Math Teacher, Please Get Lost (Girls' Love)

I finally finished reading it. It's a great article. One person's persistence can get what he wants. But in reality, these two people's personalities can't stand the trouble of quarreling.

After reading the article for a long time, I finally have time to write. I hope the author can start customizing it as soon as possible~ I'll replenish my meat by the way~ (Hey. Because it is converted from Traditional Chinese to Simplified Chinese, please forgive me for any typos. Some of the novels are quoted from my experience, please read with caution. ◎The courage to wait There are many novels about teacher-student love. I can't name a few about teacher-teacher love. Chinese teacher and math teacher, When I think about it, it feels like it's not the same world. W When I started reading the article, I found it very interesting to watch the two people bickering constantly. Especially Shu Yan's shameless proactive approach and Yao Shuhan's vicious retort, Both sides have distinct personalities, and their offense and defense unexpectedly complement each other. I really like the setting and beginning of this happy enemy, Not only did the two teach in the same school, Shu Yan also shamelessly became roommates with Teacher Yao. It's really an ideal world of two people in a love novel~ (laughs) But they are not actually enemies. This story is the continuation of a 12-year unrequited love. I thought it was a joyful writing style and doting sweetness, but I didn't expect it to become abusive in a blink of an eye. Yao Shuhan's confession when he was fifteen years old earned him the comment "If you lack love, you will become a homosexual." Shu Yan's response was one of the most hurtful confessions I have ever seen in recent years. When they met again 12 years later, Shu Yan did not recognize Yao Shuhan. Even though they had been in the same class for half a year in high school, and even went to the same school for three years, the big-hearted Shu Yan didn't take anyone to heart. Although in fact, it was because of her chronically ill mother that she had no time to pay attention to the little love she had when she was a student. She could only make money to support the family. But since the person I miss can't recognize me, and it's such a shameful confession experience, Naturally, Yao Shuhan had no need to recognize his relatives. So Yao Shuhan was conflicted between wanting her to think of things that he also didn't want her to think of. She lived with Shu Yan happily and painfully, until one day Shu Yan finally recognized her. "Why did you forget me?" A slightly resentful question lifted Yao Shuhan's mask of indifference, and the story really kicked off. "Twelve years, I have been waiting for you for twelve years, every day, every minute, every second, Every drop of my blood is greedy for the oxygen you exhale. How can you say that I have forgotten you? "People all over the world can ask me why I forgot about him, but this will never include you, Shu Yan!" The 12 years of waiting is not actually waiting. It is because Yao Shuhan himself can no longer put anyone in his heart. Even though the confession failed and was humiliated, the relationship still could not end simply. As luck would have it, her sexual orientation was exposed at this time. Shocked and disappointed, his family forced Yao Shuhan to cure his homosexuality. When I first read the plot of the aversion therapy, I thought it was ridiculous, but after reading it several times, I felt it was my own. Your empathy is too weak. After all, if things don't happen around you, you will inevitably underestimate and find it hard to imagine. But I always think it's too dramatic. The author wrote: "Some families need it, and parents in the world love it." A simple sentence explains that somewhere in the world there are always individual sufferings that you cannot change or interfere with. Family pressure is a classic but also the most realistic dilemma for same-sex people. Under Yao's father's rage, Yao Shuhan was forced into a treatment farce. The treatment process can be said to be short or long. In 30 days, my heart will not die, but I cannot help but be hurt. Therefore, the slender and sensitive personality coupled with the acquired shadow contributed to Yao Shuhan's various hesitant behavior when facing Shu Yan, or his abnormal behavior XD, a perfect creation. Why is it described as abnormal? "After that day, Shu Yan asked her why she had handcuffs. Yao Shuhan just said "oh" and stood up with her long messy hair. He said lightly, "I'll be alone and I'll just figure out what to do with you when I get my hands on you." "Don't worry, I have a lot of equipment. Let's do it one by one. It won't be boring." Whether it's the shocking words, the temptation of red wine, or the cosplay kitten, Teacher Yao who switches between a beautiful girl and a lustful girl is really interesting. XD I like how the author dealt with the treatment plot concisely and concisely, instead of spending too much space to write about Yao Shuhan's suffering process and details. Even if Shu Yan knew about it later, she only let her remember it in her heart, mention it occasionally, and then love Yao Shuhan double. After all, I think what this experience is trying to express is Yao Shuhan's stubborn character and obsession with love. Not to introduce stupid correction methods for homophobes. Or perhaps, sometimes, an understatement is better than an in-depth description. On the contrary, it leaves more room for heartache. "She couldn't remember how many times she hid in a corner and cried alone in the silent night. At first, she could cry all night, all night long. Later, she could only cry for half the night, shed tears for half the night, and then stare out the window in a daze for half the night. She seemed to understand a little bit. Shu Yan didn't like her not because she wasn't beautiful or because she wasn't good at math. But because she is not a man. Shu Yan doesn't like her because she is a woman. Later, Yao Shuhan stopped crying at night. She wanted to cry, but she couldn't. She started staring out the window in a daze all night long, Suddenly one day, she figured it out: Even if she were a man, Shu Yan might not like her. However, if she were a man, she could buy roses for Shu Yan and make chocolates for Shu Yan. You can pursue Shuyan openly. If she were a man, Shu Yan wouldn't be able to say that she was gay in front of others. Even if Shu Yan says he doesn't like her, she can still pursue her, because it is natural for men to pursue women. Men like women, it is natural. If a woman likes a woman, it will strike like lightning. After the treatment, the results remained the same as before. The only thing that changed was the relationship between Yao Shuhan and his family. As well as Yao Shuhan's mood towards feelings. To a certain extent, Yao Shuhan lost his family. Even though we know from the final ending that this is temporary, Yao Shuhan still spent several years alone. After surviving his youth, he gave up studying for a master's degree and chose to enter school early to gain a foothold in society. Yao Shuhan became a Chinese teacher. Although she is a talented woman with Chinese studies, she is beautiful and has a good temperament, is well-connected with students, and has many suitors. Valentine's Day chocolates are piled on the table, and roses are constantly blooming. However, the interpersonal circle is narrow and the relationship is weak. Apart from necessary work contacts, I hardly interact with anyone in depth. All the emotions seem to be stored in a sealed jar, kept suppressed and unable to get out. After meeting Shu Yan again, her delusions seemed to be within reach. Years of isolation were no longer necessary, and her feelings were naturally uncontrollable. "The capacity of a heart is only so small. If love is too full, it will overflow. If it overflows too much, it becomes longing. If the longing is too strong, you can't help but care. If you want to take care of someone, even if you can't move that person, you can still move yourself, which is better than nothing. "Doing something is better than nothing." Knowing that Shu Yan was short of money, she deliberately discounted the rent; Make special handmade chocolates for Shu Yan for Valentine's Day; Specially apprenticed to learn how to make Pikachu pendant; When the weather gets cold, I buy bulky electric blankets and electric fans for Shuyan alone; During the Chinese New Year, because there is no family to gather with and no need to go home, So while Shu Yan was going out to tutor others in order to make money, Secretly sleeping on Shu Yan's bed. This section is simply a new level of abuse. Actions reveal far more than words. I really like the author's detailed presentation of these trivial matters in life. Although Yao Shuhan was silently nice to Shu Yan, he did not bully and suppress her politely XD, But the repeated favors obviously gradually stripped away Yao Shuhan's restraint. After establishing a relationship with Shu Yan, Yao Shuhan's infatuation became even more unscrupulous: ""You have to be gentle and show your dignity, so that it appears that I am begging you, not you begging me." Yao Shuhan replied: "I don't care, as long as I can get you, I just beg you. It's too simple." Shu Yan was silent for a moment, her heart sank, she put her arms around her shoulders and kissed the top of her hair gently. The way your love is shown without any reservation is like a small animal willing to turn around and show its belly to you, Trust filled with surrender. Yao Shuhan did not shy away from the almost complete dignity in his words, he just said what he thought calmly. On the one hand, I felt sorry for her, but on the other hand, I also felt that Shu Yan's response finally removed all her shackles. Seeing this stupid energy of being devoted to one person for a lifetime finally pays off, even if you are just passing by, you will be moved to tears~ Don't you think so? (Hey A drunken confession reveals Yao Shuhan's view on love: "Hey, tell me, the one who loves you, the one you love, which one will you be with?" "All the girls I asked said they would choose to love them." "Do you know why?" "Because a woman doesn't love you, as long as you treat her well, ten years, twenty years, thirty years, a lifetime, She will be moved. " "But men are different. If they like you, they like you. If they don't, they don't like you. He will not fall in love with you just because you are good to him. Ten years, twenty years, thirty years, a lifetime, just because you are moved. If he doesn't like you, he will not look at you. He will never look back, never!" "Do you know how I answer this question?" "I said, I will choose the person I love. I love her, I love her like a man. I love her, love is love, and if I don't love, I don't love." "I just want to be with the person I love. If I love her, I will be good to her, for ten years, twenty years, for a lifetime! I will pamper her, spoil her, rely on her, and be entangled with her for the rest of my life. Even if she never looks back at me for the rest of her life, she will never!" I think my choice was the same as Teacher Yao's, that's why I like this character so much and resonate with it so much. ◎Race for love Unlike Yao Shuhan, who became a bender at the age of fifteen, Teacher Shu was considered straight before she realized she "liked Teacher Yao". Even the personality. Yao Shuhan is restrained, Shu Yan is outward, and the two express their jealousy in the same way. Shu Yan will cause destruction, be rude to others, and will reach out to pull people directly. Yao Shuhan can only get sulky and be mean to Shu Yan when they are alone XD "Yao Shuhan is like eyes, just looking at you. All the emotions are inside. Whether you can see or not is all up to you. But Shuyan is like hands. He can't speak and can't express feelings like eyes. He can only do things one by one." Teacher Shu's love started later than Teacher Yao's. In the process of catching up, I felt guilty after realizing it. There is no help but Shu Yan's rational persistence is more valuable than Yao Shuhan's innate crazy infatuation, which makes me feel that it is really difficult to determine the outcome of this love race. Facing the eyes of the masses, Yao Shuhan always cares, I'm worried that Shu Yan's confession is a compensatory mentality and a hasty and temporary move. Worried that Shu Yan would not be able to persist until the end due to external or family influences, Worried that Shu Yan will leave him one day, worried that he finally gained and lost... Worry that your long-cherished wish will ultimately be a bubble. Shu Yan has always been aware of these uneasiness, but her thoughts are not so easy to change. So Shu Yan used actions again and again to make Yao Shuhan feel at ease: Kiss her and hug her in the subway station, kiss her boldly in front of colleagues in the name of a big adventure, Take her to Sun Island to make a wish, invite her back to her hometown to catch ducks, take her home to meet her parents... Those who said anything silently wrote love letters to Yao Shuhan for three consecutive years. When the accident happened, he rushed to the first scene and dug out the collapsed hut with his bare hands. Shu Yan's family background is not good, and she has to bear the medical expenses of her chronically ill mother. In addition to her usual work, We also need to keep thinking of ways to make money part-time. Under the pressure of money, Shu Yanhuo became stingy and restrained. Fortunately, thanks to my personality, I still live a sunny and cheerful life. ""Actually, I'm the same as you. Living for so many years seems like death. I don't know if it's my mother... What will happen to me that day, but she is my mother, and everyone in the family is pointing at me, and I dare not do anything. I don't dare to think that I can only immerse myself in work, make money, and make a lot of money. Look, you persisted for so long, I have persisted for a long time, really, I can persist. Both of them are teachers, and they may have similar appearance, intelligence, but combined with their family backgrounds, Shu Yan and Yao Shuhan are completely incomparable. In terms of relationships, I can't compare to Yao Shuhan's dedication. When Shu Yan said "I like you" to Yao Shuhan, Yao Shuhan's reply was "I love you". When meeting Yao Qingsheng, Shu Yan could only kneel down. Shu Yan couldn't dote on Yao Shuhan too much in terms of material conditions, and she always relied on Yao Shuhan's infatuation for her. But Shu Yan rarely showed her uneasiness, and instead worked harder to fight for it. She is better at actions than words. When Yao Shuhan dodges, she takes the initiative to get close to him. When Yao Shuhan refused, she confessed again and pursued him directly. When Yao Shuhan was timid, she held her hand tightly. When she meets anyone who has evil intentions towards Yao Shuhan, she will drive them away frantically. Shu Yan was someone who used notes to cut and paste even when writing teacher comments, but she was willing to use a notebook to record Yao Shuhan's preferences. Yao Shuhan had something to say in her heart, so Shu Yan used small movements to observe, deduce her true meaning, and expose her cover-up. In fact, as long as you are willing, you can naturally make up for the so-called gap. Even if Shuyan has poor material conditions, But there are still roses when you confess your love, and you still have rings when you get married. She fulfilled all Yao Shuhan's requests, and even in terms of intimate relationships, she often allowed Yao Shuhan to dominate and manipulate her. Thoroughly implement Yao Shuhan's request for physical compensation. XD "Yao Shuhan sat on the big banana rocking chair by the floor-to-ceiling window, stretched out his arms like a royal concubine, "Come here, give me a hug." Shu Yan bent her knees slightly, "Oh, my dear." Then she ran over and snuggled into Yao Shuhan's arms, and rubbed her. Just thinking about the bigger Teacher Shu nestling in the arms of the smaller Teacher Yao makes me burst into laughter. At the end of the story, the two got married abroad and even had children. I personally don't like childbirth stories. Whether I want to give birth to a bun or a monkey, it feels like a utopian beauty. But fortunately the author didn't dwell too much on it. After an evaluation of the physical condition, it was determined that the child was born to Shu Yan. This is probably the only thing that surprised me, even though it was obviously for health reasons. But in his heart, he still wondered how Yao Shuhan could bear that Shu Yan might love another person more. XD At the end of the novel, I still felt that Yao Shuhan's love was even more extreme. Even though Shu Yan had already caught up so much, the words "My love and my face are decaying flowers, born in the womb and dying in my heart" not only moved Shu Yan, but also It even made me cry. But even if love is deep or shallow, it doesn't matter if it comes first or last, at least in this marathon of life, They finally caught each other and will move forward hand in hand until the end. However, not every character in the book can live up to the promise in his heart. This is the case for Ye Ming and the same for Chen Yujie. Speaking of a common flaw in GL novels - being surrounded by insiders. Yao Shuhan himself also complained in his heart: Didn't you say that the gay population is small? What about the marginalized groups that we agreed on? What about the niche culture that we agreed on! After I entered the trap, I realized that XD is everywhere around me. I don't think this is an old joke in the setting. But it means that Yao Shuhan finally stepped out of himself and saw his surroundings. After reading this work, Yao Shuhan showed me the courage to wait. This bravery was conveyed to my heart, inspiring me and allowing me to continue waiting for a truly suitable person without fear.

What a happy ending for everyone!

It's great that two people will never leave each other until they grow old together.

Good writing, good literature and art. Is it officially over?

Being loved by someone so deeply and for so long is such a blessing, especially when you love the other person too.

Teacher Yao is indeed a rare woman ~ Teacher Shu must have saved the galaxy in her previous life

29 Is the best person I have ever met who is good at writing love letters. I am very touched and hope the series will continue

Xu Qing fell in love with someone who couldn't possibly love her. I hope she still has a good ending.

Very nice! Come on, author!