The Tide Within Her

I read this book late at night. To be honest, I don't believe in this so-called love. I think they all redeemed themselves through each other. I prefer to regard this as a growth article. I admire Qiu's bravery and calmness. Her question shocked me and seemed to awaken me. Before reading this novel, I was very hesitant to read pornographic articles to make myself happy. I know that the world defines this as shamelessness. I have also read some vulgar pornographic articles that always use women's desires and women's bodies as a fig leaf for men to do unscrupulous evil. After I became an adult, I found that there were always days when I really wanted to read related novels, and I tucked myself into bed unconsciously. I didn't know what I wanted, but it wasn't until a few years later that I accidentally tried this feeling, and I finally understood. It turns out that this is what zw is, it turns out that this is how it feels, and I feel fine even if I say I am happy, just like I am slightly sweating after a workout and my whole body is relaxed. I don't do this much when I'm happy, but once I'm unhappy, stay up late or feel guilty, I'll really want to do this. But although it will relax me for a short time, after a while I will blame myself and feel disgusting. At that time, I was under a lot of pressure to study. I felt bad if I didn't study well. After doing this, I felt disgusting and even doubted whether I was sick. During this period, I also knew that I was wrong. I wanted to find relevant popular science books, but I couldn't find them. I also searched for relevant videos posted by bloggers on the Internet. Although there were some good ones, no one told me why I could do this or even enjoy it. I could only comfort myself that reproduction is the nature of living things, but I still couldn't forgive myself. My irregular work schedule made me look more and more haggard, and the dark circles under my eyes that I had had since I had stayed up late since I was a child seemed to become more and more obvious. I didn't even dare to look at others for fear that they would notice my disgust. I became less and less confident and felt ugly. I have read some literary works, and they all talk about men's confusion and exploration of sex, but I have never seen any proper guidance for women. I watched "White Deer Plain" in high school. Strangely enough, what impressed me the most was the daughter-in-law who was sexually molested by a deer and abandoned by his son. I remember the last description of her was that she was addicted to pornography (I didn't know much about this behavior at the time), and then she was scorned by her parents after she was found out. Yi, her parents are mostly shown in positive images in the article, and what's even more ridiculous is that the deer who harassed her and lured others with benefits seemed to be able to criticize her from the moral high ground. I know this seems wrong, but I can't explain or reason why they are wrong. In the past year, I have gotten better. I don't read novels very much, and I no longer let myself fall into a vicious cycle. However, I still feel very inferior about my dark circles. In fact, I have had them for many years in the past, but in the past two years, I have been particularly sensitive to them. I will observe myself when I look in the mirror. The dark circles under my eyes are obvious or not, and I have begun to be afraid of looking at others. I even hope that after the epidemic, everyone will also wear a mask. I don't like myself to be like this. After getting better for a while, if I do such a thing again, I will feel that all my efforts have been wasted, and I feel very self-loathing. I always comfort myself that I didn't hurt anyone or feel sorry for anyone, so I don't need to feel so guilty. Thanks to the author, through the words of Qiu, I understand that it is not easy to be happy in life. To buy a cup of milk tea, you need to open your mobile phone to make a selection and pay a certain amount of money. However, even so, you may not be able to get the taste you like. It is also difficult to judge after being caught in a thunderstorm. When you go out to exercise, you need to wear suitable clothes, find a suitable place, and the weather is not too hot or rainy or windy. You may also need to bring Bluetooth headphones, and spend time and money to meet up with one or two friends. Finally, you can exercise well and heartily. You may also have muscle soreness after exercise. Look, happiness doesn't seem that simple. When you are sad in bed, you don't need any of these. You only need a mobile phone and a quilt, and the effect is basically guaranteed. I think in this way, sex is indeed a shortcut to quickly obtain guaranteed happiness. Why is it that no one morally despises smoking, drinking, playing games, and watching TV dramas to gain comfort, but yet they should be on full alert? Parents are silent, teachers are secretive, and all the knowledge we have learned is advice. Why doesn't anyone tell us what this behavior means besides reproduction? No matter what kind of medicine or treatment, its benefits, advantages and side effects will be labeled, but it only has toxic side effects, and women are always shameless when talking about it. Why is this? I think I shouldn't demonize it anymore. Maybe it should be a natural thing, just like liking desserts and watching TV series. I have been the most well-behaved among children since I was a child. I will be praised for being well-behaved, and my parents will recognize my excellent grades. I have to study hard, be obedient and sensible, and cannot hang out with other bad students. Even in my twenties, I cannot go to bars with friends to dance. Girls should be as hard-working and uncomplaining as their mothers. I tend to please others and don't know how to reject others. After spending time with some friends, I always fall behind others for no apparent reason. I feel guilty when my family supports me in studying. Sometimes I feel that I cannot be pessimistic or overly aggressive. What should I do if I think about my mother? I am not as good as the male protagonist, but I can understand the depression and discomfort of the male protagonist. After staying in the mold for a long time, it seems that I can't recover after I come out. In recent years, as I become independent, I love myself more and more. I think the future will be better and better. I don't need to rely on others and I can give myself the life I want, although I still feel a little guilty for missing home. This article is very good. If many people commented, I might not comment so much. I think it deserves to be seen by more people. I also thank the author for helping me understand myself better and have the opportunity to speak out what is deep in my heart. I wish you good health, peace and joy, success in everything, and great sales in your writing~

Yes, what is wrong with children who read novels? What exactly is shame?

Zhou Yun is really arrogant. He destroyed Qiuqiu's legs, but he lived a good life. He didn't even spend a day in jail. In the end, your son got retribution. He still wants to blame Qiuqiu for this. It's ridiculous to make the victim feel guilty.

Wow, this is the gender-changed version of "The Replaced White Moonlight"

Yes, why should we be ashamed of things that make people happy? Why do humans do this and other animals don't?

It turns out that the male protagonist has taken care of Qiuqiu for a year

I like that Qiuyuan can clearly say "I don't want to"

Ah! Qiu who spoke up for Huang Zhengyi but was isolated, Qiu who was run over by a car, I felt so sad!

The author's writing is really good. Many of Qiu's words awakened me. Things that I thought were logical before are now suddenly dawning on me. I am now a sophomore this year, and the pressure on my studies is increasing. In the past, I relied on words to draw strength. It has been a long time since I have had an article worth pondering over after reading it. Author, you are really great. I hope this book will be released as a physical book soon! ! !

After reading it, I entered a bottleneck period, and I finished the second brush