Painful Longing

Warm, sunny big brother x introverted, lonely little sweetheart Time brought dull pain, mercilessly taking away all of Song Yang's loved ones, one by one. But time was also kind, giving him Xu Chengyang in return. He was only the boy next door, but he became the steadfast guardian who stayed by the child's side the longest, cared for him the most, and protected him most devotedly throughout his painful childhood. Xu Chengyang gave him so much warmth and affection. Over the years, day and night, it all built up until it overflowed from the boy's heart, turning into an ocean in which he sank without limit, unable to pull himself free. But the boy's feelings were a secret no one knew. His longing was separated from him by mountains and seas, impossible to cross. On his seventeenth birthday, Song Yang looked at the hazelnut cake held out to him, then at the person who had brought it. An ocean surged in his heart, hot and turbulent. Xu Chengyang lit the candles and smiled warmly. "Make a wish. I hear the last birthday before you become an adult is especially magical. Whatever you wish for will come true." The boy was silent for a long time. He lowered his eyes, trying to hide the eagerness in them, and the longing he had never dared to speak aloud. Can any wish really come true? But what if... What if my wish is you? Many years later... On the eve of Lunar New Year's Eve, Song Yang was making soup in the kitchen when Xu Chengyang came up behind him and nuzzled the back of his neck. "Don't tempt me." Song Yang caught the hand roaming over him and warned him quietly. Xu Chengyang ignored the warning and started biting him, his voice soft, sweet, and slurred. "Are you impotent?" "..." Song Yang frowned at that. He hesitated for two seconds between finishing the soup and proving himself right away... Then he turned off the stove. At last, he believed Xu Chengyang hadn't been lying. The wish he'd made at eighteen really had come true. The person he'd never dared to hope for as a child had later thrown himself into his arms, letting Song Yang hold him close. A sweet-and-sour story of innocent young love and a secret crush coming true. The top had a tragic childhood, and the bottom, the boy next door, stayed by his side as he grew up, giving him warmth and care and guiding him down the right path in life. The story focuses on healing before adulthood; the romance only begins after they grow up. (I'll speed things up and get them grown soon.) One-on-one, happy ending, both are virgins, and both are good people. ^_^ The next book is about racing, Get Out There and Race Me! Please add it to your to-read list! First sex, then love Arrogant, cocky, invincible, hotshot racing driver x expert at dealing with defiance and training dogs, retired veteran Shen Kuo, the most promising future racing driver (self-proclaimed), was the king of bumper cars at three, a big shot in the go-kart scene at ten, and ready to enter rally racing at eighteen. After several twists and turns, he signed with a racing team. The boss said a genius from the industry would mentor him, then packed him off overnight to a remote mountain village. A shabby courtyard, a crumbling house, and poultry, sheep, and dogs all over the place. No training ground, no race cars. The only thing with wheels was a little electric tricycle. And the so-called genius spent all day either sprawled out or herding ducks and sheep. He did no actual work, was lazy and useless, and had a sharp tongue. Shen Kuo stuck it out for a while, but learned no professional skills. All he got was endless chores, endless scolding, and endless arguments... In the end, he couldn't take it anymore and decided to run away. Before leaving, he had another huge argument with the genius and glared at him furiously. "Believe it or not, I'll fuck your grandpa!" The genius lounged in a rocking chair with his legs crossed, waving a fan lazily. His tone was scornful. "You little brat, got the guts to leave out the word 'grandpa'?" Damn it! Young Master Shen Kuo's desire to win was higher than the sky, and he couldn't stand being challenged. That very night, he barged in, pulled the man's pants down, and got the job done. Except... He never expected that after that one time, he'd get a taste of something new, become addicted, and be unable to leave. The mighty lion transformed into a puppy. Shen Kuo put aside his usual arrogance and began greeting the genius with breakfast, dinner, good mornings, and good nights, cheering him up at every opportunity. At last, the genius was finally won over, came down from the mountain with him, and began teaching him proper driving skills. But after only a few days of lessons, the genius's old flame suddenly returned from abroad. The man abandoned Shen Kuo on the spot and left with his old flame. Fuck! Shen Kuo was furious. They met again at the racetrack. Shen Kuo dragged the heartbreaker into the changing room and pinned him against the wall. "So new clothes just don't fit as well as old ones, huh?" The older man remained calm and raised an eyebrow. "The old clothes were designer-label. The new ones are nothing." Shen Kuo: "Who the hell are you looking down on? It's just the national championship. I'll win it this season!" The genius clicked his tongue twice and chuckled softly. "If you really win, I'll have you welded to me from now on." Top-focused! Younger man! Ten-year age gap! One is a hot-blooded young man full of youthful fire, the other a middle-aged man who's been through it all and is down in the dumps. Two people with completely different personalities and circumstances collide! One-on-one, happy ending, both are virgins, and both are good people. Theme: Passion can carry us through the long years.