I Pretend to Be Second, but I’m Actually Last

Qi Fei: a boyish name, the looks of a girl in an oil painting, and the temper of a TV crime show. Xia Zhengxing: the top student and campus heartthrob, seemingly gentle but cold to the extreme, someone you can admire from afar but never reach. These two people couldn't be more different. Their only thing in common may be that they're both the kind who'd rather throw a punch than say a word. To investigate a murder, Qi Fei takes the place of the school's second-best student and transfers into an elite high school. Pretending to be a student is easy, but pretending to be a top student leaves Qi Fei seeing stars. So on the day the test papers were handed back, the whole school said she'd lost her mind. The legendary top student, Xia Zhengxing, walked up behind her, glanced at her paper, and smiled. After that, a teacher arranged for Xia Zhengxing to tutor Qi Fei, calling it "helping each other out." Qi Fei, at the start of tutoring: Tsk, my tutor just sits there with a cold face and doesn't say a word. Is he an ice statue come to life? Qi Fei, after three months of tutoring: Don't come any closer! If you do, I-I'll tell the teacher! Three months ago: The school's top student might be tutoring the second-best student! What a cruel world, even the best students are competing against each other! Three months later: Breaking news! The school's top student tutored the second-best student all the way down to second-last place! ★ *A heartwarming, healing story; a sweet, mutually doting romance; they only have eyes for each other, body and soul. Both are adults. *The school admission spot actually belongs to the female lead, as explained later. Prosperity, democracy, civility, harmony, freedom, equality, justice, and the rule of law. ________(≧v≦)________ ★★Coming soon: Please Believe in Me. Please add it to your reading list!☆☆ In the notebook she kept at age ten, the handwriting was crooked and childish: My birth is a stain on my mother's life. I've never known who my biological father is, until one day I saw his face on the news. So my strange personality is inherited. The genes this man gave me are impure, tainted. But I want to become a thoroughly, absolutely good person. I've tried many things, but none of them can suppress the dark voices. The ambition in my nature cannot be restrained. So I decided to use my ambition as a stepping stone to becoming a good person. Instead of simply being good, I could blur the lines and tell myself I'm saving those poor people, put myself on a pedestal, and turn myself into an object of faith. So please, believe in me. I'll help you and save you. I'll buy a notebook called Faith and carefully write down all your names. In the eyes of outsiders, she's the perfect student, praised for being kind and sincere, beautiful and modest. Even though she has a spoiled fake older brother, she's never shown anger because of him. When a school board member's son hit her with a tennis ball and said her smile was fake, she simply smiled and let it go. There's another student at school with the same flawless reputation: the student council president. Though they're in the same class, they've never spoken. But one day after school, that student pointed at her notebook and quietly asked, "Can you write my name in your notebook?" *A story about two lonely souls keeping each other warm. There are three male leads, but the ending is one-on-one. Theme: Healing, warmth, a beautiful and healthy life.