
Every Day I Feel Like I'm About to Flop [Showbiz]
每天都感觉我要糊[娱乐圈]
- Status
- Completed
- Length
- 638k Words
- Genre
- Danmei (BL)
- Era
- Modern Era
- Updated
- 8mo ago
- Source
- JJWXC
Synopsis
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In booklists 33
Explore more →Handpicked Couples With Mutual, Overwhelming Feelings
The top and bottom are devoted to each other, locked in for life. Usually there are no unnecessary romantic subplots besides theirs. The authors are often fans of multiple pairings. For personal reasons, I rarely give five stars. I have a terrible memory, so my reviews may change at any time.
Books I’d Read Again
I have read all of these at least twice. Mostly plot-focused or healing BL stories.
Pearls from the Sea (Completed)
Just what the title says.
The Streamer’s Favorites
Personal archive, no-CP??BL
Completed Stories with Fewer Than 50,000 Favorites
Both BL and BG, I’ll read anything, really. For romance, I lean toward historical Chinese settings, palace and household intrigue, imperial examinations, and that sort of thing, but they’re not always from the female lead’s perspective. Danmei is even more varied.
Books with Great Plots and Romance
Some stories I really like, with great plots and couples who are a joy to ship. Both leads are completely smitten with each other (in a good way).
Too Good to Toss, 9
Danmei series
Showbiz Novels
A story within a story
Stories That Keep Me Hooked and Reading
Hidden gems to savor again and again
Fully Purchased, Not Easy
Keeping track of a few I remember
Showbiz
I like stories that depict the plays within them well. I prefer protagonists focused on acting, with fewer variety shows or singing and dancing. I especially love protagonists who are obsessed with acting.
Variety Shows, Livestreaming, and Showbiz
The most stress-relieving kind of story. I love reading forum-style posts.
Entertainment Industry Stories
A few entertainment-industry novels that suit my taste, with fewer melodramatic tropes like everyone being obsessed with the protagonist or a scumbag getting his comeuppance
A Hodgepodge of Favorites (1): Stories I've Read Over and Over
A broad mix of tastes, mostly completed stories. This list is still being updated. The list limit is 100 books; see Miscellaneous Reads (2) for more.
I’m Shipping Them Again
I just want to read lovesick characters falling in love. My personal preference is sunny, cheerful guys, and a lot of my favorite stories have sunny, cheerful tops or bottoms.
Feel-Good Reads
I read everything: BL, BG, fanfiction, and original works. I'm a protagonist stan and love stories with wild premises, but I can't stand truly bad writing.
BL Stories I Enjoyed
A few books I personally like, across all sorts of genres.
100 Completed Stories, Batch A
Finished reading
Five-Star Recommendations from Ten Years of Reading
The stories I've treasured most over ten years of reading.
My Purchased Library
I personally love these. They’re all five-star reads, and it’s all the damn System’s fault.
Showbiz BL
I hardly read danmei these days, and I haven't used Jinjiang in ages. On a whim, I thought I'd revisit some novels I used to read back in the day~ (Jinjiang has changed so much, I can barely use it anymore.)
Unhinged Protagonists
For my own use. Includes works with certain mental states or personalities, and they're all told from the protagonist's point of view.
Showbiz, Reborn, Transmigrate Into a Book, CEO Romance
My favorites list keeps getting longer. No content warnings, so enter at your own risk!!! Both BG and BL, I read just about everything. This category is for entertainment-industry stories, modern rebirth stories, transmigration into a book, and CEO romances with brainless love plots.
Pure Romance Novels I Personally Love
Most of these are books I've reread several times, and I highly recommend them. All are danmei.
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The chase is over! I have read three of my wife's articles, and I probably understand why my wife's articles are not very popular. After thinking about it, I feel that my wife's article has a bit of a bland feel to it, which is not bad. It's just porridge and side dishes, which is not to the taste of most people. But I prefer clear porridge (I also like vegetable porridge for three meals a day), so my wife's article is also very suitable to my liking.
This is the second time I've finished reading it completely. I like the parts I liked even more this time, but I also found some small twigs that hindered me. I have forgotten how I came across this article. I just remember opening the first one and discovering that after the protagonist's rebirth, it was not as if his soul had been washed away by disinfectant. It only took one second to rekindle his fighting spirit and "take back everything that belongs to him." Other rebirth novels actually write about a parallel world that the protagonist has never experienced before, but the pain Xu Liao experienced for the first time was engraved in his bones like a curse, wreaking havoc deep in his bones like hopeless rheumatism, so painful that he could only curl up like a child. When Xu Liao first felt that he fell in love with Ying Su, I thought that as long as Ying Su responded to the two of them again, everyone would be happy. Unexpectedly, Ying Su told the truth like Xu Liao's devil: he just wanted to find someone to rely on to love, no matter who it was, no matter what it was. What a sane and terrifying Ying Su. The first time I saw this, I was so frightened that I was trembling outside the screen. Just a little bit of it made me feel like I was falling into an ice cellar, which shows how panicked Xu Liao would be after being exposed. It turns out that I am not getting better, it turns out that I am so unbearable, and it turns out that I have no love. But when Xu Liao was tortured by the tarsal curse, he was brave enough to scrape the bones alone to cure the poison. He was brave enough to release the man-eating beast just to break out of the cocoon and be reborn. But finally, when he was nibbled away until he was about to die, Ying Su was willing to step into the rainy mud and hug him and kiss him softly. It turned out that Xu Liao no longer only knew how to ask for things, and Ying Su had already been moved and reached out. A person who is willing to take the initiative to climb out of hell must be a warrior worthy of being pulled and hugged. It turns out that he is miserable and aggrieved because he is really alone. Ying Su was attracted by Xu Liao's beauty, but I believe he must have been moved by his courage, so the cautious Bingshan was willing to silently hand over the key to the warm volcano in his heart, and tolerated the wild cat that was wet by the cold wind and rain to curl up and warm himself by the fire. Then in the end, they were finally able to hold each other and smile. The person who began to ask began to give generously, and the person who gave silently finally asked generously. There were many things and ideas mentioned in the article that made me applaud, saying that there could be such a concise and insightful author in the world. However, some small details involving women made me frown slightly as if I had stepped on a pebble. Some people say on the Internet and in real life that sometimes I am an overly sensitive person, and sometimes I dig into innocuous details to dig into my thoughts. However, since I still cannot change myself after so long, I have no choice but to reconcile with these sensitivities and call it sensitivity. In short, I would like to thank the author for creating Xu Liao and Ying Su. I especially love to watch the scene where the two are close together like conjoined twins, and I inevitably often fantasize about some forum scenes. This is the fourth time I have read this article, and the second time I have read it in its entirety. I feel really self-pity when I say this, but I do feel that sometimes I feel like Xu Liao who has not recovered yet hates herself and is paralyzed. Seeing Xu Liao struggling to stand up and shouting for forgiveness, I believe that my life is far from the end. The last sentence, I can't see enough. When will the author remember this article and write a side story to show me the young couple? [Crying]
Some thoughts after reading "I feel like I'm getting confused every day". After reading it, I wanted to try writing a long review, so I did. The novel gives different feelings to different people. I really feel that if I were to write it, it would be too personal, but I still want to write it. It's purely self-talk, and it can't help but feel a little self-motivated. When I first saw the title and copy, I wasn't very interested. To be honest, is the title of the article a little perfunctory? The copy starts from Cui Yuanshan's memories, seems to have used the beginning of "One Hundred Years of Solitude"? The writing is hilarious, and the supporting character is named Cui Yuanshan. I started reading this with the intention of killing time and being light-hearted. Although the theme of the novel also contains the meaning of rebirth/redemption, it is not a completely cheerful and sweet story. The themes of rebirth and time travel have been written by many novels. This article is the story of Xu Liao's rebirth. In his previous life, he embarked on a road of no return. When he woke up in a daze, it was decades ago when he was still a newcomer. In his previous life, he lived a tortuous life. He was in the limelight but also experienced ups and downs in the fame and fortune. He has also seen the peak of a short-lived flash in the pan. He has also seen the madness of fans who love him to death and hate him to death. Xu Liao was reborn in a period when he was still a newcomer. I think his soul is really light and airy. A young body does not have the sequelae of excessive alcohol intake, but Xu Liao's mind still does. When you are acting, you are working, so there are always occasional emotional breakdowns outside of work. In addition to the author's good writing skills, what attracted me most was Xu Liao's appearance of being mentally ill. I flipped through to Chapter 34. My personal xp is that most of the time, I can even be called a person who is idle and carefree. In fact, I am extremely fragile and slender. Maybe I am just very vulgar and like to taste Xu Liao's pain. But at this time, Ying Su wanted to take care of Xu Liao. The line between pure care and care was unclear. When Xu Liao was not in a good condition, the two sides had crossed the line. Ying Su should have a guilty conscience, but he is rational and firm, and he guides more than he cares about Xu Liao. It is no wonder that Xu Liao fell in love with him. Acting requires Xu Liao to devote himself wholeheartedly to other people's lives, and "The Aphasic" coincides with the past. The embarrassing past life is like a spring dream, and no one knows about it except Xu Liao. Ying Su quietly arrives to comfort Xu Liao. I especially like this section. Ying Su will also be obsessed with love and travel thousands of miles to be with Xu Liao. There is another section that I also like very much. I remember Ying Su and Xu Liao dancing almost flirtatiously. Although Ying Su danced the female step, he still took the lead. The steps of the two dancers are similar. You take a step forward and I take a step back. You come and I go back and forth. It feels inexplicably similar to the state of the two people in the previous stage. They seem to be separated but inseparable. I really like the author's way of writing. It's very detailed, very literary when it's time to be lyrical, and mixed with some humorous jokes. It's fun to read. It's also interesting to occasionally mention some books and movies in my writing. I like to learn more about a greater and greater work through a work. Slowly unfolding from Xu Liao's perspective, everyone was arranged naturally, including Luo Tang and Zhao Songxi. The relationship between Ying Su and Xu Liao is very delicate when talking about it. It is rare to see such delicate feelings. It's just that the ending felt a little rushed, as I wanted to give Cui Yuanshan a good ending. In fact, the further I went on, the more I felt like I wanted to write more relaxedly, so it developed into this. Well, maybe this can already be seen by bringing in the pair of protagonists from the previous article in the middle. Most of the chapter comments I read were from seven years ago. The novel itself follows the perspective of Xu Liao who was reborn, and it was actually decades after his rebirth. At this point, it is not particularly late that I read this article seven years later, because it is a story from the past. At first, I thought it was a bit unrealistic when I saw a movie with a box office of over 100 million. Then I thought about it carefully and realized that the background of the story was even earlier. Sometimes Xu Liao said something meaningful, and he quickly realized that it was a cliché, which gave him a very subtle feeling. Going back to the title, a popular title now might be something like "I became famous after rebirth"? I personally don't like to watch the entertainment industry as a subject. Celebrities are public figures and rely on many fans. Idols/traffic actually sell personal charm. Fans demand more and impose more restrictions on people. Mainly from the perspective of fans, it is somewhat scandalous for idols to fall in love, but this novel is written in the third person, which makes it much more transparent. In fact, real fans don't know what their favorite celebrities are like. Do idols have to stay single all their lives in order to provide fans with their imagination of love? Xu Liao has experienced what happened in his previous life (of course, what happened with Luo Tang and Zhao Songxi in this life also contributed to the situation), and he will not care much about being an actor in this life. In the setting of the novel, same-sex couples can marry, so it's better to let the two of them have a happy ending. When I was watching the end, I kept worrying, fearing that before the two of them were ready, they would suddenly be forced to make their relationship public and expose it to the broad daylight, and the harm they would suffer would be unimaginable. It seems that this article has no derivatives. It seems that it is difficult to delete the background setting and other things to reveal the Lushang entity, which is a pity. Several of the plays within the plays are written with a sense of pictorial beauty. Especially for "Yandie", the colors should also be beautiful, eye-catching, and strange. "Dark Dragon" also describes Ding Weiran, with burgundy clothes and fair skin. It seems that no one has designed the picture, which is a pity. There are almost no variety shows, which is exactly what I like, but it also involves a lot of fan circles and some relatively sensitive social issues. I was shocked when I saw someone in the chapter comments asking if I wanted to replace ///yun, but luckily I didn't. There may be some shadow of the author in the character. There is nothing wrong with supporting the disadvantaged groups. I don't want to say more. I don't understand the situation myself, so how can I ask for so much. The theme is still Xu Liao's new life, and it has not taken over the spotlight. Let's be more vulgar. People always put themselves first. At this point, I thought that the author seemed to have tried very hard to write about sex within limits. I personally support that sex and love are inseparable. Sex also plays an important role in the plot. I praise the author. The love between the two is really well portrayed. It would be great if this article had a side story, such as a background similar to "Yandie". Xu Liao must be a goblin, and the article also portrays Ying Su as a fake monk. I really want to read it. It would be nice if the two knew each other in high school. Xu Liao could see the rebellious Ying Su with his own eyes, but I don't know if Xu Liao was more free and casual in high school than now, or was it a different kind of thing? A very innocent, true, kind and beautiful child? Because there are quite a few characters mentioned outside of this book, and the tone of the author's writing really struck me, I'm curious about what other themes are like, and I plan to read the author's other books. In conclusion, no matter who reads this, they will find that I am talking nonsense. Please do not attack me, thank you.
I came across this article purely by chance. At first, I was following some of the plots that my friends told me about and my experiences with it. But after reading the whole story, I realized that what attracted me had already changed. Perhaps because the article was written relatively early, there is no impetuous tone in today's society between the lines, as if it has gone back to a long, long time ago. It may have something to do with the author's personal narrative style and the rhythm of the article. If it is called a well-crafted online novel that is in line with the trend, it lacks hot characters and carefully arranged breaking points. So I would rather call it a miraculous story. There is no fixed label and constant emphasis on the characters. As the article progresses, I gradually become familiar with the two protagonists. Instead, it makes me feel that Xu Liao and Ying Su are not like false characters, but living people who are separated from the story. The story begins with Xu Liao's rebirth. Over time, not only his soul has passed away, but also the many holes that have been marked on his soul. I really like the author's description, but I just remember that I'm probably too lazy to read the details: The holes were simply transferred from one blanket to another. I don't know why I was struck by this sentence at that time. Reading between the lines, one can always sympathize with Xu Liao's emotions at that time - perhaps the word emotion is too strong. It should be more powerless. The past life of Xu Liao divided Xu Liao's present into two parts: the onlookers who looked on with cold eyes, and the victims who were also watched. In the first half of the story, Xu Liao inevitably suffers from repeatedly switching between these two states. Fortunately, the blanket was mended in the end. Compared with other works of the same type, which is relatively rare, the author seems to adhere to such a principle and repeatedly says it through Ying Su's mouth - it is never other people who redeem himself, but only himself. In fact, other works do not disrespect this point of view, but I have only seen the author repeat it over and over again. It seems to me that if you can't even sum up this feeling after reading the work, then the story will be in vain. That's a little bit of pride, I remember it. In fact, like the protagonist Xu Liao, I also have a lot of holes. It's just that he has enough courage and strength to fight again and again, and has the perseverance and belief to dare to be crushed and get up again, but I don't. But maybe there will be in the future. Maybe one day in the future, the holey carpet will be lifted up from the floor for a long time, and I can enjoy the wind and sun, and I will no longer be desperate and determined to run among the crowd. Then everyone was surprised: it turned out that the carpet could still run away. There is always something that will stay behind after reading the story, right? Thank you for your words. Thank you for your story. Thank you for meeting us.
Ying Su is Ying Su. It's so rare for people to be able to almost completely retain themselves in love. Finish spreading flowers
Ying Su's perspective is so gentle.
I always miss it and will come back to see it
Love at first sight. It's just that Brother Su is too calm and rational.
I don't want to say anything deliberately, so every time I say it, it's full of overflowing emotions, whether it's love words or quasi-love words that are slightly sweet. Is this considered a form of sexual attraction? (Hey
I didn't expect it to be love at first sight, it's so wonderful