[The King's Avatar] Catching the Wind

After reading this book, I also remembered my secret love. When I first saw the class list for the first year of high school, I was attracted by "Zhang Jiale" on the first line. He has the same name and the same surname. I liked watching full-time students in junior high school, and I was lucky enough to be a classmate with Zhang Jiale. When school started, I found that Zhang Jiale was a tall and thin boy who liked to laugh a lot. His grades seemed to be good and he was also very popular. I think I liked him, though maybe not much, even though I didn't even get to say a few words to him. We worked as front and back desks for a while. When lunch break was about to take place, he would sometimes lie down on the desk to sleep, and I would naturally lean on the back of the chair and read a book. This was probably the closest we got to each other in this life. Our school is a boarding school. Students can hand in their mobile phones when they come to school on Sunday and get them back when they go home on Friday. Once after school, I was walking in the corridor outside the classroom, took out my mobile phone and took a picture of his back. Another time after school, I was sitting in my father's car with a privacy film on the window. I looked through the car window at him waiting for the bus at the school gate, and secretly took a picture of his profile. I want to remember what he looked like. When I told my classmates about the book Full Time, I said, you know, there is a person named Zhang Jiale in it, who has the same name as our classmate. I quite like him. I really like the full-time Zhang Jiale, and I also take this opportunity to openly say that I like the other Zhang Jiale. We were classmates for only one year, and we were placed in different classes in our sophomore year of high school. Later, I heard very little about him, and my liking for him was probably very weak. I often couldn't think of him while studying. The teacher of one course handed out a classroom quiz using answer sheets that had been used by classmates and asked us to write on the back to save paper. I saw the answer sheet used by Zhang Jiale among several pieces of paper, so I selected it and wrote on the back. I was a mess on that quiz, but I still kept the piece of paper with his signature. There is no story after that. After the college entrance examination, many students switched from □□ to vx, and also sent their own vx QR codes in the space, and he did the same. I saved that picture, but never scanned the QR code to add him. I think he must have forgotten me, a classmate of this year. Nowadays, when I talk about my career and my favorite characters with others, I still say that I like Zhang Jiale the most. This time, I don't include other meanings, but every time I talk about it, I always think of him. I'm still glad I got to know him.

Today is January 17, 2023, the fifth anniversary of the publication of this article, and also the day when Jun Ni and Xiao Zhou met again at the intersection. I feel quite emotional when I think about it. I wrote such an unsatisfactory story on a whim five years ago, but it has aroused echoes from countless readers in the long years since then. I always say that "Chasing the Wind" is the most important article to me. I not only love her, but now I also have a grateful attitude. It's great to be able to write down Jun Ni's long yet short story of catching the wind. Today I tell many people: In the past five years, Chaofeng has been in the future tense; from now on, she will be in the past tense. Nothing new will happen between Jun Ni and Xiao Zhou. But isn't this a new life? At the same time, I saw that five years ago today, I shared this line of lyrics on the SNS platform - "I will be in a daze/and then forget about you/and then close my eyes tightly." It is difficult to trace back the mood I used to write such a line of lyrics five years ago, but I hope Jun Ni can learn to let go earlier than me.

I cried when I read it, I feel like I can be seen in every secret love tattoo. The person I silently liked in high school was like Xiao Zhou, always an untouchable white moonlight. I liked him for two years during my first and second years of high school, but I didn't expect that he would transfer directly to another school in my third year of high school. Through a friend who passed the college entrance examination, I knew that he was taking the exam at a school very close to my home. At noon in the summer, I waited for him on the road opposite the school gate for a long time under the sun. I waited until everyone had dispersed, but in the end I never saw him. My youth has the same regrets as Jun Ni, but luckily I also have "Zheng Xisheng" by my side, and the ending has been decided. I am grateful to these people I love for accompanying me through my youth.

About this secret love that only two people knew about. I remembered a famous answer in a certain fan circle on Zhihu. The respondent was once a classmate of a now top male star. She had a crush on him in high school and wanted to take the Nortel exam for him. Finally, she realized that there was an insurmountable distance between the two people. The two of them also walked together for a while after school. It started with the respondent following him unconsciously and ended with the man saying, "They are filming." Some fans envied the respondent's secret love time under the yellow oak tree in the comment area. The intersection of reality they had has made this young love known as a secret love rather than a star chase. Looking at the heroine of "Chasing the Wind" in this way is actually better than this respondent. At least they really seemed to have had those few years of time together as close friends. Rather than saying this is a full-time fanfic, it's more like the author is writing about us. From the perspective of secret love, look at the journey from following a dazzling star to finally being relieved. Many people must have experienced this kind of love when they met someone who was too stunning when they were young, and I would also like to add the psychology of star chasing and paper chasing. To a certain extent, the psychology of the three is actually the same. After watching "Chasing the Wind" last night, I couldn't sleep for a long time. I suddenly felt relieved about admiring unattainable dreams and having unrealistic fantasies. It was like I was finally willing to say goodbye to myself who once lived in a world full of crimson imagination. It was time to pack up and enter real life.

What he knows, what he has always known, is that he just doesn't love

It was obviously a secret love, but the deepest impression left on me by this relationship was "fierce". No matter how many years have passed, my young heartbeat and following will always remember that everyone is a good person. Zheng Xisheng is a really good friend. No matter whether he is happy or sad, he will always have a friend by his side.

Although I cried, the ending is good. Jun Ni is no longer waiting for, looking for, and loving the wind, but herself. I thought of the animated movie Thousand Years that I watched a long time ago. The heroine, who had been seeking for nothing all her life, suddenly realized on her deathbed that "it's because I am pursuing that person that I really like." I watched this movie when I was very young, and it somewhat affected my outlook on love. Personally, it is difficult for me to accept the cliché of loving to the death or fighting the whole world for you, because I feel that I am the one who should love the most. Teacher Cheng's past was self-motivation, but her future can be self-love.

It seems like it was two or three years ago when I first read this article. Will come back to review from time to time. Really good knife. It's hard to calm down. It belongs to the pinnacle of be aesthetics. Zhou Zekai just can't catch the wind.

I still remember the first time I read this book in January 2019, when I was in the third grade of junior high school. I have watched "Chasing the Wind" repeatedly in the past few years, and I can almost recite many of the plot passages in full. I have gone through the high school entrance examination and college entrance examination, experienced online classes during the epidemic, and experienced traveling far away from home (although it is not actually very far). Looking back at myself from January 2019 to December 2022, I have actually experienced many times of catching the wind and falling short. Failed independent enrollment exams, failed high school entrance exams, failed placement exams, and unsatisfactory college entrance exams. I didn't get into the high school attached to me that I had been dreaming about for three years. I almost got into the experimental class in the high school entrance examination. I didn't successfully pass the placement and went to the best science experimental class. I met the extremely difficult test paper but still managed to perform normally. However, I missed the college entrance examination of the dream school... People have ups and downs, and the moon waxes and wanes. I feel like the God of Luck has not been on my side in the past few years. I struggled to learn science courses in high school, and I no longer get high scores as easily as I did in junior high school. I also failed to achieve the ideal results in several important exams. I always fell short. I always worked hard, but things didn't work out as I wished... So, in a sense, I am also another Cheng Junni in the world. But when I really think about this period of time, the first thing that comes to my mind is not all the shortcomings. Instead, I pay more attention to some blessings in disguise. Maybe I didn't achieve what I wanted to achieve, but the result was not that bad. If the sky has feelings, the sky will grow old, and if the moon has no hatred, it will grow round. If there are no regrets, then why remember and miss it? Because I have shortcomings, I must work harder and remember them. Just like Cheng Junni, maybe the secret love is chasing the wind in the end, but the time when the young girl is pregnant with spring is also worth remembering and cherishing. The other one is Mr. Zheng, whom I particularly like personally. I really like a friend of the opposite sex who is so sincere and honest. You don't need to tell me, I understand all your little thoughts, and we won't be afraid if we see through them. I really love it! I actually had a very close male best friend, but later on, because we went to different schools and the different environments, our concepts had a huge difference. In the end, I chose to be friends with him and deleted his contact information. Many times I often wonder if I would do it again if I had to choose again... However, in that case, I wish him a safe morning, afternoon and play, and hope that he will be successful in everything...

It doesn't matter if he wrote something else, but he just wrote Sorry, I...