Spider

It's very sad to read. I read it ten years ago. I recently flipped through it on my old phone and re-read it again every time I flipped through it. I really like this style of writing. I wish Tan Jian happiness.

Spider I read this article yesterday. I didn't expect the ending to be neither happy nor sad. Especially towards the end of the article, it was revealed that a large part of the reason why Tan Jian was so forbearing was because he was ill. Tan Jian's character is different from that of a sullen person. At first, I didn't understand what this person was thinking. He could be so depressed and so indifferent. She was like a saint who was indifferent to her surroundings and refused all external influences. The further I look back, the more I gradually identify with him. Not only is Tan Jian not sultry on the outside, but he is also not sultry on the inside. A man who is as clear as a mirror in his heart handles the relationship with the people around him more rationally than the reader. Between the lines, it seems that Lin Han, Chen Ye, and Xia Xiaochuan would be miserable if they loved this person but were not loved by him, but they undoubtedly did not express their joy, anger, sorrow, and joy happily. As the saying goes, the speaker has no intention but the listener has intention. On the outside, Tan Jian calmly accepts all the emotions around him. He is accused of being cold and unloving, but in his heart, he is planning everything carefully to minimize possible future harm. What can it be if it's not love and dedication to the extreme? If a person has no love, there is no need to plan anything for the other person. Tan Jian's indifference to the people around him was due to his helplessness in facing the variables in his fate, and it was also a form of abuse to himself. If Tan Jian was even a little bit willing to share his fears and worries with his lover, then many things would go smoothly and many feelings would be relieved. Now that they are relieved, Lin Han, Chen Ye and Xia Xiaochuan will no longer love Tan Jiansheng. I personally think that Lin Han, Chen Ye, and Xia Xiaochuan love Tan Jian because they think Tan Jian is special. For Lin Han, Tan Jian is a person who allows him to talk as he pleases without avoiding the thought that he also has troubles. For Chen Ye, Tan Jian is a person who makes him worry about gains and losses. For Xia Xiaochuan, Tan Jian is a person who can rely on him as a father and mother. Who says it must be spiders hunting, rather than the fact that these people themselves like spiders?! Tan Jian is really distressing, and there are almost no particularly happy moments in his life. Every day is heavy. When he was a child, he was burdened by the quarrel and divorce of his parents, the emotional despair caused by Lin Han's melancholy and suicide, the worries of Xia Xiaochuan as a half-adult, and the unsatisfactory work. Not everyone has the same unique conditions as Chen Ye, and when they encounter problems, they can find the relationship background to resolve them. Tan Jian is an ordinary person. What makes him extraordinary is that he takes up all the responsibilities entrusted to him and never gives up halfway. If Tan Jian were in a lower position than Chen Ye, he wouldn't have to live so hard, be so forbearing, be so cautious, and think twice before every step. After reading this article, I feel very sad. The spider spins its web, but the web is empty. I really hope Tan Jian can have a little selfishness to seek happiness.

Spider I read this article yesterday. I didn't expect the ending to be neither happy nor sad. Especially towards the end of the article, it was revealed that a large part of the reason why Tan Jian was so forbearing was because he was ill. Tan Jian's character is different from that of a sullen person. At first, I didn't understand what this person was thinking. He could be so depressed and so indifferent. She was like a saint who was indifferent to her surroundings and refused all external influences. The further I look back, the more I gradually identify with him. Not only is Tan Jian not sultry on the outside, but he is also not sultry on the inside. A man who is as clear as a mirror in his heart handles the relationship with the people around him more rationally than the reader. Between the lines, it seems that Lin Han, Chen Ye, and Xia Xiaochuan would be miserable if they loved this person but were not loved by him, but they undoubtedly did not express their joy, anger, sorrow, and joy happily. As the saying goes, the speaker has no intention but the listener has intention. On the outside, Tan Jian calmly accepts all the emotions around him. He is accused of being cold and unloving, but in his heart, he is planning everything carefully to minimize possible future harm. What can it be if it's not love and dedication to the extreme? If a person has no love, there is no need to plan anything for the other person. Tan Jian's indifference to the people around him was due to his helplessness in facing the variables in his fate, and it was also a form of abuse to himself. If Tan Jian was even a little bit willing to share his fears and worries with his lover, then many things would go smoothly and many feelings would be relieved. Now that they are relieved, Lin Han, Chen Ye and Xia Xiaochuan will no longer love Tan Jiansheng. I personally think that Lin Han, Chen Ye, and Xia Xiaochuan love Tan Jian because they think Tan Jian is special. For Lin Han, Tan Jian is a person who allows him to talk as he pleases without avoiding the thought that he also has troubles. For Chen Ye, Tan Jian is a person who makes him worry about gains and losses. For Xia Xiaochuan, Tan Jian is a person who can rely on him as a father and mother. Who says it must be spiders hunting, rather than the fact that these people themselves like spiders?! Tan Jian is really distressing, and there are almost no particularly happy moments in his life. Every day is heavy. When he was a child, he was burdened by the quarrel and divorce of his parents, the emotional despair caused by Lin Han's melancholy and suicide, the worries of Xia Xiaochuan as a half-adult, and the unsatisfactory work. Not everyone has the same unique conditions as Chen Ye, and when they encounter problems, they can find the relationship background to resolve them. Tan Jian is an ordinary person. What makes him extraordinary is that he takes up all the responsibilities entrusted to him and never gives up halfway. If Tan Jian were in a lower position than Chen Ye, he wouldn't have to live so hard, be so forbearing, be so cautious, and think twice before every step. After reading this article, I feel very sad. The spider spins its web, but the web is empty. I really hope Tan Jian can have a little selfishness to seek happiness.

There are definitely people like Tan Jian in real life, but there are not necessarily people like Chen Ye and Xia Xiaochuan. Tan is rational, he knows that he cannot love one of the two people, and he cannot afford to love the other (remember the original article said this), so he chooses not to love and only loves a little bit, fuck! If it had been me, I would have given up a long time ago. There is no grass anywhere in the world. Chen and Xia are also themselves. No one can blame others.

Feel like the last part is a bit dark? But actually the end of the article is quite positive. . . = =

I watched Spider many years ago, and I was so moved by that last sentence that I will never forget it: "He closed his eyes and wanted to laugh. He thought of that cold rainy night, when Tan Jian said to him lightly, I love you? Maybe, a little." In the world of Danmei, there is never a shortage of cold-hearted protagonists surrounded by N men. Most of them are pretentious, dress cool, and act fiercely. When Chen Ye slammed the door and broke up, Tan Jian might not have been heartbroken. Single life may be suitable for him now, but it is not suitable for him to live like this for a lifetime. Tan Jian is too realistic, according to Freud's theory, which is the sequelae of childhood family sexual trauma. He is also too timid. He is like a frog living at the bottom of a well, afraid of being hurt by the outside world. Afraid of being abandoned by Nian Xia in the future.

It was only after reading this article that I fell in love with Su Da.

It is a well-written article. I watched Guanqi Silently first, and also watched the radio drama Guanqi Silently. Articles written by adults always have a vague feeling, but the reality is indeed like this. It is not that two people can really be together after they are sure they like each other. There are many things in reality. It is easier to fall in love than to stay together. There will always be a lot of bumps and bruises in staying together for a lifetime. But who can say that there is no happiness in this process?

Fortunately, the author explained the ending of these two people in "Watching Chess without Saying a Word", otherwise it would be such a pity!

Suter's articles are all really good, and I like "Monsters Arise" the most. Why did Su Da close the book? It is such an eternal regret.