Xie Kening has been secretly in love with Mu Qingchen for three years. She carefully collected all the moments that she thought were special, and pieced together the tiny pieces of warmth into a heart-pounding fantasy that belonged only to her.
The paper towels he handed over in the library, the brief exchange of glances when they passed each other in the corridor, the patiently sorting out her thoughts during group assignments, and the sharing of half a piece of dessert with her during dinner parties. In the eyes of others, it was just Mu Qingchen's innate gentleness and politeness, but in Xie Kening's heart, they were all evidence of hidden feelings. She relived every brief encounter over and over again, secretly recorded his preferences, took care of the trivial matters for him, and immersed herself in the ambiguity she weaved, convinced that Mu Qingchen also had her hidden in his heart.
For countless late nights, she indulged in imaginary scenes of getting along, imagining the two of them walking side by side and having heart-to-heart conversations. She misinterpreted the other person's politeness and tolerance into a single preference. She couldn't distinguish between reality and self-constructed illusions. She was willing to be trapped in this one-sided relationship and refused to wake up.
But repeated temptations lead to alienation, and taking the initiative to approach only results in measured alienation. Mu Qingchen always kept his distance, never crossed the boundary of ordinary friends, and even frankly mentioned Bai Yueguang, whom he belonged to.
When the truth was nakedly spread out in front of his eyes, Xie Kening suddenly woke up. The tenderness that made her heart flutter had no distinction between objects; all the ambiguities that kept her awake were just her wishful thinking from the beginning to the end.
In this one-man secret love show that lasted for three years, written and performed by herself, she was the only one left trapped in the illusion. After fading away from unrealistic fantasies, Xie Kening slowly regained her enthusiasm, learned to let go of her obsession with Mu Qingchen who died in vain, walked out of this illusion that had trapped her for a long time, and regained her own life.
Purpose: Urban redemption