A Heroine Who Falls Into Despair Again and Again, Yet Finds the Strength to Save Herself 女主一次次陷入绝望中，又自强的救自己于水火

1. 1 假 If Only You'd Let Me Be Young Again 假如许我再少年 Forest Bath森之汤Modern Romance268k WordsCompleted Ye Qingchen’s despair: She didn’t dare tell him she loved him. Zhou Shi’s grief: He didn’t have time to tell her he loved her. The phrase “if only” describes the overwhelming regret one feels over something that has already happened, and the futile fantasy of trying to change it. [The first time they met, he was twenty-five and she was twenty. He didn’t trust her and missed his chance to save her from despair, sealing her fate. The second time they met, he was thirty and she was twenty-five. The 5.1kReads9.1Score36114d adds

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   It's so beautiful, it brings tears to my eyes.

2. 2 虐 The Tormented Novel's Heroine Is Trapped, but Sisterly Love Is Unbreakable 虐文女主深陷劫，姐妹情坚不可摧 Xiu Bo Ci Cheng咻啵次橙Modern Romance353k WordsCompleted [No romance in the main story. This is not a wish-fulfillment novel, not a wish-fulfillment novel, not a wish-fulfillment novel!!! Please only click if you’re okay with that!] Xu Xingyang has a secret: she’s been handed the script of an angst heroine. But she isn’t the heroine. She’s the heroine’s younger sister, who dies young. Sickly since childhood, she’s a burden to her older sister, who has to become a stand-in lover to save her and is thrown straight into hell. Xu Xingyang wants to get her 451Reads8.0Score12814d adds
3. 3 二 I Bought My Past Life for Twenty Yuan; Reborn, I Settled Every Score 二十块买断的前世，重生归来我清算一切 Fragrant in Parting别日生香12k WordsCompleted A past life bought out for twenty yuan. Reborn, I return to settle every score. 3.9kReads—Score16514d adds

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   The short story, "I have saved myself from fire and water countless times."

4. 4 非 Neither Family nor Stranger 非亲非故非陌生 Forest Bath森之汤Modern Romance211k WordsCompleted For thirteen years, Song Li endured He Qian’s torment and humiliation, walking on eggshells every single day. The truth finally came to light in the year He Qian loved her most, but by then, nothing could change Song Li’s resolve to die... Only when He Qian held the blood-soaked woman in his arms did he truly understand what despair meant. 6.4kReads8.8Score26914d adds

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   Both are by the same author, and the female protagonists are always struggling in difficult situations, which is really heartbreaking. It's not suitable to read at night; it's too tear-jerking.

5. 5 好 Such a Good Girl 好一个乖乖女 I Took Great Pains我煞费苦心Modern Romance361k WordsCompleted [Print edition signed] [Short drama now streaming] [Sweet romance with a touch of angst] [Fake-good, scheming heroine x domineering wealthy tyrant] [Both leads are each other’s only one] Duan Xiuming first met Lu Mingyu at a wedding. She was stunningly beautiful, yet looked like a well-behaved good girl, sitting off to the side and painting because someone had told her to. “Boring woman,” he judged. But in the blink of an eye, Lu Mingyu gave him a huge surprise! She destroyed her painting and co 30.4kReads9.5Score4k14d adds

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   That's definitely our Ah Ye! You absolutely have to watch the rest! 😘

6. 6 路 How an Ordinary Supporting Girl Survives in an ABO World 路人女配在ABO世界的生存方式 Asphalt Tears沥青落泪Modern Romance246k WordsOngoing [Repeating timelines / a battlefield of male rivals / a heroine who grows / an alternate ABO world / wealthy families / a touch of aristocratic academy life / the terrible men’s road to redemption] [A sharp, black-hearted heroine pretending to be a beta VS all kinds of villainous alpha male characters from the book] After accidentally transmigrating into the world of her father’s novel, You Jinye had no choice but to disguise herself as a beta to survive. She planned to quietly search for a way 162Reads8.2Score—14d adds

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   This is great! 👍

7. 7 杀 The Pig Butcher's Comeback: To Hell with Forced Love 杀猪女的逆袭：强制爱滚蛋 Zhang Pengmai张芃麦Ancient Romance472k WordsCompleted [Nurturing Romance + White Moonlight + Rise to Power + Strong Heroine] Li Chunye is a butcher. After her older sister eloped with someone, her parents died of grief, leaving Li Chunye to live on her own from a young age and earn a living butchering pigs. Ye Lingyu is the butcher’s nephew by marriage. After his parents died, he was driven out of his family and became the only inheritance Li Chunhua left to Li Chunye. Wang Boyuan is Li Chunye’s fiancé and Ye Lingyu’s senior fellow disciple. He goe 5Reads—Score—14d adds

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   She won't succumb to despair; love is just a side dish. Her unrequited love remains buried deep in her heart, and no one can stop the heroine's progress. A strong female lead, a strong female lead, with male leads appearing only in stages. First book: Completed. Her childhood sweetheart, her unrequited love, disappears. The protagonist's search for him is also cut off. The heroine is forced to leave her hometown to search for him. Her unrequited love is exiled, and she goes to the place of exile to search for him. The protagonist climbs the ranks to clear his name. The heroine returns to her hometown and, by chance, takes control of the rebel army, builds her own army, gradually annexes several other counties, and ultimately becomes the overlord of the south. Second book: Due to the royal family's fear, she initially disguises herself as a man, acting like a playboy. In the middle stage, she enters officialdom to target powerful families, quell rebellions, and fight enemies. Later, her female identity is forcibly restored, and she enters the palace for power struggles. The late emperor blocks her path, she kills him; the current emperor blocks her path, she kills him; the crown prince is incompetent, he is deposed.

8. 8 将 The Female Marquis of a Military Family 将门女侯爷 Zhang Pengmai张芃麦Ancient Romance980k WordsCompleted A heroine takes up arms to bring peace to the land. [Strong heroine + woman disguised as a man + childhood friends + devoted to her brother + political intrigue] “Can’t you give up, even for me?” “...Once I’ve made up my mind, there’s no changing it. Not even you can stop me.” At sixteen, she was the capital’s most notorious young rake, a disgrace to a family of veteran generals; At eighteen, she won the Fengwu Tournament and joined the Imperial Guards; At nineteen, she was transferred to the Co 30Reads—Score—14d adds
9. 9 宗 Every Sect Wants to Kill Me, So I Just Reload After Death! 宗门都想噶我，我直接死亡回档！ Chao Lianyun巢怜云Ancient Romance1.2M WordsCompleted [Transmigrated into a Book + Villainess + Death Rewinds Time + Eldritch Cultivation + Unhinged + Quirky Style] Lu Xiaojin transmigrated into a book, becoming the lovesick senior apprentice sister in a cultivation novel where everyone falls for the heroine. She kept fighting the heroine for men and ended up dying horribly. No problem. She wasn't stupid. She knew how the plot went, so she could avoid trouble, stay away from the men, and survive. But! Can someone tell her why her junior apprentice 24.8kReads9.2Score3.6k14d adds

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   The female protagonist transmigrates to a strange fantasy world where she can die and rewind infinitely, almost to the point of despair.

10. 10 重 Reborn and Awakened: This Time, I Won’t Be a Love-Struck Fool 重生觉醒，这次我不做恋爱脑 Xing Ci杏词Modern Romance1.1M WordsCompleted [Both leads reborn + school life + gloomy, manipulative green-tea male lead + healing] Only after Lin Wu died did she learn that she was the villainess in a campus romance novel. Born into a wealthy family and blessed with a pretty face, she was still nothing more than a stepping stone in the sweet love story of the hero and heroine. Even though she and Xie Yanhui had grown up together and were engaged. Xie Yanhui only ever had eyes for the pure, poor Xia Ruoruo. Sadly, she was too obsessed to l 114.9kReads9.1Score23.2k14d adds

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    It's so, so beautiful, babies!

11. 11 财 Young Master Pei, the Tycoon: His Ex-Wife Is Richer Than a Nation 财阀裴少：前妻富可敌国 Flowers in Full Bloom梵花似锦Modern Romance2.0M WordsCompleted [Adored by all + adorable child + genius designer] [Internationally renowned designer vs. domineering obsessive] She was born a daughter of a distinguished family, but was reduced to a baby-making tool, and her husband even planned to use her to save the woman he had on the side. In despair, she leaped into a raging river, swearing she would never save the woman he loved above all else. Years later, she made a dazzling return! Onstage, beneath the spotlights, she came face to face with those sin 2.2kReads7.8Score28414d adds

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    What does it feel like to be betrayed by your most trusted brother? In "The Tycoon's Young Master: His Ex-Wife is Richer Than a Country," the female lead thought she had found someone to rely on, only to be reduced to a tool for bearing children and ruthlessly hurt. But she is no weakling; she dares to love and hate, resolutely leaving and undergoing a magnificent transformation. Returning years later, facing the entanglements of the past, she is no longer soft-hearted. Will old feelings rekindle, or will there be a complete break? This tangled web of love and hate between the brother and the female lead awaits you!

12. 12 京 The Ninth Master of the Capital’s Reborn Little Rose: Alluring Yet Obedient 京圈九爷的重生小玫瑰，又欲又乖 Eating Tomatoes Without Gaining Weight吃番茄不长胖Modern Romance652k WordsCompleted A short drama adapted from the author's novel Late Night, Don't Say My Name is now available. [Reborn romance + long-planned scheme + obsessive second male lead pursues his wife + the Ninth Lord takes the lead] In her previous life, Meng Mingxuan misunderstood the Ninth Lord, who doted on and loved her, believing he and her older sister were in a tragic love affair. She did everything she could to flee his side and married Yin Ting, a poor man whose profile resembled the Ninth Lord's. In the end 32.4kReads9.3Score10.2k14d adds

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    Family, I've found another gem of a novel in just 3 hours! "The Reborn Little Rose of the Ninth Master of the Beijing Circle" is a must-read! In her past life, Meng Mingxuan was completely deceived by Yin Ting, and in order to marry him, she cruelly hurt the Ninth Master Yan Mojiu, who had spoiled her. Only on her deathbed did she realize it was all Yin Ting's revenge. Reborn, she's determined not to make the same mistake again. Immediately after her rebirth, she encounters the scene of being forced into marriage in her past life, and she immediately throws herself into Yan Mojiu's arms, pleading her mistake. This time, she's determined to cling to the Ninth Master and stay away from the scumbag. From then on, she enters "protecting Ninth Master" mode, with various sweet interactions that will make you smile like a doting aunt. The second male lead tries to cause trouble, but Meng Mingxuan isn't fooled at all, and Yan Mojiu fiercely protects his wife. The two of them team up to slap the scumbag and the bitch in the face, delivering both maximum sweetness and maximum satisfaction!

13. 13 校 School Beauty, Don't Cry. You Don't Deserve My Devotion 校花别哭了，我的深情你不配 Short-Tempered Little Pumpkin暴躁小南瓜Urban1.0M WordsCompleted [A good horse doesn't return to old pastures + one heroine + not a BL story] [A light reborn romance with no System or golden finger, just an ordinary, everyday love story. Don't read if that's not your thing.] (Originally titled “Campus Belle, Don't Cry. You Don't Deserve My Devotion.” Note: The campus belle gets more page time early on, and the heroine appears a little late. The sweeter romantic scenes come in the middle and later portions. Please skip if that bothers you.) Everyone knew Gu Ch 14.2kReads9.5Score1.2k14d adds

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    Rebirth novel lovers rejoice! Highly recommend "After Rebirth, I Turned Away, and the School Beauty Cried." In his past life, Chen Xuan poured his heart out to the school beauty, Su Yao, only to be met with heartless betrayal and bullying, dying with resentment. Reborn, he no longer simps, turning away gracefully and focusing on self-improvement. Seeing Chen Xuan's transformation, Su Yao finally realizes his worth and cries, begging to get back together. But Chen Xuan has completely given up. Watch how he turns the tables, slaps back at his enemies, and starts a brand new life—it's incredibly exciting!

14. 14 等 Waiting for the Grapes to Ripen 等葡萄熟透 Scallion Egg Pancake葱香鸡蛋饼Modern Romance283k WordsCompleted [Upcoming Drama Adaptation] [Hong Kong Underworld Tycoon X Top-Tier Starlet] [Mutual First Love] [Sweet Romance] The first time Jiang Li met Luo Jinyan, he was sitting in the front of a Maybach, a cigar between his fingers and smoke curling around him. “You wrecked my place. How are you going to make it up to me?” Jiang Li knew who he was: Luo Jinyan, heir to Hong Kong's leading family. That year, on the Hong Kong-Zhuhai-Macao Bridge, he bought her first kiss for a million yuan. He brushed her l 19.1kReads9.4Score2.1k14d adds

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    The female lead is independent and strong, saving herself from danger time and time again. 🔥

15. 15 国 The Nation’s Movie Emperor Has a Secret Crush on Me 国民影帝暗恋我 Fragrance of Wine for Ten Miles十里酒香Modern Romance2.6M WordsCompleted Word is that national heartthrob Yu Qianfan has someone he secretly loves? Fans: “No, I don’t believe it! He loves us!” Word is that the person Yu Qianfan secretly loves is Queen Li? Fans: “Li Jin? No way! Those two don’t get along. This rumor is definitely false!” During a variety show game, Yu Qianfan put his hand on a lie detector. Host: “I heard you have a secret crush. Is it Li Jin?” Li Jin shot him a cold look. Yu Qianfan answered, “No.” Zap! The red lights flashed, and the alarm blared. L 13.4kReads9.5Score1.9k14d adds

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    The female protagonist saves herself, becoming stronger step by step, and gradually dealing with her stepmother, stepsister, scumbag father, and scumbag boyfriend. She shines alone! 😘

16. 16 玄 The Metaphysical Heiress Comes Down the Mountain, and the Cold Military Officer Regrets It 玄学真千金下山，高冷军官后悔了 Lotus Root Starch藕粉Modern Romance1.0M WordsCompleted Period setting + metaphysics + everyday family life + light supernatural elements + native heroine [After coming down from the mountain, she makes a fortune through metaphysics, but her biological brothers and fiancé collectively lose it?] When Fu Shaoting heard that his “little nun” fiancée, who had gone missing at the age of three, was coming down from the mountain, the upright and principled young marshal declared, “We must resolutely reject feudal remnants! An arranged marriage? Break it off 6.5kReads9.0Score92914d adds

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    These books express the heroine's independence, self-reliance, and eventual happy and fulfilling life.

17. 17 穿 After Transmigrating to the 1980s and Becoming a Substitute Bride, I Became the Army Officer's Most Beloved 穿越八零替嫁后我成了军官心尖宠 Over Ten Thousand a Day日收过万Modern Romance1.6M WordsCompleted [Transmigration + Substitute Marriage + Military Marriage + Stepmom + Mutual First Love] (Fictional Military Marriage + Everyday Life as a Military Wife) Yang Niannian, a college student, was so furious after losing ten ranked matches in a row in Honor of Kings that she blacked out and transmigrated to the 1980s. The moment she opened her eyes, her mother was pressuring her to marry, sobbing and sniffling all over her. “Lu Shishen is a soldier with a secure government job. If you marry him, you’ 109.3kReads9.2Score14.2k14d adds
18. 18 相 On Our Blind Date, the Heir to a Wealthy Family Took Me to Register Our Marriage 相亲当天，豪门继承人拉着我领证 Gu Lingfei古凌菲Modern Romance5.9M WordsOngoing [Sweet romance + Marriage Before Love + male lead pretends to be a pig to eat the tiger] On the day of her blind date, Hai Tong impulsively married a stranger. She thought married life would be ordinary and built on mutual respect. Instead, her new husband turned out to be a clingy human piece of glue. What surprised her most was that whenever she ran into trouble, he would step in and resolve everything with ease. Whenever she asked about it, he always said he was just lucky, until one day she 173.9kReads9.5Score6.7k14d adds
19. 19 七 The Seventies: Reborn, I’m Doted on in Every Way by the Strongest Officer 七零，重生后我被最强军官花样宠 Chu Ningqi楚凝七Modern Romance1.7M WordsCompleted [Period setting + military marriage + love after marriage + devoted husband + Space System] Her cousin schemed to land a handsome, wealthy officer with an incredibly powerful family background, hoping to sleep with him and use her body to keep him under her thumb. Gu Xiaoxi was reborn once more. She decisively stopped the handsome, drugged man who had barged into her bathroom... She seized the chance to marry the army’s most promising officer, “General Lu the Devil,” and packed her bags to join 64.1kReads9.2Score8.7k14d adds
20. 20 瞒 Behind My Ex-Husband's Back, I Marry the Crown Prince of Beijing's Elite Circle! 瞒着前夫，我二嫁京圈太子爷！ Sanyingli三樱里Modern Romance489k WordsCompleted Three months after Ruan Wan got married, a crowd of suitors suddenly appeared out of nowhere. A rich young heir confessed his love to her. A scheming pretty-boy was willing to be the other man for love. A top-tier star declared his love for her in public. But when she actually got divorced, all those men vanished. * At her ex-husband's wedding, Ruan Wan saw those “suitors” again. They discussed her casually: “Ruan Wan? We were just having a little fun with her.” “If it weren't for making things 22.9kReads8.9Score3.6k14d adds
21. 21 离 Back to High School Before the Divorce: This Time, I Won't Fall for You 离婚前重回高中，这次我不心动了 Xun Can旬灿Modern Romance429k WordsCompleted (Print edition signed) [Campus rebirth + regretful pursuit + bad-boy wins her heart + living-under-one-roof romance] [Slightly rebellious good girl x laid-back, aloof bad boy] After her grandmother passes away, both the Tan and Lu families feel sorry for Xu Entang, who has no family left, and want to take her in. When she arrives in Beicheng, she sees again the boy she never forgot after meeting him once. Lu Jin is brazen and unruly. Over the years they grow up together, she watches one woman af 99.3kReads9.4Score10.7k14d adds
22. 22 小 The Tiny Boss Is Everyone's Favorite, and She Coddles Her Scumbag Dad Like He's Her Placenta 小小老子当团宠，把渣爹当胎盘哄 Hu Yu蝴俞Modern Romance1.1M WordsCompleted The print edition of A Boat in a Single Thought is now available on all platforms. [Comedy + raising kids + everyone’s favorite + 1v1 romance + devoted couple + the adult heroine’s love interest is Lu Jinghuai] [A funny, sunny heroine who actually has eight hundred tricks up her sleeve x a saintly beauty who is really a sinister, venomous schemer] Ji Nian transmigrates into a novel where the heroine is adored by everyone, becoming the universally disliked biological daughter of the heroine’s pow 89.8kReads9.6Score11.6k14d adds
23. 23 癫EN Unhinged? We're All Unhinged—and That's a Good Thing! 癫，都癫，癫点好啊 Little Salt小盐子Modern Romance1.3M WordsCompleted [Super-Sweet 1v1]+ [Silly Humor and Memes]+ [Showbiz]+ [Dating Variety Show]+ [Face-Slapping] [Unhinged Actress vs. CEO with a Mind of His Own] Betrayed by her scumbag boyfriend, she transmigrated into a book and was immediately stabbed and sent to the hospital by an extremist shipper. Xie Mi went berserk on the spot, spouting wild claims in the livestream. “Come on! Stab me! All of you, stab me! I'll blow up the Earth!” A passerby who had wandered into the livestream nearly fainted. Okay, okay. 335.5kReads9.8Score46.5k14d adds
24. 24 侯 The Marquis's Estate Forgot Its Gratitude? The Regent Backs Me, and I Won't Forgive Them 侯府忘恩义？摄政王撑腰，不原谅 Chu Diandian初点点Ancient Romance1.1M WordsCompleted Luo Ning took a blade meant for the Empress Dowager and suffered severe injuries, trading her life for her family's noble title. She went south to recuperate for three years, but when she returned, she discovered that her maternal cousin had taken over her courtyard. Her cousin had even replaced her in every aspect. Luo Ning's parents and elder brother adored her, her grandmother favored her, and even Luo Ning's childhood sweetheart secretly admired her, saying that she surpassed Luo Ning in eve 177.6kReads9.4Score27k14d adds
25. 25 我 Me, a Cultivation Big Shot: How Much Stronger Can I Get? 我，修仙大佬强亿点怎么了 Cabbage白菜Mystery1.0M WordsCompleted "Soul Ferryman + No Romance + Story Arc Adventures + Spiritual Qi Revival + Cultivation + Invincible" Yun Miao, a cultivation powerhouse who has lived for thousands of years, sets out to uncover her origins. She volunteers to become a ferryman, guiding vengeful ghosts to the afterlife. The ghosts are full of resentment, hatred, and longing. She works diligently, her heart as firm as stone, yet can never uncover the mystery of her origins. Until one day... The Taoist priests of the Xuanmen 27.1kReads9.2Score5.5k14d adds

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