Looking for Brutal Tearjerkers That Wreck You Inside and Out... Preferably Ones That’ll Make Me Lose 20 Pounds 求巨虐、爆虐、虐身虐心…的虐文，最好能瘦20斤

1. 101 代 The Code Immortal Realm: I Am the Heavenly Dao 代码仙域，我即是天道 Number One Caramel Macchiato Among Bricklayers搬砖的头号焦糖玛奇朵Fantastical Romance85k WordsCompleted My name is Tian Yingxue, and this is the tenth time I've been reborn. The Heavenly Dao played a cruel joke on me. On one hand, it granted me a golden finger of an opportunity, giving me a natural fire spirit root, letting me establish my Foundation at ten, form my Golden Core and keep my youthful appearance at nineteen, and reach the threshold of ascension at a hundred. On the other hand, it made me perish in the tribulation lightning as I ascended, then sent me back to the day before I was to j 17Reads—Score—Shelves

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   The title looks like a lighthearted, enjoyable read, but it's actually quite angsty. You can tell the author is saving their big punch with some angst. [Smirk]

2. 102 心 Unquenchable Passion: The Big Shot's Trap 心火难熄：大佬的圈套 Girl in the Wheat Field麦田里的女孩Two Male Leads349k WordsOngoing [Two Male Leads / Powerful Heir to a Prestigious Beijing Family x Taciturn, Obsessive Lawyer / 1v1 / Second Chance Romance / Sweet Romance / Both Pure / Happy Ending] As children, he made him a promise: he would come back for him. But day after day, he waited, and that promise was never fulfilled. Years later, the two met again, but the Lin family's influence forced Xiao En to leave the country. They were apart for three whole years. Three years passed in the blink of an eye. Amid the crowds at 1.2kReads—Score—Shelves

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   Two male leads, multiple couples, reconciliation after a breakup, a "chasing husband" scenario, sweet romance, strong leads, not frustrating, not brainless, not effeminate, a satisfying read, revenge is a must.

3. 103 最 The Last Diary Entry 最后一篇日记 Sui Ying随楹Modern Romance13k WordsCompleted [Simplified Chinese edition signed for publication] I only used looking at the flowers as an excuse. All I really wanted was to see you once. 27.1kReads9.1Score4.8kShelves

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   看完脸不红了，手不抖了，腿不疼了，腰不酸了，心脏也不跳了。 我只是害怕了，怯懦了，惊慌了，失措了，发抖了，绝望了，痛苦了，恐慌了，心乱了，意冷了，神散了，沉沦了，窒息了，崩塌了，疲惫了，煎熬了，挣扎了，无力了，心寒了，落寞了，迷惘了，沉默了，枯竭了，孤单了，破碎了，怅然了，踌躇了，彷徨了，落空了，失神了，压抑了，难捱了，畏缩了，游离了，溃防了，执念了，煎熬了，无解了，歇斯底里了，惶恐不安了，畏缩怯懦了，心慌意乱了，茫然无措了，浑身颤栗了，深陷绝望了，饱受煎熬了，惊惧难安了，心神纷乱了，心意冷却了，神魂涣散了，沉沦困顿了，窒息压抑了，信念崩塌了，身心俱疲了。

4. 104 此 No Regrets in This Life, I'll Love You Again in the Next 此生无悔，来世再爱 Xiaoxiang Qimin潇湘祈敏Modern Romance102k WordsCompleted [Heartbreaking Romance + Mutual Redemption + BE Aesthetic + An Unforgettable Regret] Piano prodigy Xu Xiangxian VS swimming star Pei Yujing The north wind swept through the snowflakes in the cemetery. The young man held a bouquet and a medal he had carefully polished. He gently placed the flowers and medal before the gravestone. “Xiangxian, I've come to see you.” “Wait for me a little longer. We'll see each other soon.” He had once been a star admired by everyone, and she had been a dazzling you 751Reads—Score300Shelves

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   After watching it, my face stopped blushing, my hands stopped shaking, my legs stopped hurting, my back stopped aching, and my heart stopped racing. I was just scared, cowardly, panicked, at a loss, trembling, desperate, in pain, terrified, my heart was in turmoil, my spirit was cold, my mind was scattered, I was sinking, suffocating, collapsing, exhausted, tormented, struggling, powerless, heartbroken, lonely, confused, silent, exhausted, alone, broken, melancholy, hesitant, wandering, disappointed, lost, depressed, unbearable, shrinking back, drifting, breaking down, obsessed, tormented, without a solution, hysterical, fearful, cowardly, flustered, bewildered, trembling, deeply in despair, suffering torment, terrified, my mind was in turmoil, my will was cold, my soul was scattered, I was sinking into despair, suffocating and depressed, my faith collapsed, and I was physically and mentally exhausted.

5. 105 暗 The Sad Little Thing Called Unrequited Love 暗恋这件难过的小事 Meng Zhiwan孟栀晚Modern Romance122k WordsCompleted Lin Xu has a crush on the popular boy Ye Feng, and she remembers countless little details about him. Every day, Lin Xu times her departure down to the second, getting dressed and putting on her shoes in a hurry, all for the chance to catch a fleeting glimpse of his back. The music playing during the long break outside her classroom is Xu Song’s “Moon over Luzhou.” Lin Xu knows it’s the favorite song of Ye Feng, the school radio station’s announcer. Lin Xu has even stayed up all night organizing 77.1kReads9.7Score13.5kShelves
6. 106 戒 Diary from a Conversion Therapy Center 戒同所日记 Youthful Years, Thinking of the Brocade Zither华年思锦瑟Two Male Leads29k WordsCompleted A diary recording the final two months of my life... Maybe I'm just not meant to be loved. Otherwise, why would everyone who loved me leave? 12.6kReads8.2Score2.4kShelves
7. 107 无 No One Came to Save Her from the Deep 无人救她于深海 Liang Shiqi梁拾柒Modern Romance135k WordsCompleted [Signed for publication] [Youthful unrequited love + prodigal son turns over a new leaf + bittersweet romance + plenty of unresolved heartbreak + tragic ending (The male lead is hard to like at first. It's not exactly a tearjerker, but sensitive readers should proceed with caution.)] Youth is a foolish thing: foolishly falling for someone. At the beginning of the story, Xu Nuo falls in love with Zhou Yiming at first sight, as if sinking into the deep sea. At the end, Xu Nuo holds the box contai 19.2kReads8.9Score3.8kShelves
8. 108 他 He Risked His Life to Protect Me, and Gave Her His Heart 他以命护我，以心予她 Quan Xin荃昕11k WordsCompleted He Protected Me with His Life and Gave Her His Heart 397Reads—Score—Shelves
9. 109 最 The Last Red Apple 最后的红苹果 Quan Xin荃昕9k WordsCompleted The Last Red Apple 283Reads—Score—Shelves
10. 110 江 Mr. Jiang, She Really Isn't Coming Back This Time 江总，这次她真的不会回来了 Quan Xin荃昕9k WordsCompleted Mr. Jiang, She Really Isn’t Coming Back This Time 996Reads—Score—Shelves
11. 111 未 My Fiancé Tortured Me to Death, Then Wanted to Die for Me 未婚夫把我折磨至死，他却要殉情 Quan Xin荃昕Modern Romance9k WordsCompleted My Fiancé Tormented Me to Death, Yet He Wants to Die for Love 441Reads—Score—Shelves
12. 112 雪 Snow-Buried Eyes, Love Reduced to Zero 雪葬双眸，爱意归零 Quan Xin荃昕10k WordsCompleted Snow buries her eyes, and love fades to nothing 464Reads—Score—Shelves
13. 113 我 I Miss You So Much, But I Don't Know How to Be Reborn and See You Again 我好想你，但又不知道用什么方式重生再见你 Tangerine Sand桔沙8k WordsCompleted I miss you so much, but I don't know how to be reborn and see you again. 12Reads—Score—Shelves

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    Tortured by family ties, in the dead of night, he missed his mother so much that he unknowingly overcooked a zongzi (sticky rice dumpling), ate it without fear of death, and died from poisoning so he could reunite with her. But he was reborn, and he didn't know how to save his mother and bring her back to him. He was just a child longing for his mother; with her, he was a child; without her, no one treated him like a child anymore. How many times would he have to be reborn to bring his mother back? He was in so much pain, but he also resented his mother's pressure to get married and have children. He was short of money and had to find part-time work, but no one would hire him. Life is full of hardships and suffering. What had he done wrong to deserve such punishment? He was just a man who missed his mother. People say men don't cry easily, but he couldn't. He just wanted to cry out loud, like he did as a child, crying without restraint, without caring about his manhood.

14. 114 明 I Know You Came to Use Me, Yet I'm Still Willing to Take the Bait 明知你来利用我，我还愿意上钩 Chen Mulan陈慕澜Urban176k WordsCompleted The Gao Group is plunged into a cash-flow crisis after an overseas project fails, and its chairman, Gao Zhenxiong, collapses from a heart attack. His eldest son, Gao Tingyu, takes charge of the wreckage, only to realize that the sole person who can save the company is Shu Hancheng, founder of Hanhai Capital: a shrewd capital hunter who built his fortune from scratch. But Shu Hancheng remains cool toward the Gao Group’s overtures. Gao Tingyu comes up with a bargaining chip: his younger sister, Ga 7Reads—Score—Shelves

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    A bittersweet romance, pure love, domineering CEO, business warfare 😘😘

15. 115 万 Love Through a Thousand Torments: A Collection of Tortured Romances 万劫情深：虐恋短篇集 Frostblade of Ruicheng瑞城的寒霜剑Modern Romance691k WordsCompleted The bone-deep tenderness of concealing a terminal illness, the blood-curdling devotion of being bound as a substitute, a thousand-year obsession spanning the divide between life and death, and a battlefield farewell sealed by the flames of war... Every short story is a trial of love taken to its utmost extreme. They were once each other’s light, only to be ground to ash by fate. They spent the rest of their lives loving with all they had, yet it was never enough to overcome misunderstandings, pr —Reads—Score—Shelves

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    Sad sad sad

16. 116 一 One Short Tragic Romance Story a Day 一天一个短篇虐文故事 Frostblade of Ruicheng瑞城的寒霜剑Modern Romance4.2M WordsCompleted A Collection of Tragic Short Stories: Every Word Bleeds, Every Line Leaves You Aching One devastatingly heartbreaking short story every day! Modern-day missed chances intertwine with sorrows from ancient times, along with bone-deep pain drawn from true stories. These tales lay bare life’s regrets, every word striking straight to the heart until it hurts to read! If you finish without being moved, I’ll call you my “ancestor.” Come take on this lingering ache! 43Reads—Score—Shelves

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    虐虐虐虐虐虐虐虐虐虐虐虐

17. 117 背 The Price of Betrayal 背刺的代价 Eighteen Is My Cat十八是我的猫Marriage & Romance66k WordsCompleted The Price of Betrayal 50Reads—Score—Shelves

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    Push aside this incredibly angsty masterpiece, and you can lose as many pounds as you want.

18. 118 他 The Years They Loved Each Other 他们相爱的那些年 Wen Zhixu温芝絮Modern Romance118k WordsCompleted Everyone in Nancheng knows that Wen Wan is the happiest princess in the city, adored by Lu Zhiyan, a decisive and ruthless man who gets things done. Everyone also knows that Wen Wan looks just like Lu Zhiyan’s ex-girlfriend, Bai Xi. Five years ago, Wen Wan was driven out of the Lu family villa in disgrace. The happy years they had shared became a blade after blade piercing her heart. Five years later, Wen Wan seals away her feelings and focuses on her career, finally becoming a CEO and brutally 20Reads—Score—Shelves

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    My dearest Lu Zhiyan, my Zhiyan brother. Because my heart ached so much the day we parted, we didn't even have a proper goodbye. I've heard people say that longing is like the wind—boundless, able to cross mountains and seas to reach any desired destination. Gazing at the gentle evening breeze flowing outside the hospital window, I repeatedly hoped that this tender wind could cross borders and reach you. Alas, my longing is silent, and countless thoughts remain unspoken; yet, thankfully, my longing is silent, so it won't become a burden binding you. I so wish the breeze could brush past your ear, completing the farewell I couldn't say, softly telling you: "Goodbye, my dear Zhiyan brother." 😂😂😁

19. 119 血 Crimson Neon: The Tenth Shattered Pregnancy 血色霓虹：破碎的第十次怀孕 Yang Xinsheng杨新生Marriage & Romance23k WordsCompleted Blood-Red Neon: The Tenth Broken Pregnancy —Reads—Score—Shelves

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    Children should not read illustrated ethical dramas. This is a tragic tale of a woman from the lower classes, steeped in blood and tears, telling the story of Liu Fang, repeatedly crushed by life, who desperately seeks a glimmer of light only to ultimately fall into the abyss. [Top Post]

20. 120 昼 Burning by Day, Reduced to Ash by Night 昼焚夜烬 Yang Xinsheng杨新生10k WordsCompleted Day Burns, Night Turns to Ash 6Reads—Score—Shelves
21. 121 穿 After I Transmigrate into a Book, I Become an Obsessive Man's KPI 穿书后我成了偏执男的KPI The Melodious Sound of Night Rain夜雨声澜Modern Romance308k WordsCompleted Also known as: Help! This System escaped from a mental hospital! Xu Ningjing transmigrated into a melodramatic Mary Sue and Gary Stu novel, becoming a cannon-fodder side character who shared her name. The original Xu Ningjing caused trouble at every turn and went crazy for love. In the end, the obsessive male side character, He Qilin, slowly killed her, step by step: sending her dead rats, psychologically terrorizing her, and gently describing how cold the water would feel when she drowned. Ca 24Reads—Score—Shelves

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    I never expected things to turn out like this; the beginning was actually a bit funny.

22. 122 钱 The Moneylender Was Reborn Seven Days Before Me 钱庄先生早我七天重生 Ghost of the Deep Sea Gazing at Moonlight深海的幽灵啊注视月光Modern Romance295k WordsOngoing [Career-Focused Female Lead + Supportive Male Lead] + [Beautiful, Unhinged Second Female Lead + Sharp-Tongued, Proud Second Male Lead] + [Sincere Romance] "Boss Chen, my eldest sister doesn't like having her picture taken. She looks about the same as my second younger sister. You've met her, after all." With that one sentence, Hu Lingyi became Boss Chen's second wife. Boss Chen thought she looked ordinary, but he had to admit she had a gift with numbers. Not a single transaction in the Chen fami 10Reads—Score—Shelves

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    The first three chapters are extremely heart-wrenching.

23. 123 缠 Entangled by My Fiancé's Brooding Brother 缠她：被未婚夫的阴湿哥哥缠上了 Li Miju李米居Modern Romance245k WordsOngoing [No holds barred] [A sinister, ruthless villainous man] [Rivals vying for her later] One woman, two men: a stubborn, resilient heroine versus a sinister, ruthless, calculating CEO brother versus his sunny, sharp-tongued, devoted younger brother Lin Du first met Zhou Yan in the third row by the window in their high school classroom. Sunlight fell on his eyelashes as he handed her a pen and said, "That's a lovely name. I'm Zhou Yan." She thought that was the beginning of a love story. Only later d 433Reads—Score185Shelves
24. 124 欠 I Owe You an Apology 欠君句抱歉 Mo Wu默浯Urban39k WordsCompleted [Two male leads + one-on-one true love + heart-wrenching + mutual devotion + tragic ending] (Sorry, I used the wrong tags!) A Nian, two years ago, I promised to give you a sea of flowers. I opened a flower shop. When will you come by... It was my fault. I lost you. The call had lasted a full minute. Mu Chixing stared at it for a long time, as if making sure it was real. Then, with fingertips trembling slightly, he pressed answer. His voice was almost too hoarse to make a sound as he spoke: “ 87Reads—Score—Shelves

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    Ah Nian, love in the next life

25. 125 蝶 Butterfly Shadows Return to Dust: Sold into Prostitution by My Mother-in-Law, My Ex-Husband Searched for Me for Ten Years 蝶影归尘：被婆母卖入风尘，前夫寻了我整整十年 Ni Ah Ni Ge Ni氼啊氼个氼55k WordsCompleted The Butterfly’s Shadow Returns to Dust: Sold into a Life of Vice by My Mother-in-Law, My Ex-Husband Searched for Me for Ten Years 319Reads—Score—Shelves

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    If I don't cry, I'll lose.

26. 126 蝶 Butterfly Shadows Return to Dust: My Husband's Enemy Seizes Me by Force 蝶影归尘：丈夫的的仇人对我强娶豪夺 Ni Ah Ni Ge Ni氼啊氼个氼15k WordsCompleted Butterfly Shadows Return to Dust: My Husband's Enemy Forces Me into Marriage 24Reads—Score—Shelves
27. 127 樊 Dawn Within the Cage 樊笼内的破晓 Old Qinggan老青柑Modern Romance350k WordsCompleted Some people are born trapped in a cage. Invisible barriers, woven from the soil of one’s upbringing, the path laid out in advance, the constraints of one’s surroundings, the cocoon of one’s perceptions, and the shackles of morality, build a cold, solid cage that holds her captive. She is raised within it, as if this were all life could ever be. If she does not awaken, if she does not save herself, the ending is clear: the cage will silently devour her, and she will vanish in a slow death. Yet de 5Reads9.3Score—Shelves

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    It's so heart-wrenching, but the female lead gradually becomes stronger; it's a really good read.

28. 128 越 The More Off-Roading, the More Addictive It Gets 越野越上瘾 A Passing Guest in the Flow of Time往事流年稍作客Ancient Romance111k WordsOngoing ◆ Powerful leads tame each other ◆ Obsessive Emperor × Proud, Defiant Princess ◆ Explosive revenge plot ◆ A tragic romance that lasts until death ◆ “You once shackled me. Now I’ll repay you by turning your empire into a cage.” “Ye Huang, the wilder you get, the more addictive it becomes. This time, I’ll play along with you all the way to the depths of hell.” She was Liang’s most bewitching and unruly Ninth Princess, Helian Ye Huang. Three hundred li beyond the capital stood the royal hunting gro 1Reads6.4Score—Shelves

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    🥰🥰🥰🥰[Learned it!]

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