It’s Okay to Be a Mentally Ill Heartthrob

A variety of mental disorders | Shared dreams | Everyone falls for her | A battle of men for her

She's a special-admission student at the very bottom of an elite academy. In a school crawling with the powerful and wealthy, she lives on tenterhooks. After all, even a single hair of theirs could crush her.

Then a System drops from the sky. It says it can make her rich in her dreams. Who could turn down such a great deal? She'd have to be out of her mind to say no.

So every night, a different mental disorder is forcibly implanted in her in her dreams.

"..." She knew it.

★ Object fetish

[With her object fetish, she repeatedly picks up and collects things discarded by the rich heirs. When she's caught, she's about to be expelled from the academy...]

How strange. Have they been throwing away a lot more stuff lately? Rich people are the worst.

He actually said everything he owns is mine, and that he belongs to me too! He asked when I was finally going to come pick him up... I told him honestly, "You're not a thing, so I'm not going to pick you up."

He demanded to know why collecting his stuff wasn't enough, and why I had to secretly collect other people's stuff too... I told him the truth: because I like their things too, not just his.

★ Stalker

[With her stalking obsession, she repeatedly follows rich heirs and is about to be hauled off to the police station.]

I've gotten so much better lately. I actually haven't lost sight of him once. But he walks so slowly. Is something wrong with his legs? What a turnoff. A man who's not perfect isn't worth my time. Also, are they going broke? None of them have been driving lately.

He said he knows I love him too much, but I shouldn't follow him so late at night, and that he'd personally take me home... What a conniving little man. He must be threatening me!

He demanded to know who that other bastard I was following was! Isn't following him enough? Why do I have to follow someone else too? ...I never realized he was such a nice guy. He's even standing up for someone else and coming to accuse me.

★ Inability to stop crying

[All she does is cry, making it seem as though people are bullying her. Anyone who gets close to her is falsely accused and misunderstood by others. When she has another crying fit, the rich heir flies off in a helicopter, and she's about to be abandoned on a deserted island to die.]

He actually slapped himself while telling me, "I'm awful for making you cry!" He's so scary. I cried even harder. I'm seriously starting to think he's possessed!

He suddenly kissed me and licked up all my tears. He's disgusting... I think he's a pervert...

He demanded to know why I was crying for someone else! He said my tears belong to him alone! I can't help crying, man! I think this island must have bad feng shui. Why else would everyone here be so weird?

★ Amnesia

[After finally getting close to a rich guy, she loses her memory. She only remembers that she has a rich boyfriend, but her boyfriend, who's been wanting to break up for ages, ignores her. She's about to be taken back to a mountain village by her parents and married off to whoever they pick.]

They all say they're my boyfriend. Which one is it...? I'm so troubled, I can only say, "Why don't you show me how rich you are?"

★ Face blindness

[She has a mute boyfriend, but keeps mistaking people for him. After repeatedly confusing rich heirs for her boyfriend, she gets branded a gold digger, dumped by her boyfriend, and is about to be thrown off the cruise ship.]

Why does my boyfriend seem a little different every day? Is it just my imagination?

★ Skin hunger

[Whenever she gets close to the rich heirs, she suddenly suffers from skin hunger. They all think she's deliberately throwing herself at them, call her promiscuous and shameless, and she's about to be abandoned by everyone and left alone in a haunted villa.]

How strange. Why do they keep coming so close on purpose? Please stop coming over! I'm about to lose control! What do I do? I really want to cuddle...

★ Delusions

[She imagines that all the rich heirs are her boyfriends, spreading rumors everywhere and disrupting their lives. When she's exposed, she's about to be sent to a mental hospital.]

They suddenly started fighting, each insisting that he was my boyfriend... I told you I don't have delusions! They really are all my boyfriends!

★ Voyeurism

[She finds a part-time job as a housekeeper in the academy's elite residential district, but her employers catch her spying. She's about to be sent to prison.]

My employers have been acting strangely lately. They've all started paying more attention to working out, body sculpting, cosmetic procedures, and skincare. They keep showering without locking the door... They always forget something and ask me to bring it in... They change clothes right in front of me, and always wear so little... They keep asking me to give them massages...

★ Controlling behavior

[She uses the fact that she saved a rich heir's life to force him to be her boyfriend, making unreasonable demands and restricting everything he does, even his freedom. He's about to send her to a mental hospital.]

He said being under my thumb makes him so happy... He wants me to control him for the rest of his life... He wants me to lock him away in a dark room... Wait... Why are they all fighting to get into my little dark room? They're so noisy... All of you, get out!

★ Looks obsession

[She can't help stopping whenever she sees a handsome man. She often secretly photographs the academy's famous heartthrobs and keeps the pictures and videos to herself, writing declarations of obsessive love in the captions. When she's exposed, she's about to be expelled from the academy.]

They actually said they like my photos and videos, and think they're artistic... They even asked me to take more... To shoot something different, and generously said I could keep them to myself... Wait... Photos are one thing, and videos are another, but why are they taking their clothes off?

The trouble is, she discovers that the rich and powerful men she's been trying to avoid seem to have started sharing her dreams too!

What's more, the mental disorders forcibly implanted in her dreams have left lingering effects on her body in real life. They flare up every time she sees those men. The System said they'd heal on their own after a while, so she just has to endure it until then.

Fortunately, they don't seem to remember her name or face very clearly from the dreams.

She nervously clutches her secret identity close.

But after she finally recovers and hasn't even had time to catch her breath, those mental disorders appear in the men instead, and only flare up around her!

"..." Apparently out of strength and options, she still has to pull herself together and protect her secret identity.

#Through relentless effort and bloody competition with each other, using every last ounce of strength and every means at their disposal, they finally succeed in becoming her playthings.#

Beautiful madwoman · unbelievably oblivious · tipsy, dreamy heroine vs. men who are willing to take whatever they get · twisted and neurotic from unrequited love · trying to kill every man who gets close to his wife · male leads who just want to go absolutely wild with their wife to prove they exist

Style: Probably old-school Mary Sue, melodramatic and deliciously angsty, with a dark, muddy vibe. It might also contain a little forced love. Given the author's track record, it might turn hilarious as I write...

I've actually listed about thirty mental disorders. How many I write out will depend on inspiration and how I'm feeling.

Weibo screenshot dated 2024.11.14, revised again on 2025.5.17.

Theme: Stay happy and mentally stable