I Fell in Love with a University of Tokyo Student After My Ex Died

[I had a lot going on while writing this, and it affected the story. It didn't turn out well, so don't read this piece of my shame!] [If you really want to read it, please check the warnings below the blurb first T^T] My name is Gojou Rinne. I have a Japanese-British boyfriend who's tall and handsome, tough and taciturn, and makes me feel incredibly safe. We had two happy years together... until one day I found a photo of a woman he'd kept hidden. I was actually just a stand-in for the woman he had always loved... After we broke up, I started a new life. Then one day, I suddenly learned... that he was dead. Uh, okay. What does that have to do with me? You didn't have to go out of your way to tell me, thanks. Then I met someone. A University of Tokyo graduate student, well-educated, a good cook, gentle, emotionally intelligent, and great at conversation. His only flaw was that he was rather shy and never kissed me. One day, I tried to steal a kiss, and realized that what I felt wasn't human skin. I tore off the mask... And found my ex-boyfriend, whose ashes had already been laid to rest in the martyrs' cemetery. [Content warnings] 1. This isn't actually a stand-in trope. In my headcanon, Shuuji and Shuuaki have no romantic storyline, and they are siblings, with no incest. The breakup wasn't either of their fault, nor anyone else's. It was just a case of all the misfortunes piling up, so they needed a second chance to make things right. 2. There are many headcanons, and OOC characterization, especially for Gojo. Overall, I personally love the sibling storyline in this novel. The two siblings hold irreplaceable places in each other's hearts. At first, the older brother seems awful and very OOC, but the reasons behind his behavior will be explained later. (For example, Kamui from Gintama and Nozel from Black Clover. Of course, I'm not nearly as good as those works. Whether you can accept the character change later is up to you, the readers.) 3. There is angst, sweetness, and comedy. Because of the heroine's family background, she is a little insecure at first, but she changes, so some parts are quite heavy. The second volume gets much better. 4. If a part bothers you, or you can't understand or accept it, please leave or skip ahead in time. Skipping may make the overall plot harder to understand, so I recommend leaving altogether. No need to tell me if you drop the story. Maybe we'll meet again someday~ Theme: Be confident, strong, and kind.