The Evening Breeze Blows Gently

I am an ordinary, cowardly, unknown girl. I was moved by the gentle and dazzling young man Jiang Xu when I helped him casually in the autumn of my freshman year of high school. Since then, I have had a humble and secret one-way crush for three years. In the past three years, I silently memorized all his hobbies and habits, quietly poured water for him, prepared paper, and organized notes. I was cautious and asked for nothing in return. I only dared to follow his figure silently with my peripheral vision, hiding all my heart's emotions in my heart, and never disturbed him. On the night of the power outage in my sophomore year of high school, his gentle words of "Don't be afraid, I'm here" in the darkness gave me false expectations, and I mistakenly thought that I was his exception. My greedy thoughts supported me through the boring high school years, and I slowly mustered up the courage to get close to him. As the college entrance examination was approaching, I didn't want to leave any regrets, so I used all my courage to confess to him and reveal my feelings for him for three years. But he was gentle and polite, and only told me with apology that he had never been tempted by me, and already had someone else he preferred in his heart. I finally realized that all his gentleness was just his natural upbringing, but it was not my preference. My heartfelt rush, self-movement, and whole heartbeat were just a one-man show directed and performed by myself. When the college entrance examination came to an end, I saw with my own eyes how doting and tender he was towards others, and I saw clearly that we were born very different and were never a good match. After graduation, we traveled to the north and the south, completely cutting off all interactions, and we would never meet again. Many years later, I lost my inferiority complex and became excellent and magnanimous, but I still cannot let go of the regret of my youth. I never regret meeting him, I just regret that I devoted my whole youth to my sincere preference. From beginning to end, the evening breeze was gentle to all living beings, but it never waited for me.