[Hunter X Hunter] When Illumi Becomes an Overprotective Big Brother

Also known as: Dreaming to Unlock Past-Life Skills, The Great Amnesia Recovery, How Did I Get Forced into Love?

A mix of worlds + Hunter x Hunter

Synopsis

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My name is Galoyi, and I'm the eldest son of an assassin family.

I was born just five minutes before Illumi Zoldyck.

But my temperament, manner, and habits of thought all clash with everything about my family, as if an enormous gulf separates us.

Even my twin brother and I are worlds apart, despite our similar looks.

The most striking difference is my strange inborn condition.

Dreams at night that I can never remember, a daily life in which I can't forget, uncontrollable suspicion and possessiveness, a timid, shrunken attitude...

And then there's...

A whole host of inexplicable skills I've never learned.

None of it sounds like a bad thing,

but it leaves me deeply confused and terrified.

I live in constant anxiety, afraid my family will judge me for being different, afraid my sense of self will become distorted and unstable.

Afraid I'll become an outcast, afraid I'll be shut out.

Most of all, afraid I'll bring ruin upon my family.

I'm also lost. Why am I the only one who doesn't fit in with my closest relatives? Why have I had to wear a mask since childhood?

I'm so tired.

I should just be an ordinary child.

Who caused all this? Should I try to find out?

My parents love me deeply, and my family raised me. Galoyi Zoldyck wants to protect this mountain.

So stop hesitating.

Any destabilizing factor must be identified and eliminated.

Now,

that includes me.

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In Illumi's understanding of the world, from childhood onward, his older brother was his merciful god.

He was a gifted man beyond reach, a hero who could overcome any hardship, an impregnable fortress, a tender embrace... and a kiss on the cheek.

They shared the same mother and were as close as one person. When they were afraid, struggling, lonely, or lost, they were always together.

Time and again, that truth had truly saved him from disaster.

But this brother vanished without a trace during their training in Meteor City.

Holding on and chasing after him was useless.

Illumi Zoldyck was once a useless man.

He stayed trapped in the past, swept along by time. The family charged ahead, new children were born, and no one remembered. Only he did.

Brother, you raised the self I couldn't even see, held him gently in your arms, cherished him, and prayed for him.

You saw me as Illumi, not a Zoldyck; you cared about me more than Father or Mother did.

How I long to be that little boy again, lying in the crook of your knees and gazing into your golden eyes; morning light following your profile, petals and a fresh scent on your shoulder.

That childhood is the beautiful dream I still obsess over.

"Brother."

Let's reunite soon, as soon as possible. Without you, the world feels so empty, so silent.

"If one day... I finally find you..."

"Then."

I will definitely

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Younger seme + pseudo-incest + upbringing + nonhuman + mutual coercion + one-on-one happy ending

Cold, robotic assassin seme + gentle, courteous, and unhinged uke

P.S. This is a massive rewrite.

1. The seme and uke are not related by blood. The story will explain this in detail.

2. Lots of original content, written to indulge my preferences, with nonhuman elements. Don't read if that's not your thing.

3. The protagonists aren't perfect and will grow.

4. Some elements of beautiful suffering and being universally adored.

5. They join the original story later on. No Succession War arc.

6. I'm a super, super, super revision-happy writer... and forgetful, too.

A few more things >>>

1. Still the original pairing.

2. But I've changed a LOT!

3. The core of the story is unchanged. No matter whether the old or new setting, Galoyi will always be himself. I'll do my best to keep whatever I can from the old chapters.

4. I'll settle into a regular update schedule once I find a comfortable rhythm.

I deeply apologize to my longtime readers. I never thought I'd leave the story untouched for this long. Damn, it's been so many years. I really am awful... I'm nervous...

I don't know how I could make such big promises when I was younger (thanks a lot, past me).

But I still love my characters. They're all my children, and I'm truly sorry to you all. I hadn't opened this account in so long. When I did this time, oh my god, I couldn't sleep. I immediately started picking up my babies again.

I've been preparing that original story these past few years (yes, the one I said I was going to write). Would you believe it? Three years and it's still not ready. After graduating, I stayed home full time to write, and took a part-time job teaching at an art studio to make ends meet. This really is a deep rabbit hole. I don't even know how I got through it. I haven't been in great shape, either. Thankfully I still dared to open this account, haha. I can't let you all down.

About the other story >>>

I'll update that one too.

Also, I've nearly finished polishing the horse story and the two original stories next door. I prepared all four at the same time, and I definitely intend to write them. I've always written purely as a hobby. I did think about writing full time at one point, but I know what I'm like now: my ambition is no match for my procrastination (not really).

You can't be too heartless. Feel free to scold me, everyone. I'm ready for it (kneels).

Theme: Make a world of your own in the spaces between.