BTS Trap

From the very beginning, Chi Can thought that this person looked so good when he smiled.

Later, he couldn't bear to see anything but happiness on this person's face. He couldn't stand seeing him sad, upset, angry, or furious.

Chi Can tried to eliminate everything in Zheng Haoxi's life that made him unhappy. In the end, he realized that the biggest reason for his unhappiness... was Chi Can himself.

So he got rid of himself, choosing never to appear in Zheng Haoxi's life again.

“I hope Hope can keep smiling forever.”

After leaving, Chi Can said this with the same smile Haoxi wore on screen. His eyes were full of contentment, but his friend could still sense the endless sorrow hidden beneath it.

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“Chi Can was someone I couldn't help falling in love with.” That was how Zheng Haoxi described his first love. “I admit he was every bit as important to me as any family member or bandmate.”

“But I haven't been able to find him for a long time.” He lowered his head. “I thought I understood him well enough, but in the end, I realized I only knew his name.”

“I thought he was from Gwangju, but he wasn't.”

“I thought he was the same age as me, but he wasn't.”

“I thought he'd never leave me, but he did.”

“All I know is that his name is Chi Can, that he loves me very much, and that we have the same birthday.”

“...”

“He disappeared.”

Entanglement: A trap, and the act of falling into one.

The first is the trap Chi Can set for Zheng Haoxi. The second is Zheng Haoxi's inability to control himself.

It was only much later that Zheng Haoxi understood. If Chi Can had insisted on holding on, he probably... would never have escaped this “fall.”

Chi Can had even given him a chance to leave, but he had thrown himself right back into it.

Chi Can only smiled.

“Then come at me with everything you've got. Hit me until we're both shattered.”

He could no longer easily convince himself to let go.

Chi Can: Born February 18, 1997 (male)

Zheng Haoxi: Born February 18, 1994

Theme: A trap, and the act of falling into one.