As a Boy, He Was Always So Proud. By the Time He Realized It, She Was No Longer by His Side 少年的他总是高傲的，意识到时，她已不在身边

1. 1 暗 A Bitter Summer of Loving Mu Ru San Fen in Secret 暗恋木入三分苦夏 Tangerine Sand桔沙8k WordsCompleted A Secret Crush, Bitter as Summer 4kReads—Score2514d adds

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   The boy was always arrogant. By the time he realized it, she was no longer by his side. She bittersweetly loved him, enduring countless summers of pain. She had a crush on him from the moment she opened her eyes—her childhood friend. From childhood, she dared not confess her feelings, afraid of losing a friend. To love someone and remain by their side as a friend was something she cherished. To be in the same school as him, she would study tirelessly, even if it meant getting the lowest score, just to be near him and catch a glimpse of him from afar. He mocked her for being last, but she wasn't angry; instead, she congratulated and envied his first-place finish. Then, her roommate, the wealthy school beauty, appeared—a rival for his affections. She began to feel threatened; his side no longer seemed to belong to her. The school beauty... He mistook the love letter she handed him for a confession, but the trampled letter extinguished his unrequited love. She feigned amnesia, wanting to be brave once more, and found unprecedented happiness. His affections were genuine until he discovered she had lied to him, faking amnesia. She was abandoned, and he arrogantly felt she had deceived him. She was no longer around him. His promise to marry her next year turned into a nightmare when she received his engagement invitation this year. Her heart was in turmoil, and she stubbornly refused to go. Suddenly, she felt a bitter pang, yet she still went out of inexplicable jealousy. Then, in even greater despair, she attended his wedding with the school beauty. She was supposed to be the one wearing the wedding dress, but why, while she was in agony, did he propose to her at the wedding with the school beauty's ring?

2. 2 冷 The Cold School Hunk Acts Distant in Public, but Privately They Brutally Torture Each Other 冷冰冰校草人前不熟，人后疯批互虐 Tangerine Sand桔沙11k WordsCompleted The icy school heartthrob acts like he barely knows them in public, but in private they're locked in a crazed, mutually destructive relationship. 2Reads—Score—14d adds

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   Proud and unyielding, he mistook her for the school beauty and got her pregnant. But after they argued, she walked back to her school dormitory in the rain while pregnant. He was unfaithful and made advances, mistaking her for the school beauty and getting her pregnant. His family line also ended up extinct. The school beauty, unaware of this, forced her to abort the child. How many seven-year periods does one have in a lifetime? Is unrequited love also reaching the seven-year itch? She had poor grades but studied late into the night to get into the same school he attended. When she had no money for food, she relied on the kindness of others and took out loans to pay for her studies. She became his maid to get closer to him and to help pay her tuition. However, he and the school beauty were dating. He got drunk, mistook her for the school beauty, and she became pregnant. They argued, and she was caught in the rain. She went back to her dorm in anguish, but fainted. The school beauty carried her down five flights of stairs to the school clinic, where they discovered she was three months pregnant. The school beauty, worried about her health, asked her to have an abortion. He became her guardian. The school beauty was unaware that her boyfriend had become her father. He looked at the medical report showing he was infertile. He began to protect his child, the bittersweet pain of unrequited love palpable. She wanted him to break up with the school beauty. He was reluctant but broke up with her anyway. Seven months later, she gave birth in her dorm. The school beauty's envy turned into jealousy. Was this love triangle destined to be a tangled mess of love and hate?

3. 3 冷 The Ice-Cold Campus Heartthrob Loses Control and Kisses Me: I Pretend We Don't Know Each Other, but My Obsessive Self Demands a Relationship 冷冰冰校草失控吻，装不熟我疯批要名分 Tangerine Sand桔沙8k WordsCompleted The cold, aloof campus heartthrob loses control and kisses me. I pretend not to know him, but I'm going crazy demanding a label. 800Reads—Score—14d adds

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   He was arrogant and refused to bow his head, disowning his child. She became pregnant out of wedlock, gave birth to the child, and was kicked out of her home, almost ending up homeless. He almost never saw her again, but even after becoming his nanny, she still disowned his child and called him a bastard. How painful is it to love someone? She had a crush on him for ten years, and the night he kissed her uncontrollably, she became pregnant with his son. Bitterly, she was kicked out of her home by her mother. With nowhere to go, she applied for a nanny job at his house to take care of the child, only to be called a bastard by him. His mother also treated her badly. The three of them argued fiercely about the child. Then his fiancée appeared, a manipulative and scheming woman who subtly manipulated her. She found unprecedented pleasure in messing with his fiancée, but he and his mother were on the same side, favoring his fiancée. She felt bitter and jealous of her lack of recognition, while the person she loved most... Right now, she can't have a formal title. She was so angry that she beat them up, and they became much more obedient. She took her child to school and was pointed at and gossiped about. He didn't help her at all. His fiancée even deliberately called the principal to harass her. She was so unhappy that she would confront and hit anyone she saw. She even demanded that he officially announce her and the child's relationship. His fiancée was so angry that she felt like her face had turned green. She tormented his fiancée, making her call and cancel the engagement. His fiancée refused, and they were eventually forced to cancel the engagement. Why did he suddenly kneel down and propose to her? She really couldn't understand what had happened.

4. 4 暗 The Day He Rejected My Confession, He Carried Me Off on the Spot 暗恋被拒绝那天，他当场把我扛走了 Tangerine Sand桔沙18k WordsCompleted The day my secret crush turned me down, he scooped me up and carried me off right then and there. 2.4kReads—Score—14d adds

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   The boy's arrogance was realized only after two lifetimes had passed. She was gone, and without her by his side, he searched frantically for her, hoping to mend their broken relationship. In the previous life, she mustered the courage to confess her feelings, only to be rejected. In this life, she couldn't win his love, leaving her heartbroken and in agony. How could people love someone only to have unrequited love? The regrets of the previous life suddenly appeared in the next. She chose to be brave again, but when she returned to school, reliving their encounters and every little detail, she was still rejected. She wanted to cry. Why was her love, rekindled, still trampled upon? It seemed no one supported her being with him. Early romance was forbidden, and neither was a poor girl like her allowed to be with a rich man like him. They were together, but the vast class difference meant she was unaware of the many obstacles to their love. Her only stroke of luck was seeing her mother again, the one who gave her life, raised her, and loved her most. Even in poverty, her mother was willing to give her the best food. Life has many regrets, but love isn't one thing. He demanded money from her, and her mother was called in to take time off work. Her mother, already working hard, had to come and deal with her troubles, which made her feel incredibly guilty. Later, she stopped talking to him. She went to university and worked hard at part-time jobs to support herself. Then, that familiar voice, that familiar person, carried her away. She felt lost. Hadn't he rejected her confession? Her bittersweet love, her unrequited affection, had actually made progress. Those days made her very happy. Aside from class, she spent all her time with him, like a happy married couple. This was the love she had dreamed of for two lifetimes. But she was also apprehensive, afraid his love was just a momentary lapse of judgment. He was so rich, she was so poor—what was there for her not to understand? She knew all too well about class differences. She was infatuated with love, yet tried to soberly detach herself. She proposed marriage to him, demanding a large dowry, which he agreed to. But later, heartbroken, she said she wanted to break up. He couldn't understand why someone could agree to marry him so quickly, only to break up just as soon as possible. Was he really going to lose her? Did she really love him?

5. 5 他 He Said My Secret Crush Was a Nuisance 他说我的暗恋是困扰 Tangerine Sand桔沙8k WordsCompleted He Says My Secret Crush Is a Nuisance 766Reads—Score—14d adds

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   In his youth, he was too proud to accept unrequited love and treated her with disdain. He realized she was gone. Initially, his indifference made her heart ache. She didn't know he was better at hiding his feelings than she was; she thought her hidden love was even more powerful. He always stubbornly mocked her bittersweet feelings, which were a source of distress for him. She was afraid of losing friends and could only remain a childhood friend—a coward who dared not confess. But when he asked her alone if she had a crush on him, she didn't notice his sweaty palms. Unable to answer, she could only ask him if he did. Her hands trembled, but she pretended to be calm, placing them behind her back. His ears turned bright red as he reached into his pocket, but she was afraid of revealing her feelings and ran away. Disappointed, he transferred schools. Hearing this, she felt even more heartbroken. She bitterly thought she would never see him again. Then, after getting into university, she heard that familiar voice being confessed to by the school beauty. It was him, but he was holding her and calling her his girlfriend, only having her as his girlfriend. People said she was a shield to reject the school beauty, which she initially thought was a pleasant surprise. Hearing this angered her so much that she publicly denied being his girlfriend. Everyone said she was ordinary and yet dared to reject such a handsome school heartthrob. In her anger, she accidentally dropped her mother's keepsake—a faded pearl hairpin. She cried as she looked back for it. They argued, and he returned the hairpin, but the school beauty trampled it, throwing five coins at her as an insult. She began to hate the school beauty and threatened him to pretend to be her boyfriend, hoping to infuriate the school beauty. The school beauty offered her money to leave him, which she accepted. She then lost her memory, and the school beauty took the opportunity to claim she was his girlfriend. Her mother found her and gave her five million to leave him, and she agreed to study abroad as quickly as possible. Upon returning home, she didn't know he had become her CEO. She regained her memory, and he proposed. She only cared about the ring, not the "gift" he offered. He imprisoned her. During their marriage registration, she tried to escape, but he blocked her way. At the wedding, the school beauty appeared.

6. 6 假 I Pretended to Be the Girlfriend of the Chaste Campus Heartthrob, but I'm His Maid 假扮禁欲系校草女友，可我是他女佣 Tangerine Sand桔沙8k WordsCompleted I Pretend to Be the Girlfriend of the Cold, Abstinent Campus Heartthrob, but I'm His Maid 1.3kReads—Score314d adds

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   Proud and unwilling to bow his head, he realized the ending and pursued her relentlessly. What's the worst thing about unrequited love? She dropped out of college in her third year due to a family member's illness and incurred a debt of 300,000 yuan, becoming his maid for 5,000 yuan a month. The creditor chased after her, and she paid off 500,000 yuan within three days. As his maid, she was so slow even cutting grapes. She had to ask for leave to be a maid; who knew if she was out fooling around? She couldn't afford to sell herself for 600,000 yuan a night. She said that 5,000 yuan a month could only hire a monkey. She accidentally peeked at him taking a shower, and he was so angry that he fired her. She was furious and set her alarm for 3:30 in the morning to wake him up, but unintentionally revealed her bittersweet, long-standing unrequited love. When she called back, he blocked her. When they woke up, they both had dark circles under their eyes and looked at each other. It turned out that she was still the one pretending to be his girlfriend. She ran away at the last minute, and he raised his offer to 5 million yuan. The second female lead exposed the fake girlfriend thing, and his grandfather beat him. She finally said that she really liked him and begged his grandfather not to hit him anymore. But why did he suddenly kneel down and propose?

7. 7 捡 I Picked Up a Puppy, and He Immediately Called Me His Husband 捡到一只小狗，他竟直接叫我老公 Guangwu Anwen光武暗文Two Male Leads60k WordsCompleted [Male Leads + Forced Love + Extreme Contrast] Luo Sheng’s greatest wish is to save enough money to marry a wife. One day, while hunting, he brings home a little black dog covered in wounds. Once the dog recovers, it transforms right before his eyes into a peerlessly handsome man wearing no clothes! The handsome man gazes at Luo Sheng with clear, innocent eyes and calls him, “Husband.” Luo Sheng: “??? He wants to be my wife?!” Only later does he learn that the man is the legendary domineering pri 418Reads—Score10214d adds
8. 8 我 My Unrequited Love Doesn't Count 我的暗恋不算话 Tangerine Sand桔沙8k WordsCompleted My Unrequited Love Doesn't Count 344Reads—Score414d adds

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   His arrogance drove her away; she was no longer by his side. The bitterness of unrequited love meant that confessions could only be made through truth or dare, a bittersweet wait. Unrequited love left her heart empty. He choked on his water when he heard her confession; her lack of response only amplified her heartache. Her best friend comforted her, saying she didn't want any regrets in her senior year of high school. She countered by asking if her best friend had someone he liked. Her best friend smiled bitterly, saying they'd find out in college. She pressed him about which university he was going to, wanting to go with him. He, however, asked his best friend what university he was going to. She was angry that he wouldn't answer her; she just wanted to be close to him, what did it matter if the school heartthrob was snatched away? The relationship between the three of them was ambiguous and unclear. Later, she got angry and ignored him until the college entrance exam. He offered to help her carry her books for the first time and even asked if she wanted to go on a graduation trip together. She was angry again and only asked if her best friend wanted to go on a trip together. He was furious and threw the book down. She thought it would hit her and closed her eyes tightly, but her best friend shielded her. She took him to the school doctor, and he jokingly said the wound would heal if they waited any longer. Suddenly, he was shocked to realize that his best friend was actually his mortal enemy. He questioned his best friend about whether he liked her, but his best friend denied it. Her heart skipped a beat, unsure of who she truly loved. She fell into his arms, unaware that his heart was racing. His ears turned red as he pushed her away, but his best friend's eyes were red-rimmed. She began to struggle to face her own heart and figure out who she truly loved. She tried to kiss him but didn't feel that spark. She was afraid to admit who she liked. She blocked him and his best friend, and after the college entrance exam, she didn't want to talk to either of them. His best friend came to find her and admitted he liked her. Her mind was in turmoil. Until she entered university, she discovered the two of them openly professing their love and vying for her attention. She felt annoyed and didn't want to talk to anyone, but everyone envied her happiness. But happiness lasted only a few seconds. Her mother, whom she hated most, called, saying her grandmother was hospitalized and they needed money. She hated her mother so much for making her a left-behind child. She was traveling a long way to her grandmother's house, but she wouldn't be able to see her grandmother one last time. She was in so much pain; the bonds of family were too strong to sever. Her favorite White Rabbit candy was a gift from her grandmother, which was why she loved it. She recalled all the happy times with her grandmother, which had become the greatest misfortune of her life. She hated her mother for being heartless and unloving. He and his best friend followed her home. It turned out she liked him because he was the first person to help her when she was being bullied, and she was deeply moved. His best friend also helped her. Recalling all the past, who did she ultimately choose?

9. 9 快 Quick Transmigration Into a Hemorrhoid Specimen, Then Becoming a Caged Bird 快穿成痔漏标本，变囚中雀 Tangerine Sand桔沙8k WordsCompleted Quick Transmigration into a Hemorrhoid Specimen, Then Becoming a Caged Bird 688Reads—Score214d adds

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   When the arrogant man realized it, she had become a specimen of hemorrhoids. Is being loved truly a blessing? A Beijing socialite, bored and with nothing better to do, she insisted on working as a butler for a stingy CEO, a job that paid 1,500 yuan a month with three shifts and no days off. She ended up transmigrating into the body of the stingy CEO's hemorrhoid specimen. Later, he fell in love with her, but she found living with such a stingy person incredibly difficult and began to hate him. He then imprisoned her, and she became pregnant. She bitterly felt she had wasted her time. Finally, she had a chance to return home. Her father, feeling sorry for her, made her deeply regretful. For the sake of appearances, her father forced her to marry someone else. She agreed, but it seemed her husband was him?

10. 10 乖 The Good Girl Becomes Everyone's Darling and Gets Revenge on Her Childhood Friend Who Dumped Her 乖乖女要变万人迷，报复甩她的竹马 Tangerine Sand桔沙8k WordsCompleted The Good Girl Wants to Become Everyone's Crush and Get Revenge on the Childhood Friend Who Dumped Her 492Reads—Score414d adds

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    He broke up with her with harsh words back then, and she held a grudge. After she left, he regretted it, but she transformed from a good girl into a scumbag, torturing him. The good girl, seemingly innocent but actually ruthless, kissed someone else in front of him, making him jealous without any real connection. Dumped by her childhood sweetheart, she went abroad to study and returned to seek revenge. The good girl became a villain, chasing after women, flirting, smoking, and drinking—she was good at everything. Every substitute she found resembled him. In a dream, he asked her if she loved him, but when she woke up, he was lying next to her. Hitting him became a reward for him. Her best friend asked if she remembered him. She said she didn't remember, but her best friend said she hadn't said who that person was. Yes, when you love someone, even the shadows of their substitutes surround you. Even during her time studying abroad, she still thought about him. How can a person forget the one they love most? How long does it take for a devoted person to become a scumbag? Just the moment he dumped her, she changed. Her scumbag behavior was only superficial. He still took her virginity. She said she wanted to kiss a male model. So he could be jealous too. Where was he before? Did he even love her? She didn't understand why he had so cruelly dumped her back then. The seven-year itch is something no one can escape, right? He, her childhood sweetheart, had become a CEO. He begged her to have their child to tie her down. Could a person be so cruel? He didn't want to use a child to bind her; he tried to keep her by his side forever, unaware that she had changed. She had nightmares about him abandoning her, yet he would hold her and say he wouldn't leave. Upon waking, her instinctive reaction was to slap him. Was it that being too greedy meant she could never have the one she loved most? Little did she know, she called him crazy, but he said he wouldn't be crazy if it weren't for her. He grabbed her neck, asking if she had been with someone else abroad. She felt his jealousy, which gave her a sense of triumph. He smashed the phone her mother had bought as a keepsake. Having missed her mother's funeral, she began to hate him. She replaced his male assistant and secretary with his stand-ins, provoked him by having unofficial relationships with them, and even kissed them in front of him. He was furious and extremely jealous. Their relationship was never officially announced, yet she was consumed by jealousy over their lack of recognition. Watching him be jealous, she felt a strange sense of vengeful pleasure, but she used foreign etiquette to provoke him. He had nowhere to vent his anger. He said he wanted to kiss like that abroad too, but she said enemies don't need to kiss. He was enraged... His face turned green as he forbade office romances, implying that only he and she were permitted to have one—a double standard. She skipped work to meet her younger self at a party hosted by the school's most popular male model, but secretly hoped he'd catch her. She kept wondering why he hadn't arrived yet. Finally, he came, but as she tried to open the door, she regretted that he had prevented her from seeing her mother one last time. Some hatred, in the face of love, only brings pain and distortion. Torn between two people she loved most—her beloved mother and the man she loved most—she agonized over the regret of not seeing her mother one last time; the dead cannot be brought back to life. He was alive, so she had no regrets. But her mother couldn't live, and she couldn't forgive him. Even when the male assistant wanted him dead, she hesitated and agreed. He said she was heartless, unaware that he was even more heartless when he dumped her. She was merely repeating the actions she had taken when dumping him. The male assistant also smashed the wine glass her mother had left behind, yet she didn't see him as an enemy, only heartache and hatred. This made her resolve to join forces with the male assistant to kill him, but love made her hesitate about telling him the truth about his impending death. She bitterly thought, wasn't this the best opportunity for revenge? Yet, she felt he didn't deserve to die. People are always caught in a dilemma when making choices; the contradiction seemed to make either choice unhappy. But she didn't understand what the male assistant meant by what he said. Wasn't he clearly dumped her because he didn't love her? Why were his words so light and so heavy?

11. 11 妹 My Precious Little Sister Wants a Divorce and to Run Away While Pregnant, but She Won't Escape Her Captivity 妹宝想离婚带球跑，休想逃被囚禁 Tangerine Sand桔沙Marriage & Romance8k WordsCompleted The pampered girl wants to get a divorce and run away while pregnant. Dream on: she's going to be imprisoned. 391Reads—Score214d adds

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    He was always too arrogant, even though they were enemies. When she realized she had almost lost her life, she ran away pregnant. Despite the family feuds and entanglements, they were forced into a business marriage—a marriage of convenience that blossomed into love. She had a child but no feelings for him. He kept her imprisoned, preventing her from going anywhere. He thought her midnight whispers were just dreams. She pretended to measure his neck with a rope, but when he discovered her, she could only say she was measuring a necklace and asked if he believed her. He then went berserk, binding her hands with the rope to make her realize they were enemies. She and the child cried their eyes out, and his heart ached, but he showed no pity. She packed her bags to escape, but he discovered her. He couldn't understand how painful it was for her to leave. He clearly didn't like her, so why was he acting this way? His father pressured him to divorce his wife, but he refused. Her mother urged her to divorce him, and she seemed to have fallen in love with him. However, the deep-seated hatred stemming from their family feud persisted. Her relatives came to rescue her with weapons, but he was monitoring his enemies and family outside. She watched helplessly as her loved ones were injured. Unable to accept this reality, she attempted suicide by banging her head against a wall when he wasn't looking, wanting to die with them. Without her family, she had lost all will to live. He was moved and asked the doctor to save her. The housekeeper, seeing his heartbreaking tears, wondered if he had fallen in love with her. He didn't know that he had fallen in love but refused to admit it. However, she had amnesia and even forgave him for wanting to kill her. He began to recognize his own heart and wanted to make her happy, treating her like a beloved person. He started feeding her, even his son, whom he had never fed before. He knew she was already in his heart. He realized what loving someone was like; he had never known that loving someone could make him give everything. Yet, she asked him if he loved her. He still stubbornly refused to admit it. He remembered his grandfather's words: "A man without love is carefree." She asked him again if he loved her, and in his sleep, he unconsciously and gently admitted it. Until she regained her memory, their marriage was blocked by his father. He had thought their marriage was secure. His father offered him 50 million to leave her, but he resolutely refused. But when he heard her say she wanted 500 million as a breakup fee, his heart sank. It turned out she didn't love him; their love was just a pipe dream. He thought their love could overcome everything, including generations of hatred. He never expected that all she cared about was money. He was deeply hurt. For the first time, she returned to her parents' home openly. He chased after her for love, not even considering the danger to his life. He begged her to come home, but she refused. Her family thanked him, leaving her confused. Why was there gratitude from enemies? Then his father arrived. Were the two feuding families about to fight again? Or were they setting aside their prejudices to prevent the next generation from facing all the family feuds?

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