After Failing to Turn Her Childhood Friend Into a Lover

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*Important content warning: This is a writing exercise based on personal kinks, not a sweet romance. Expect melodrama and angst.*

[Brooding, teary-eyed, loyal puppy top × cool, arrogant, yet seductive queen bottom]

[Synopsis 1, Volume 1 | Four years later | The cremation starts from the start]

(Top) Jiang Yang is straight-acting but genuinely homophobic.

(Bottom) Chi Yu is truly an aloof, untouchable beauty, and genuinely bad-tempered.

Four years ago, his friendship with Jiang Yang turned into something more. He confessed, but Jiang Yang rejected him because of his homophobia. But how could someone as proud as Chi Yu accept that?

So after being rejected, he was willing to be the bottom for love. He even forced Jiang Yang into an ambiguous relationship with him, certain he could train Jiang Yang into liking men.

Thus Chi Yu pursued him for four years and did everything with him. But wait, who's the one doing the pursuing here?

Over those four years

Jiang Yang would bring Chi Yu roses and ask him out to dinner. Chi Yu would pinch his chin and taunt him: "Oh? Why should I keep you company?"

Jiang Yang was accused of not being sincere enough, and had to admit, "Because I miss you."

Jiang Yang would make Chi Yu angry. Chi Yu would snap at him and yell, then kiss away his tears and hold him to ransom: "Kiss me, and I'll forgive you."

Jiang Yang would sniffle, then cautiously kiss his lips: "Please don't be mad..."

Jiang Yang would give Chi Yu a present. Chi Yu would raise an eyebrow and demand, "Well, you got me this. What exactly are we to each other?"

Jiang Yang would bite his lip in frustration, then finally give in: "I guess I'm pursuing you."

For four years, Jiang Yang was this homophobic.

So homophobic that even after his love had run dry, he still said he only wanted to be friends. So homophobic that after rejecting Chi Yu's confession, he couldn't help crying in anguish.

That was why Chi Yu couldn't figure out whether Jiang Yang liked him or not.

All he could do was kiss the corner of Jiang Yang's lips to comfort him whenever he was rejected, then warn him sternly: "Cry again and see if I don't hit you."

tip:

Cool and restrained + proud and arrogant + domineering and obsessive = seductive queen

Brooding and teary-eyed + big puppy + unaware of his own love = loyal, crying puppy

(Outwardly a defiant wolfdog, actually a loyal crying puppy top | vs | outwardly cool and restrained, actually an obsessive, seductive queen bottom)

[Synopsis 2, Volume 2 | Four years earlier | School-days memories] ※If you're not up for angst, little angels, I recommend reading only this volume! Don't read too much!!!

*1

Jiang Yang and Chi Yu were childhood friends. The first time he saw Chi Yu, he stole his first kiss: "Pretty big brother, I'm going to marry you!"

Chi Yu was aloof and didn't like him, so he beat him until he cried.

Jiang Yang cried through his entire childhood confession: "I like you, big brother..."

But Chi Yu, the untouchable beauty, could only say: "You're so annoying."

*2

Years later, they met again, and Jiang Yang had become a rebellious young man. The little crybaby had turned into a big wolfdog. He cursed Chi Yu to his face: "Why are you just as awful as you used to be? Do you think anyone could like you like this?"

Chi Yu couldn't help punching Jiang Yang, just as he had the first time they met, and regretted it.

He didn't regret hitting him. He regretted not saying that he had always liked him.

But when no one else was around, Jiang Yang shed his defiant facade and cried in secret.

He was hurt and furious, unable to understand why Chi Yu still didn't like him.

*3

After that, their relationship kept getting worse. One day, Chi Yu heard that Jiang Yang was homophobic, so he deliberately told him that he "had a boyfriend."

Jiang Yang started sobbing again, his heart aching beyond words. It was unbearable, but in his pain, Jiang Yang finally understood.

It hurt so much. It was all Chi Yu's fault.

Wasn't Chi Yu the one who made him homophobic in the first place!?

Thanks to him, Jiang Yang's old "condition" had returned, and he was even more homophobic than before.

*4

Homophobia had side effects: Jiang Yang mixed up his hatred and affection.

He hated Chi Yu. How could he tolerate Chi Yu accusing him of being homophobic? He had to find some way to make Chi Yu break up with his boyfriend.

So he said in a sweet, catty voice, "Is your boyfriend as tall as me? I say dump him."

On holidays, he would hold out roses: "Would your boyfriend bring you flowers? I say dump him."

Once drunk, he even kissed Chi Yu: "Your boyfriend... I say dump him."

Later, Jiang Yang, the scheming green tea, succeeded. Chi Yu "broke up," so at last there was no one making him homophobic anymore. Then Chi Yu confessed to him, and had apparently been in love with him for four years.

○ Chronologically, the order is Volume 2 → Volume 1 → Volume 3 | Volume 2 is a flashback volume

[※Reading guide | Important content warnings※]

★ There may be some angst, mainly for the top (for a sweet romance, go straight to Volume 2)

★ Messy, intense love; the bottom forces himself on the top (the top is actually willing)

★ Angsty for the sake of angst, with characters who don't say what's on their minds (sorry, this is my personal kink)

□ Strong characters on both sides. The bottom becomes the top for love; he is neither weak nor "beautiful."

□ The top is a defiant wolfdog, both dominant and sweet, with a double standard: he only turns into a crybaby around the bottom.

□ The top is genuinely homophobic because of past trauma. The bottom doesn't suffer much, but the top does.

□ The top occasionally gets scolded and slapped in the face because the bottom has a bad temper.

□ The secondary couple gets a lot of screen time: two scheming green teas go from rivals in love to a couple.

△ If you can't handle sweet-and-angsty heartbreak and sugar-coated pain, run!

△ If you can't handle slow-burn, brainless melodrama focused on romance, run!

※My personal kinks are unusual, and my writing really is awful. You're right to criticize me. If this isn't your cup of tea, please don't force yourself. I hope you find a book you like after leaving this one! =3=

○ Currently serializing My Undercover Wife Attacks Me After I Transmigrate into a Villain

In The Dust of Jingluo, the villain He Xianqing is ruthless and wicked, and wreaks havoc on the court. To put the crown prince on the throne, he frames the third prince, Mo Wenjing, and causes his death. One day, Professor He Zhixu from A University is unlucky enough to transmigrate into He Xianqing.

Unfortunately, after he transmigrates into a book, the plot goes off course. Mo Wenjing never appears, and He Zhixu doesn't rise smoothly through the ranks. Instead, he is transferred to a declining academy notorious for its troubles, and gets entangled with a beautiful boy who insists on marrying him.

Everyone says Mo Huaining brings good fortune to his husband. Ever since he appeared, He Zhixu's career as a headmaster has flourished. He also happens to meet a lavishly generous young master of a secret pavilion, who gives him ten thousand taels of gold. He turns the academy, whose advancement rate was zero, into an AAA exam-prep boot camp.

Weekly tests, monthly exams, opening exams; sign the papers and write your self-criticism.

Morning reading, evening study, and self-study; mock exams, predicted questions, and practice books.

Military drills, morning runs, and parent meetings; performance assessments and school rules.

After that, the academy's advancement rate soars. Half the officials at court are alumni, and former colleagues who once kicked him while he was down are stunned. They all scramble to flatter He Zhixu, but he politely turns them down, so they start currying favor with his deeply beloved wife instead.

When the ministers investigate, they uncover plenty of shocking details...

First, the boy who keeps calling He Zhixu "husband" in a sweet, delicate voice is nothing like a weak, pampered wife. Every night, his eyes turn bloodshot as he pins He Zhixu beneath him, terrifyingly cruel and possessive.

Second, never mind that the wife is a man, or that he's the one on top. Why does he look so much like the third prince, who left the palace under an assumed name years ago!?

2*

The third prince, Mo Wenjing, was exiled among the common people and endured humiliation. Just when he finally gained the support of a powerful ministerial faction, he died because of He Xianqing's manipulation and treachery.

Reborn, he finds the mastermind. Calling himself "husband" at every turn, he pretends to be a bride marrying into the family, changes his name to Mo Huaining, and infiltrates He Xianqing's side.

He is the wife who married He Zhixu with all the proper rites. He is the mysterious pavilion master who helps He Zhixu. He is also the sworn enemy who holds a deep grudge against He Xianqing.

He claims to be an undercover agent, but...

Underling: He Xianqing seems short on money.

Mo Huaining: He's useful to keep around. Give him a million gold taels.

Underling: He Xianqing seems about to be given a marriage by imperial decree.

Mo Huaining: He's useful to keep around. I'll marry him.

Underling: He Xianqing seems to have been drugged with an aphrodisiac.

Mo Huaining: He's useful to keep around. I'll take care of it.

The underling finally can't hold back: He Xianqing is no longer useful. Kill him at once.

Mo Huaining: If I say he's useful, then he's useful! Don't touch my husband! (crying)

Underling: ...

And so, Mo Huaining diligently plays the undercover agent. He's best at pretending to be pitiful and crying, and he doesn't mind when the act becomes real. Just when he thinks his acting is flawless and he has He Xianqing under control, He Xianqing dies by a hidden arrow.

His revenge for his past life's death should make Mo Huaining happy. But the moment he sees He Zhixu's corpse, he weeps uncontrollably and goes mad with grief, convinced that this man is nothing like He Xianqing from his previous life. He doesn't even realize that the corpse in his arms... is a fake?!

From then on, Mo Huaining is utterly lost, until one day he is summoned back to the palace.

By then, the palace is in chaos. The emperor is gravely ill, the crown prince is incompetent and listens to sycophants, and the government is entirely under the control of a newly appointed left chancellor.

When Mo Huaining first sees him at court, he realizes that this man is exactly like He Zhixu, who died in his arms.

At court, He Zhixu looks down at him and smiles. Mo Huaining's eyes grow hot, and then all hell breaks loose...

After court, the ministers gossip among themselves: Why did the third prince lose control in front of the palace, crying and screaming as he went mad over the left chancellor?

Theme: The road to growth is full of thorns and setbacks. If you stay true to your original intentions, you will eventually reap the rewards.