My Established Memories and Fragments of My Future Destiny

I don't know what my next step will be as I stand at the fork in the accelerating world. This may be an exaggeration. In fact, I just graduated and failed Level 4. Then I lied to my family that I wanted to go to a big city for an internship. In fact, I went to the factory without telling my family and suffered two months and ten days. I took thousands of dollars and started to imagine that I was not good and that I would not be able to spend my whole life in the factory. Go home to take the postgraduate entrance examination, and then find a job to earn money - an imbecile in this world who cannot take the first step to truly be self-reliant. It is ridiculous that I cannot leave my family and sail away. I really want to stay at home like this, pretending to take the postgraduate entrance examination or the public examination, pretending... Maybe I am a person with contradictory personality... I am just a little weird, but I am a normal person. I can't understand my past, present, and future, and I don't want to guess, so just let nature take its course? Still…? Oh, I forgot to introduce, I am a normal person, my name is... What is it? Yes, I can't keep fantasizing, I have to take action. My name is Qian Duoduo. I'm a normal, ordinary person.