If Only We Had Never Had a What If

[Ranked fifth on the April 2020 overall list of free works for female readers, and second on the April monthly popularity chart for female readers]

If only we had never had a what-if, you wouldn't have cruelly abandoned me for your so-called career and your ruthless ambitions. What did our child and I mean to you?

If only we had never had a what-if, I wouldn't have fallen so deeply in love with you. Because I love you, I almost went mad trying to have you, to keep you for a lifetime. Even if it meant hurting so many people and leaving my own heart in pieces, I would have done it without hesitation.

If only we had never had a what-if, I wouldn't have loved you with no dignity. Even though you don't love me, I still want to go on loving you. For you, I'd do anything, even if I lost my way in love. Even if you made me suffer endlessly, I would still love you with all my heart.

If only we had never had a what-if. You were the only ray of light to quietly enter my life. Loving you has been so hard, but because it's you, I'm willing to step out of the shadows and become someone worthy of you. I want to tell the whole world that I love you. Xia Qiyue, are you willing to accept me again now?

If only we had never had a what-if... By Ruoxinyuxi (Li Yuxi)