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Books With Bad Endings: Absolutely Devastating be点的书——极惨

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I've read too many modern stories lately, so I'd like something set in ancient times. Modern stories are fine too, of course. Come on, throw some books at me!

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1 A Mutual Misunderstanding for a Lifetime 双向：终生误 Clouds and Mist Drifting By云来雾绕Ancient Romance290k WordsCompleted There has always been someone in my heart. He was my childhood sweetheart and my fiancé. From the time I was little, I knew I was meant to marry him when I grew up. I waited eagerly, only for a sudden upheaval to shatter everything. Qingqing, a lifetime is long. Don’t live only for me. Live to take in this splendid world, to breathe in its fragrant blooms, to savor its sweetness. Brother Fu, I listened to everything you said. I came to find you only after I could no longer see the beautiful wo 816Reads9.1Score100Shelves
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The first book was so sad [cry][cry][cry][cry][cry] The second book "It's never the bird that misses the old forest, but the bird that returns to the boat." Huaizhou. My feelings are hard to calm down. And the heroine's sister Xiaoxiao [cry][cry][cry][cry] I cried to death in the middle of the night [cry][cry][cry][cry] Super super super super super sad
2 I Was Twenty-Eight When I Died 我死的时候二十八岁 Yi Mo Yao以沫瑶Modern Romance416k WordsCompleted At twenty, Song Jiniao was hailed by the entertainment world as the “Nation's Goddess,” while Lin Ti died unexpectedly at an awards ceremony. She would never forget what happened that day, or the bone-chillingly cold look in that man's eyes. From then on, Shen Jiulin dragged her from her pedestal and plunged her into the abyss. The Nation's Goddess fell from grace overnight, her fame as fleeting as a flower that blooms for one day. At twenty-one, forced to choose between her mother and stepfathe 806Reads8.5Score102Shelves
3 Sold as a Sacrificial Bride, I Toppled My Ancestors' Memorial Tablets 被卖冲喜后，我掀了祖宗牌位 Making a Living as a Kept Man硬吃软饭25k WordsCompleted Sold as a Bride to Bring Good Fortune, I Toppled the Ancestral Tablets 457Reads—Score—Shelves
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Recommendations for various ancient short stories
4 After Three Years in Prison, the Marquis Regretted It 入狱三年，侯爷他悔疯了 Making a Living as a Kept Man硬吃软饭Ancient Romance8k WordsCompleted After Three Years in Prison, the Marquis Regretted It Too Late 1.6kReads—Score—Shelves
5 My Family Sent Me to Die in My Brother's Place. Now That I've Become a War God, They Beg Me to Acknowledge Them 家族让我替弟从军赴死，我成铁血战神后他们跪求相认 Making a Living as a Kept Man硬吃软饭11k WordsCompleted My Family Sent Me to Die in My Brother’s Place. Now That I’ve Become a Battle-Hardened God of War, They’re Begging Me to Acknowledge Them 534Reads—Score—Shelves
6 Everyone in My Family Was Reborn Except Me 除了我，全家都重生了 Making a Living as a Kept Man硬吃软饭10k WordsCompleted Everyone in My Family Was Reborn Except Me 343Reads—Score—Shelves
7 The Humble Daughter's Bloody Revenge 庶女锦杀 Making a Living as a Kept Man硬吃软饭Ancient Romance8k WordsCompleted The Concubine's Daughter's Bloody Revenge —Reads—Score—Shelves
8 My Archenemy Has Had a Crush on Me Since He Was Eight 死对头他八岁就开始暗恋我 Making a Living as a Kept Man硬吃软饭Ancient Romance8k WordsCompleted My Archrival Has Had a Crush on Me Since He Was Eight 14Reads—Score—Shelves
9 Wan Yuan Is Your Substitute, Yet Better Than You 菀苑类卿却胜卿 Making a Living as a Kept Man硬吃软饭Ancient Romance8k WordsCompleted Wan Yuan Resembles Qing, Yet Surpasses Her 446Reads—Score—Shelves
10 Prince, a Brothel Isn't a Study Hall! 王爷，青楼不是自习室！ Making a Living as a Kept Man硬吃软饭Ancient Romance9k WordsCompleted Your Highness, a Brothel Is Not a Study Hall! 191Reads—Score—Shelves
11 After My Childhood Friend Forced Me to Drink Poisoned Wine, I Became the Enemy Kingdom's Crown Princess 被竹马灌下毒酒后，我成了敌国太子妃 Making a Living as a Kept Man硬吃软饭Ancient Romance6k WordsCompleted After My Childhood Friend Forced Me to Drink Poisoned Wine, I Became the Crown Prince's Consort in the Enemy Kingdom 39Reads—Score—Shelves
12 The Trial-Room Maid 试房丫鬟 Making a Living as a Kept Man硬吃软饭Ancient Romance11k WordsCompleted The House-Testing Maid 1Reads—Score—Shelves
13 Palace Intrigue Is No Match for Raising a Pig 宫斗不如养头猪 Making a Living as a Kept Man硬吃软饭Ancient Romance20k WordsCompleted Better to Raise a Pig Than Fight in the Palace 1Reads—Score—Shelves
14 Jade by Day, Heng by Night 昼如玉，夜如珩 Making a Living as a Kept Man硬吃软饭Ancient Romance10k WordsCompleted Jade by Day, Heng by Night 5Reads—Score—Shelves
15 After He Made Me Take Abortion Pills, the Scumbag Asked Who the Baby's Father Was 灌我堕胎药后，渣男又问孩子是谁的 Making a Living as a Kept Man硬吃软饭Ancient Romance8k WordsCompleted After He Made Me Take Abortion Pills, My Scumbag Ex Asked Who the Baby Belonged To 61Reads—Score—Shelves
16 Which of Us Is More of a Yandere, Me or the Male Lead? 吾与男主孰病娇 How Many Chapters Today, Baobao爆爆今天几更Ancient Romance276k WordsCompleted [Revenge + regret and redemption. Everyone gets hurt except Fuguang] Fuguang is a Void task-taker who specializes in taking on the resentment of people who died unjustly despite being blessed with great fortune. Unlike other task-takers, she uses the original person’s identity, wisdom, and temperament to live their life again and give them the ending they deserved. At the request of the original Lin Yusan, she plays two roles at once. Without her disguise, she is a gentle, pure-hearted young wo 1.2kReads9.4Score162Shelves
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The heroine sacrificed her life to save the country and died bearing an infamy that did not belong to her. The female supporting characters died for love on the spot, some died in depression, some destroyed their futures, some were stuck in their ways, and some lived a long life to atone for their sins.
17 He Watched Her in Secret for Two Years 他偷看了她两年 Han An Jing涵桉婧Modern Romance369k WordsCompleted [Secret Campus Crush + Tragic Ending + Dual Perspectives] [The Coward × The One He Admires] If he'd been a little braver back then, would things have turned out differently? She would never know that someone had loved her for his entire youth. They accidentally collided at the turn in the stairwell, and she blushed, apologized, then turned and walked away. But in that moment, he etched her image into his heart. He waited at the finish line during PE, watching for her to run up. At fla 3Reads—Score—Shelves
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This guy is a bully. If you don't want to bully me, come to me.
18 Waiting Half a Year for You 等你半年 Han An Jing涵桉婧Modern Romance241k WordsCompleted [Campus Youth + Online Romance + Tragic Ending] [Cold, Distant Junior × Obsessive Senior] She spent her entire youth loving one person, only to lose herself waiting for him. When she was sixteen, Lu Xingchen told Lin Chuxia, “This star is called Chuxia.” She believed him. She waited three years and sent more than four hundred messages. He never replied to a single one. Later, he found someone else. He made their relationship public, flaunted his affection, and called someone else “baby.” He 30Reads—Score—Shelves
19 Phoenix Tower 凤楼 Song of Silence熄歌Ancient Romance145k WordsCompleted In Great Chu, a matriarchal kingdom, stands Feng Tower, a legendary pleasure house for men. It is home to all kinds of breathtakingly beautiful courtesans. Some are exceptionally skilled in combat, some possess peerless beauty, and others have unusual backgrounds. They have entered Feng Tower for all sorts of reasons and serve its master, Shen Ye. This book consists of the stories of sixteen stunning courtesans. Together, they form an intelligence network through Feng Tower, with the ultimate go 14Reads7.6Score—Shelves
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The three books I have read are considered to be BE. I missed it and couldn't find it, which is very heartbreaking, because I personally don't like to read BE aesthetics. I recommend the one I have read before. It made my head hurt when I read it and I don't dare to think about it anymore. I don't know if it suits your taste.
20 The Willow by the Palace Wall 宫墙柳 Dream Doll梦娃Ancient Romance166k WordsCompleted Why must the imperial consorts compete for the emperor’s favor? A smash-hit, heart-wrenching historical romance that burst onto the scene in 2019! Recommended by countless tearful readers, this unconventional palace-intrigue novel will stay with you long after you finish. In the lightest of styles, it captures everyone’s deepest regrets. In May of the year I turned fourteen, with the pagoda trees in fragrant bloom, I sat in Yong’an Palace, propping up my head as I dozed. The man’s laughter held 56.7kReads9.7Score8.3kShelves
21 The Emperor Has a Certain Affliction 寡人有疾 At Ease with the Universe随宇而安Ancient Romance219k WordsCompleted They say I’m a lecherous ruler. I ascended the throne at thirteen. That year, I held special imperial examinations to recruit scholars. At the Qionglin Banquet, the third-place graduate leaped into Taiqing Pool in grief and anger just because I had looked at him twice, declaring that he would rather die than suffer such humiliation. By the next day, rumors of my debauchery had spread throughout the court. By the time I was eighteen, no ambitious young talent in the realm dared share a room with 3.4kReads9.3Score514Shelves
22 Records of the Luoyang Pagoda 洛阳浮屠录 Yun Yuan Shaoze云鸢少泽Two Male Leads472k WordsCompleted (Main story complete) The young master, Sixteenth Lang, of the Duke of Chu's household has been kept at home all day and raised like a sheltered young lady. At last, he works up the courage to run away, only to end up aboard an enemy ship loaded with poison, ready to take on the Tang navy's hundred thousand men. Faced with a victim stabbed until he is covered in bloody holes, it isn't Sixteenth Lang who screams. It's Ashimi, a beautiful Qin-Tang mixed-blood who can't stop clinging to him like a 14Reads—Score—Shelves
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Buddha~Tao~Western Region~Foreign Country! The beautiful mixed-race young man * the scheming dandy young man * 996 the mad Shaoqing, the Iron Triangle join hands to solve the case! The Navy's Wuhuhai explosion, the Wuliang Pavilion massacre, the Tubo puppet envoy case... Are all linked together, with unpredictable endings, explosions, massacres, conspiracies, the blood-stained Tang Dynasty, and countless bones under the prosperity. Where do the people behind the scenes want to lead this world?! BE warning
23 A Little Cloud 一片小云朵 Cangjin沧烬Modern Romance20k WordsCompleted [Sunny boy Xu Ji × sensitive, overthinking Qiao Tong] [Bad ending] When they first meet, midsummer sunlight falls across the boy’s clothes, and Xu Ji’s smile catches Qiao Tong completely off guard. Bit by bit, Xu Ji brings light to Qiao Tong’s dark world. After the college entrance exams, Xu Ji gathers the courage to reveal the secret he has kept in his heart for so long. “Qiao Tong, will you give me the chance to walk beside you?” “I like you.” Waves pound against the shore. Xu Ji’s words crash 31Reads—Score—Shelves
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She wouldn't have a chance to hear the rest of the words in the letter.
24 There Was Once Someone Who Loved Me Like Life Itself 曾有一个人，爱我如生命 Rolling the Sun into a Ball搓圆太阳Modern Romance47k WordsCompleted For more than twenty years, Shen Siyan had stubbornly loved a man named Xiao Zonghan. Even when he resented and hated her, she had never thought of giving up. But now, she was reaching the end of her strength... 1.4kReads6.5Score178Shelves
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I'm so angry that I want to kill someone. It's quite sad. Second brush. Look.
25 Quick Transmigration: The Host Is Really Not Human 快穿之宿主她真不是人 Drunk Year After Year岁醉年年Modern Romance230k WordsOngoing Fu Jiang's Notes: Rule One of the Quick Transmigration Handbook: Beware of fake Systems! Fu Jiang, the most doted-on junior sister of the Tianyan Sect, binds herself to a fake System in an effort to purge the demonic energy within her. She travels between different worlds to complete missions, playing dumb while outsmarting the fake System. When sealed memories resurface, Fu Jiang starts collecting her lover's soul fragments while carrying out her missions. The System is fake at first. The real 6Reads—Score—Shelves
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The first world was abusive, but the whole book was sweet [laughing awkwardly]
26 The Boundary of Daylight 白昼边界 Lin Li林蓠Modern Romance175k WordsCompleted They first met in the northwest, where he was the down-at-heel owner of an inn in Shadu. They crossed paths abroad, where he was a jade merchant in a sharp suit. Then, on a street at midnight, they met again, and once more he was a battered patient at her mercy. Shao Yingchuan, the suspicious man who rescued Yu Xiaochan from her predicament in the no-man's-land, had many identities and was impossible to track down. The one thing she could be sure of was that she had never let herself go like thi 603Reads9.5Score112Shelves
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The first one, um, it's so long ago! Needless to say more about the second book! Zhang Jiajia "Wang Yingying, why is the sky so high?" "Did you see the clouds? Those are the wings of the sky." On the third day, I would like to call it the ceiling of abuse!!!
27 Leaves Fall in Autumn 惊秋落叶 Not a Good Day to Talk今日不宜讲話Modern Romance62k WordsCompleted [Campus Tragedy] [Mutual Secret Crush] Tang Qiu and Pei Jingnian On Ningchuan No. 1 High School's wall of outstanding graduates (its wall of fame), Pei Jingnian took the top spot that year, while Tang Qiu was relegated to the very bottom. "Wasn't Senior Tang Qiu a good student back then? Weren't she and Pei Jingnian the twin stars of the arts and sciences? How did she end up at the bottom?" "She wasn't even on the wall at first. They added her later." "I heard she didn't do very well on her exam 54Reads—Score—Shelves
28 A Year Without Song 岁无歌 Xiaoxiao Fishing Song潇潇渔歌Ancient Romance580k WordsCompleted Wu Suiwan was a pitiful girl, unloved by both her father and mother. She had hoped to turn her life around by finding a husband, but instead fell straight into a ditch. Fortunately, things took a turn for the better. After the poor girl had spent a year quietly mourning her husband, Heaven took pity on her and her husband, who had supposedly died in battle, came home. But don’t celebrate just yet. At the drop of a hat, her husband eloped with another woman. If he doesn’t want us, we shouldn’t cl 450Reads8.7Score—Shelves
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Pure ancient torture, full acid torture.
29 He's Always So Good at Sweet-Talking Her 他惯会哄她 Chong Qiwu重栖梧Modern Romance276k WordsCompleted [Two Top Students x Childhood Friends x Mutual Devotion x Tragedy] Sunny ray of sunshine x Double-Standard Top Student Jiang Shiyuan was the brightest sun in Pei Zhiheng's world. They made many promises at seventeen, but the words "I'll be with you forever" were buried along with her in late autumn. The plane tree leaves had yet to fall from the branches in late autumn when Jiang Shiyuan's life came to an end. [My name is Jiang Shiyuan. Shi, as in time, and Yuan, as in wish. Pei Zhiheng.] [J 725Reads8.0Score102Shelves
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It could have been.
30 The Legend of Anle 安乐传 Xu Yixia许一夏Ancient Romance160k WordsCompleted A new book. It has some flaws, but they’re easy enough to overlook. Sweet at first, then heartbreaking + no getting back together + making the villains pay Princess Anle’s life was so miserable that it felt like a dream. She gave her whole heart and got nothing but scars in return. After two years, her passionate love finally turned to ashes. She would rather die than be his wife again. There was no love left between them, only hatred, and they would fight to the death. Before she died, she said 83Reads—Score—Shelves
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The heroine is dead! A broken mirror cannot be reunited! The regrets of the love brain! . . . .
31 Empresses in the Palace: Jingbai Is Reborn as a Charming Nun Who Wants to Be Summoned 甄嬛传静白重生之俏尼姑要侍寝 Spring Order at Shanglin上林春令Female-Channel Fanfiction455k WordsCompleted In her previous life, Jingbai helped Guarjia Wenyuan frame Zhen Huan and Wen Shichu for having an affair. Her tongue was cut out, and she was beaten to death. After dying, Jingbai’s vengeful spirit refused to dissipate. She wandered the imperial harem, unable to control where she went, as if pushed along by an unseen hand. From the emperor’s accession to the throne and the selection of consorts, she witnessed the lives of every woman in the harem. Reborn, watch as Jingbai rises from a humble nun 107Reads7.5Score—Shelves
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Jingbai was reincarnated into the palace as a concubine, and attracted the original indigenous concubines to fight with each other. She was crazy about the emperor. The emperor originally paid more attention to Zhen Huan, but who knew that Jingbai slept with her more and more and fell more and more in love with her. The character direction of the original drama has also been changed a lot. Zhen Huan and Shen Meizhuang are not getting along, Xia Dongchun is still pregnant, Li Bi was actually poisoned by the queen, and Xiao Yunzi pretended to be a ghost and was directly tricked by the heroine behind her back. An Xiaoniao's maid went up to pull off Xiao Yunzi's wig. Prince Guo wandered between Zhen Huan and An Lingrong. In fact, Prince Guo really loved Queen Chunyuan. Jianqiu liked the emperor, and specially drugged the queen to sleep with Fat Orange, while she eavesdropped at the door. Nian Gengyao wanted to marry Meng Jingxian, but the emperor granted Sun Miaoqing marriage to Nian Gengyao, hahaha😃haha
32 Empresses in the Palace: Cui Jinx I Reborn, Determined to Become the Empress Dowager 甄嬛传崔槿汐重生之我要当太后 The Beard's Own Beard胡子本胡Female-Channel Fanfiction118k WordsCompleted In her previous life, Cui Jinxie became sworn sisters with Su Peisheng for Zhen Huan’s sake. Though Su Peisheng catered to her every whim and cared for her deeply, she could never understand why a quiet sense of disappointment lingered in her heart. That feeling reached its peak whenever, on her night shifts, she heard the emperor and Zhen Huan making love. Given another life, she refuses to follow the same path. This time, she will climb into the emperor’s bed and be a real woman for once. 41Reads—Score—Shelves
33 Graceful and Serene 姒婳 Spring Order at Shanglin上林春令Ancient Romance283k WordsOngoing She is Bao Si, known to later generations as a great femme fatale. When she first enters the palace, she is a princess of a fallen state. With the emperor using her, the queen plotting against her, and the other women in the harem framing her, watch as she wins the emperor’s heart and turns the tide. He is King You of Zhou, who lit the beacons to make a beauty smile. As an emperor, he ought to stand above all and rule the world, but his court is in turmoil, the Quanrong tribes threaten from bey 8Reads—Score—Shelves
34 I Wish I Could Die in a Dream in Tokyo 如果能在东京的梦中死去就好了 Buckwheat Noodles in a Bowl碗子荞麦面11k WordsCompleted I Wish I Could Die in a Dream of Tokyo 49Reads—Score—Shelves
35 Xue Wutong 雪梧桐 Xun Bai荀柏710k WordsCompleted [Republican-era ensemble cast + love of country + two powerful leads + older man/younger woman + sweet romance + pursuit of love + powerful man bows his head + heartbreaking angst + bad ending] In the Republican era, Nanjing was home to two renowned romantics. I do not believe in Buddha, but I would kneel at every temple in Nanjing if only Heaven would give me back my wife. Zhou Qingshi, courtesy name Changyu, was the eldest son and eldest grandson of the Zhou family, and ninth in birth order. 348Reads8.6Score—Shelves
36 Butterfly Shadows Return to Dust: Sold into Prostitution by My Mother-in-Law, My Ex-Husband Searched for Me for Ten Years 蝶影归尘：被婆母卖入风尘，前夫寻了我整整十年 Ni Ah Ni Ge Ni氼啊氼个氼55k WordsCompleted The Butterfly’s Shadow Returns to Dust: Sold into a Life of Vice by My Mother-in-Law, My Ex-Husband Searched for Me for Ten Years 306Reads—Score—Shelves
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Title: "The Shadow of the Butterfly Returns to Dust"|I am Xiao Qihao. The only person I have ever loved in my life hates me until my death. They say I am the most hateful person in this book. I admit it. I, Xiao Qihao, have done too many unforgivable things in my life - I destroyed my eldest brother's family business, took away his wife, and imprisoned her in another courtyard while she was pregnant. I said I loved her, but my hands were hurting her. I know you are all scolding me. But I still want to tell you my story. I hate Zhang Zhiming. I have hated him since I was sensible. Zhang Zhiming is also the son of the Zhang family. He is the eldest son. He was held in the palm of his mother's hand since he was a child. He studied the books of sages and engaged in serious business. He was respected as "young master" wherever he went. And what about me? I am the illegitimate son of an outsider, and I don't even deserve the surname "Zhang". My mother's surname is Xiao. I grew up living under the influence of others and being criticized by others. It's not that I don't have the ability. I am both civilized and martial, in terms of scheming, means, and brains, how can I not compare to him, Zhang Zhiming? But just because I am an illegitimate child, I will always be inferior to him. He was nice to me - do you know how hateful that kind of kindness is? He gave me business as a gift. He was polite to me out of mercy. I would rather he hate me than act like a brother and be nice to me. I thought the person I hated most in my life was Zhang Zhiming. Until I met her. The first time I met Lin Die'er, I went crazy. She is my eldest brother's wife. A daughter of a famous family, with picturesque features and proud appearance. When I first saw her in Zhang's Mansion, she was sitting by the pond in a daze. She didn't know how good-looking she was - there was a kind of innocence in her brows and eyes, and there was also a stubbornness that refused to bow down after being hurt. I knew at that moment that I wanted her. It's not that I want to, it's that I have to. It's the kind of necessity that if you don't get it, your life will be meaningless. I began to secretly spy on everything about her. When she goes to the rouge shop, when she comes back, when she sits alone by the pond in a daze - I know everything. I am like a mouse hiding in the dark, greedily collecting every frame of her. The more I watched, the more jealous I became. Zhang Zhiming why? Why should he have her? Isn't he destined to be well? He could have her openly, he could stand by her side, he could comfort her when she was angry, he could hold her in his arms when she cried. And what about me? I would avoid even looking at her from a distance. And I can clearly see that she doesn't love him. She made sarcastic remarks to him, made trouble with him at every turn, and even forced him to take a concubine. If she really loved him, how could she push him into the arms of another woman? So I thought, since she doesn't love him, why can't she be replaced by me? Once this idea takes root, it can never be uprooted. I swear, I must snatch her away from Zhang Zhiming. No matter what means are used, no matter how long it takes. At that time, I will love her in every possible way and let her know what is truly cherished. She will definitely fall in love with me. I used the most despicable means to get her, but I could never win her heart. I bribed Zhang Zhiming's partners and ruined his business. The Zhang family collapsed and Zhang's mother was desperate. I bought her with only a sum of money. She was imprisoned by me in another courtyard. I told myself that it didn't matter, as long as she was by my side, and she didn't love Zhang Zhiming anyway. But I was wrong. The night I forced her, she gritted her teeth and didn't cry. She opened her eyes on the bed and stared at the ceiling without falling a single tear. I suddenly panicked - I would rather she cry, I would rather she make a fuss, I would rather she lose her temper with me like she did with Zhang Zhiming. But she didn't. She just looked at me with that empty, dead look in her eyes. That was the first time I felt scared. Later, she became pregnant. I thought the child was mine. I thought that after having the child, she would accept her fate and slowly accept me. I devoted everything I had to being kind to her, making the other house exquisite and warm, collecting her favorite snacks and jewelry, and staying by her side every day. I even began to think that when the child was born, I would ask her to forgive her and let us live a good life as a family of three. She really wasn't resisting anymore. She became docile and allowed me to hold her and kiss her. Sometimes I even think she is about to fall in love with me. But what I didn't know was that the reason why she stopped resisting was just to keep the child in her belly. The child she wanted to protect at all costs. Sleeping until midnight, she called another man's name in my arms, "Zhiming..." Those two words were so soft, as soft as whispering in sleep. But I heard it. She was in my arms, sleeping on my bed, with my child in her belly - but she was dreaming about another man. It's not hate, it's not resentment, it's the kind of dependence that is engraved in her bones that even she herself refuses to admit. My whole body froze there, as if someone had stabbed me. It turned out that she had never forgotten him. It turns out that all I did was give her a sigh in her dream. That man didn't even have to be there to make me lose my shit. I stared at her sleeping face and suddenly felt that all my paranoia and possessiveness were like a joke. I leaned down, put my lips against her ear, and said: "It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter who you call in your dream. You can only lie next to me in this life." But only I knew that my heart was bleeding. Later I became addicted to opium and tried to numb myself with opium. I was sent to quit smoking by my mother, and during my absence, my mother sold her to Yihongyuan. When I came back, she was gone. I searched for her like crazy and searched the whole city, but I couldn't find even a scrap of her clothes. For the rest of my life, I was stuck in the obsession of finding her, living in a muddle. I could only hold the child I thought was Ping'er's child in the palm of my hand, name him Yi'an, and do my best to be good to him. I didn't know until my death that Yi An was her and Zhang Zhiming's biological flesh and blood. And the silver necklace she left for Yi'an was hidden in the swaddling clothes, and I had never found it. After hearing the news of her death, I locked myself in my room for three whole days. I searched for, waited for, and obsessed over for several years. I even began to imagine that when I found her, I would kneel in front of her and beg her for forgiveness. I don't expect her to love me, as long as she allows me to stay with her, even if I just look at her from a distance. But what I was waiting for was the news of her death. The woman I loved to the core and couldn't get enough of, the woman who ruined half my life and was ruined by me, is gone forever. She died on the battlefield, taking a bullet for another man. She used her own life to repay that man's kindness. But what about me? I don't even have the qualifications to be hated by her. I held the golden butterfly hairpin she had left behind in another courtyard. It was one of the two things she had with her when she was taken away. I sat there holding it for three days and three nights, thinking of what she once said to me. She said, "I'm just your trophy." No. No. Die'er, I love you because you are who you are. It's not Zhang Zhiming's wife, it's not someone's accessory, it's not some trophy. It's just Lin Die'er, just Lin Die'er. But I will never have the chance to tell you this. I have hated Zhang Zhiming all my life. But in the final analysis, what I hate is not him, but myself who can never compare to him. I'm jealous of his reputation, his family fortune, and his uprightness - but what I'm most jealous of is that he has you. I love Lin Dieer all my life. But my love is twisted, paranoid, and destructive. I love you, so I destroy you. I used the most despicable means to get your person, but I will never get your heart. This is the punishment given to me by fate. I admit it. Later I quit smoking and devoted all my thoughts to the war of resistance. The money I saved and the connections I made over the years were all turned into supplies shipped to the front line. I taught Yi'an how to read and write, taught him to be patriotic and good, and spent his whole life making up for the sins he committed back then. But I know that these are far from enough. What I owe her will never end in this lifetime. If... If people really have a next life. I won't do this again. I will stand in front of you cleanly and tell you in an upright way - Lin Die'er, my name is Xiao Qihao. I am not an illegitimate child, no one's shadow, and no one's substitute. I'm just a person who wants to love you well. Even if you still choose the man with a square face and thick eyebrows. Even if you never look at me again. As long as you are happy, that's enough. Written at the end: Why should you read this book? This is my story and her story. It is also the appearance of all living beings in that troubled world who cannot help themselves. If you want to know why a villain becomes a villain, if you want to know how twisted a person can be for love, if you want to know what happens when paranoia, jealousy and affection are intertwined - calm down and read slowly. This book will tell you the answer. "Butterfly's Shadow Returns to Dust" The wind and moon in the world cannot wait for us to stay together forever. The butterfly's shadow returns to dust, and there is no time to wait for its return.
37 Butterfly Shadows Return to Dust: My Husband's Enemy Seizes Me by Force 蝶影归尘：丈夫的的仇人对我强娶豪夺 Ni Ah Ni Ge Ni氼啊氼个氼15k WordsCompleted Butterfly Shadows Return to Dust: My Husband's Enemy Forces Me into Marriage 27Reads—Score—Shelves
38 Protecting My Love Rival 守护情敌 Clear and Bright Beneath the Moon月下清扬15k WordsCompleted Protecting My Love Rival —Reads—Score—Shelves
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It took 20 minutes to read, it was super sadistic, sadistic, and not sweet at all from beginning to end.
39 The Poetry of Lan 澜之诗 Yu Xian隅弦Eastern Fantasy279k WordsCompleted They created the world, yet the world forgot them. He painted the mountains and rivers. He granted life its span. She brought color to all creation. He guarded order. Mortals never knew that in the hundred years of human life, some died for love, some became demons out of hatred, and some turned fleeting moments into songs that lasted a thousand years. The day the gods fell, strange phenomena continued for three days and three nights. Then six of the brightest shooting stars streaked across 4Reads—Score—Shelves
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[Almost crying][Please pay attention][Please pay attention][Please pay attention]
40 One Short Tragic Romance Story a Day 一天一个短篇虐文故事 Frostblade of Ruicheng瑞城的寒霜剑Modern Romance4.2M WordsCompleted A Collection of Tragic Short Stories: Every Word Bleeds, Every Line Leaves You Aching One devastatingly heartbreaking short story every day! Modern-day missed chances intertwine with sorrows from ancient times, along with bone-deep pain drawn from true stories. These tales lay bare life’s regrets, every word striking straight to the heart until it hurts to read! If you finish without being moved, I’ll call you my “ancestor.” Come take on this lingering ache! 39Reads—Score—Shelves
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A heart-wrenching short story every day, every word brings tears to your eyes. Believe it or not, it can't bring out the gentle tears in your eyes~ If you like it, don't forget to like and save it. You are also welcome to comment and urge updates. I recommend it to my colleagues!

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