Always Longing for Something to Look Forward To

There is a saying "The best revenge is ignorance." At one time, I thought this was the best way to get revenge, but later I realized that ignoring is sometimes not revenge, but sometimes a way to avoid quarrels. There is a person beside me who really likes me. But there may be a real incompatibility between us, because whenever we quarrel, there is absolutely no way to back down. It happened so many times that even I got tired of it. Later, whenever the atmosphere was not right, I would just say: "Okay, I don't want to talk to you anymore," and then never want to respond to the other person again. Yes, I just don't want to say it because I really don't want to argue… So when Ace refused Raphael's conversation, it wasn't with the attitude of avoiding discomfort. Many people said that according to the article, Raphael did nothing wrong. Yes, Raphael did nothing wrong, but did Ace do anything wrong? Raphael liked Ace, but he never confessed. Is it Ace's fault? Raphael watched Ace's fall with cold eyes, without redemption, explanation, or remedy. Is this Ace's fault? While Raphael was busy with work, Ace had the opportunity to go to the human world and meet Sarah. Is this Ace's fault? The girl he liked fell into a bloody waterfall by his friend. Is it Ace's fault? Watching me fall, with no recovery, no explanation, no remedy. Is this what you, Raphael, mean by liking me? The girl I was willing to fall for was lost by a mistake between you and Abaddon. Is this what you, Raphael, mean by liking her? For so many years, you didn't care, didn't feel any pain or itching, is this what you, Raphael, meant by liking? With such things, such actions, and such attitudes, you, Rafael, still dare to swear that you like me? Later, I no longer want to see, hear, or think about you... If I had some hope for you before I fell to heaven, then after spending these long years in the hell known as the "Desolate Land", that weak hope was gradually lost in your indifference. In the end, how should I tell you this full of complaints? And how should I say it? So, sorry. [When I wrote about Ace, I brought in some of my own emotions, seemingly filled with resentment~~~~~ But even so, he still truly loves Raphael. . . . . . . . To be honest, Raphael always gave Ace time and space. He thought he gave Ace the best, but he never asked Ace if he needed anything. Not disturbing was the gentleness that Raphael thought was the best, but what about Ace? Would you like this lack of interruption? Does he need this lack of interruption? … Let me tell you, if Raphael had confessed his love earlier, how could there have been salad later. So I feel that Raphael is the one who has the biggest responsibility for what happened between them. Of course, I hope that he will be responsible for Ace forever~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Ace is very good, with a pink face and dark eyes, and it is the most interesting to hold such a person in my arms

Now I want to say that since I downloaded Xiaomeng's short article, I no longer have to browse through favorites. I really want to write long reviews about Raphael and Xiaomeng, but ah… Wait a minute

It's so sad. People with unrequited love are the most miserable. Poor Raphael. .

QAQ It tortures me to death. I always wonder what Asmodeus has to be worthy of Raphael's comments... It seems that I haven't started writing the story of Raphael and Ace yet QAQ