Embroidery in the Midst of a Busy Life

It's so suffocating, the feeling of slowly suffocating in a closed and warm room, a gentle and calm helplessness. After reading it, I feel like my throat is blocked, like a sinking feeling of despair. I am very familiar with this feeling. I used to feel dissatisfied and panicked when I looked at my current situation in high school. It wasn't that I didn't want to work hard, but every time I started working hard, I found that I couldn't learn or learn well, but I had to do something, whether I was lying to myself or pretending to work hard, in short, I felt like I would be drowned if I didn't do something. But I feel powerless and confused, the kind of self-abasement about what I should do and what I am doing. Anxiety is an emotion and a state, and it is difficult to break away. The emotional conduction in this chapter is so good that it reminded me of the state I was in in high school, and it made me feel a little uncomfortable. Alas, we always talk about love. In reality, there are many such useless feelings that are just like habits. I guess this time the two of them will live in a mess. Maybe some accident will happen? Come on, fish!

Realistic. In the end, I still want to find a girlfriend! This short story tells female readers: Make money, work hard, and then be with her.

Over the past year or so, I have read this chapter on and off almost a hundred times. When I first watched it, I watched it for several days. At that time, although I felt that I was gradually losing the patience and ability to read long texts, I still tried hard to read it many times. Because I want to understand the "love and hate" between Lu Zhimei and Zhou Lin. Perhaps, simply put, I just want to understand Lu Zhimei's feelings and emotions. I unexpectedly got a lot of free time today. I was sitting on a bench in a hallway, deleting videos, photos, and files from my phone to free up some space and extend the life of this phone that I was using so well. Then I saw a draft of this review that had been sitting on my phone for over a year. I haven't finished the review yet because there are many things in this article that I didn't understand. Okay, I'll watch it a few more times today and try to finish writing this review. (And I didn't finish writing the review "today", and this "today" was many, many days ago) When I read this article for the first time, it had a huge impact on my heart, because my feeling after reading it was - it was so awkward. Lu Zhimei and Zhou Lin seemed to be trapped in a mutually unwilling but addictive extreme pull. It's divided and combined, combined and divided... There are too many things that I don't understand, or I don't understand. Watching it again today, I suddenly had a different perception than last year. There is a saying that "If you don't listen to Li Zongsheng when you are young, if you listen to Li Zongsheng again, you will be... Lin Yilian." (Hahaha~ There are many different versions of this sentence, but I like this version the best.) It seems that I understand Lu Zhimei better than last year. Many things can be rationalized, but feelings cannot be broken off at the drop of a hat. She loves her neighbor so much because she is her neighbor, but she also suffers from the fact that her neighbor has always been her neighbor. Since the author wrote in the summary of this chapter "No prize quiz: What disease does Lu Zhimei suffer from?" Then let us start to study Lu Zhimei with this question in mind. The currently known symptoms of Lu Zhimei's illness include seeing light bulbs as green, visual hallucinations, frequent low-grade fever and vomiting, and "bed death". At the beginning of the article, Lu Zhimei mentioned, "I was still on that long, endless vacation, but it was autumn, and Zhou Lin suffered from depression..." I actually don't quite understand why Zhou Lin suffered from depression. But I personally feel that Lu Zhimei has some signs of mild depression. I venture to analyze that the cause of Zhou Lin's depression may be related to the experience of being almost thrown off the balcony by her biological father when she was a baby. Although she will not remember this, the shock she felt when she was told about this childhood experience for the first time is probably the pain that will never be forgotten in her memory, right? Didn't a psychologist say, "Happy people use their childhood to heal their lives, and unhappy people use their lives to heal their childhood." Well. Therefore, probably this memory given to her by Zhou Lin's biological father will affect her throughout her life. The word "break the pot, break the pot" is mentioned twice in the article to describe Lu Zhimei's understanding of her neighbors. I thought about my neighbor's upbringing. She was brought up by her grandparents. Her father once wanted to throw her to death, and her mother did not participate much in the growth of her neighbors. Perhaps Zhou Lin was inferior to other children of the same age in terms of communicating with others since childhood. Therefore, many times, the neighbor is not good at communicating, because she is not good at expressing, and may not even be able to express her emotions clearly. Therefore, Lu Zhimei, who can understand and "translate" the emotions of her neighbors, has become her "Dinghai Needle", "Lighthouse" and "Soul-Calling Flag" for her neighbors. Lu Zhimei is a person who has requirements for life, at least for emotional life. She can't stand the lack of communication skills and willingness to communicate among her neighbors. Lu Zhimei was exhausted from being the translator and "teacher" for her neighbors for a long time, which made her feel aggrieved and resentful. After all, she is the younger one. Perhaps it was the conflict between Lu Zhimei's "requirements" and her neighbors' "casualness" that led to more quarrels and consumption between the two parties. After all, Lu Zhimei needs communication from both parties, but her neighbors love her in a quiet way. She pays more attention to doing and is not very good at talking. This leads to an imbalance in the relationship between the two parties due to unequal needs. But because of their inseparable love, they smoothed over their grievances and continued to "entangle". Read between the lines of this article carefully, and you can read Lu Zhimei's love for her neighbors in every detail. For example, she hopes that her neighbor will need her; for example, she regrets going to the north and feels that she should go to Hong Kong, but "there is no neighbor in Hong Kong." (I was really moved by this sentence when I read it for the first time); for example, her neighbor has returned to her, and only ghosts go to work in that company; such as Lu Zhimei lost her temper several times unreasonably, but when she saw the shocked and aggrieved but still tolerant face of her neighbor, she immediately relented and apologized... (Lu Zhimei is such a good girl); for example, Lu Zhimei has already managed this relationship like this, and she has not completely decided to give up on her neighbor... But sometimes two people get along harmoniously and comfortably, and loving each other alone is not enough. The love between Lu Zhimei and Zhou Lin is not only confusing for people, but also tiring for cats. Hahaha~ After Zhou Lin came out of the shower, he touched Miaomiao's head, but Miaomiao was reluctant. Later, Miao Miao kicked and bit her neighbors. Even when Miaomiao saw Lu Zhimei talking to Zhou Lin again, she glanced at Lu Zhimei and said, "... Miaomiao let out a long sigh..." The author's description of Miaomiao shows that Miao Miao does not like Zhou Lin. Maybe it's because the neighbors always make Lu Zhimei unhappy. But Lu Zhimei was still talking to Zhou Lin, parting and reuniting, giving Zhou Lin a chance to start over again and again. Miaomiao seemed like an old mother watching her love-minded daughter fall in love. She sighed because she felt helpless at Lu Zhimei's behavior, right? Love is really a luxury, leave it to those who can afford it. No more to say. Now let me talk about my questions: Where is the apartment where the story takes place? Whose house is it? Is Lu Zhimei's terrible dream true or false? What is it that Lu Zhimei doesn't dare to face? Is it reality? Because there is a sentence in the article about Lu Zhimei, "She found that she did not dare to ask her mother why she came here." What was she running away from? To escape from your own illness, or to escape from your mother's questioning of your neighbors? The part at the end of the article where Lu Zhimei is taking Miaomiao to the clinic is really thought-provoking. Because I feel that many details overlap between that day and the day when my neighbor came back. For example, in the morning, Miaomiao was regarded as a big gray-haired mouse; for example, her body was not very comfortable; for example, a black garbage bag was stuck to the corner... And there was also an express package imitating a tungsten lamp. Anyway, I was wondering, is my neighbor dead? Lu Zhimei is escaping from this fact? And the title of this chapter is "Basha". Basho has been associated with loneliness and sadness since ancient times, especially the emotions of separation. Forget it, I don't want to think about it today. Hope I can understand later. Okay, let's finally talk about Lu Zhimei's illness. I briefly searched on Baidu. Actually, I wanted to study Xialu Zhimei's disease in depth. However, the medical field is very broad, and the same symptom may be caused by many different diseases. I'm really not a medical student. Therefore, with the attitude of wanting to be responsible but not being able to do so, I guessed that Lu Zhimei suffered from glaucoma and mild depression. Or something else. In fact, when I mentioned Lu Zhimei's depression, I was wondering, could it be that Lu Zhimei had cognitive confusion or deviation? That year it was not Zhou Lin who suffered from depression but Lu Zhimei? But no matter who it is, is this the reason why Lu Zhimei is unemployed? Anyway, I hope my neighbors are well. This will allow Lu Zhimei to have a good outcome, both in terms of health and relationship. Because she is a good girl. Those who persevere bravely in a difficult relationship are warriors.

The writing style shown by Yu Da in this article is still fine, but the style is closer to "Chuang Ma". The most prominent feature should be authenticity - the entire first chapter is narrated through various real-life problems. These problems are so real that my heart hurts after reading it. It feels like I am really beside the two protagonists, watching them use their calm arguments to squeeze the air in the room into distortion. To be honest, this sense of reality was so strong that it made me feel so immersed that I even felt a little nauseous for a moment (). The night conversation between Lu Zhimei and Zhou Lin is very interesting. It is rare to see an author willing to discuss this issue - I think it may be a lesbian (domestic female) Same) Most of them are fundamentally opposed to having children. After all, in reality, if you want to have a child, you can only go to a hospital sperm bank. Maybe it is because of the concept. Some people cannot accept that half of the child's blood belongs to another strange man, not to mention the obstacles in various aspects such as family, finance, and physical condition. After all, life is already very tiring. I'm tired. I think most families would hesitate to add a living being to their family who can cry, laugh, think, and grow. I think it's quite uncomfortable to talk about this issue from a practical perspective, let alone when it extends to gender issues, so I was quite surprised that Yu Da discussed this issue. As for Lu Zhimei's illness, judging from the symptoms: vomiting, dizziness and headache, and some visual hallucinations, I think there must be something wrong with the head and brain, maybe a tumor or something. After all, the visual hallucinations may be caused by the compression of the eye nerves. Looking forward to it, come on, fish!

Wuwuwuwu, I really didn't understand what happened next. My pig brain is not worthy of seeing the factory director's masterpiece. Wuwuwuwu, what kind of reward? No, what kind of disease is this?

I didn't get the first place, so I'm sorry! The style is completely different from the other articles so far, but the writing style is as high as ever. However, the first chapter is really a sad adult story, and you have to read it carefully to understand it.

I'm ashamed to say that I was secretly expecting this ending to be a tragedy...

Let's discuss it. The protagonist in the previous article had a brain tumor. What is the disease of the heroine in this article? Not yet gastroenteritis, mild gastroenteritis?

If it is really a craniocerebral disease that reaches the level of visual hallucinations and vomiting, it will be particularly uncomfortable, and it will be so dizzy that it will be difficult to move. It is even impossible to take the cat out for medical treatment. It feels like mental illness + gastrointestinal cold.

The first chapter is only fifteen thousand words? Awesome, awesome, awesome!