Infinite Apocalypse: I Can Be Reborn Without End

I'm Chen Mo. I've died nine times. The first time, an electromagnetic pulse. The second, a virus. The third, a beast tide. The fourth, a rules-based horror. The fifth, a memetic virus. Every time I woke up, it was 23:47. Every time I died, another notch appeared on my wrist. I thought Heaven was playing a cruel joke on me. Then I learned that every apocalypse was something I had caused myself. One by one, my selves in parallel worlds brought about their own destruction. Their dying obsessions crashed into this world and turned despair into reality. The electromagnetic pulse was my struggle not to die. The spiritual qi revival was my longing for power. The rules-based horror was my fear of losing control. The memetic virus was my despair at being overwhelmed by information. Every apocalypse was another version of me crying for help. And I was the last one still alive. I don't intend to die again.