Feeling Empty and Sad

Be I often can't tell why I fell in love with Li Jiongze. Maybe it's because we were friends and we played around together, or maybe it was because all the classmates in the class said I liked him. When my friends see him, they always raise their eyebrows at me jokingly. I naturally don't respond, but I accept this fact. I like Li Jiongze, and I really like him. Tracing back to the original source, it was probably that flag-raising ceremony, and I was with him. He was wearing a school uniform, his back straight, and the morning sun was falling on him. I was stunned for a second, and then I noticed the frequency of my heartbeat. We are in the same grade, but unfortunately not in the same class, but I see him often. Later he would also say hello to me. After getting to know him better, I knew he was a very good person, and my attraction became stronger. People around me were making noises, but I didn't feel annoyed. He didn't seem to notice the gazes of those people, and kept smiling at me, so I fell into a strange circle of my own heart. He didn't know that I liked him, so I made excuses to get close to him, just to get what I wanted. Unfortunately, not all secret loves can see the light of day. On the day I was about to confess my love, I heard from my friend that he was with a girl from the next class. There was "Hello Tomorrow" singing "Coffee with Milk" on the radio. I was stunned. My friend pushed me and asked me what was wrong. I came to my senses and smiled and said it was nothing. I just feel it's such a pity. Li Jiongze, I went to the playground to watch you play basketball and walked behind you at dusk. When I hear your name, I will turn around before you do. Could it be that I only touched my teenage self? It's just such a pity that you still don't know that I like you.