The Undying Have No Smiles Tomorrow

All happiness is just an illusion. After I was killed, brought back to life, and then lost my memories, one piece of bad news and one death after another unfolded, relentlessly and beyond anyone's control. As I became a bystander to so much misfortune, was I lucky or unlucky? Can I, who failed to die, still smile tomorrow? [Writing style: dies from talking too much]