I Rarely Cry, So Please Recommend a Book That'll Make Me Bawl 本人泪点高，求一书让我大哭的书

1 势 An Uneven Match 势不均力不敌 Doll Face娃娃面310k WordsCompleted 2.4kReads9.3Score159Shelves

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Story synopsis: The first book is not finished yet. The second book made me angry and sweet at the same time. I felt so bad for Zihe. This one is quite sadistic and sweet at the same time. If you can't stand it, don't enter!

3 你 You Broke Your Promise 你失信了 Shi Qingyao十清杳Modern Romance138k WordsCompleted 70.5kReads9.5Score12.7kShelves

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15 我 I Became Famous Across Blue Star Through Livestreaming 我靠直播火遍蓝星 Baijiu250白酒250901k WordsOngoing 6.1kReads9.4Score809Shelves

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This, this, five-star recommendation, my little general! ! [Crying] He stayed at twenty-five forever! Woo hoo hoo, the emperor doesn't even have his last relative. [Crying] [Crying] The prince is also crazy! An Lili disappears, leaving only a ghost-faced general [crying] He Meiren also has a good time crying [crying] What good is immortality? ! Watching the people around me leave one by one, I can't do anything but nothing has changed [crying]

16 银 When the Ginkgo Falls 银杏落下时 Wanyan Yuning完颜雨凝62k WordsCompleted 271Reads5.8Score—Shelves

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Two men! BE! A short piece of abuse! The further you go, the more torture you get, the more you cry!

17 糖 Candy Is Sour 糖果偏酸 Luo Zhi落之Modern Romance238k WordsCompleted 25Reads—Score—Shelves

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If I don't cry, I lose

18 还 Fortunately, the Wind Will Take You Around Me! 还好风，会带你绕过我！ Mumu Doesn't Eat Lemons沐沐不吃柠檬Modern Romance445k WordsCompleted 4Reads—Score—Shelves

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There are all types. Cry and let go.

23 惊 A Stunning Figure Appears in the Inkstone 惊鸿入砚来 Late Branches at Dawn杳杳枝晚Ancient Romance336k WordsCompleted 4.2kReads8.1Score249Shelves

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Abuse article⚠️ Sweet first and then sadistic, the plot is not cliché and contains abuse, it is divided into three perspectives, and the three protagonists are all pitiful people

24 他 After He Escaped Death, He Forced Me to Sign a Penance Contract 他死里逃生后，逼我签下赎罪契约 I Returned to the Crowd我重返人群Modern Romance178k WordsCompleted 1.8kReads5.8Score125Shelves

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It is high-quality advanced torture, not low-level bullshit. It is a logical online battle of wits among all the members. It does not deliberately sensationalize and does not rely on writing flesh to attract attention. The whole book only has a desperate kiss to set the highlight! Really cruel! It writes about a deep, despairing and suffocating love.

25 她 She Said It Was Just a Flutter of the Heart, But I Can No Longer Bear to Look at the Mountains 她说只是心动，我却见山不得 Chu Yunong楚语浓Modern Romance360k WordsOngoing 21Reads—Score—Shelves

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Recommend[send heart]

26 未 Unspoken Hope 未言心盼 Sun Peiran孙培然31k WordsCompleted 32Reads5.8Score—Shelves

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Be careful, you can cry to death

27 我 My Life Is Yours 我的命，都给你 Three Pine Nuts三只松子Modern Romance48k WordsCompleted 2.4kReads5.8Score280Shelves

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If you are tearful, you must read this book. Tomato's best book

28 蚀 A Love That Cuts to the Bone 蚀骨危情 Qi Lao You淇老游Modern Romance753k WordsCompleted 188.3kReads9.2Score15.1kShelves

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This one! OK?

29 杏 Apricot Blossoms Bear Fruit After Deep Spring 杏花结子春深后 Still Remembering Sky-Blue Porcelain犹忆天青瓷Ancient Romance276k WordsCompleted 503Reads5.8Score102Shelves

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It's super sadistic. The male and female protagonists have been fighting each other for the rest of their lives. It's heartbreaking. It makes you cry until you burst into tears. It's hard to calm down! The second male lead is also very infatuated, and the three of them pull each other off to make people happy. I like the author's light Chinese style writing and melancholy style, endless aftertaste

30 困 Imprisoned by Love 困爱成囚 Flowers Along the Way一路笙花Modern Romance1.1M WordsCompleted 25.6kReads9.0Score2.2kShelves

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Both of these books are about the male protagonist chasing his wife in the crematorium. The second one is not finished yet but the first part is very sad.

33 我 I Touched Your Ashes and You Continued to Hang Yourself 我碰了你的骨灰，你继续上吊 Yu Misheng屿弥生Fantastical Romance219k WordsCompleted 58Reads6.4Score—Shelves

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Um. . . ..

34 爱 I Can't Afford the Luxury of Love... 爱情这件奢侈品，我消费不起… Yi Shanshui奕山水Marriage & Romance25k WordsCompleted 3Reads8.5Score—Shelves

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It looks like love, but is actually a sad story, with tears in it! Life is not easy

35 你 You Watch Her Perform, I’ll Announce Our Divorce 你看她表演，我公告离婚 Little Sister Won't Listen妹妹不听话Modern Romance453k WordsCompleted 13.1kReads7.1Score501Shelves

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Tomatoes are the best! The most relaxing! The male protagonist and male partner are divorced! The heroine didn't talk nonsense. The divorce announcement was trending for three days! The opening chapter is about abusing the female protagonist. The male protagonist did not touch the female protagonist for a year after getting married, and then turned off his phone to watch a green tea show. The female protagonist had a car accident, and immediately announced the divorce and disappeared from the world. The male protagonist was heartbroken! The heartbreaking story of chasing my wife in the crematorium.!

36 快 Quick Transmigration: The Host Is Too Unhinged for the System to Stop 快穿：宿主太疯球，系统拦不住 Yan Shuqing宴殊青Ancient Romance503k WordsCompleted 6kReads9.3Score528Shelves

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Yan Nanxu is really good. I forgot what it was about, but it was really tear-jerking and beautiful when I watched it. ٩(๑^O^๑)۶ I was always impressed

37 他 He Is in Yunnan 他在云之南 Jing Xing景行Modern Romance209k WordsCompleted 27.8kReads9.7Score5.1kShelves

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The male protagonist is an anti-narcotics policeman and the female protagonist is a reporter

38 惟 Wei Qisu 惟七溯 I'm Not a Wizard我不是魔法师Ancient Romance527k WordsOngoing 6Reads6.3Score—Shelves

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Can you come and take a look at my humble creation~

39 反 Villain: My Junior Sisters Are All Dark Empresses 反派：我师妹全是黑化女帝 Pure and White很纯很白Eastern Fantasy1.0M WordsCompleted 17.8kReads8.7Score1.7kShelves

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The beauty of life lies not in its splendor but in its peace

41 农 The Farmer’s Contracted Husband: The Bully Learns to Farm 农家契哥儿，恶霸乖乖种田 Qian Zhizi千栀子Rural Life620k WordsCompleted 12.5kReads9.4Score1.7kShelves

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Both books are super good-looking. The first one is okay, but the second one is full of knives from the middle to the back.

42 一 A Short Sadistic Story a Day 一天一个短篇虐文故事 Frostblade of Ruicheng瑞城的寒霜剑Modern Romance4.2M WordsCompleted 36Reads5.8Score—Shelves

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Be careful! This wave of anti-Japanese cruel writings rips out the heart every word, and it hurts a lifetime to read it. When guns and gunfire tear apart the homeland, when blood and tears soak the mountains and rivers, every word in these books is the wailing of the blood of the compatriots. "A Hundred Years of Poison", "Poppy Blood: The Anti-Japanese Eradication of Drugs in Central Hebei", "Crying Blood of the Loess Land", "Elegy of the Yellow Flood Area", "No Man's Land in North China", "Roaring in the Cage", "Panjiayu Elegy", "Three Guang Policy Blood and Tears", "Poisonous Flames: Crimes of Unit 516", "Blood and Fire on the Rear Front: Chronicle of the Great Bombing", "Six Years of War" "Chongqing Locked Up in Cigarettes", "Thirty Thousand People Sacrifice: Factory Tragedy", "Bohai Chaos: A Record of the Lushun Massacre", "Inferno on Earth: Past Events in Jinling", "Pingdingshan Blood Sacrifice: The Silent Scream of Three Thousand Dead Souls", "Yimeng Crying Blood Record", "A History of Comfort Women's Blood and Tears", "Dead Souls Crying Blood: A Record of the 731 Atrocities", "Three Hundred Thousand Souls: Nanjing Sacrifice" Nineteen books of blood and tears describe the suffering of mountains of corpses and seas of blood, and the despair of families being destroyed. There is heart-wrenching pain between the lines. I couldn't sleep all night after reading it, and my heart felt like it was blocked by a red-hot iron. Don't dare to swipe twice, but you must remember it! Like + comment + collect + recommend, let these sorrows engraved in the bones and blood never be forgotten!

43 今 Too Late in This Life 今世迟迟 Falling Book Candy落书糖Ancient Romance252k WordsOngoing —Reads5.8Score—Shelves

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I came here shamelessly, and I hope I won't blame you. I pushed it whenever I could. When I opened this book... Just like that, I will always fall into the cliché, just like in the piecemeal life, laughing at myself.

44 蝶 Butterfly Shadow Returns to Dust: I Was Sold into Prostitution by My Mother-In-Law, and My Ex-Husband Has Been Looking for Me for Ten Years 蝶影归尘：被婆母卖入风尘，前夫寻了我整整十年 Ni Ah Ni Ge Ni氼啊氼个氼55k WordsCompleted 241Reads8.7Score—Shelves

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Title: "The Shadow of the Butterfly Returns to Dust"｜I am Xiao Qihao. The only person I have ever loved in my life hates me until my death [almost crying] [almost crying] [almost crying] They all say that I am the most hateful person in this book. I admit it. I, Xiao Qihao, have done too many unforgivable things in my life - I destroyed my eldest brother's family business, took away his wife, and imprisoned her in another courtyard while she was pregnant. I said I loved her, but my hands were hurting her. I know you are all scolding me. But I still want to tell you my story. I hate Zhang Zhiming. I have hated him since I was sensible. Zhang Zhiming is also the son of the Zhang family. He is the eldest son. He was held in the palm of his mother's hand since he was a child. He studied the books of sages and engaged in serious business. He was respected as "young master" wherever he went. And what about me? I am the illegitimate son of an outsider, and I don't even deserve the surname "Zhang". My mother's surname is Xiao, and I grew up living under the influence of others and being criticized by others. It's not that I don't have the ability. I am both civilized and martial, in terms of scheming, means, and brains, how can I not compare to him, Zhang Zhiming? But just because I am an illegitimate child, I will always be inferior to him. He was nice to me - do you know how hateful that kind of kindness is? He gave me business as a gift. He was polite to me out of mercy. I would rather he hate me than act like a brother and be nice to me. I thought the person I hated most in my life was Zhang Zhiming. Until I met her. The first time I met Lin Die'er, I went crazy. She is my eldest brother's wife. A daughter of a famous family, with picturesque features and proud appearance. When I first saw her in Zhang's Mansion, she was sitting by the pond in a daze. She didn't know how good-looking she was - there was a kind of innocence in her brows and eyes, and there was also a stubbornness that refused to bow down after being hurt. I knew at that moment that I wanted her. It's not that I want to, it's that I have to. It's the kind of necessity that if you don't get it, your life will be meaningless. I began to secretly spy on everything about her. When she goes to the rouge shop, when she comes back, when she sits alone by the pond in a daze - I know everything. I am like a mouse hiding in the dark, greedily collecting every frame of her. The more I watched, the more jealous I became. Zhang Zhiming why? Why should he have her? Isn't he destined to be well? He could have her openly, he could stand by her side, he could comfort her when she was angry, he could hold her in his arms when she cried. And what about me? I would avoid even looking at her from a distance. And I can clearly see that she doesn't love him. She made sarcastic remarks to him, made trouble with him at every turn, and even forced him to take a concubine. If she really loved him, how could she push him into the arms of another woman? So I thought, since she doesn't love him, why can't she be replaced by me? Once this idea takes root, it can never be uprooted. I swear, I must snatch her away from Zhang Zhiming. No matter what means are used, no matter how long it takes. At that time, I will love her in every possible way and let her know what is truly cherished. She will definitely fall in love with me. I used the most despicable means to get her, but I could never win her heart. I bribed Zhang Zhiming's partners and ruined his business. The Zhang family collapsed and Zhang's mother was desperate. I bought her with only a sum of money. She was imprisoned by me in another courtyard. I told myself that it didn't matter, as long as she was by my side, and she didn't love Zhang Zhiming anyway. But I was wrong. The night I forced her, she gritted her teeth and didn't cry. She opened her eyes on the bed and stared at the ceiling without falling a single tear. I suddenly panicked - I would rather she cry, I would rather she make a fuss, I would rather she lose her temper with me like she did with Zhang Zhiming. But she didn't. She just looked at me with that empty, dead look in her eyes. That was the first time I felt scared. Later, she became pregnant. I thought the child was mine. I thought that after having the child, she would accept her fate and slowly accept me. I devoted everything I had to being kind to her, making the other house exquisite and warm, collecting her favorite snacks and jewelry, and staying by her side every day. I even began to think that when the child was born, I would ask her to forgive her and let us live a good life as a family of three. She really wasn't resisting anymore. She became docile and allowed me to hold her and kiss her. Sometimes I even think she is about to fall in love with me. But what I didn't know was that the reason why she stopped resisting was just to keep the child in her belly. The child she wanted to protect at all costs. Sleeping until midnight, she called another man's name in my arms, "Zhiming..." Those two words were so soft, as soft as whispering in sleep. But I heard it. She was in my arms, sleeping on my bed, with my child in her belly - but she was dreaming about another man. It's not hate, it's not resentment, it's the kind of dependence that is engraved in her bones that even she herself refuses to admit. My whole body froze there, as if someone had stabbed me. It turned out that she had never forgotten him. It turns out that all I did was give her a sigh in her dream. That man didn't even have to be there to make me lose my shit. I stared at her sleeping face and suddenly felt that all my paranoia and possessiveness were like a joke. I leaned down, put my lips against her ear, and said: "It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter who you call in your dream. In this life, you can only lie next to me." But only I knew that my heart was bleeding. Later I became addicted to opium and tried to numb myself with opium. I was sent to quit smoking by my mother, and during my absence, my mother sold her to Yihongyuan. When I came back, she was gone. I searched for her like crazy and searched the whole city, but I couldn't find even a scrap of her clothes. For the rest of my life, I was stuck in the obsession of finding her, living in a muddle. I could only hold the child I thought was Ping'er's child in the palm of my hand, name him Yi'an, and do my best to be good to him. I didn't know until my death that Yi An was her and Zhang Zhiming's biological flesh and blood. And the silver necklace she left for Yi'an was hidden in the swaddling clothes, and I had never found it. After hearing the news of her death, I locked myself in my room for three whole days. I searched for, waited for, and obsessed over for several years. I even began to imagine that when I found her, I would kneel in front of her and beg her for forgiveness. I don't expect her to love me, as long as she allows me to stay with her, even if I just look at her from a distance. But what I was waiting for was the news of her death. The woman I loved to the core and couldn't get enough of, the woman who ruined half my life and was ruined by me, is gone forever. She died on the battlefield, taking a bullet for another man. She used her own life to repay that man's kindness. But what about me? I don't even have the qualifications to be hated by her. I held the golden butterfly hairpin she had left behind in another courtyard. It was one of the two things she had with her when she was taken away. I sat there holding it for three days and three nights, thinking of what she once said to me. She said, "I'm just your trophy." No. No. Die'er, I love you because you are who you are. It's not Zhang Zhiming's wife, it's not someone's accessory, it's not some trophy. It's just Lin Die'er, just Lin Die'er. But I will never have the chance to tell you this. I have hated Zhang Zhiming all my life. But in the final analysis, what I hate is not him, but myself who can never compare to him. I'm jealous of his reputation, his family fortune, and his uprightness - but what I'm most jealous of is that he has you. I love Lin Dieer all my life. But my love is twisted, paranoid, and destructive. I love you, so I destroy you. I used the most despicable means to get your person, but I will never get your heart. This is the punishment given to me by fate. I admit it. Later I quit smoking and devoted all my thoughts to the war of resistance. The money I saved and the connections I made over the years were all turned into supplies shipped to the front line. I taught Yi'an how to read and write, taught him to be patriotic and good, and spent his whole life making up for the sins he committed back then. But I know that these are far from enough. What I owe her will never end in this lifetime. If... If people really have a next life. I won't do this again. I will stand cleanly in front of you and tell you in an upright way - Lin Die'er, my name is Xiao Qihao. I am not an illegitimate child, no one's shadow, and no one's substitute. I'm just a person who wants to love you well. Even if you still choose the man with the square face and thick eyebrows. Even if you never look at me again. As long as you are happy, that's enough. Written at the end: Why should you read this book? This is my story and her story. It is also the appearance of all living beings in that troubled world who cannot help themselves. If you want to know why a villain becomes a villain, if you want to know how twisted a person can be for love, if you want to know what happens when paranoia, jealousy and affection are intertwined - calm down and read slowly. This book will tell you the answer. "Butterfly's Shadow Returns to Dust" The wind and moon in the world cannot wait for us to stay together forever. The butterfly's shadow returns to dust, and there is no time to wait for its return.

45 蝶 Dieying Returns to the Dust: My Husband's Enemy Forcibly Married Me and Robbed Me 蝶影归尘：丈夫的的仇人对我强娶豪夺 Ni Ah Ni Ge Ni氼啊氼个氼15k WordsCompleted 23Reads8.6Score—Shelves

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Title: "The Shadow of the Butterfly Returns to Dust"｜I am Xiao Qihao. The only person I have ever loved in my life hates me until my death [almost crying] [almost crying] [almost crying] They all say that I am the most hateful person in this book. I admit it. I, Xiao Qihao, have done too many unforgivable things in my life - I destroyed my eldest brother's family business, took away his wife, and imprisoned her in another courtyard while she was pregnant. I said I loved her, but my hands were hurting her. I know you are all scolding me. But I still want to tell you my story. I hate Zhang Zhiming. I have hated him since I was sensible. Zhang Zhiming is also the son of the Zhang family. He is the eldest son. He was held in the palm of his mother's hand since he was a child. He studied the books of sages and engaged in serious business. He was respected as "young master" wherever he went. And what about me? I am the illegitimate son of my father, and I don't even deserve the surname "Zhang". My mother's surname is Xiao. I grew up living under the influence of others and being criticized by others. It's not that I don't have the ability. I am both civilized and martial, in terms of scheming, means, and brains, how can I not compare to him, Zhang Zhiming? But just because I am an illegitimate child, I will always be inferior to him. He was nice to me - do you know how hateful that kind of kindness is? He gave me business as a gift. He was polite to me out of mercy. I would rather he hate me than act like a brother and be nice to me. I thought the person I hated most in my life was Zhang Zhiming. Until I met her. The first time I met Lin Die'er, I went crazy. She is my eldest brother's wife. A daughter of a famous family, with picturesque features and proud appearance. When I first saw her in Zhang's Mansion, she was sitting by the pond in a daze. She didn't know how good-looking she was - there was a kind of innocence in her brows and eyes, and there was also a stubbornness that refused to bow down after being hurt. I knew at that moment that I wanted her. It's not that I want to, it's that I have to. It's the kind of necessity that if you don't get it, your life will be meaningless. I began to secretly spy on everything about her. When she goes to the rouge shop, when she comes back, when she sits alone by the pond in a daze - I know everything. I am like a mouse hiding in the dark, greedily collecting every frame of her. The more I watched, the more jealous I became. Zhang Zhiming why? Why should he have her? Isn't he destined to be well? He could have her openly, he could stand by her side, he could comfort her when she was angry, he could hold her in his arms when she cried. And what about me? I would avoid even looking at her from a distance. And I can clearly see that she doesn't love him. She made sarcastic remarks to him, made trouble with him at every turn, and even forced him to take a concubine. If she really loved him, how could she push him into the arms of another woman? So I thought, since she doesn't love him, why can't she be replaced by me? Once this idea takes root, it can never be uprooted. I swear, I must snatch her away from Zhang Zhiming. No matter what means are used, no matter how long it takes. At that time, I will love her in every possible way and let her know what is truly cherished. She will definitely fall in love with me. I used the most despicable means to get her, but I could never win her heart. I bribed Zhang Zhiming's partners and ruined his business. The Zhang family collapsed and Zhang's mother was desperate. I bought her with only a sum of money. She was imprisoned by me in another courtyard. I told myself that it didn't matter, as long as she was by my side, and she didn't love Zhang Zhiming anyway. But I was wrong. The night I forced her, she gritted her teeth and didn't cry. She opened her eyes on the bed and stared at the ceiling without falling a single tear. I suddenly panicked - I would rather she cry, I would rather she make a fuss, I would rather she lose her temper with me like she did with Zhang Zhiming. But she didn't. She just looked at me with that empty, dead look in her eyes. That was the first time I felt scared. Later, she became pregnant. I thought the child was mine. I thought that after having the child, she would accept her fate and slowly accept me. I devoted everything I had to being kind to her, making the other house exquisite and warm, collecting her favorite snacks and jewelry, and staying by her side every day. I even began to think that when the child was born, I would ask her to forgive her and let us live a good life as a family of three. She really wasn't resisting anymore. She became docile and allowed me to hold her and kiss her. Sometimes I even think she is about to fall in love with me. But what I didn't know was that the reason why she stopped resisting was just to keep the child in her belly. The child she wanted to protect at all costs. Sleeping until midnight, she called another man's name in my arms, "Zhiming..." Those two words were so soft, as soft as whispering in sleep. But I heard it. She was in my arms, sleeping on my bed, with my child in her belly - but she was dreaming about another man. It's not hate, it's not resentment, it's the kind of dependence that is engraved in her bones that even she herself refuses to admit. My whole body froze there, as if someone had stabbed me. It turned out that she had never forgotten him. It turns out that all I did was give her a sigh in her dream. That man didn't even have to be there to make me lose my shit. I stared at her sleeping face and suddenly felt that all my paranoia and possessiveness were like a joke. I leaned down, put my lips against her ear, and said: "It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter who you call in your dream. In this life, you can only lie next to me." But only I knew that my heart was bleeding. Later I became addicted to opium and tried to numb myself with opium. I was sent to quit smoking by my mother, and during my absence, my mother sold her to Yihongyuan. When I came back, she was gone. I searched for her like crazy and searched the whole city, but I couldn't find even a scrap of her clothes. For the rest of my life, I was stuck in the obsession of finding her, living in a muddle. I could only hold the child I thought was Ping'er's child in the palm of my hand, name him Yi'an, and do my best to be good to him. I didn't know until my death that Yi An was her and Zhang Zhiming's biological flesh and blood. And the silver necklace she left for Yi'an was hidden in the swaddling clothes, and I had never found it. After hearing the news of her death, I locked myself in my room for three whole days. I searched for, waited for, and obsessed over for several years. I even began to imagine that when I found her, I would kneel in front of her and beg her for forgiveness. I don't expect her to love me, as long as she allows me to stay with her, even if I just look at her from a distance. But what I was waiting for was the news of her death. The woman I loved to the core and couldn't get enough of, the woman who ruined half my life and was ruined by me, is gone forever. She died on the battlefield, taking a bullet for another man. She used her own life to repay that man's kindness. But what about me? I don't even have the qualifications to be hated by her. I held the golden butterfly hairpin she had left behind in another courtyard. It was one of the two things she had with her when she was taken away. I sat there holding it for three days and three nights, thinking of what she once said to me. She said, "I'm just your trophy." No. No. Die'er, I love you because you are who you are. It's not Zhang Zhiming's wife, it's not someone's accessory, it's not some trophy. It's just Lin Die'er, just Lin Die'er. But I will never have the chance to tell you this. I have hated Zhang Zhiming all my life. But in the final analysis, what I hate is not him, but myself who can never compare to him. I'm jealous of his reputation, his family fortune, and his uprightness - but what I'm most jealous of is that he has you. I love Lin Dieer all my life. But my love is twisted, paranoid, and destructive. I love you, so I destroy you. I used the most despicable means to get your person, but I will never get your heart. This is the punishment given to me by fate. I admit it. Later I quit smoking and devoted all my thoughts to the war of resistance. The money I saved and the connections I made over the years were all turned into supplies shipped to the front line. I taught Yi'an how to read and write, taught him to be patriotic and good, and spent his whole life making up for the sins he committed back then. But I know that these are far from enough. What I owe her will never end in this lifetime. If... If people really have a next life. I won't do this again. I will stand cleanly in front of you and tell you in an upright way - Lin Die'er, my name is Xiao Qihao. I am not an illegitimate child, no one's shadow, and no one's substitute. I'm just a person who wants to love you well. Even if you still choose the man with the square face and thick eyebrows. Even if you never look at me again. As long as you are happy, that's enough. Written at the end: Why should you read this book? This is my story and her story. It is also the appearance of all living beings in that troubled world who cannot help themselves. If you want to know why a villain becomes a villain, if you want to know how twisted a person can be for love, if you want to know what happens when paranoia, jealousy and affection are intertwined - calm down and read slowly. This book will tell you the answer. "Butterfly's Shadow Returns to Dust" The wind and moon in the world cannot wait for us to stay together forever. The butterfly's shadow returns to dust, and there is no time to wait for its return.

46 听 Listen to Fenglouge 听风楼歌 Shooting Water from Across the Bank隔岸拍水Urban186k WordsOngoing 531Reads5.8Score—Shelves

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The first emotional novel about sadomasochism that makes you laugh out loud in the midst of sorrow.

48 揽 Lanchenbl Collection 揽尘【BL合集】 Storm Buns暴风卷馍225k WordsOngoing —Reads5.8Score—Shelves

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Two male protagonists, short story, sadistic, first person. There are seven articles in total, each of which is a short story, the first six of which have been completed, and the following few are abuse articles. The first one is "After Sunset". The background is time travel and future fantasy. The protagonist Shou has already traveled to the future but fell into a coma due to an accident. Everything he experiences is a reminder of the past. One-sentence summary: Traveling through the future, I didn't realize I had been in it for a long time. Ending: OE The fifth is "NPC Rebellion Manual" Background: Unconventional unlimited flow, NPC The protagonist has been living for more than ten years because a transfer student who appeared one day discovered that he was actually an NPC. One-sentence summary: A person who has been a person for more than ten years suddenly discovers that he is actually an NPC? ! Ending: HE (double death) The sixth one is "False Time Dream" Background: Ancient times, cultivation, slightly thriller. The protagonist went crazy after suffering the destruction of his sect, mistakenly entered the illusion, and fell deeply into it. One sentence introduction: One true and one false are both "dreams", only one true self wants (to be) a "dream". /I was in a bad mental state and mistook the fantasy for reality! Ending: HE (double death)

49 典 Collection of China: Opening Dialogue with the Ten Emperors 典藏华夏：开局对话十大皇帝 The Flames of War Rekindle烽火重燃Urban3.1M WordsCompleted 30.3kReads5.8Score4.6kShelves

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I thought this was okay. When I first saw it, I cried while watching it. It's really good-looking, and I started to rate it at 9.5

50 斗 Fighting Is Not a Buddha 斗战非佛 The Wind of Huaguoshan花果山的风Eastern Fantasy236k WordsCompleted 4Reads5.8Score—Shelves

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It has great stamina and makes you want to cry. High-burning + sadomasochism + philosophical speculation + sense of fate + human nature + in-depth deconstruction of Journey to the West + classical aesthetics + realistic reflection. High-intensity battle scenes, tactical applications, new paradigms of immortal love, powerful schemes, a sense of familiarity in the workplace, and reflections of reality, showing the spiritual core of the Monkey King and the romance of the Monkey King. The dialogue is classic and profound, and the content is profound, worth recalling and thinking about.