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[The male lead is reborn and saves the female lead.]
Pure, stubborn white flower X astronomy-loving, fatherly boyfriend
1.
Zhang Zhichen, a troublemaker who had always thrown his weight around at school,
seemed like a completely different person after waking up in class one day.
He stopped fighting and skipping class, became obsessed with studying, and even started meddling in other people's business.
The person he fussed over was the loneliest transfer student in class, Jiang Xuyan.
In particular, he would:
shield her from dirty water being splashed at her;
get rid of the awful admirers pestering her;
take the blame when she was accused of cheating;
celebrate her birthday and give her a present.
Even her own father wouldn't fuss over her this much.
Completely dumbfounded, Jiang Xuyan hurriedly waved her hands and said, "I swear I never saved his life."
2.
Before meeting Zhang Zhichen,
Jiang Xuyan had struggled through the muddy quagmire of life.
But one cloudless day, Zhang Zhichen appeared before her like a hero, bathed in light, shielding her from the filth so not a speck touched her.
After that, this conceited boy bounced around in her world.
He often joked, "Jiang, what would you do without me?"
Jiang Xuyan didn't answer, but she had seriously thought about it.
Without him showing up in her life, she probably would have made an absolute mess of things.
3. In his previous life
For a long time after Jiang Xuyan died, Zhang Zhichen drifted through life in a daze.
The lonely, poor girl didn't even have anyone to put up a tombstone for her.
So Zhang Zhichen secretly set one up for her.
The bare gravestone mattered to no one but him.
Nobody knew that what lay buried beneath it was the love he had never confessed.
He made a wish upon the stars: if he could live his life over,
he wanted to see Jiang Xuyan one more time.
Even if it were only for a brief minute.
Even if it cost him his life,
as long as she could be safe and sound.
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[You can't see the North Star on a night in the Southern Hemisphere, so the first thing you look for when you raise your head is the Southern Cross.]
"Jiang Xuyan, you are my Southern Cross. You appeared in my dark, bewildered world and showed me the way."
* One-on-one, both leads' first times, happy ending.
* Many twists. The reason for the heroine's death in her previous life is revealed later.
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[Blurb written on 2022.2.11 and screenshot archived.]
Theme: No matter which time or world we're in, you're the destination I'm running toward.
[Preface] The first long review of 2023 is dedicated to "Star Search Diary" The first time I read "Looking for Stars", I was stumped and confused. After I read it the second time, I couldn't calm down for a long time. The style, style and angle of this article are very novel, as He Dao himself said, there are some immature aspects, but I think this article has successfully stood up. This is a story about two-way redemption in super time and space. It is also one of the few stories on the market that is told from the perspective of the male protagonist. Human nature is exposed, society is exposed, and the world is not all good. The eighteen-year-old boy never grew up, and the grown-up boy recalled and understood his father's emotions. In addition to the story of Zhang Zhichen and Yan Yan, this book is even more touching about Lao Zhang and Xiao Zhang, grandma and Yan Yan... In this book, whether it is Shu Ze or Xu Jiaman, they represent twisted human nature and paranoid love. When they meet a girl like Yan Yan, most people will not choose to help but stand by when they see her being bullied. They distort human nature because of love. This is how the world is. Not everything is beautiful. My writing style is crude and immature, and I have repeatedly reviewed it. This is the first time that I don't know how to present this book review. If there are any mistakes, please tell me and I will correct them. [Looking] "My dear, where are you hiding in a daze? What worries are you still not able to let go of?" At the beginning of the chapter, Zhang Zhichen gave me the feeling of loneliness. In the first chapter, there was a scene where he stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling window of the airport, looking at the long night, and said to Fei Yang, "I just miss her." "Missing her is the way to survive for me, just like a fish can't live without water." Eighteen-year-old Zhang Zhichen disappeared with the fire. The raging flames, the dilapidated Tongzi Tower, and the fearless and unruly eighteen-year-old Zhang Zhichen knelt down on the muddy ground. A handful of ashes after the fire were his heart, with no place to go. The sun rose that early morning, and the sun brought warmth to people. But when the sun rose behind that young man, no warmth could be seen. Some people are lost forever, taking away everything and occupying their hearts. He always thought that things forced the girl to commit suicide. He never doubted the last report issued by the police. He also blamed himself for why he went to find her that afternoon and found nothing wrong with her. Zhang Zhichen has lived with self-blame for 12 years. Twelve years without Jiang Xuyan is no good. He survives by thinking, and a fish cannot escape water. He compares himself to a fish in a fish tank. It can survive as long as it has enough nutrients, but his memory is better than that of a fish. The nutrients are the longing for Yan Yan. She likes astronomy, so he chose astronomy and became an excellent astronomy professor. Of course, his memory is good. The memory of a fish is seven seconds. Zhang Zhichen's longing is countless twelve years, which is a lifetime. What is peak loneliness? I think the person I love deeply is lost forever, and I am living in this floating world Because Zhang Daming was drunk every day because of his wife's departure, he cried alone in the dark. When he woke up and realized that he was neglecting Zhang Zhichen, he thought: Your mother should blame me. I chose a person who will never change in my life. In 2012, half a year after the fire, he bought a pack of cigarettes that he had quit drinking for a long time. At that time, he understood why his father drank every day. "The feeling of not having to control my pain, not having to suppress my thoughts, and letting go is more addictive than anything else." He gave himself up to alcohol to numb himself. Zhang Zhichen, who lost his speech, went to Finland to see the Aurora on Christmas Day when he was studying abroad. He was alone in the vast snowy sky, but he was very lonely. The girl was gone. Snow itself is very romantic, and snowflakes fell on their heads one after another. They also grew old in an instant. In the Korean drama, Chu Xue confessed that they would be together forever, but he said that he missed the snow that could not be piled up in the phoenix tree. Even if the snow could not be piled up at that time, his girl was there. Zhang Zhichen goes stargazing to every corner every year. He looks up at the vast stars above his head on Mount John and subconsciously looks for the Southern Cross. The article describes that the Southern Cross is below Centauri, and the four brightest stars are connected in the shape of a cross. I immediately thought of believers. Zhang Zhichen is the sailor, and the Southern Cross is Jiang Xuyan, who led him to find his way back from the darkness. But he got better and his star disappeared, so his way back became hers. There is a scene in the second chapter where I stayed for a long time. "Zhang Zhichen, have you ever seen the night sky full of stars? I have, and I really want to become a star and blend in. It doesn't matter even if it's not so bright." This is the second profile of the girl Xu Yan at the beginning of the chapter. When Zhang Zhichen was distracted and thinking about the sky, Which of the stars is yours? When a meteor streaked across his lens, he thought later, "Since we can make stars, why not be the brightest one?" "You have to accept that some stars are not that bright. Because of their background, the starry sky will be so beautiful." What kind of existence is a shooting star? Meteoroids are so small that you can easily hold thousands of them in the palm of your hand, but they can emit bright and short flashes. They rush into the atmosphere at a speed of 60,000 kilometers per hour, and end their own lives in exchange for such a dazzling light. They are stubborn and poignant. I think Xu Yan is also like meteoroids. A stubborn and poignant existence, I thought of Zhang Zhichen saying in front of the tomb later in the article, "Have you turned into a star that is not so bright, huh?" "You have posed a problem for me. I think it will take a long time to find you among the stars." "Jiang Xuyan, if you see me one day, can you give me a signal?" Yanyan, did you give him a signal to continue living well? [Reply] "Give me a love that I never want to lose contact with in this life. I believe that the journey of love is the stars and the sea. The beautiful plot will not change. It is the best arrangement of fate." When I read it for the first time, I interpreted the following story (the stage after the car accident to waking up) as a dream of Zhang Zhichen's. When he woke up from the dream, the girl was not there, and the things that existed in the dream had actually changed in reality. I interpreted this as being in a trance, but it didn't make sense. I never understood the meaning of the eighteen-year-old Zhang Zhichen in the back, so I read it a second time. This time I understood that the collision of two cars is equivalent to a planetary collision, and the final rescue of life and death. Zhang Zhichen was indulged in a dream with Jiang Xuyan. Maybe God saw that they had mercy on them. It is a chance to return to the parallel universe, and this parallel universe is real, so the interweaving of real time and space and parallel time and space in the original text can be explained. The doctor said that some people indulge in sweet dreams and do not want to wake up. This is not the case for him, and then The eighteen-year-old Zhang Zhichen in the article is the Zhang Zhichen who existed in the original time and space, which is equivalent to two souls in one body. The thirty-year-old Zhang Zhichen came to this time and space and squeezed out the eighteen-year-old Zhang Zhichen, and I think only the thirty-year-old Zhang Zhichen can save Jiang Xuyan. Some people will say that resistance is due to a weak character and lack of understanding, Holy Mother, but have you ever thought about what she uses to resist and how to resist? Dad opened a fireworks factory because his daughter likes it. When I saw this, I seemed to hear some voices and saw a picture. Little Jiang Xuyan was held in her arms by her father and looked at the fireworks in the sky. She raised her little finger and said to her father, "Rake, beautiful" "Do you like it, my baby?" ... Happy" "Then daddy, can you design it for us? Let us make the most beautiful fireworks in the world." But on her birthday, the fireworks factory exploded, and the most gorgeous fireworks took away her parents, bringing debts to her and her grandmother and compensation for the workers' families. If everything had not happened, she and the little boy would have gone to school together, and they would have been happy and loved by their parents, but there were no ifs. There was no but, because the fireworks factory exploded and the little boy's father passed away, and he exchanged harsh words with each other. From then on, Yanyan had already been burdened with guilt, so he fled to Wutong with his grandmother. She wrote on her first day at her new school [August 26, 2010, Qing. Tomorrow is the first day that I will officially transfer to Jinyang. I hope everything goes well and I can make good friends] But later it backfired [September 1, 2010, Qing, I had a bad day today. During the cleaning, Xu Jiaman took me to the sanitary area and splashed dirty water all over me. When I came to the office, she said it was my fault. The class teacher believed her because she is a good student with both good character and academic performance, and it is impossible for her to do such a thing. I didn't lie, but no one believed it The head teacher asked me to apologize to Xu Jiaman in public, but I said nothing and even cried in vain. In the end, Xu Jiaman "forgave" me regardless of the previous grudges. I hate this place, I hate my classmates and teachers here I hate myself even more when I cry] Self-esteem and reality are intertwined, a portrayal of the world, she is stubborn Why is it said that Zhang Zhichen, who is only thirty years old, can save Jiang Xuyan? Because eighteen-year-old boys are sincere and beautiful but also reckless. At eighteen, we are all independent individuals. We have not experienced changes in the world, have not seen all the world's sophistication, and do not understand what fame and wealth are. At eighteen, we will still imagine how wonderful the future will be, but it is all false. In this dimension, Zhang Zhichen, who is thirty years old, will express his joy boldly and directly this time. " Zhang Zhichen, you are so annoying, please call me Zhang Zhichen." "Okay, then you can call me Jiang Wutong." "Why?" "Because, Zhizhi likes Wutong the most." He would say "I am here" over and over again when calling "Zhang Zhichen", and would say on that day, "I miss my mother." "Will they also miss us in heaven?" "Yes, they miss us more than anyone else in the world." "Then I "Why didn't I dream of her once?" "Because he didn't want to see us Yanyan cry." What kind of existence is Zhang Zhichen? Every time, he uses fairy tales and love to fill Yanyan's missing heart. He said that a piece of chocolate every day is like coaxing a child. When she doesn't cry, he gives her candy to "reward obedient children." Everyone thinks that studying well is Yanyan's response. But Zhang Zhichen is not. He will comfort and encourage, carefully protect Yanyan's self-esteem from behind, and lead her step by step. What does Zhang Zhichen like like? Thirty-year-old Zhang Zhichen is gentle and gentle, but he will declare his love for Yanyan to the world. In the previous life, Zhang Zhichen, who was 18 years old, could work hard to get into a university for the girl he loves. The ignorant love of youth A little turtle was carrying some small steps outside the turtle shell and she shrank, but at this time there was a person who had been silently accompanying the turtle shell until the dark night, knocking on the turtle shell and saying, I am here, don't be afraid. Later, the little turtle acquiesced to the approach of that person, and that person one day boldly opened a small gap in the turtle shell to let her in the sunlight. Zhang Zhichen can take 99 steps towards Yanyan, but the last step has to be done by Yanyan himself, but the last step is very difficult for Yanyan. Fortunately, the little turtle slowly walked out. When did I feel that Yan Yan came alive? It was the night before going to Yushan Mountain. Zhang Zhichen thought that the day of the fire in his previous life was getting closer and closer. He stayed awake all night and recalled the contents of the diary. At half past six, he called Yan Yan, "Ms. Jiang Xuyan, you have scheduled a wake-up call." , I am Xiao Zhang No. 01, It is 6:30 in the morning, you still have half an hour to get up and get ready." "Didn't you say you'd call me at 6 o'clock?" "I got up late." "I asked you to go to bed early. You must have stayed up late playing games again. Remember to make up for it when you get in the car..." I stopped at this paragraph. I had been feeling uncomfortable for a long time, and Yan Yan became more alive. Instead of the last life, Yan Yan deliberately said harsh words to him and said, "Can you stop following me?" In the previous life, in this life, Zhang Zhichen kept saying, "I'm sorry," "It's okay, I just had a nightmare," "I messed with you in my dream." "I lost it." Yanyan said to him, "Then did you find me later?" "Zhang Zhichen, you won't lose me." "I won't be angry with you, nor will I avoid you, so don't blame yourself..." "You can pinch yourself, doesn't it hurt?" Twelve years, don't live with self-blame. [Dream] "I walked past the rooftop where I watched the shooting stars with you, and endured the long wait for losing you. I was so worried that no one would understand your helplessness. Who would still treat you as a child after leaving me? I guess you will miss me too, and you are also afraid that I will be lost in the vast sea of people." Everything was over. After the college entrance examination, he thought he had succeeded, but God did not do as he wished. Time and space intersected. When he woke up from his dream, before leaving, he left a sentence in his draft box for the eighteen-year-old Zhang Zhichen: "Don't make her cry." On May 26, 2022, in the New Zealand ward, he woke up and the first sentence He said, "Where is Jiang Xuyan?" Fei Yang's next sentence shattered his joy, "Didn't Jiang Xuyan pass away in the summer twelve years ago? You personally built the grave for her." So he went back to the time when there was no hope at first. On the day he went through the discharge procedures, he looked through his schoolbag and saw Jiang Xuyan in Yushan. He believed that everything Xu Yan gave him was not a dream, but something that really happened. Later, Shu Ze deliberately picked on him at the airport and found out the real cause of Jiang Xuyan's death. He said goodbye to everyone and rushed to a reunion that was likely to fail - using the impact of jumping into the sea to go back to the past, they Love can be conveyed across time and space - in 2022, Zhang Zhichen stood on the rocks at the beach and shouted "Jiang Xuyan, can you hear me?" At this time, in 2011, Jiang Xuyan turned back in the alley because she clearly heard someone calling his name. You will eventually meet and love forever. Please forgive the selfishness of 30-year-old Zhang Zhichen, the painful longing. If they lose this gamble, they will meet again, and Yanyan will not be lonely. "Yanyan, if possible, I don't want to come back. In fact, what I want most is to be with you forever and watch you grow old with my own eyes. Even if... I start everything over again and give up the so-called great future." "You are not here" In the past few years, I have actually not had a good life at all, so even if you call me stupid, I have to bet this time, Jiang Xuyan, I am coming to you. "I am coming to you. If I succeed, I will save you once. Is this time our forever; I am coming to you, if I fail, please forgive me for being 12 years late. I learned the major you want to study, and go see the places you want to see. I am here to accompany you..." [Jigen is eighteen years old] Written to the eighteen-year-old Zhang Zhichen who existed in this dimension, all that is left to the boy is probably the look back at the first sight of Yanyan's love at the office on the day he transferred to Jinyang. His mother passed away, his father was drunk, and he was very lonely. Everything was done by the thirty-year-old Zhang Zhichen. He did not get into college by himself. He could not see his future, and he could not promise to completely protect Jiang Xuyan. At the age of eighteen, he could not be comprehensive and emotionally stable. He cherished Jiang Xuyan too much and loved him too much, so he would rather not be disappointed than his Yanyan. At the moment when Yanyan was in a fire and asked for help, the young man sped up on the road, his scarlet eyes trying hard to run towards him. But just when he was about to arrive, the car accident took away the eighteen-year-old him forever, leaving behind the words "Live on, and there will be more" Sorry..." Eighteen-year-old Zhang Zhichen, please believe that the universe is vast and your little rose also exists in the universe. If we meet her this time, please believe that you can do it. Your love is still there and you are still the most sincere young man. [Permanent] "The love I don't want to lose contact with in this life, even if your breath is thousands of mountains away, please believe that the love I give is worthy of your love." This race is like running to the end of the universe. The universe is vast, we are small, and there are billions of stars. I will protect you. When the thirty-year-old Zhang Zhichen went back again, he saved Yan Yan. The two warmed each other and the surroundings were messy. They were not good, but their hearts were at peace with each other. Later, Jiang Xuyan was arranged to have a dream that happened in her previous life. She watched the scenes repeat before her eyes. She recalled the changes in Zhang Zhichen and saw Zhang Zhichen leaning on her tombstone with lisianthus on her head. Her sincere and unchanging love was given to the one and only one he had. For the rest of his life, he would not be able to escape. "Zhang Zhichen, is that you?" "Of course it's me" "I mean, is it you from the future?" "Zhang Zhichen, how old are you?" "Thirty years old, isn't it very old?" "Thirty years... Twelve years, so long." "Zhang Zhichen, how have you been doing after all these years?" "Okay, I am the youngest professor of astronomy and physics at Wuhan University. I have full classes every day. I also go to various places around the world to see the stars, and I have made many friends who love astronomy..." "Have you got a girlfriend?" "No." "Then how lonely you must be" "I'm not alone. I keep myself busy during the day and miss you at night. I live a fulfilling life." We look up at the stars, and through the sea of stars we seem to see another world. We meet the stars across time and space, listen to the sounds light years away, and go on a romantic journey in the universe. There is a word in astronomy called the Roche limit. The Roche limit is the distance at which the gravitational pull of one celestial body is equal to the tidal force caused by a second celestial body. When the distance between two celestial bodies is less than the Roche limit, the celestial bodies will tend to fragment and then become the ring of the second celestial body. This is the love that lasts for a while. Two objects that attract each other can never be separated. You can search and see the roses, pink tulips, fireworks show, lingering fragrance in your hands, and your heart hanging in the sky... Etc. You can experience the romance and shock of the planet through starry sky photos. If there is nothing, I think Zhang Zhichen will choose to leave forever one day, missing him to the bone, how can he just forget it? He will live a good life according to Jiang Xuyan's words, but life has no meaning for him. Finally, when the dust settled, the Southern Cross found its way back. It was his and hers, guiding the way out of the vast voyage. Zhang Zhichen Ai Jiang Xu said like life, "The universe is boundless, and the little rose he placed in his heart will bloom forever." Forever love the world...
The name Star Searching Diary is so good. This book is like a diary recording Zhang Zhichen's search for the star Jiang Xuyan. The diary is also the focus of the story. Because of this diary, Zhang Zhichen understands Jiang Xuyan better. Then when countless Jiang Xuyan was bullied and even left in the end, he rushed to save her. Zhang Zhichen's soul interpenetration is the key, so this diary is also the same. Our Jiang Xuyan's words are really cold and distant on the surface, but very soft on the inside. In fact, she was cold just to better protect herself, lower her sense of existence, and finish high school for three years and no longer be bullied. But in fact, as long as you treat her better, she will give back everything to the other person, and will help Zhang Zhichen with tutoring. When everyone is not optimistic about Zhang Zhichen, she likes him and encourages him. Zhou Feifei was also in this game of bullying her, but she knew that Zhou Feifei was not that kind of person. Participating in the sports meeting just to win a pair of sneakers for my grandma to wear. I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong We Yanyan And even though our living conditions are not good enough, we Yanyan has been bullied, but we have our own dignity and will not let others trample on our dignity. We will get whatever we want based on our own ability and do not rely on charity from others. Our academic performance is also among the best. We Yanyan is like a little plum blossom growing up in adversity. Zhang Zhichen is really both fatherly and youthful. When he was young, Zhang Zhichen was aloof and did not deal with others, and his grades were not good. But he studied hard for Yanyan. Because he lacked love and no one taught him the rules of social survival, he could only fight to solve the problem. Facing Yanyan, he knew that his young self could not give Yanyan anything, so he decided to let himself disappear in this world. Give 30-year-old Zhang Zhichen a chance. I really cried. Why is he so good? And what is 30-year-old Zhang Zhichen like? After losing Yanyan, he has always regretted and missed Yanyan. He even went to see the Southern Cross every year and was engaged in research in this area. Like an asteroid flying alone in the starry sky looking for another asteroid named Jiang Xuyan, the 18-year-old Zhang Zhichen couldn't handle things well. After being tempered by society, he became more comfortable with it. He reconciled with his father and knew that his father actually loved him. He also knew that many things should not be solved by fighting. Instead, he chose to use strong interpersonal relationships to solve everything. And read harder, hahahahaha. When he left for a short time, he said not to make her cry, and at the end of the story, he returned to Yanyan at all costs to protect her. It really felt safe. He really gave Jiang Xuyan a love called never lost contact. Shu Ze is really a bad person, and he will destroy what he can't get. Does this really count as love? Of course it doesn't. He gave Yanyan too much and hurt Yanyan's death. It was also related to him. This kind of person is really paranoid to the core. If he travels through time and again, he still can't change anything about him. As you said, she is an exquisite egoist. Xu Jiaman started out as a person who helped Yan Yan, but later turned into a person who bullied Yan Yan, and it was ironic that she bullied Yan Yan to the point of "fatal". She was arrogant and domineering. Even if something happened, her parents didn't love her, but her family had money to take care of her, and she was still an outsider. I was thinking that maybe she helped Yan Yan because of her status as the deputy squad leader, and she wanted to establish a good image, but her actual personality could not be changed. Later, when he met Shu Ze and "liked" Yan Yan, his true character was revealed. Shu Ze and Xu Jiaman are both extremely complicated people. I was not a person who believed in love, let alone these so-called loves that never lose contact. But when I saw this story, I believed it. Not only did Zhang Zhichen not forget Yan Yan, but he also kept looking for and loving her. It took twelve years. Twelve years can change a lot. A goldfish's memory is only seven seconds, but he remembered Yan Yan for a lifetime. The scariest thing in real life is forgetting. Is that sentence from the future you? It is really love that spans time and space. Just like the lyrics sung by Tao Zhe, I have never forgotten that my first love for you has transcended time and space and is still the only one in my heart. This story is really full of love and will make people sigh that love is so good. I hope Teacher He Dao can also gain more love~
Unfortunately, the 18-year-old Zhang Zhichen only had a glimpse of love at first sight, but fortunately, the 30-year-old Zhang Zhichen was able to get what he wanted.
Dear Wutong and Cicada, I will accompany you here. I hope you will always love each other in another time and space and be together forever and ever! 2023.6.11
Ahhhh, I finally read a book where the male protagonist is reborn and redeems the female protagonist. It's so good.
Oh my god, it's another day when I am moved to tears by beautiful love! I really like Zhang Zhichen! He is such a wonderful man! (I also like Yan Yan very much. Her unyielding strength really touched me, but Zhang Zhichen, this man, really touched me.) I hope they will always be happy in that time and space! (By the way, The author actually thinks that Shu Ze's character is quite touching hahaha. Putting aside the bad things he did, he reminds me of the character of the male protagonist in the Titanic fanfic True Love Eternal. He is a cold and selfish man who bows down for love. It's so touching! Although Shu Ze actually hurt Yan Yan), let's do it again one last time to express my love for Zhang Zhichen!!!
Thanks for the limited fee. It made me cry from beginning to end. I haven't read a new novel in a long time.
So emotional Zhang Zhichen, he has been looking for/waiting for twelve years Yanyan has never changed, she has always been the same as she remembered brave, kind They have enough fate to meet and fall in love Best wishes Shuyi finished reading on 2023.12.18
Spread flowers, spread flowers. It's been a long time since I read an article in Jinjiang. It's so beautiful. Just leave it alone, he! We Wutong cicadas will all do well.
2023.7.19 I finished reading the story of Zhang Zhichen and Jiang Xuyan. It was the first time I saw this type of story. I couldn't help but read chapter after chapter. I really cried to death, not only for Zhang Zhichen, but also for Jiang Xuyan's bravery. I can only accompany you so far. Zhang Zhichen and Jiang Xuyan want to be happy forever.