"Let's make up." An Da, lost in the gentle evening breeze, said the words without thinking.
"I haven't made up my mind yet." After a long while, Na Xi replied cautiously.
An Da stopped, turned to face her, and looked straight into her eyes with great seriousness, as if he wanted to see all the way into her heart.
"What haven't you made up your mind about?"
"How to go on?" Na Xi was as quiet as ever. She answered An Da seriously, perhaps for the first time facing herself seriously, too.
"What do you mean?" Confused and bewildered, An Da's tone turned serious despite himself. They loved each other so deeply. Had they really been apart for so long over this question?
"Given the way things were between us back then, the only way to continue was to get married."
"What's wrong with that? We were supposed to get married anyway." An Da was impatient. He couldn't understand why something so obvious had dragged on for so many years. If they hadn't broken up back then, then by now...
"I avoided it." Na Xi was calm to the point of being cold. "I deliberately avoided it..."
The chill in her voice made An Da panic. "You don't want to marry me?" He was sure Na Xi loved him, but why didn't she want to marry him? Why?
"I was the one who hadn't made up my mind: whether I wanted to get married, or why I should get married."
I've finally finished my first novel! I'm so happy! Despite its shortcomings, I wanted to express my joy immediately. It's a milestone in my life! After three years of hard work and several failed attempts to finish it, I've finally reached the end. I feel exhilarated and relieved! It was all worth it. I'll keep writing; hopefully, it will gradually become a part of my daily life.