You Don't Actually Think I Still Love You, Do You?

I felt painful countless times while reading this article, because I hoped so much for Hikitsuki to be free at the beginning, but he didn't get it in the end. But when I finally saw that he was in pain all the time, and it was because he was in too much pain that he couldn't feel his own pain, I realized that he had always been deeply in love with Ying Zhi from the beginning to the end, and he didn't seem to want real freedom and fly away. But because his love was too pure, it caused him extreme pain after being killed by his lover. What he wanted has always been to stay away from the source of his pain, including his choice to kill his young lover, all in order to relieve himself of pain. I think he's saving himself. Thinking of the famous sentence "I long for someone to love me passionately until death" Yiyue's love gave me the shock of seeing this sentence for the first time. I have to say that I really like or appreciate this kind of love, which is like a sharp knife tearing apart all the hypocrisy, allowing everyone to face the bloody reality together. Hikitsuki tried many times to kill Yingzhi, and also tried many times to stay away from Yingzhi. At the end, there is really no other way. He completely erased his memory. In my opinion, he completely freed himself from the violent love and freed himself from the tragic love between him and Yingzhi. It is also a complete counterattack against winning. Ying only guards Yiyue who has lost her memory. In my opinion, their relationship is completely over, which is be, but Yiyue is finally free, so it is he.

It took me two nights to read it, and it was quite disappointing. The author is very good at writing characters. After watching the ending, I still didn't feel any dislike for Ying Zhi. I even felt that he had a very charming personality. Of course, it may be because I like it myself hahahahahahaha. In my opinion, there is no crematorium between Ying Zhi and Yiyue, and even using this word in this story seems a bit cliché. Their experiences, personalities, as well as time, cause and effect, etc., Are destined to push them to the inevitable ending. Even if it is even the slightest difference, it may not be like this, but everything happens like this. When two proud people met and got to know each other, it might have been a happy ending if they had stopped at the beginning, but then it wouldn't be them. Both love each other in their own way. They understand each other best and understand each other least. The two people create a misplaced love together. Yiyue seems to be ruthless but affectionate. He is so pure that his love does not contain any impurities and is given as if the whole person is taken out without reservation. Such a person, including his feelings, is even more beautiful when he is broken. But Ying Zhi is different, he is not that pure, but what he gives Yiyue is the best he can give. However, the best does not mean suitable, nor does it mean that it will not hurt. In the eyes of readers, he is like a god who is high above and out of reach, and the moon in the water cannot be caught. This is largely because this is him in Yiyue's eyes, and readers just follow his perspective to see him. The Ying Zhi in Yi Yue's eyes is so good and charming, not only for his own reasons, but also because it is the Ying Zhi in the eyes of Yi Yue who loves him. This feeling gives Ying Zhi a unique and uncaptured charm. If you look at it from Ying Zhi's perspective, is Yiyue also like a god? After reading this story, as an outsider, I felt like I was listening to a storybook in a teahouse. I couldn't really empathize with them because I was not them, but I still couldn't help but feel for the protagonist of the story, how elusive love is.

Reliving it again, I still suffer from the pain of not being able to love Yiyue, and I feel unhappy because of Yingqi's great desire to control. I want and want, and at the beginning, I don't let Yiyue love him, and I don't even allow him to love him silently in my heart. I also don't allow him to go through the love crisis, and he also forces Yiyue to accept his wife and disciples, which he knows will make Yiyue sad. The last fuse was Yiyue's deepest fear, his brother. His mother had liked his brother since he was a child and abandoned him with him. This was a trauma in his heart. He said he never thought of his brother. My understanding is that this painful memory was buried in the deepest corner of his heart. It was his trauma. It will be painful to think about it, so he didn't think about it. I think this is why this last fatal blow was Now he is finally able to say that he doesn't love the scumbag Gong Yingqi. He is dreaming about hugging his childhood self. Can I understand that he loves someone with extreme devotion, but in reality his love is not responded to or even allowed to exist. The only person he loves hurts him the most. This is definitely a critical blow to him. He hugged his loveless self in childhood and said that he will love her in the future, which means that from now on he will not love Yingqi at all? Yiyue will not stay with Yingqi if she doesn't love him anymore. He stayed because of love. Now this reason is gone. He just wants to leave, just leave. He doesn't love but doesn't want to hate either. But Zha Gong's desire for control doesn't allow it. As a result, Yiyue is equivalent to being dead for a thousand years, but it's worse than death. His soul is in pain. It's true. A thousand years is too long. The article says that Jieyue always feels the pain of burning alcohol in her hair. Later, in the author's response, she learned that it was the imaginary extreme heat that Jieyue felt after being extremely frostbitten on the snow. It is also a painful trauma in the memory. Sometimes the body that cannot remember the memory remembers it subconsciously. I feel so sorry for Maomao.

Reading this article is kind to my wallet. I have been unable to tell their story for a long time, as if a hand is holding my heart, which is hard to describe and bitter for a long time. Looking at the rest, it suddenly became boring. It seems like as long as I don't read the next story, I can keep them going forever. The child was crying.

It feels like Ying destroyed Yue's cognition, but it was also Yue who single-handedly shaped Ying's tragedy. Yue looked at Ying as if he were looking at a god, so Ying had to obey his expectations and become a god. There are many kinds of love. Unfortunately, it was Yue who sprouted the desire for love first, and this beginning sprouted too early. At this time, they were all too young, and their understanding of themselves and the world was too shallow. They were indeed too young and too persistent to end decently, so they seemed particularly embarrassed and ended dismally. Childhood trauma is really scary. If it weren't for such tragic childhood memories, they wouldn't have such extreme personalities. I really like this book. The teacher really hides his understanding of many things between the lines. I'm so touched.

To put it bluntly, Ying Zhi was wrong. Yiyue gave everything he had, and there was nothing wrong with love that meant death or injury. The fault was that Ying Zhi did not respond to this love in time. From the time after Yiyue fell in love to the time before Yiyue left, from Chapter 21 to Chapter 52, if only Fan Ying had seen his heart clearly earlier, his lover would have finally gotten married. It's really awesome. I never thought about how the two of them would end up, but when I saw this ending, I knew that this was how they should end. Yiyue finally learned not to love so much

I really like the emotional descriptions in it. It's so real, dense, diverse and complex. I suddenly stopped falling in love with the part about love, but I still fell in love with it over and over again. It gave me a lot of feelings. For the first time, I intuitively understood the complexity of love and the sudden but reasonable changes. However, it's still a bit regretful. I actually like the happy and happy he. The blank space left me thinking. It's like their subsequent story, but it feels just right to stop here. They both sang their own one-man show of love. I hope that in the long and eternal blank space, they can have more similar tunes, learn to be loved, and have the confidence to be loved. I am very grateful to you who wrote this article, which gave me a brief understanding of how beautiful and terrifying love is.

It feels like the crematorium is not burning up, just like the story of the cat and cat () I always feel that at least the cat should have a good death.

It satisfies all my doubts about the relationship between immortal species. Since the life span is long, then the entanglement of love, hatred and hatred should last until death. When the cause and effect of the two parties in the world only involves each other, then each other is the only choice, and no other is allowed. In the long years of remaining together, who can define what love is, and who can deny that this is not love.

This ending is both delicious and unforgettable. They can never see the real each other.