If It Weren't for Me

"Because I met you, my nothingness began to take shape."

Sickly, sweet-faced schemer × seductive, flirtatious mad dog

Reunion after a long separation | Mending a broken relationship | Mutual salvation | Part campus, part city life

Neither the heroine nor the hero is a good person. The heroine looks obedient, but is a prickly little flower beneath the surface. The hero is an obsessive madman.

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Lin Sui'an had been in poor health since childhood, and grew up being called Lin Daiyu.

Before she had ever seen a real panda, she already knew that panda blood flowed through her veins.

She ought to have been cherished and spoiled, but she had the fate of a servant despite being born a young lady.

Everyone thought she wouldn't live long, and her grandmother was always saying how pitiful An'an was.

As time went by, even Lin Sui'an came to believe she wasn't destined to live to a ripe old age.

During the loneliest, most helpless years of her youth, Ming Zhou, wild as the wind, blew into her desolate wilderness.

"I heard you have panda blood too," the boy said nonchalantly.

Lin Sui'an nodded warily, and listened as he continued:

"Let's be each other's blood bank."

After that, they were in it together.

In Ming Zhou's eyes, Lin Sui'an was impossibly hard to take care of.

The slightest lapse in attention, and she'd end up in a complete mess.

But he was willing to be the keeper trapped by his pampered little bird.

In an unseen corner, the sea breeze was hot and humid. As day gave way to night, their eyes met.

The girl's restrained kiss fell upon him.

From then on, Ming Zhou could never again wake from dreams in which Lin Sui'an was there.

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Years later, they met again. Lin Sui'an had just broken up with her ex-boyfriend, who had cheated on her with her best friend.

She went to a bar to drown her sorrows, but when she came out, she ran into a fugitive attacking someone in the street.

The person who took a knife for her was none other than Ming Zhou.

At the moment the man was about to be wheeled into the emergency room, his blood pouring out cut Lin Sui'an to the heart.

"Lin Sui'an, I'm afraid of dying."

"You can't leave me again."

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If you can't fall in love with me, who could you love?

The title comes from the song "Who Do You Love" by The Black Skirts.

*One-on-one romance, both leads' first time, happy ending.

[The blurb was first written on December 16, 2022]

Weibo: He Dao'er

Theme: Even when mired in a swamp, hope can still burn within.