[Gentle, ghostlike fake-person top x a do-as-he-pleases little madman bottom]
Gu Jingyou had the perfect boyfriend.
He was handsome, well-read, gentle, and wealthy. He indulged Gu Jingyou in everything and gave him whatever he wanted. He was the kind of ideal lover who only appeared in dreams.
His presence gave Gu Jingyou something to look forward to in his otherwise bleak life.
Then one day, his boyfriend suddenly disappeared.
All traces of his life disappeared with him, as if Gu Jingyou had truly only dreamed him up.
Gu Jingyou refused to believe it. He called the police, but they said there was no record of such a person.
He asked his classmates and neighbors, but they all gave him strange looks and said he had always been on his own.
Unable to take it anymore, he shut himself inside his home to escape reality. Then someone knocked at the door, claiming to be his attending physician.
"I heard your condition has gotten worse," the doctor said. "I'm here to give you a psychological consultation."
"Do you think your life is happy?"
*
In his twenty-six years of life, Gu Jingyou had always thought he was doing just fine.
Although he had no mother growing up, his father indulged him in everything and would give him the stars if he asked.
Although he didn't have many friends, the ones he had were true friends. His childhood pal would risk his life for him without a second thought.
Although he'd chosen a notoriously hopeless major by mistake, his mentor was learned and charming, and treated him with great care.
Be content and you'll be happy. He was happy.
Except... he always felt that something was watching him.
Sometimes it was a bouquet of flowers, sometimes a blade of grass.
Sometimes it was the wind brushing his cheek, sometimes a stranger passing him by.
The gaze was tender, focused, and wholly devoted, as if nothing in life mattered more.
The constant, inescapable gaze drove Gu Jingyou to the verge of a nervous breakdown, and he had no choice but to see a psychologist.
The doctor said, "You're fine. There's nothing wrong with you. You have healthy relationships, a harmonious family, and a happy life."
"Maybe you're just longing for intimacy. I recommend finding a boyfriend."
Gu Jingyou found this convincing and got ready to leave the hospital, but just before walking out, something struck him as odd.
How did you know I'm attracted to men???
He spun around and found the doctor looking at him.
Watching him the whole time.
*
Gu Jingyou's memories were made up of countless lies.
Those lies had pushed him toward a life full of flowers and a happiness that was beautiful on the surface. They had also made him a madman who could no longer tell fantasy from reality.
He remembered that his father was a violent scumbag who had been locked away in a psychiatric hospital long ago.
He remembered having no friends, being hated and ostracized by everyone, and always being alone.
He remembered that his mentor was sharp-tongued and eccentric, always muttering to himself and looking for fault...
He remembered having nothing.
Except for a monster of a big brother who had been by his side since childhood.
Now he had everything, but his monster of a brother was gone.
Gu Jingyou decided to find him, no matter what it took.
[Reading Guide]
* I've written a lot of healthy couples, so I'm trying a different flavor this time~
* Mild cosmic horror, lots of original settings, and probably a few mascots. The story itself is the final authority (?).
* In short, this is a twisted, mutual, pure-love story about a bottom doing everything he can to find his top and bring him home, while the top does everything he can to trick the bottom into taking him home.
Theme: Love and peace.
