Is It the Third One Again: EVA Fan

Seven years. Every time Nagisa Kaoru wakes up from the coffin on the moon, he will come to the earth again, walk into the NERV headquarters again, and meet Shinji Ikari in the corridor again. For the first time, Shinji almost bumped into him, raised his head, and there was no reaction in his eyes. Stranger. The second time, Shinji looked up, with confusion in his eyes for a moment - "Should I know you?" The third time, Shinji's lips moved but he made no sound. It was a swallowed "hello." For the fourth time, Shinji said "Hello". Nagisa Kaoru said "Hello". The two people stood at a distance of one person for three seconds. For the fifth time, Shinji recorded a sentence in his Walkman. That sentence was later deleted. Nagisa Kaoru found only one button with 0920 engraved on the inside - the day Shinji smiled at him for the first time. For the sixth time, the DSS collar exploded. Shinji walked to the roof, sat where Nagisa Kaoru had sat, and waited. He didn't know who he was waiting for, but he waited. The seventh time, Nagisa Kaoru woke up on the moon. There are nine coffins. Two more reincarnations than he remembered. The wording of SEELE changed from "observation" to "guidance". Ikari Yuantang greeted him through SEELE. In the corridor, Shinji looked up at him and asked - "Have we met before?" This time, Nagisa Kaoru did not answer according to the script. "I've seen it. Many times." --- This is a story about "remembering". Nagisa Kaoru remembers everything. Seven reincarnations, every side-by-side on the rooftop, every brush with each other in the corridor, the day Shinji laughed in the cafeteria, Shinji grabbed his hand and said "don't go" in the fever ward, the words Shinji recorded in the Walkman, Shinji went to the rooftop to wait for him after the DSS collar exploded. He remembers everything. But Shinji's soul is being worn out every round - harvested by SEELE, designed by Ikari Gendo, and chipped away layer by layer by reincarnation itself. The dent on the Walkman, the button on 0920, the broken lamp on the roof, the strength of the bandage on Asuka's wrist, and the movement of Ayanami's fingers across the culture tank. All traces are scattered among the seven rounds of fragments. Nagisa Kaoru picked them up one by one and held them in his hand. This is not a story about "rescue". This is a story about "traces". The memory will be deleted. Traces will not. Shinji couldn't remember Nagisa Kaoru's name, his face, or any of the conversations on the rooftop. But his fingers remembered - they would automatically play the first eight bars in cold water, they would hit the rhythm of one point and two times a second on his knees, and they would change from cold to warm in Nagisa Kaoru's palm. Ayanami's palm still has the pigmentation deposited by Nagisa Kaoru, and every time he gets closer, the marks will become darker. Asuka had bandage scars on her arms that would itch every time he came near her. No one remembers him. But all bodies remember him. After seven rounds, Nagisa Kaoru changed from "observer" to "participant", from "participant" to "sacrifice", from "sacrifice" to "saved person". He's waited so long. It wasn't Shinji who was waiting for him to remember his name. He was waiting for Shinji's hand to take the initiative to put it in his palm, waiting for Ayanami to turn his palm over to show him, waiting for Asuka to tap the frequency of the light on his roof on the blindfold. What I am waiting for is that I can receive it. --- If you like EVA, if you have ever thought about "What does Nagisa Kaoru's reincarnation perspective look like", if you have ever been hit by the sentence "Is it the third one again?" - This book is for you. Seven volumes, seven rounds. The dent on the Walkman, the button of 0920, the broken lamp on the roof, the strength of Asuka's bandage, the marks on Ayanami's palm, the fourth relic left by Kaji, the rhythm of Gendo Ikari tapping his fingers in the dark. All the clues are slowly gathered in seven volumes, just like Kaoru Nagisa held the button for seven rounds, and finally put it in Shinji's smile on the last page. Not unforgettable. It's a trace. Light and easy to ignore. But it won't disappear. --- ** "Let him remember that someone has been waiting for him. No name is needed. No face is needed. Just someone has been waiting for him." ** **——The fourth relic of Ryouji Kaji** ** "Kaoru. You don't have to give me happiness. Your happiness is my happiness."** **——The words recorded by Shinji Ikari in the fifth wheel walkman, Deleted by reincarnation, but the blank space on the tape is still there ** ** "It's been seven rounds. He has been waiting for so long. It was not Shinji who was waiting. It was the boy who laughed in the cafeteria. What he was waiting for was not happiness. It was laughter. He saw it." ** **——The final chapter of Volume 7** --- EVA New Theatrical Version·Nagisa Kaoru's reincarnation perspective Seven volumes, the end.

Seven years. Every time Nagisa Kaoru wakes up from the coffin on the moon, he will come to the earth again, walk into the NERV headquarters again, and meet Shinji Ikari in the corridor again. For the first time, Shinji almost bumped into him, raised his head, and there was no reaction in his eyes. Stranger. The second time, Shinji looked up, with confusion in his eyes for a moment - "Should I know you?" The third time, Shinji's lips moved but he made no sound. It was a swallowed "hello." For the fourth time, Shinji said "Hello". Nagisa Kaoru said "Hello". The two people stood at a distance of one person for three seconds. For the fifth time, Shinji recorded a sentence in his Walkman. That sentence was later deleted. Nagisa Kaoru found only one button with 0920 engraved on the inside - the day Shinji smiled at him for the first time. For the sixth time, the DSS collar exploded. Shinji walked to the roof, sat where Nagisa Kaoru had sat, and waited. He didn't know who he was waiting for, but he waited. The seventh time, Nagisa Kaoru woke up on the moon. There are nine coffins. Two more reincarnations than he remembered. The wording of SEELE changed from "observation" to "guidance". Ikari Yuantang greeted him through SEELE. In the corridor, Shinji looked up at him and asked - "Have we met before?" This time, Nagisa Kaoru did not answer according to the script. "I've seen it. Many times." --- This is a story about "remembering". Nagisa Kaoru remembers everything. Seven reincarnations, every side-by-side on the rooftop, every brush with each other in the corridor, the day Shinji laughed in the cafeteria, Shinji grabbed his hand and said "don't go" in the fever ward, the words Shinji recorded in the Walkman, Shinji went to the rooftop to wait for him after the DSS collar exploded. He remembers everything. But Shinji's soul is being worn out every round - harvested by SEELE, designed by Ikari Gendo, and chipped away layer by layer by reincarnation itself. The dent on the Walkman, the button on 0920, the broken lamp on the roof, the strength of the bandage on Asuka's wrist, and the movement of Ayanami's fingers across the culture tank. All traces are scattered among the seven rounds of fragments. Nagisa Kaoru picked them up one by one and held them in his hand. This is not a story about "rescue". This is a story about "traces". The memory will be deleted. Traces will not. Shinji couldn't remember Nagisa Kaoru's name, his face, or any of the conversations on the rooftop. But his fingers remembered - they would automatically play the first eight bars in cold water, they would hit the rhythm of one point and two times a second on his knees, and they would change from cold to warm in Nagisa Kaoru's palm. Ayanami's palm still has the pigmentation deposited by Nagisa Kaoru, and every time he gets closer, the marks will become darker. Asuka had bandage scars on her arms that would itch every time he came near her. No one remembers him. But all bodies remember him. After seven rounds, Nagisa Kaoru changed from "observer" to "participant", from "participant" to "sacrifice", from "sacrifice" to "saved person". He's waited so long. It wasn't Shinji who was waiting for him to remember his name. He was waiting for Shinji's hand to take the initiative to put it in his palm, waiting for Ayanami to turn his palm over to show him, waiting for Asuka to tap the frequency of the light on his roof on the blindfold. What I am waiting for is that I can receive it. --- If you like EVA, if you have ever thought about "What does Nagisa Kaoru's reincarnation perspective look like", if you have ever been hit by the sentence "Is it the third one again?" - This book is for you. Seven volumes, seven rounds. The dent on the Walkman, the button of 0920, the broken lamp on the roof, the strength of Asuka's bandage, the marks on Ayanami's palm, the fourth relic left by Kaji, the rhythm of Gendo Ikari tapping his fingers in the dark. All the clues are slowly gathered in seven volumes, just like Kaoru Nagisa held the button for seven rounds, and finally put it in Shinji's smile on the last page. Not unforgettable. It's a trace. Light and easy to ignore. But it won't disappear. --- ** "Let him remember that someone has been waiting for him. No name is needed. No face is needed. Just someone has been waiting for him." ** **——The fourth relic of Ryouji Kaji** ** "Kaoru. You don't have to give me happiness. Your happiness is my happiness."** **——The words recorded by Shinji Ikari in the fifth wheel walkman, Deleted by reincarnation, but the blank space on the tape is still there ** ** "It's been seven rounds. He has been waiting for so long. It was not Shinji who was waiting. It was the boy who laughed in the cafeteria. What he was waiting for was not happiness. It was laughter. He saw it." ** **——The final chapter of Volume 7** --- EVA New Theatrical Version·Nagisa Kaoru's reincarnation perspective Seven volumes, the end.