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55 逗 Just Kidding You Fish Doesn't SpeakModern Romance213k WordsCompleted 8kReads9.0Score744Shelves

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This is a very sad story. The male protagonist is violent on campus and the female protagonist has never loved the male protagonist. It's a pity, but the male protagonist also deserves it.

57 虐 After Abusing Me, Scumbag and His Brothers Lined up at the Crematorium A Moment of PleasureAncient Romance2.2M WordsCompleted 91Reads7.2Score—Shelves

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Character characteristics: The heroine is very strong behind the scenes

58 蝶 Butterfly Shadow Returns to Dust: I Was Sold into Prostitution by My Mother-In-Law, and My Ex-Husband Has Been Looking for Me for Ten Years Ah55k WordsCompleted 208Reads8.7Score—Shelves

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This is not industrial saccharine, it is the ceiling of abusive literature in the Republic of China. It has too much stamina, so be careful! 😭💔 Family members, today I recommend a book that made me cry until I was deprived of oxygen, beat my bed in the middle of the night, and go to work the next day with walnut eyes in my eyes - "The Shadow of a Butterfly Returns to Dust". Let me give you a warning first: this is not a fast-food-style assembly line novel, nor is it the industrial saccharine you are chewing on. It is recognized by countless readers as the ceiling of the sadistic literature of the Republic of China. It is full of BE aesthetics and has a sense of destiny that directly enshrines the gods. If you prefer deep feelings and extreme regret, please calm down and read it slowly and carefully. This book is enough to reach the peak of sadomasochism in the Republic of China. The story begins with a surprise by the river. Lin Die'er, a fifteen-year-old daughter of a scholarly family, was forced to marry a man she disliked at first sight - Zhang Zhiming, a dark-skinned, honest and honest Confucian businessman. On her wedding night, she tearfully swore that she would rather die than obey. He guarded his stubbornness with silence, slept in his study every night, and never crossed the line for four months. She disliked him so much that she wanted to jump into the river again when he kissed her. But when her elder brother slapped her, he was the first to rush forward and protect her behind him. He squatted down, brushed her red and swollen cheeks with trembling fingertips, and asked with red eyes: "Does it hurt?" At that moment, she was confused and couldn't tell whether it was resentment or hatred, or whether she had been moved. But the cruelest part of fate is that - just as she gathered up the courage to tell him "I'm pregnant with your child", a misfortune caused her to disappear forever for several years. When they met again, she was standing on the long street in a simple and elegant kimono, and said to him calmly in unfamiliar Japanese: "Sir, you have the wrong person." And when he looked at her who was both familiar and unfamiliar in front of him, his heart had already been broken into millions of pieces. Do you think this is just a simple miss? No. She was sold by her mother-in-law to his illegitimate half-brother for profit, and was imprisoned in a separate house, where she was tortured day and night. She gritted her teeth and survived and gave birth to a son - but the son was not that person's biological child. She wanted him to raise children for his enemy for the rest of his life. This was her only revenge. From the daughter of a famous family to the young wife of the Zhang family, from the prisoner in the deep house to the prostitute of the brothel, from the Japanese spy to the dead soul who blocked the gun for others. In her life, she changed her identity six times and had three names in total. There is only one name that belongs to me until death - Lin Die'er. Some love, although short-lived, makes people miss it for the rest of their lives. You will understand how painful it is only after reading the sentence "Butterflies enter the dust and smoke and never return, and we have not known each other for ten years." Although the flowers bloom again, love is destined to never be reunited. This is a romance in the world that cannot last forever, a love that is misplaced by time lag and cannot be consummated. She loved him, but she gave her life to another person; she gave her life back, but her heart couldn't take it back.

59 马 Ma Jiaqi, Loving You Is Destiny A Lifetime of Romance527k WordsCompleted 28Reads7.1Score—Shelves

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A bit cruel🥲sometimes cruel and sometimes sweet! ! Ma Furu

60 我 I Am His Eternal Cinnabar Mole AhModern Romance186k WordsOngoing 16Reads—Score—Shelves

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Abuse worth reading

61 错 Mistakenly Married to a Spy Consort, the Prince Is Decisive and Ruthless Again Shu XinAncient Romance1.4M WordsCompleted 9.1kReads9.0Score1.1kShelves

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Abuse story: The male protagonist thinks that the female protagonist killed his Bai Yueguang, and tortures the female protagonist to death. The female protagonist is terminally ill. The male protagonist finally knows the truth and chases his wife in the crematorium (the plot is cliché, but the female protagonist does not have the heart of a holy mother) "No More of Her in the World"

63 T TNT: the Canary Cage Xun Yao146k WordsOngoing 2Reads6.8Score—Shelves

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The update hasn't been finished yet. Every character in the group feels so mysterious. It feels like there is still a long story line. Yan Haoxiang's one has already started to be cruel.

64 蝶 Dieying Returns to the Dust: My Husband's Enemy Forcibly Married Me and Robbed Me Ah15k WordsCompleted 19Reads8.5Score—Shelves

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Title: I am a villain in everyone's eyes, but I love her as much as anyone else - Reading "Butterfly Shadow Returns to Dust" from Xiao Qihao's perspective - Everyone in the world accuses me of Xiao Qihao being sinister, paranoid and unscrupulous. They are right. I am an illegitimate son of the Zhang family. I take my mother's surname and have no legitimate identity. I have been living with others since I was a child. I'm jealous of Zhang Zhiming—jealous of his status as a direct descendant, jealous of his solid family fortune, and even more jealous of him marrying the only woman I want in my life. Lin Die'er. --- When I first saw that side, I knew I was doomed. She was a daughter of a famous family, with picturesque features and a tenacity in her bones that refused to bow. Zhang Zhiming was accommodating to her in every possible way, but her eyes were full of impatience and disgust. I could see clearly - she didn't love him. Since she doesn't love him, why can't she be replaced by me? Once this idea takes root, it can never be uprooted. I began to spy on her daily routine, hiding behind the rockery and watching her sitting alone by the pond in a daze, sneaking into her courtyard when she was not around, and staring at the rouge box on her dressing table in trance. I even attacked Ping'er because she was the closest person to Die'er. Die'er rushed to me and told me that the matchmaker was marrying Ping'er. I smiled and said to her, "The position of my head wife in my heart has always been yours." Her eyes were like knives, and she scolded me for being shameless. But I don't care. I only care about her. --- I finally got her, but she never belonged to me. I bribed Zhang's mother, forged a divorce letter, and imprisoned Die'er in another courtyard. That night, I said to her: Your mother-in-law has betrothed you to me a long time ago. She cried, struggled, and was heartbroken. I kissed her, but she didn't respond, only tears. At dawn, I opened the door and left. She was huddled in the corner, her clothes were messy and her eyes were empty. I thought I won. But later I found out that she was pregnant with Zhang Zhiming's flesh and blood. In order to keep the baby alive, she made me think it was mine. She gritted her teeth to please me, closed her eyes and let me kiss her, but she muttered another man's name in a place where I couldn't hear her. At night, she slept in my arms, and what she murmured in her dream was - "Zhiming..." Those two words were like a knife, stabbing into my heart. I tightened my arms and whispered in her ear: "It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter who you call in your dream. In this life, you can only lie next to me." But I couldn't lie to myself. I got her person, never her heart. --- I gave her all the good things I could do, but she wouldn't even give her a sincere smile. I gave her all the good things I could do to her. Make the other courtyard exquisite and warm, collect her favorite snacks and favorite treasures, stay by her side and take good care of her every day, let go of all the evil birds of prey, and learn to be gentle and accommodating. But the way she looked at me was still without any warmth. I'm not willing to give in. I am so jealous of Zhang Zhiming that I go crazy with jealousy. Why? How could he make her miss him even though he didn't do anything? And I tried my best, but I couldn't get her a sincere smile. I started to smoke heavily and tried to numb myself with opium. I want to forget her, but I can't. --- She disappeared, leaving only searching and regret for the rest of my life. My mother took advantage of my retreat to quit smoking and sold her into Yihongyuan. After I got out of the country, I learned the news, and I searched everywhere like crazy. I walked all over the streets, but there was no news about her. The child I believed to be Ping'er was held in my hands and taken good care of. I named him "Yi'an" - no hesitation, peace and security. I poured all my guilt, debt and obsession with Die'er into this child. I thought until my death that it was my flesh and blood. I never found the silver necklace she left behind in the swaddling compartment. --- When the news of her death came, my world collapsed. After several years of searching, the news of her death finally arrived. The woman I asked for, the woman who ruined half my life and was ruined by me, is dead. She blocked the gun for someone else and gave her life to another man. I didn't even see him for the last time, and I didn't even get a chance to apologize. I held the golden butterfly hairpin she had left in another courtyard and stayed behind closed doors for three days without eating or drinking. I remembered what she said to me that night: "I'm just your trophy." I said word by word to the air - "Die'er, I love you. Because you are you, not a trophy." No one heard. She won't hear it either. --- I'm not a good person, but I really loved him. Everyone in the world said that Xiao Qihao was a villain, a villain, and the murderer who ruined Die'er's life. I won't argue. But I want you to know - I love her as much as anyone else. I just did it the wrong way, the wrong way from the beginning. If I could have met her earlier, if I could pursue her in an honest way, if I was not the illegitimate son of the Zhang family, if I could control my jealousy and paranoia - would the ending be different? No one can answer me. She won't come back either. --- Epilogue I put all my guilt and longing for Die'er into the front line of the Anti-Japanese War. I can point the blade at my brother, but never at my own country. For the rest of my life, I devoted everything I had to supporting the Anti-Japanese War, teaching that child to be patriotic and good, and spend my whole life making up for the sins I had committed. I made Ping'er my main wife and gave birth to a pair of children. But that place in my heart is always empty. I know I don't deserve to say I love her. But if there is a next life - I hope I can stand upright in front of her and say: "Hello, Miss Lin. My name is Xiao Qihao. I am not anyone's illegitimate child, nor anyone's substitute. I am just a person who wants to get to know you." --- If you have ever loved someone, so much that you were obsessed with it, read "Butterfly Shadow Returns to Dust". There are no purely good guys or purely bad guys here. There was only a man named Xiao Qihao who loved someone he should never love in the wrong way. After finishing the book, it's hard to calm down. [Eat melon][eat melon]

65 君 You Are Heading South Ccbbyy87150k WordsCompleted 119Reads—Score—Shelves

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Ancient Chinese, just finished

66 T TNT: Evil, Charming and Crazy Red Wine Mixed with CoffeeAncient Romance516k WordsOngoing —Reads5.8Score—Shelves

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I haven't read the first two books. The plot mentioned in the synopsis should be a sadistic story. Then about the third book. The first part of the third book is more sadistic in my opinion and I haven't finished it. Then I read the second part, and the second part is a group favorite.

69 T TNT Only You Hibiscus MoliModern Romance390k WordsOngoing —Reads5.8Score—Shelves

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This is good

70 T TNT: After Passing Through the Book, I Relied on Favorability Points to Survive Bai Chongxi185k WordsOngoing —Reads5.8Score—Shelves

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Funny in the early stage, more sad in the later stage

71 张 Zhang Zhenyuan's Unreliable Fengdu Emperor It's Mengmeng'sFantastical Romance387k WordsOngoing 5Reads5.8Score—Shelves

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