recited her name in his heart countless times when he was alone - the words he didn't say, the hands he didn't dare to hold, eventually became the secret behind his back. This setting of "I remember everything about you, but I can't remember your face" pushes BE's regret to the extreme: it's not that I don't love you, but I love you so deeply that only your back can be remembered. After reading this book, I feel like I have experienced a grand farewell to my youth. It does not force the cliché of perfection, but teaches us with the most real regrets: some love is destined to stay in the background, but that memory itself is the most precious gift left to us by youth. Just like Song Wan and Qin Huaiyi, they may not have been able to get together, but they left an indelible mark in each other's lives - this is probably the most touching look of youthful love.
I feel like my mother is so depressed. I hope Song Wan can leave. I still really hope that Song Wan and Qin Huai will be together. I don't want them to have any regrets anymore, (ʘ̥∧ʘ̥)
I'm really looking forward to a sequel with he.
The story begins with a lie. Song Wan scored 79 points in the math test. She was afraid of being scolded when she went home. When she was thinking about how to change the 7 to 9, Qin Huai showed up and gave her the test paper without writing her name. Later, they had more and more contact. Song Wan and Qin Huai also got along here and gradually fell in love with each other. I especially sympathized with Song Wan's words, "But mom, I am actually not happy. I also want to be a smart kid." 😭 When I first entered high school I can feel that everyone around me is better than me. In the first monthly exam, I scored 32nd in grade and only scored 42 points in math 😭. My parents said that you used to be very good at studying, but why are you so bad now? When I took math class, the teacher was a relatively experienced teacher, but he usually skipped some steps in class because my foundation is relatively weak, and my mathematical thinking is not very good. So I often can't keep up with what he says 😭 I hope I can get into the ideal university during the college entrance examination in three years [glasses] I will always support him 😚
September 28, 2025. Alas, I felt sour after reading this. Song Wan and Qin Huaiyi clearly liked each other but could not speak out due to various practical reasons. In the end, the two cowards missed each other and there was no ending. Qin Huaiyi is an outstanding person with good character and long-lasting love. Destined to have no marriage, the only girl he had ever loved had given up and headed for the future hand in hand with others. But he is forever trapped in the distant past of high school, and he will not and cannot fall in love with anyone again in this life. Even if Song Wan gradually fades in his memory, the traces she left in his heart will never disappear. Song Wan, she is the kind of person I want to be. She is really tenacious and hard-working, very lively and energetic. Because of her unfortunate family, she suffered many hardships since childhood, but even when she got sick, she never gave up on herself and always worked hard to make herself better. So she succeeded, got out of the shadow of the past, had a good career, found someone worth spending her whole life with, and gained happiness. There is only a corner of Qin Huaiyi left in her heart. He was her regret when she was young, but maybe one day he will be completely blurred. The story of Qin Huaiyi and Song Wan is not good enough and not long enough. In the end, Qin Huai came to Song Wan's wedding and silently witnessed her happiness. After all, he couldn't be the one standing by her side. Qin Huaiyi, have you ever regretted in the past ten years? Regret that when you were 17 years old ten years ago, you failed to tell 17-year-old Song Wan, failed to tell her "I like you" 😭
Holy shit. Shu, you can let one of the male and female protagonists die. My heart is not bitter or tired at all😭